**e Occult Diary Paris 1896 – Stockholm 1908 August Strindberg Editors: Per Stam, Ann-Charlotte Gavel Adams and Gunnel Engwall**

**August Strindberg e Occult Diary** 

**August Strindberg (1849–1912) kept a diary from February 1896 in Paris until the summer of 1908 in Stockholm. He referred to his diary from this period as his Occult Diary and used it to help him decipher the world as he experienced it. He read and reread his own notations, adding new interpretations, and deleting others. He also drew on the diary as material for creative expression, transforming isolated events** 

**and observations into groundbreaking works of literature.** 

**human beings.** 

 *e Occult Diary* **is published here in its entirety in English translation for the rst time, in a nal revision by Ann-Charlotte Gavel Adams and with an introduction by Per Stam.** *e Occult Diary* **is a key resource for international Strindberg scholars and theater professionals and more broadly for scholars focusing on drama, theater history, stage performance, and literary currents at the turn of the previous century. e diary initiates the reader into the writer's inner world during a crucial transitional period in his personal and literary life. It documents his readings and observations and gives important clues and information about an ongoing process of artistic reorientation. Strindberg was exploring new ways of looking at, interpreting, and writing about nature, science, art, the occult, and his fellow** 

**Editors: Per Stam, Ann-Charlotte Gavel Adams and Gunnel Engwall**

**Revision: Ann-Charlotte Gavel Adams and Anders Hallengren**

**Translation from the Swedish: Karin Petherick**

**The Occult Diary**

# **The Occult Diary Paris 1896 – Stockholm 1908**

*August Strindberg*

Editors: Per Stam, Ann-Charlotte Gavel Adams and Gunnel Engwall Translation from the Swedish: Karin Petherick; revision: Ann-Charlotte Gavel Adams and Anders Hallengren

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## **THE OCCULT DIARY**



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# **Preface**

*The Occult Diary* is a unique work and a key document in August Strindberg's extensive literary production. Therefore, it is an important step to make *The Occult Diary* available to an international audience through this edition in English. It is a complete and thoroughly vetted translation of the diary.

The first translation of the diary was begun by Dr. Karin Petherick, Senior Lecturer at University College London. Dr. Petherick passed away in 2009, leaving her work unfinished. The translation has since been revised by Dr. Anders Hallengren, Stockholm University, and as a final step, it has been reviewed and revised, based on critical insights from Textual and Translations Studies by Professor Ann-Charlotte Gavel Adams, University of Washington, Seattle.

The publication of *The Occult Diary* in English translation will cater to several groups of readers. In its present layout with text and images, typeset to match exactly Strindberg's original diary, it will be of particular interest to readers of esoteric diaries and biographies of iconic authors, such as *The Illuminated Books of William Blake* in six volumes, recently re-issued in a paperback edition, published by Princeton University Press. Another main group of readers will be scholars and professionals with interest in modern theater and literature, as it covers the years 1896 to 1908, a largely undocumented period in Strindberg's life in English, during which he turned more introspective and prone to abstracting his experiences into universal symbols.

The printing and publication of this volume has been sponsored by generous institutions and foundations both in Sweden and in the United States. We thank the Swedish Collegium for Advanced Study in Uppsala, which granted Professor Gavel Adams an extended stay in 2016 for the final critical revision of the English translation. We also want to express our gratitude to our other financial sponsors: Marianne och Marcus Wallenbergs Stiftelse, Olle Engkvists Stiftelse, Kungl. Patriotiska Sällskapet, Barbro Osher Pro Suecia Foundation, and The Department of Scandinavian Studies at the University of Washington.

Stockholm, September 7, 2022 Gunnel Engwall Ann-Charlotte Gavel Adams Per Stam

# **Introduction: August Strindberg's Occult Diary**

*Per Stam*

August Strindberg (1849–1912) was an extraordinarily prolific writer whose collected works encompass no fewer than 72 volumes of drama, prose and poetry as well as 22 volumes of letters.1 In this extensive literary production, *The Occult Diary* occupies a unique and central position.

Strindberg kept the diary from February 1896, when he moved into the Hotel Orfila in Paris, until the summer of 1908 in Stockholm, when he definitively broke off contact with his third wife, Harriet Bosse, and moved into a new apartment at Drottninggatan 85. He himself referred to his diary from this period as his Occult Diary and used it to help him decipher the world as he experienced it. He read and reread his own notations, adding new interpretations and deleting others. He also drew on the diary as material for creative expression, transforming isolated events and observations into groundbreaking works of literature. Although it is a deeply personal document, Strindberg considered publishing the diary as part of his autobiographical writings. It is published here in its entirety in English translation for the first time.

*The Occult Diary* is a key resource for international Strindberg scholars and theater professionals and more broadly for scholars focusing on drama, theater history, stage performance, and literary currents at the turn of the previous century. Readers will find several different ways to approach the text. The diary initiates the reader into the writer's inner world during a crucial transitional period in his personal and literary life. It documents his readings and observations and gives important clues and information about an ongoing process of artistic reorientation. Strindberg was exploring new ways of looking at, interpreting and writing about nature, science, art, the occult, and his fellow human beings. Diary entries reveal in detail his increasing focus on introspection and subjectivity and his proclivity for abstracting his personal experiences into universal symbols. In keeping with this tendency, his literary works became more reflective and associative. His post-1896 dramas broke with the conventions of realism and traditional dramatic structure dating back to Aristotle; instead Strindberg focused on finding ways to portray complex inner struggles in dramatic form. In doing so, he opened up new possibilities for what could be portrayed on stage, making him a precursor of theatrical expressionism and a seminal figure in the evolution of modern drama.

The notations in the diary recorded both the ordinary and the strange and provided material for creative works like *Inferno* (1897) and *Legends* (1898). Strindberg also commented on when, how and why he wrote these novels, the drama *A Dream Play* (1902), and other works. The diary gives a deeper understanding of Strindberg's œuvre, biography and psychology, although the reader must tread cautiously in these last matters. When Strindberg played with the idea of publishing the diary, it was planned to supplement his autobiographical novels and his letters, but the diary is also a work of art. It can be read as an experimental montage of press clippings, drawings, photographs, objects from nature and text.

The diary was published in the original language in 2012 in a three-volume critical edition in *August Strindbergs Samlade Verk* ('The Collected Works of August Strindberg') (SV 59:1, typeset text; SV 59:2, facsimile of the original; SV 60, commentary).2 An open access digital edition also became available the same year.3 This English translation follows the text and layout of the Swedish edition.4

The original diary consists of 282 loose folio pages that Strindberg, somewhat inconsistently, paginated 1–302, as well as a red outer cover, an inner cover, a parchment cover and a title page. Most of the text appears on one side of the page, written in black ink, but the author has also used a lead pencil and colored pencils. About 80 pages have explanatory material on the reverse side; the remaining reverse sides are blank. Taken together, the diary encompasses 578 pages.

A first draft of the English translation was made by Karin Petherick (1929– 2009), University College London, who together with Göran Stockenström (1936–2020), University of Minnesota, edited the Swedish critical edition. Anders Hallengren, Stockholm University, in consultation with Michael Stevens, revised and edited the translation in 2007–2008. A thorough critical revision was undertaken by Ann-Charlotte Gavel Adams in 2016.5

## **Diary entries 1896–1908**

When Strindberg, at age 47, began keeping a diary he was a successful but also controversial writer both in his native Sweden and internationally. His published works included, among many other titles, his breakthrough novel, *The Red Room* (1879), the short story collections *Getting Married* I and II (1884, 1886) – a caustic description of Holy Communion in the first volume led to his prosecution (and acquittal) for blasphemy – as well as the naturalistic dramas *The Father* (1887), *Miss Julie* (1888) and *Creditors* (1890). He had also written a fourvolume fictionalized autobiography, *The Son of a Servant* (1886–1887, 1909)6 and two additional novels, *The People of Hemsö* (1887) and *By the Open Sea* (1890).

In the diary, Strindberg described his life in Paris, in Lund in southern Sweden and in Stockholm, but also in the Stockholm archipelago, Austria and Belgium. By the time he began keeping the diary he was geographically separated from his second wife, Frida Uhl (1872–1943), the mother of his daughter Kerstin (1894– 1956). In the autumn of 1896, when Strindberg traveled to Klam in Austria to visit his wife and daughter, Frida had left; in her absence he spent time with Kerstin and his in-laws. Strindberg never saw his wife again. Though the marriage ended, Frida and Kerstin are often mentioned in the diary.

The diary also describes his marriage to Harriet Bosse (1878–1961) and the birth of their daughter Anne-Marie (1902–2007) as well as his partnership with the actor August Falck to found the Intimate Theater, a small, experimental stage in Stockholm that performed Strindberg's plays.

During the period when Strindberg kept a diary he published a long list of literary works, among them the novels *Inferno* (1897), *Legends* (1898) and *Gothic Rooms* (1904); the dramas *To Damascus* I–III (1898–1901), *The Dance of Death* (1901) and *A Dream Play* (1902); several historical dramas (from 1899); four chamber plays (1907–1908), including *The Ghost Sonata* (1907); the roman à clef *Black Banners* (1907); and two books of philosophical reflection that repudiate accepted scientific truths, *A Blue Book* I and II (1907, 1908).

In the diary Strindberg comments on his contacts with publishers and translators, theaters and directors, his friendships and conflicts with authors such as Stanislaw Przybyszewski, Dagny Juel, Marcel Réja, Gustaf af Geijerstam and Emil Kléen; with artists, including Paul Gauguin, Edvard Munch, Richard Bergh and Karl Nordström; with occultists like Dr. Papus and Paul Sédir and alchemists such as François Jollivet-Castelot and C. Théodore Tiffereau.7

The main thrust of the diary, however, is not an account of external events. Instead it offers unparalleled insight into Strindberg's inner world of dreams, conjectures and fantasies. An outgrowth of his so-called Inferno crisis, *The Occult Diary* provides unique testimony to his intellectual and spiritual reorientation in the mid-1890s. The entries reveal his attempt to come to grips with an existential crisis that evolved into an interpretation of everyday reality according to ethical and religious categories.

In the years immediately preceding the diary, Strindberg had produced several works merging science and philosophy, *Antibarbarus* (1894), *Sylva Sylvarum* (1896) and *Jardin des Plantes* (1896), in part to criticize established scientific doctrine and in part to offer his own view of how the world was configured.8 He also wrote a number of essays about human psychology and contemporary culture that he called 'Vivisections' (1894). His examination of the mysteries of creation, which initially had a materialist orientation, where empirical experiments were interwoven with philosophical speculation, led him to the conclusion that behind the creation there was a creator. This conversion took place in 1895–1896. In his investigation Strindberg took note of similarities, analogies and correspondences in nature. Diary entries initially followed this pattern of observation,9 and consequently the diary has been described as "a laboratory notebook."10 It nevertheless has a pronounced focus on the individual human being August Strindberg and his fate in the universe.

Strindberg initially referred to his entries as a diary of "Strange Coincidences and Inexplicable Events"11 and a diary of dreams.12 The diarist seems to be drawn into a cosmic drama where everything he observed, perceived and experienced bore witness to hidden connections and contained messages intended only for him.

"If you wish to get to know the invisible, observe the Visible with an open gaze (Talmud.)" wrote Strindberg on the diary's title page. Everything was seen as part of a greater cosmic order. Observing patterns that could be discerned in the world around us also revealed the transcendental world. In his diary, Strindberg made note of natural catastrophes from all around the globe, astronomical observations of Capella, Orion's Belt and novas. He also sketched cloud formations he could see from his window. He often wrote about finding a playing card in the street and seeing letters of the alphabet formed by tree twigs, but above all he discovered numbers and sums in various connections – on scraps of paper, on street signs, on bicycles and buses. He wrote down these signposts and then tried to interpret them. "What does it mean?" he repeatedly asked himself in the diary.13 For guidance he consulted the Bible, opening it at random, books of prophecy and occult literature. Beginning in autumn 1896, he turned to the writings of the Swedish mystic Emmanuel Swedenborg for help. The attempts to interpret were nevertheless Strindberg's own, albeit guided by the various sources he consulted.

In later portions of the diary Strindberg described his marriage to Harriet Bosse, from falling in love to marriage in 1901, their daughter, their divorce, after which intimate relations continued until the final break in spring–summer 1908, when Bosse married the actor Gunnar Wingård. At that point Strindberg's diary entries ceased, and he moved from his apartment at Karlavägen 40 to Drottninggatan 85. He was then 59 years old.

## **Strindberg's thoughts about publishing the diary**

### The title

For a long time, Strindberg used the short term 'Diary', in the manuscript itself (on the outer cover, the parchment cover, the title page and in the text of the diary) and in letters to friends, as well as in the autobiographical novels *Inferno* and *Legends*, for which the diary was a source. The novels mention the narrator's diary and suggest that the reader examine it: "The reader who is inclined to consider that this book is a work of imagination is invited to consult the diary [...] of which the above is merely a version, composed of extracts expanded and rearranged," Strindberg wrote in *Inferno*. 14 Although in many ways this was a rhetorical device, it served as an invitation of sorts.

The term 'occult' was not applied until early in the new century, sometimes with a lower-case initial letter (1904, 1907). Only when Strindberg offered the diary to his publisher, Bonniers, as guarantee for a loan (1907–1908) was the designation 'Occult Diary' established, with both initial letters capitalized. Probably this is when Strindberg changed the title on the outer red cover from 'Diary' to 'Occult Diary'. Since the author treated the diary as a commodity, a literary work, there was cause to give it a name, and the name became a title: *The Occult Diary*.

### Publish or conceal?

Strindberg seems to have kept a diary for some time without a thought to publication, but at a later juncture he started considering that option. He wanted the diary to be made available in a context that would do it justice: for the right person who would understand, for his family, perhaps for the Swedenborg Congregation in Stockholm or simply as a complement to his autobiographical writings. At the same time, he worried that the intimate material in the diary would give rise to indignation and be misunderstood, that readers would not understand the occult and spiritual contents of the diary.

Strindberg gave several different responses concerning the possible publication of the diary and where the manuscript should be kept after his death. Two conflicting attitudes can be discerned in his instructions: the desire to publish the diary, or the opposite, to keep its contents concealed.

A closer look at Strindberg's comments about the diary is in order.

### Strindberg's statements while keeping the diary

Strindberg commented on the diary in writing on a number of occasions.

Instructions about the posthumous disposition of the diary are given at the bottom of the title page: "After my death this diary passes to Torsten Hedlund or Professor Axel Herrlin of Lund or to both! They are the only ones who understand it." These instructions have been amended twice.

The theosophist Torsten Hedlund gave Strindberg encouragement and economic support and was an important discussion partner by letter from 1894 to 1896. In the summer of 1896 Strindberg wrote a series of eight consecutively paginated letters to Hedlund.15 A number of the very brief entries in the diary during this period were expanded in these so-called manuscript letters, which Strindberg later drew on in *Inferno*. Strindberg broke off the correspondence, which was sometimes quite intense, in November 1896, believing that Hedlund wanted to control him and sit in judgment. "Your craving for power, your egoism, your prophet's megalomania are the grossest I have ever come across!" he wrote in his final letter.16 Presumably Hedlund was removed as caretaker of the diary shortly thereafter.

Strindberg spent time with the philosopher Axel Herrlin while visiting Lund toward the end of the 1890s. Both were interested in occultism and spiritual questions. Herrlin's name was probably crossed out when Strindberg departed from Lund in 1899 to settle in Stockholm, his home town.

On the parchment cover the word 'Diary' is followed by the instruction, later crossed out, "to be deposited after my death with Professor Axel Herrlin in Lund in order subsequently to be the property of my children." A date, difficult to discern, is also provided: "Lund 19 June 1899." Most likely this is when the directions involving Herrlin were crossed out: it is the day before Strindberg moved to Stockholm.

In an unsent letter from 1901 to his brother, Axel Strindberg, prompted by a marital crisis when Strindberg seems to have been considering suicide, he specified his last wishes. Concerning the diary, he writes, "To him [Axel Strindberg] I also give my Diary, which should always remain in the family."17

Just a few years later, however, Strindberg placed the diary next to his letters in a planned edition of autobiographical writings to be published after his death. The autobiographical documents were intended to round out his life story:

> *The Son of a Servant.* (to be published after my death in a single volume with this title.)

The Son of a Servant Time of Ferment In the Red Room Fourth Part of The Son of a Servant [The Author] (manuscript with Bonniers) A Madman's Defense [...] The letter collection "He and She" (with Al. Bonnier) The Quarantine Master's Second Story [...]

Inferno Legends Alone

Collected letters The Occult Diary18

In 1904 Strindberg sent an identical list to his German translator Emil Schering with the instructions, "If I die soon, will you collect the following works in *one volume* and publish them under the title 'The Son of a Servant': [...]. This is the only monument I desire: a black wooden cross and my story!"19 In a letter to his Swedish publisher, Karl Otto Bonnier, Strindberg included a similar list of works that should be included in "*The Son of a Servant*. / One Human Fate 1849–19.." – without, however, mentioning the letters or the diary.20

In October 1907, when Strindberg needed money to pay the first installment of rent for the Intimate Theater, he promised the diary to Bonniers Publishing House as collateral in return for a loan of 2000 crowns:

> Since you have acquired my prose works anyway, and particularly the *Biographica*, I am now forced to offer you my greatest œ*uvre posthume*. My '*Occult Diary*', kept since the Hôtel Orfila in Paris 1896, thus in its 11th year. It comprises 548 octavo pages (274 large folio).

> But this is an *affaire de confidence* and *confiance*, with confidence and in confidence. Since it is still in progress and continues to grow, you must have such confidence in me as to allow me to retain the Diary in my care, while an attestation that the same is your property is enclosed.

> As regards publication, well, that will have to be after my death, but all the wonderful things I've experienced are there, intimate things, but with the names often spelt in Greek...

It will create problems afterwards...

In the letter Strindberg emphasizes that this is a matter of financial assistance in a desperate situation, because otherwise "the bailiffs will be in". He continues, "This is thus a request for help rather than business!"21 Strindberg received the 2000-crown loan.

But he also retained the right to redeem the diary for the same sum, which he did as soon as he was able, in January–February 1908, in return for a promise of other works to come. During the entire time the diary served as collateral it remained in his home on Karlavägen. "You may naturally see the Diary here," he wrote in the letter to Bonnier.

The arrangement with Bonniers generated comments on the red outer cover of the manuscript: "This Diary belongs to the Publishing house of Albert Bonnier by virtue of a contract of sale of 22nd October 1907; but with the option for me to repossess it for 2000 Crowns." This was crossed out when Strindberg had paid that sum. Instead he wrote, "Canceled by enclosed letter from Bonnier 1 February 1908."

The story is complicated by instructions on the outer cover, dated March 1908:

This Diary must never be published! This is my last will! Which must be obeyed!

It may remain with the heir who is most worthy of keeping it! And never given out on loan! Might be deposited with the Swedenborg Congregation! (The New Church.)

> 7 March 1908. August Strindberg.

In these instructions Strindberg mentions the Swedenborg Congregation in Stockholm as a possible repository for the diary. It appears that while he specified that the diary should not be published, he simultaneously toyed with the idea that readers with the proper knowledge could turn to it as a religious confessional.

By the summer of 1908, when Strindberg had ceased making new entries in the diary, he seems also to have ceased adding commentary to earlier entries. He placed the diary in a newly-purchased archive box that was stored in a cabinet, along with other manuscripts on a wide variety of subjects, including literature, science, the history of language and the occult. Vilhelm Carlheim-Gyllensköld's sketch of the archive holdings, made after Strindberg's death, reveals that the Occult Diary was placed at the heart of the collection.22

### Negotiations with the publisher, 1911

In 1911, when Strindberg was negotiating with Bonniers about the publication of his collected works,23 he stressed that only "works *already* in print" should be included, not unpublished material: "Thus Letters, Diaries and Manuscripts are *not* included."24 When he received a draft of a contract, he reacted strongly to its reference to unpublished manuscripts and the following day wrote to the publisher about the diary:

> The "Occult Diary" is so extensive (1896–1908), so intimate, so Swedenborgian, terrifying and a danger to others' peace of mind that it must be burned or sealed. [...] "Unpublished manuscripts" should probably be excluded, and letters and the Occult Diary *must* be excluded!25

Strindberg clearly had conflicting ideas about the disposition of the diary after his death. His heirs were left to deal with the ambivalence reflected in his instructions.

## **The Occult Diary after Strindberg's death**

August Strindberg died on May 14, 1912. His relatives sealed the diary in 1913. The following year it was moved to the Nordic Museum, to which the heirs had donated his estate. In 1922 Strindberg's manuscripts, letters and the diary were deposited at the National Library of Sweden in Stockholm.

For many years access to the diary required permission from a representative of Strindberg's heirs as well as the national librarian, head of the library. Very few received permission, but transcriptions made in connection with inventories and scholarly investigations served as sources for research.

In 1915, Vilhelm Carlheim-Gyllensköld, who inventoried the estate at the behest of the family, urged publication of the diary, basing his argument in part on Strindberg's own notes (cited above). Gyllensköld arranged for a typed copy to be made.26 The literary scholar Martin Lamm also had access to the diary in the early 1920s and transcribed excerpts, but other researchers, such as Torsten Eklund and Gunnar Brandell, could only consult excerpts and transcriptions while working on their dissertations (1948; 1950).

In 1962, 50 years after Strindberg's death, the diary became more accessible to researchers. Torsten Eklund published a volume of excerpts in 1963, focusing primarily on Strindberg's third marriage and including letters to and from his wife: *Ur Ockulta dagboken. Äktenskapet med Harriet Bosse*. The volume was translated into English by Mary Sandbach with the title *From an Occult Diary: Marriage with Harriet Bosse* (1965; new edition 1979). The first major work in literary studies that drew on an examination of the original manuscript of the diary was Göran Stockenström's dissertation, *Ismael i öknen. Strindberg som mystiker* ('Ishmael in the Desert. Strindberg as Mystic') (1972). Five years later, in 1977, the entire diary was published for the first time in a black and white facsimile edition.

## **Reading** *The Occult Diary*

Despite his reservations and ambivalence, Strindberg himself repeatedly made plans for the diary to be published. He also intended that his letters be published, although not in the collected works. The letters eventually appeared in 22 massive volumes and a slimmer supplement.27

*The Occult Diary* was included as a biographical document in the critical edition of Strindberg's collected works.28 This publication, in 2012, was the first time the entire text appeared set in type. The hand-written manuscript that previously had been a challenge to read was now presented in an authoritative rendition.

In the original, Strindberg used Greek letters to camouflage names and sensitive material; the text was in Swedish but written in Greek letters. The published Swedish edition reproduced the Greek letters, but they were also transliterated into Swedish letters within boldface editorial square brackets to make the text easier to read. The presentation in the English translation of the diary follows the Swedish edition, retaining the Greek letters used for Swedish words but with an English translation within boldface square brackets.

One goal of both the Swedish and English editions has been to capture the process of writing the diary and its material presentation, with Strindberg's additions, markings and deletions on the pages. Thus the published versions reproduce spelling errors and text that has been crossed out as well as additions and comments made with different pens. Newspaper articles, drawings and the like that were attached to diary pages are photographically reproduced.

The reason deleted material has been included is not to reveal secrets, but to provide the entire text of the document to the greatest extent possible. Doing so also offers insight into what prompted diary entries and how they changed over time. One example is the above-cited entry Strindberg made in October 1907, when the diary was offered to Bonniers as a loan guarantee, which he crossed out when the loan had been repaid. Including the excised text makes it possible to follow the entire course of events.

Some of the text concealed by broad strokes of the pen was brought to light by digital enhancement when the Swedish critical edition was prepared. Following the Swedish edition, the English translation reproduces as much information as current technology allows. The most extensive deletion occurred in the section about Strindberg's intimate relations with Harriet Bosse (p. 205 v.); portions of the text on this page are thoroughly crossed out with heavy strokes of ink or India ink.

Strindberg seems to have believed that Bosse and he had been singled out for some higher purpose and that their intimate relations also took place in another dimension. Strindberg could sense Bosse's presence even when she was away. As early as 1900 and 1901 he described their contact on the astral plane and their telepathic intercourse (p. 123 v. and p. 129). Many diary entries between 1901 and 1908 center on these perceptions. During the crisis in 1908, Strindberg suffered intense physical and spiritual pain, which he interpreted in terms of a perceived long-standing otherworldly union with Bosse. The passages on p. 205 v. that were crossed out are hardly sensational in relation to the text as a whole, but they shed light on Strindberg's perspective on and conjectures about man and woman more generally.

Research on Strindberg's diary and its connection to the Inferno crisis and his scientific-philosophical writing has employed several partially contradictory theoretical models.

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One approach is to view the diary as a direct pipeline to the author's psyche. Entries about experiences and conjectures related to the paranormal can then – like the author's political writing, his frank treatment of sexuality and his interest in alchemy – be interpreted as signs of mental illness. Ulf Olsson has investigated this perspective, which dominated earlier Strindberg research, in *Jag blir galen. Strindberg, vansinnet och vetenskapen* ('I'm going crazy: Strindberg, madness and science') (2002).29

Strindberg's descriptions of anxiety, torment and paranoia have been interpreted as if the author were a patient reclining on a psychiatrist's couch. In his dissertation, *Strindbergs infernokris* (1950) (*Strindberg in Inferno*, 1974), Gunnar Brandell drew on the author's literary works, letters and excerpts from the diary to establish the dates of four episodes of psychosis that Strindberg supposedly suffered between 1894 and 1896. In a later biography, *Strindberg – ett författarliv* ('Strindberg: A writer's life') (1983), Brandell offered a more cautious interpretation of Strindberg's experiences.30

Olof Lagercrantz proposed an opposing perspective in the biography *August Strindberg* (1979). As he sees it, the crisis of the 1890s, the scientific investigations and the diary are a conscious experiment on Strindberg's part to acquire experiences that could be utilized in literary works, the novel *Inferno* and writings that followed.31

In several studies, Ann-Charlotte Gavel Adams has foregrounded Strindberg's connection to French occultism, which was in fashion during the 1890s, when he began keeping a diary. The diary is viewed as a collection of material intended for a study of the occult.32

Many scholars have emphasized the close connection between Strindberg's 'Vivisections' essays, his scientific texts, his diary and his literary works during the 1890s, and also between the diary and *A Blue Book* ten years later.33 This perspective is shared – despite varying points of departure – in interpretations by Gunnar Brandell (1950, 1983), Göran Stockenström (1972), Olof Lagercrantz (1979), Michael Robinson (1996), Ulf Olsson (1996) and Per Stam (2009). Texts that could be categorized as belonging to different genres are all part of Strindberg's process of reinventing himself. The diary can also be placed under the same umbrella. Seen this way, the primary importance of *The Occult Diary* would not be as a biographical document or psychological case study, but rather as an experimental text or a montage that includes drawings, photographs, newspaper articles and objects from nature.34 In *Paradoxografi* ('Paradoxography') (2019), Ulf Olsson examines *The Occult Diary* as a material object, a montage of lists, clippings, drawings, photos – an experimental artistic text: "*The Occult Diary* explores practices that make the world readable and writable."35

Regardless of perspectives chosen, this English translation of *The Occult Diary* unlocks new possibilities for those who do not have access to the original Swedish. By enabling a more nuanced understanding of Strindberg's inner life and working method during this period of profound reorientation, the diary may stimulate innovative ways of reading and interpreting his post-Inferno literary production.

How should we read *The Occult Diary*? We should remember that the entries were made over a period of twelve and a half years and not read too quickly. This is not a novel. Some entries are very brief and difficult to interpret, others contain carefully developed arguments. There is no fictional plot in the diary, but

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there are entries about observations, dreams and flights of the imagination – and Strindberg's interpretation of these entries.

Thus the reader is inexorably drawn into the interpretative process. Perhaps this is precisely what Strindberg desired. And perhaps these new editions in Swedish and English will help the diary find its ideal reader – today or tomorrow.36

Translated by Rochelle Wright

## **Notes**

1. August Strindberg, *Nationalupplagan av August Strindbergs Samlade Verk*  [hereafter *August Strindbergs Samlade Verk*, or SV], Lars Dahlbäck (ed. in chief 1981–2008), Per Stam (ed. in chief 2009–2021), Stockholm: Almqvist & Wiksell, 1981–1985, Stockholm: Norstedts, 1986–2013; Litteraturbanken.se, 2007–2021.

August Strindberg, *August Strindbergs Brev* 1–22, Torsten Eklund (ed.) 1–15, Björn Meidal (ed.) 16–22, Stockholm: Bonniers, 1948–2001. See also note 27.

2. August Strindberg, *Ockulta Dagboken*, SV 59:1; *Ockulta Dagboken. Faksimil av handskriften*, SV 59:2; *Ockulta Dagboken. Kommentarer*, SV 60, Karin Petherick and Göran Stockenström (eds.), Per Stam (ed. in chief), Stockholm: Norstedts, 2012.

3. Digital publication of the diary, along with all other volumes in the critical edition, is open access at Litteraturbanken.se, https://litteraturbanken.se/presen tationer/specialomraden/SSV.html.

4. Ilaria Tedde is responsible for the layout of the English-language edition, following Camilla Kretz's layout of SV 59:1.

5. Petherick's translation, begun before work on the critical edition was underway, was originally intended for an annotated English-language edition planned by Stockenström that never reached fruition. Revisions by Hallengren and Stevens were undertaken at the behest of the editors of the critical edition as the Swedish volumes of the diary were nearing completion. Petherick approved the undertaking and was able to read and comment on part of this version. After the publication of the Swedish edition and with access to the definitive Swedish text, Gavel Adams made a critical revision of the English translation in 2016, and in 2017–2018 a final review in consultation with Rochelle Wright and Per Stam.

6. All four volumes were completed by 1886, but the final installment was not published until 1909.

7. Stanislaw Przybyszewski (1868–1927), Polish author.

Dagny Juel Przybyszewska (1867–1901), Norwegian writer and artist muse, had a brief affair with Strindberg in Berlin in 1893; married Przybyszewski that same year; murdered by an admirer in Tblisi in 1901.

Marcel Réja [Paul Meunier] (1873–1957), poet, medical student, later psychiatrist; revised Strindberg's original French text of *Inferno* and wrote an introduction for its publication in 1898.

Gustaf av Geijerstam (1858–1909), Swedish writer; between 1897 and 1902, head of literature division, Gernandt Publishing House.

Emil Kleen (1868–1903), Swedish poet and journalist.

Paul Gauguin (1848–1903), French painter, became acquainted with Strindberg in Paris; in 1895 Strindberg wrote a letter about his art that was published as the foreword to an auction catalogue.

Edvard Munch (1863–1944), Norwegian artist; made several portraits of Strindberg; Strindberg published an article on "L'exposition d'Edward Munch" ("Edvard Munch's Exhibition") in *La Revue blanche*, 1 June 1896.

Richard Bergh (1858–1919), Swedish artist.

Karl Nordström (1855–1923), Swedish artist.

Dr. Papus (or Papus) [Gerard Encausse] (1865–1916), medical doctor, French occultist writer; chairman of the Martinist Order's Supreme Council; published the journal *L'Initiation*, where a number of articles by Strindberg on scientific and occult topics appeared in 1896–1897.

Paul Sédir [Yvon Le Loup] (1871–1926), French occultist.

François Jollivet-Castelot (1874–1937), French occultist and alchemist; in 1896 founded the journal *L'Hyperchimie*, where Strindberg was a contributor.

C. Théodore Tiffereau (1819–1909), French alchemist and photographer.

8. August Strindberg, *Naturvetenskapliga Skrifter I. Antibarbarus* / *Sylva Sylvarum* / *Jardin des Plantes*, SV 35, Per Stam (ed.), Stockholm: Norstedts, 2010; August Strindberg, *Naturvetenskapliga Skrifter II*. *Broschyrer och uppsatser 1895–1902*, SV 36, Per Stam (ed.), Stockholm: Norstedts, 2003. Some of this material, including "Edvard Munch's Exhibition," pp. 167–169, is available in English translation: August Strindberg, *Selected Essays*, Michael Robinson (ed. and transl.), Cambridge: Cambridge University Press, 2016 [1996].

9. Per Stam, "'Världen för Sig och världen för Mig'. August Strindbergs *Naturvetenskapliga Skrifter* – en inledning," *Strindbergiana. Tjugofjärde samlingen*, Per Stam (ed.), Stockholm: Atlantis, 2009, pp. 16–40; Per Stam, "'Jag skulle gärna vilja bli troende igen...' Strindbergs utveckling från ateist till mystiker under 1890-talet," in Martin Hellström (ed.), *Tron är mitt lokalbatteri. Religion och religiositet i August Strindbergs liv och verk*, Skellefteå: Artos, 2012, pp. 25–43.

10. Sylvain Briens, "Paris, Laboratory of Modernity: Modernist Experimentation and August Strindberg's Search for 'the Equation' in Paris," in Anna Westerståhl Stenport (ed.), *The International Strindberg*, Evanston, IL: Northwestern University Press, 2012, p. 114. See also Ulf Olsson, "Allegoriska drömmar, spelkort, kvistar: Ockulta Dagboken," in *Paradoxografi. Strindbergs sena verk*, Stockholm: Bokförlaget Faethon, 2019, pp. 125–163.

11. August Strindberg, letter to Torsten Hedlund, 7 July 1896, in Michael Robinson, *Strindberg's Letters* II, Chicago: University of Chicago Press and London: Athlone Press, 1992, p. 569.

12. August Strindberg, letter to Torsten Hedlund, 30 June 1896, in Robinson, *Strindberg's Letters* II, p. 559.

13. The sentence appears, with or without a question mark, on pp. 43, 130, 140, 141[a], 168, 195, 226, 251 v., 266, 277, 287 (twice), 288, 293, and 296.

14. August Strindberg, *Inferno and From an Occult Diary*, Torsten Eklund (ed.) and Mary Sandbach (transl.), Penguin Classics, Harmondsworth, Middlesex: Penguin, 1979, p. 274.

15. Strindberg's manuscript letters to Hedlund are dated 6–22 July 1896. *August Strindbergs Brev* 11, Torsten Eklund (ed.), Stockholm: Bonniers, 1969, pp. 236–285; in part translated in Robinson, *Strindberg's Letters* II, pp. 562–585.

16. August Strindberg, letter to Torsten Hedlund, 23 November 1896, in Robinson, *Strindberg's Letters* II, p. 600.

17. August Strindberg, letter to Axel Strindberg, 16 September 1901, in *August Strindbergs Brev* 14, Torsten Eklund (ed.), Stockholm: Bonniers , 1974, p. 132.

18. National Library of Sweden, SgNM 1:1,20.

19. August Strindberg, letter to Emil Schering, 13 June 1904, in Robinson, *Strindberg's Letters* II, p. 712.

20. August Strindberg, letter to Karl Otto Bonnier, 1 July 1904, in *August Strindbergs Brev* 15, Torsten Eklund (ed.), Stockholm: Bonniers, 1976, pp. 42–43.

21. August Strindberg, letter to Karl Otto Bonnier, 21 October 1907, in Robinson, *Strindberg's Letters* II, pp. 751–752. The italics have been added in *Strindberg's Letters*. Robinson's translation of 'förskrifning' has been corrected; Strindberg did not provide a copy of the diary, but rather enclosed an attestation that it was the publisher's property.

22. See *Ockulta Dagboken*. *Kommentarer*, SV 60, pp. 12–14 and Figure 2 (after p. 64).

23. The 55-volume *Samlade Skrifter*, John Landqvist (ed.), Stockholm: Bonniers, 1912–1920, was the standard edition of Strindberg's works until the critical edition was published: *August Strindbergs Samlade Verk*, Stockholm: Almqvist & Wiksell, 1981–1985, Stockholm: Norstedts, 1986–2013.

24. August Strindberg, letter to Karl Otto Bonnier, 29 June 1911, in *August Strindbergs Brev* 20, Björn Meidal (ed.), Stockholm: Bonniers, 1996, p. 52.

25. August Strindberg, letter to Karl Otto Bonnier. 30 June 1911, in *August Strindbergs Brev* 20, pp. 52–53.

26. National Library of Sweden, SE S-HS SgKB. Carlheim-Gyllensköld:11:1–4.

27. August Strindberg, *August Strindbergs Brev* 1–22, Stockholm: Bonniers, 1948–2001; "August Strindbergs Brev – en efterslåtter 2016," Björn Meidal (ed.), *Strindbergiana. Trettioförsta samlingen*, 2016. All 23 volumes are available digitally in their entirety at Litteraturbanken.se. A selection in English translation may be found in *Strindberg's Letters* I and II, Michael Robinson (ed. and transl.), 1992.

28. Other previously unpublished material is also included in *Samlade Verk*, including "En Tvivlares Anteckningar" (intended for *In the Red Room*), SV 21; *He and She*, SV 22; and *Antibarbarus II*, SV 35.

29. Ulf Olsson, *Jag blir galen. Strindberg, vansinnet och vetenskapen*, Stockholm/Stehag: Brutus Östlings Bokförlag Symposion, 2002. See also Ann-Charlotte Gavel Adams' summary of various interpretations of *Inferno* and the Inferno crisis in SV 37, 1994, pp. 330–332.

30. Gunnar Brandell, *Strindbergs Infernokris*, Stockholm: Bonniers, pp. 63–90, 222–230; Brandell, *Strindberg – ett författarliv. Tredje delen. Paris*, *till och från 1894–1898*, Stockholm: Alba, 1983, pp. 149–183.

31. Olof Lagercrantz, *August Strindberg*, Stockholm: Wahlström & Widstrand, 1979, pp. 315–341; on the diary, pp. 326–336.

32. Ann-Charlotte Gavel Adams, *The Generic Ambiguity of August Strindberg's "Inferno": Occult Novel and Autobiography*, Ann Arbor: U.M.I, 1990, pp. 70–74; Gavel Adams, "Strindberg som ockultismens Zola," *Strindbergiana.* Åttonde *samlingen*, Hans-Göran Ekman (ed.), Stockholm: Atlantis, 1993, pp. 123–138.

33. On the diary and *A Blue Book*, see Stockenström, *Ockulta Dagboken*. *Kommentarer*, SV 60, pp. 42, 95, and Gunnar Ollén, comments in *En blå bok*  I–IV, SV 65, p. 444, SV 66, pp. 1060–1063, SV 67, pp. 1530–1542.

34. Brandell, *Strindbergs Infernokris*, 1950; Brandell, *Strindberg – ett författarliv. Tredje delen*, 1983; Stockenström, *Ismael i öknen. Strindberg som* 

*mystiker*, 1972; Lagercrantz, *August Strindberg*, 1979; Robinson, "Introduction," *Selected Essays*, 1996, pp. 1–21; Ulf Olsson, *Levande död. Studier i Strindbergs prosa*, Stockholm/Stehag: Brutus Östlings Bokförlag Symposion, 1996, pp. 271–304; Stam, "'Världen för Sig och världen för Mig'. August Strindbergs *Naturvetenskapliga Skrifter* – en inledning," 2009, pp. 16–40.

35. Ulf Olsson, *Paradoxografi*. *Strindbergs sena verk* (2019), p. 133.

36. The introduction to the English translation of *The Occult Diary*, intended for an international audience, is a revised and expanded version of the presentation of the Swedish edition: Per Stam, "August Strindbergs Ockulta Dagboken" (2013) and "'Denna Dagbok får aldrig tryckas!' Om att utge Strindbergs dagbok i Samlade Verk" (2014).

## **Bibliography**

Works in English


Works in Swedish


# **About the layout**

The English translation follows the layout of the Swedish critical edition of 2012. Text placement on the page in the original is retained to the greatest degree possible. Additions above the line have been inserted into the line if the placement is clear; otherwise, added text retains its original placement.

Additions that Strindberg made as separate blocks of text also appear that way here.

Documents of various kinds that supplement the text in the original – newspaper clippings, drawings, and so on – are reproduced as embedded images.

Information provided by the editors – translations of text with Greek letters, supplementary references, etc. – is within boldface square brackets (to differentiate from Strindberg's own use of square brackets).

The translation follows Strindberg's pagination of the diary. When he has written on unpaginated reverse sides of the pages, they have been assigned numbers with the initial 'v.' (verso) in editorial square brackets. Thus the reverse side of p. 205 becomes **[**205 v.**]**. Page numbers provided by Strindberg are placed in the upper right corner; page numbers of the verso pages appear in the upper left corner.

Strindberg's pagination of the diary is inconsistent. Three numbers have been used twice (122, 141, 286). Duplicated page numbers are identified by adding letters in editorial square brackets, for example 122 **[**a**]** and 122 **[**b**]**. In addition Strindberg has skipped over p. 171 (172 follows directly after 170) and left a gap in the pagination between 172 and 193. Most likely he misread 172 as 192.

Text in the original that cannot be deciphered is indicated by 'illegible deletion' in editorial square brackets.

Most of the diary's text was written in black ink; red ink was used on a few pages. Later changes are made in ink, lead pencil, colored pencils or India ink. Changes made in black ink are not identified typographically. Text written in lead pencil is given in italics. Features that are difficult to identify in italics (punctuation marks and such) are also marked with shadowing. Text in colored pencil is given in boldface. Material crossed out using various writing utensils is indicated accordingly.

Text in German, French and Latin has not been translated.

Newspaper articles and other documents in Swedish, German or French that are attached to the text have likewise not been translated.

Strindberg's occasionally erratic spelling of the names of historical figures has not been corrected. Among the variants that appear are 'Gogiun' for Gauguin and 'Pzbyzbyzchewski', 'Pzybyzcewski', 'Pbzybyszewsky', 'Pby' and 'Pnzy' for Przbyszewski. What appear to be spelling errors have also been retained, such as 'kectograph' for 'hectograph', along with erratic punctuation and the inconsistent use of quotation marks.


Translated by Rochelle Wright

**IMAGES**

August Strindberg (1849–1912).

1. Photo from 1896, the year Strindberg started writing his Occult Diary. (Photo: Samuel Moses Marcus, Ystad. Kungliga biblioteket.)

2. Experimental self-portrait, Stockholm, 1906, taken with Strindberg's Wunderkamera. (Photo: August Strindberg. Nordiska museets arkiv.)

3. *The Occult Diary*. The red outer cover of August Strindberg's Occult Diary. Below the title "The Occult Diary" ("Ockulta Dagboken" in Swedish) Strindberg noted the years he kept the diary, from 1896 to 1908. Inside the outer cover are an inner cover, a parchment cover, a title page and 282 loose folio pages, inconsistently paginated 1–302.

At the bottom of the outer cover, Strindberg wrote: "This Diary must never be published! This is my last will! which must be obeyed! It may remain with the heir who is most worthy of keeping it! and never given out on loan! Might be deposited with the Swedenborg Congregation! (The New Church.) / 7 March 1908. August Strindberg." (Photo: Mats Landin. Nordiska museet.)

4–5. Two pages from the diary:

P. 205 v. (June and August 1904), with large parts of the text crossed out by Strindberg. The readable text commences: "Now I recollect a number of minor incidents from the beginning of my relationship with Harriet." (Photo: Kungliga biblioteket.)

P. 253 (26 March 1907): "Gloomy, horrible, imperfect, everything!" Below is a drawing by Strindberg. (Photo: Mats Landin. Nordiska museet.)

Strindberg in Paris in the late 1890s, among occultists and alchemists.

6. Frida Uhl, Strindberg's second wife. They were married in 1893 in Germany; their daughter Kerstin was born in 1894. They parted ways in Paris in late 1894 and never met again. Strindberg visited his daughter in Austria in 1896. (Photo: Kungliga biblioteket.)

7. Lithograph of Strindberg by Edvard Munch, 1896. (Photo: Peter Segemark. Nordiska museet.)

8. Kerstin Strindberg, 1899. (Photo: Kungliga biblioteket.)

9. August Strindberg's essay *Introduction à une Chimie unitaire*, printed in Paris, 1895. (Photo: Kungliga biblioteket.)

10. The French occultist magazine *L'Initiation*, April 1896, with articles by Eliphas Lévi, Papus, Strindberg and others. (Photo: Kungliga biblioteket.)

11. Alchemy. A sample of Strindberg's "gold" from the supplement to the Occult Diary. (Photo: Kungliga biblioteket.)

12. Association Alchimique de France, Strindberg's membership card, "membre Honoraire et Maître", signed by François Jollivet-Castelot. (Photo: Kungliga biblioteket.)

13. An article on Strindberg in the French magazine *L'Hyperchimie. Revue Mensuelle d'Alchimie, d'Hermetisme et de Médicine Spagyrique*, May 1998, published by La Société Alchimique de France. (Photo: Kungliga biblioteket.)

14. The laboratory of La Société Alchimique de France. The third man from the left is Strindberg's contact François Jollivet-Castelot. (From François Jollivet Castelot, *La Science Alchimique*, 1904. Photo: Stockholm University.)

August Strindberg in Lund, 1896–1899.

15. August Strindberg, Lund, 1897. Original photo by Lina Jonn, Lund. (Photo: Anna Danielsson. Nationalmuseum.)

16. Strindberg, Adolf Strömstedt and Waldemar Bülow. Photo from the automat "Bosco," Lund, 1897. Strindberg is wearing his "brown cloak (penitential garb)" (cf. the diary, p. 140). (Photo: Strindbergsmuseet.)

17. Åke Hansson's restaurant, sometimes called 'Åke Hans', in Lund. Drawing by Arthur Högstedt, 1899, in *Svenska Dagbladet*, 21 February 1899. (Photo: Stockholm University.)

August Strindberg in Stockholm, 1899–1908.

18. The actress Harriet Bosse as The Lady in Strindberg's drama *To Damascus*, 1900. Original photo by Herman Hamnqvist. (Photo: Strindbergsmuseet.)

19. Strindberg in the apartment at Karlavägen 40 in Stockholm, where he lived with his third wife Harriet Bosse in the early 1900s. Original photo by Anton Blomberg. (Photo: Strindbergsmuseet.)

20. Strindberg in a red heart. Drawing by Harriet Bosse, July 1901. (Photo: Kungliga biblioteket.)

21. Harriet Bosse with their daughter Anne-Marie, born in 1902. (Photo: Strindbergsmuseet.)

22. "The Red House!", Karlavägen 40. Postcard from Strindberg to Harriet Bosse, June 1904. (Photo: Andrea Davis Kronlund. Kungliga biblioteket.)

The Intimate Theater in Stockholm, 1907–1910.

23. Strindberg at the dress rehearsal of *After the Fire* at the Intimate Theater. Drawing by Gunnar Widholm in *Stockholms Dagblad*, 6 December 1907. (Photo: Strindbergsmuseet.)

24. August Falck, director and actor at the Intimate Theater. Falck was 25 years old when the theater opened. (Photo: Strindbergsmuseet.)

25. The Intimate Theater had approximately 160 seats. Replicas of two paintings by Arnold Böcklin, The Island of the Living (Die Lebensinsel) and The Island of the Dead (Die Toteninsel), were hung on either side of the stage. (Photo: Strindbergsmuseet.)

# **THE OCCULT DIARY PARIS 1896 – STOCKHOLM 1908**

*August Strindberg*

Notre-Dame de Paris

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Gorgones, Striges, Tarasques, Guivres, Gargouilles.

Outer cover

Kipling:

 The Conversion of Aurelian Mc Goggin (Plain Tales from the Hills I) In the Land of Dreams. (The Day's Work I.) The Disturber of Traffic [Many Inventions] The Finest Story in the World [Many Inventions] The Phantom Rickshaw [Wee Willie Winkie] The Mark of the Beast [Life's Handicap] The Dream of Duncan Parrenness [Life's Handicap].

*Esus ou Hesus dieu de la guerre chez les Gaulois*

 Diary. (Cf. Supplement to the Occult Diary.) The Occult

 Plays:

Hagar

Prose: 1896 – 1897 – 1898 – 1899 – 1900 – 1901 – 1902. **[**illegible deletion**]** 1903. – 1904 – 1905 – 1906. – 1907.

 Types: 1908. – Divorce W.

> ∆ιυορσε **[**Divorce**]** Μαριαγε **[**Mariage**]** Κλοστερ **[**Cloister**]**.

[This Diary belongs to the Publishing house of Albert Bonnier by virtue of a contract of sale of 22nd October 1907; but with the option for me to repossess it for 2000 Crowns.]

 Cancelled by enclosed letter from Bonnier 1 Feb. 1908.

 This Diary must never be published! This is my last will! which must be obeyed! It may remain with the heir who is most worthy of keeping it! and never given out on loan! Might be deposited with the Swedenborg Congregation! 7 March 1908. August Strindberg. (The New Church.) 123

**[Inner cover and spine]**

Inner cover and spine

entiel "En 1867 . . . j'annoncai dans un article intilulé De l'Athéisme providentiel provid providentiel que Dieu allait se cacher pour contraindre les hommes à mieux le le chercher."

Parchment cover

 Jean Wallon.

\*

 "Orgueil, Vertu qui inspire les grandes oeuvres." Wiertz.

to be deposited after my death with Professor Axel Herrlin in Lund in order subsequently to become the property of my children.

> **August Strindberg Lund 19 June 1899.**

"Car quoique je sois libre à l'égard de tous, je me suis assujetti à tous, afin de gagner plus de personnes. J'ai été comme Juif avec les Juifs, afin de gagner les Juifs; avec ceux qui sont sous la loi, comme si j'eusse été sous la loi, afin de gagner ceux qui sont sous la loi; avec ceux qui sont sans loi comme si j'eusse été sans loi, afin de gagner ceux qui sont sans loi. J'ai été avec les faibles comme si j'eusse été faible afin de gagner les faibles; je me suis fait tout à tous . . . I Corinth.

The key to this Diary, including all its signs is to be found in Eliphas Levi: La Clef des Grands Mystères, Paris 1861. (Germez-**[**Bail**]**lière)

"L'amour physique est la plus perverse de toutes les passions fatales C'est l'anarchiste par excellence; il ne connaît ni lois, ni devoi**[**r,**]** ni verité, ni justice. . . . C'est une folie furieuse; . . . C'est l'ivre**[**sse**]** anthropophage de Saturne qui veut devenir père pour avoir des enfants à dévorer." [Eliphas Levi.]

**[Title page]**

"Ne fais plus cela!"

Aengstlich ruft die Mutter: springe wiederholt und

Aber hüte dich zu fliegen! freier Flug ist dir versagt.

nach Belieben,

 Swedenborg.

 Sulfur Flame Spiritus. 

 Mercury Natura Aqua. 

 The Lion Fire The Bull Earth The Eagle Air. 

l'esprit soit sauvé au jour du Seigneur Jesus"

opened. [Flowers. Butterflies etc.]

round?) Quincke's Wellenspiegel.

number of its protective range!]

 or × 1,75 

The breakwater with oil on the water.

conversations held with Professor Herrlin.

123

light. and to be double with poorly adjusted focus.

A lightning conductor's efficacy over: a cone with its point as Apex and its height × 2 as radius of the Cone's base. 

of Lund or to both! They are the only ones who understand it.

An explanation of this diary can be found in letters to Torsten Hedlund and in

After my death this diary passes to Torsten Hedlund or Professor Axel Herrlin

The Lord's Spirit rests in the North Country. 'Voici ceux qui sortent vers

le pays de l'Aquilon.' Zechariah. 6, 8.

 Book of Dzyan. 

 Salt Mater Sanguis. Ezekiel 13, 18 ff. 

 If God has spoken, why is the Universe not convinced? Shelley.

Diary

from

February 1896 to – – –

 If you wish to get to know the invisible, observe the Visible with an open gaze. (Talmud.)

"J'ai ordonné qu'un tel homme soit livré à Satan pour la destruction de la chair; afin que

To construct a mirror which turns the world the right way round so that our eyes may be

(What is the name of the cylindrical mirror which reflects distorted figures the right way

A reading glass which produces Galton pictures from photographic portraits. Needs weak

The lightning rod is the steel point (rapier) which conjures up elementary spirits. [Seek the

 Memo. 1. Corinth. 5, 5. 1. Tim. 1, 20. 2. Tim 4, 14. "Entre lesquels sont Hymenée et Alexandre que j'ai livré à Satan afin qu'ils apprennent par ce châtiment à ne plus blasphémer. The Sign language of the deaf and dumb and the hands of man. (gestures)

# **[Title page]**

Title page

To construct a mirror which turns the world the right way round so that our eyes may be opened. [Flowers. Butterflies etc.]

(What is the name of the cylindrical mirror which reflects distorted figures the right way round?) Quincke's Wellenspiegel.

A reading glass which produces Galton pictures from photographic portraits. Needs weak light. and to be double with poorly adjusted focus.

The lightning rod is the steel point (rapier) which conjures up elementary spirits. [Seek the number of its protective range!]

The breakwater with oil on the water.

A lightning conductor's efficacy over: a cone with its point as Apex and its height × 2 as radius of the Cone's base. 

$$\begin{array}{c} \text{Apex and its height} \times 2 \\ \text{or} \\ \times 1,75 \end{array}$$

An explanation of this diary can be found in letters to Torsten Hedlund and in conversations held with Professor Herrlin.

After my death this diary passes to Torsten Hedlund or Professor Axel Herrlin of Lund or to both! They are the only ones who understand it.

 Providential occurrences:

Hôpital Saint Louis saved me from the Salon life of Paris –

Émile Gautier's Article Strindberg Chimiste in Le Figaro appeared just when I had been criticized in Paris for Le Plaidoyer d'un Fou.

Cherbuliez's Article in Revue des Deux Mondes reached Brünn just when my need was greatest.

Revue des Deux Mondes' Second Article by Heidenstam came just when there was a move to discredit me at Madame Charlotte's in Paris.

Mac Carthey in Fortnightly reached Friedrichshagen just when everything had collapsed behind me in Sweden.

The sailing trip from Stenbro with the Larssons. The storm that broke out so inexplicably.

NB! The blowpipe that fell to bits and got mislaid.

 The tubes and their cases.

Maurice de Marsan. Emile de Doloire. **1.** Moved into Orfila 21 February 1896. The bolides over Madrid fell on February 10th. When did the war between Spain and America break out? In the Spring of 1898! Cf. The meteor in Finland after the Russification. Rue de Fleurus. 1 July (7th) 1690. A S. J.A.S. C.O.S. The rainbow: The dyer's sign. Take note of Everything: L'animal voit mais ne regarde pas. Nervousness, hysteria = Words! Natural explanations. Repetitions: The microscope: The walnut. The Christmas rose. The crab. The six of hearts. [6 = work and Strife] Mrs. Frumerie and the Veil. The coals. Giants. Dwarfs. Ovid. The Staffa Grotto. The kobold burst in the Sun as trolls do. The pillow. The mandragora. Verlaine. The Pillow, The Cricket, The Phonograph, Horse hair. Uhl. Aloys. Dorn|ach| Gedankenübertragung. Madhouse: God. Cæsar. (Shakespeare.) Arlberg's death. The instincts: Neglected visits. Battles. Dangers avoided. The terminated acquaintanceship The black poodle in Luxembourg. Envoûtement. Der Böse Mann Filiger. The extension of the soul. The Ferkel. Segelke. Dreams. I am walking along the street between two persons talking to each other and feel uncomfortable as though there were a thread between them. Or between the master and his dog. Between husband and wife. Your voice when you wake yourself up by screaming – C O S: Ecballium Elaterium. In Brünn when my soul had left my body. N S on the Silver plate of Iodine Sulfur Nils Strindberg. The carnassial tooth = the horse's hoof fell after much noise during the night. The dog in Munch's yard. The magic whip in Luxembourg. Swedenborg: Seraphita, 29 March Sunday, l'Initiation Sédir. Swedenborg. At the Police Inspector's. The ghost on the window pane: Rue l'Abbé Grégoire: from Salzburg. Stockenström. The pond at Versailles. Boschkitscheff – portraits – the old men – Francis Schlatter. – Where are we at night? Good Friday. At the dinner table. "Sind Sie nicht gekreuzigt? – Es ist ja Charfreytag! – He complained of Schlafsucht and that he had slept all day until 6(!) o'clock. At Café Versailles: the drawing of the house in Ystad. " – Uhl in the window When you cry out in your sleep it sounds as though your voice were coming from the underworld. 1896. Paris. The deck of cards. Dreams. Kinnekulle. The Dominican monastery in Sthlm. The song when mother died. 123

1896

The iron wire round my foot. in the Luxembourg Gardens. = P.S.I. (= Phosphorus, Sulfur, Iodine.) = 190 + 7 (½ Az) = Au

Uhl in the window. 2 female destinies: Lead = Sulfur – Iodine.

29 March. Rameaux. Palm Sunday

Char-Freytag: 3 April.

Easter Day: 5 April.


### Germany.

### Granite and Gneiss:

Schwarzwald, Harz, Erzgebierge, Fichtelgebirge, Böhmerwald.

Gneiss Micaceous schist.

Schwarzwald Erzgebirge, Böhmerwald.

Devonian, Silurian, Cambrian

Harz, Thüringerwald, Frankenwald

Carboniferous and Rothliegendes.

Bohemia, Chenniér, Zwickau.

Trias and Dyas Göttingen, Kassel, Würzburg

 Cretaceous Jurassic.

Die Rauhe Alp, Tübingen, Donauwörth . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

Schwabian Jurassic or Frankish

The Bavarian Alps

Cretaceous and Jurassic

Cretaceous  Lippe, Svest, Salzburg, Rügen.

Tertiary.

Lake Constance, München Augsburg. Merseburg Weissenfels, Altenburg Halle, Glogau, Frankfurt a.d. Oder, Stettin

Lit a fire: the birds

Birds are nesting in my chimney; and chirp so that it can be heard in the room. The sound of the cricket in my pillow. The sound of grasshoppers in general; has always sounded to me as though it came from an empty underground chamber with a powerful echo (ventriloque.) Cf. The sound in a seashell; Nonnengeräusch = Bruit du diable.

Sunday May 17: Visited La Morgue: On entering I saw Hjalmar Hirsch lying behind the glass window (Of course it was not him); thereupon I saw Allan Österlind. [Hirsch died the following year]

During the night between the 17th and 18th I dreamt that the late Rudolf Wall gave me a large silver coin the size of a 5 franc piece but whiter. I asked what sort of silver it was – He replied that it was American. The following day the 18th I received a letter from America in which the Draftsman Westergren wrote that he had been looking for my address for the Chicago exhibition with a 3,000 dollar order for a biography of Leif Erikssen (Discoverer of America.)

The American engineer's letter which had been chasing me for a month.

The red-nosed man at the Brasserie Lilas when I knocked

over the Absinthe – My hat blew off. – The green soap.

Letters from Vienna, and telegram. dated Vienna: 10th, 12th, 16th\* On May 20th I dreamt that Jonas Lie was handling a gilded pendulum clock in circumstances which I have forgotten. On the 21st I read in the journal L'Aube about Erik Lie praising Mons Lie. On the 22nd I walked along Boulevard St. Michel deep in thought. Stopped in front of a watchmaker's window and said to myself: Look there's Jonas Lie's pendulum clock. The date dial pointed to 13 or 14 August gone, pecking on the windowsill.

The woman whose clothes were moving in the wind while I walked in complete calm.

23 May. Found a twig in Luxembourg. Cf. earlier page where I found

a . (The rune Mader = Man) Frey, was my Rune in the Runa Society.

Back home one of the male catkins from among the walnut catkins had been destroyed during cleaning; and had disappeared. The handle of my coffee pot broke. (The eyeglasses yesterday evening.)

A letter on the key shelf: "Dr. Bitter Schmulochowsky, Vienna." Registration form beside it; evidently arrived yesterday.

Saw a bright light shining in Luxembourg (workers mending the gas main) bodes well!

Dreamt the night before Whit Sunday: harassed threatened with imprisonment by a minor railway official's son who had teeth like fish hooks. Saw Eliasson and Pharmacist Wikström (†). Outside my window in the morning a straw like this lay across the zinc box in which I cultivated gold: . ∆, δελτα **[**D, delta**]**. = 4.

Whitsunday = 11 a.m. There's a buzzing in the lock of my door as though a large moth were caught in it.

Night between the 24–25th I dreamt about Mme Saint-Cère all night.

On the morning of the 25th went straight to Quai Conti; picked Théâtre de la nature from the only open bookstore; looked up gold; how it is collected in French rivers on sheepskin. Cf. Colchis, le Toison d'or. (Cf. "In Rome": Jason and the Golden Fleece!) As well as old gold deposits in Bouconville and Rumigny.

26 May. Went and looked at "Jonas Lie's pendulum clock". The date dial showed the 13th of August. Back home the missing male catkin from the walnut tree lay beside the other catkin

On Dr. Bitter's first letter it said MD The following day he was addressed Ph.D. but also got a letter with Marjan (Marchand) Bitter, in other words a false name. This day a halo with a cross was visible above Bourges. Cf. the Dreyfus trial and Bourges.

=

# 1896.

**4.**


\*\* NB! Today Sunday is the Fête Sacré Coeur!

Bells were rung in Montmartre! So that they could be heard here! There was a shining yellow sequin on the stone heart!

# 1896. **5.**

(Cont. fr. p. 4.)

Sunday June 14. 12:45. The cuckoo called; could be heard in my room at 60 rue d'Assas; which is impossible.

Grand Prix de Paris today. A letter this evening from Lermina that Berthelot has acknowledged my Gold synthesis! D.O.M.

Monday the 15th: Went down to Crédit Lyonnais this morning. When I had arrived at the quay this side of Pont des Saints Pères it shook under my feet – NB! Pont des Saints-Pères is known to shake. But how can the quayside shake before one has set foot on the bridge? The motion can still be felt in the Louvre courtyard, and today I felt it up in Avenue de l'Opéra.

Is Paris undermined by sewers, gas, water and telephone wires pipes and catacombs. | Found a Divining rod . = signifies Typhoon.**\***

Outside St. Germain Church I met a hearse, thereupon 2 Madonna statues. One of them was kneeling, looking heavenwards and praying.

NB! Yesterday Sunday I bought a glass sphere (paper weight) with the Madonna of Lourdes. She stands in a niche; the back of the niche unintentionally providing a head of Christ, like this . \* Fifna is Slewinsky's dog.

The artilleur: L'Eclair. The Sun. Fifna:\* the gold.

Wednesday 17th Found two intertwined lead markers as previously in Meudon. Inscription unclear.

Thursday: 18th News item that Pzbybyzchewski has been arrested for murdering his wife. Soot in my Absinthe.

Saturday 20: The night before Saturday dreamt of a blue silk letter.\*\*

At Munch's Uddgren said that he woke up at 6 a.m. yesterday Friday morning

and saw Pzybyzcewski hanged in prison (suicide.). Found the third cleft stick = divining rod in eight days (?) But Ψ is Psi Υ is Ypsilon = Was it Pzyby…

This evening after many anxious days Thorsten Hedlund's letter arrived in a

blue\*\* envelope (see the dream above!) It was friendly and comforting!

[He had been in Stockholm. Probably met

Mörner who had broken off the correspondence]

At Madame Charlotte's in the evening my coat got caught in a noose! Sunday 21: The Wafer with the Cross worked *on Schmulachoffsky*.

Monday: Found a gilt pin with an fake pearl –

Tuesday 23: Found a large darning needle. – fished up a gold heart from the gold bath. Saw a hind! above Luxembourg Gardens which nodded to me. in the South-**[**west**]**East (Danube!)

Night of Tuesday–Wednesday: Subjected to Lions which turned into Sphinxes, dark ones. Finished Le Noyer! 24 Wed

Thursday I was at Papus'. That morning L'Eclair had the ghost story in Valence. During the night of Thursday–Friday I dreamt that I was at father-in-law Uhl's in Vienna; had a new pince-nez and new top hat while waiting for Frida in the street. Cf. ελιας **[**Elias**]** with cancer of the tongue; the free thinker (forgotten his name) Lennstrand who died of an affliction of the tongue; also Forssberg, the bookkeeper; cf. my hands. Friday: bought a rosary. 25 Thurs.

Ypsilon is Pythagoras' sign; Symbolizes the path to Evil and Good **\***


— \* this word means: cane! Seemed to dream that Hans, my son, was beaten by his mother, which distressed me so that I wished to forget it. Later my mother-in-law in Klam told me that in Gmunden Frida had caned Kerstin because she did not want to eat meat.

Moved out of hôtel Orfila on Sunday July 19 after a dreadful night. Moved in to 4 rue de la Clef. Corner of rue Censier. See the enclosed from a newspaper Two days of peace. Then anxiety! The attack during the night between Thursday–Friday 23–24. (?) Fled to Dieppe: The iron ore stones = the heart, three – ; the cross.

The night between Saturday and Sunday the big attack: on Sunday the 26th Jardin des Plantes was ravaged, the balloons were brought down, Elisée Reclus was injured; this same night the man Pieska in Berlin killed himself by Hara-kiri, slitting open his stomach. This was the day Andrée was due to make his balloon ascent to the pole.

Left Dieppe on Tuesday July 28. Arrived in Ystad Thursday 30. Had my attack during the night between 30th and 31st. Repeated less severely the following nights: at 2 a.m.; 12 a.m.;. The night between Saturday–Sunday 1 and 2 August no attack but I woke at 3:30 although well and rested.

On Saturday August 1 I read V. Rydberg: Germanic Mythology and felt released. About Brighu.

Sunday Aug 2 the telephone pole sings; I approach it to listen; there was a horseshoe lying at the foot of the pole in the grass by the ditch.

Dr E–n gave me Strophantus, but I merely licked the cork. [Cf. Hector Malot: Docteur Claude. p. 383. Strophantine amène la mort par la paralysie du muscle cardiaque. Il ne produit sur la fibre musculaire du coeur aucune altération appréciable… il échappe aux réactifs…

Friday 7th night: Severe attack at 2 a.m. "Luthardt, the drug merchant."

De Laval's portrait. Rembrandt in Berlin. The Bent Pyramid.

Rosenberg's chemistry with extraction of gold from copper pyrite. Tuneld's geography. Skipta Litum. The embryology of walnuts.

The night between Monday–Tuesday 10–11 up and out to Dr. Ekstéen.

Wednesday the 12th Album. A l B u M.

Thursday August 13. Restless. Also at night (Cf. 'Jonas Lie's pendulum clock' which showed August 13.) [But Frida's good letter was written on the 13th

hence my decision to renew contact.]

from a calendar, showing 13th August **\***

Friday 14th found this torn-off leaf.

\*

S. 15. S. 16. M. 17. T. 18. W. 19. Th. 20. Fr 21. S. 22. S. 23. M. 24. T. 25. W. 26. Th. 27. Fr 28

Friday August 28 left Ystad. The 29th fr. Malmö. In Berlin evening the 29th.

In Tabor the night between the 29th and 30th . In Saxen Monday 30th, Tuesd. 31st. || Sept. 8th Tante M. saw Unicorne]

In Klam 1st September – Wednesday. || 8 September Mariæ Geburtstag: The old woman with the dead hen; blood stain on my floor. 2 crows to the left. 2 Slovaks with red caps; bought a knife. 3 pigs in the field.

Dreamt at night that there was a fire stain on the wall. Examined and found that it was an electrical wire.

5th Threw Aspasia's portrait into the sewer. Terrible weather, deluge; over Klam; the rotten bridge was swept away in Sluchtweg. Dogs keep guard at Schluchtweg. The cloud over the house in Klam. Lightning struck in the neighboring village and burnt half of it down.

26th August 27th \* Earthquake on Iceland,

26th July 27th : The crash rue de la Clé. Jardin des Plantes, André

26th April 27th Theosophists' congress in America

26th June 27th Bought Rosary – the row with Munch, Stindberg

26th May 27th : The family in Orfila; Mlle Lecaisne. 27th Notary Portefin.

# 1896. **8.**

### Klam September 8th Mariæ Geburtstag.

The landscape identical with the one I saw in my Zinc basin at the hotel Orfila.

Cf. The basin in Ystad where spires and the city skyline (Munich) Swedenborg description of hell: resembles in every respect: Klam. Hell is among Mountains, Hills, Valleys, Plains, with caves Lost souls cannot abide daylight or pure air. Vanity, hate, envy.

Lund! Absolutely Lund from Hospital Road. Schlosskeller The grottoes {(Schlucht)

Sloping caves (the grotto!), arches, cellars (the Schlosskeller) among dilapidated buildings. The brewery – Where the punishments are less severe one can see huts, streets, squares, houses etc.

Others with Dragons and vermin. Gloomy forests.

Fires of Hell: awaken passions which are never satisfied, flare up anew; sinful lusts are kindled, in order to be frustrated and punished.

When the heavenly light reaches lost souls a deathly chill flows through their veins and their blood congeals.

Lost souls resemble the passions: hate, envy, contempt for others, malice. To each other they appear in human form but in the light of heaven they have an horrible cadaverous appearance.

Some of them black, others like burning fires, others with warts and boils; some a tuft of hair in their face; others with bones without skin, others only one row of teeth. Fighting, quarrelling, raw voices. || Seekers of sensual delight, glory and riches. Which are indeed obtained, only to be lost again. They wander around lonely and gloomy, they hunger and have nothing to eat; they enter the hovels and ask for work, but when given it, they leave and are tormented with dissatisfaction. Once inside, the door is locked and they have to toil for food and clothes; given a whore for company

Despair, hatred of goodness and God.

"In the northerly region of the spirit world . . . a spirit with boils on his face, a square cap over his eyes, his chest distended, his thighs burned, heels instead of feet – – –

Another: with a Papal mitre with a snake; face and hands with Kräze; his feet zwei Ottern.

Hell's birds: Ochim and Ijim. A fire donkey with red snakes.

"These fools should only be approached from the East, lest we come within range of the miasma of their fantasies and our eyes be dazzled

Their eyes green, voices like howling of the wind, covered with Snail Slime.

The Tenets of Hell:

Craving for power out of vanity; Love of the property of others out of Worldly desire; Love of Dissipation.

The Tenets of Heaven:

Craving for power for good ends; Love of possessions and gold for their beneficial uses; Love of matrimony.

\*

In our hands the angels see Was der Mensch geistig untersucht.

**[8 v.]**

**NB!** *10 September 1896.*  **\***

 **Cf. The Dreyfus trial.**

# 1896. **9.**

Klam September 9th, 1896. The fire brigade on drill squirted water on my house so that I had to close the windows.

Mist. Walked to Schluchtweg, which is guarded by two dogs. A grease horn hung on the door of the shed; beside it stood a broom. After that a Pigsty resembling a Columbarium (Read Dante.)

Cf. Picture of St. Florian on the walls; St. F protects against fire!

À coeurs vaillants rien d'impossible! Jacques Le Coeur. Jeanne d'Arc. Three cottages: The house The black hen without tail-feathers and with a cock's comb = [Satanism: see Cabbala] The saw mill with Impatiens on the chute. The rocks by the entrance = The gold sand = . The Old Woman and Old Man: Charles VII. 6 = bad number

Mica Christ on the Cross.

The rushing of the water. – The flood the days before. The bridge swept away. Klam undamaged, but Münzberg was burnt. The Gold circular dispatched. The rocks which threaten to crash down; under the Madonna and child.

Klam the 9th I leave the rose-colored room at Tante Melanie's. I saw this rose color in Malmö when I woke up in the morning. Saw it in Berlin in the morning; and in Tabor. Red ink in Saxen, Red paper for Tutulus. Cobalt Nitrate everywhere.

" . The Sacrament = kneeling; the bell:

Reached Saxen: Felt immediately that I would not remain there.

Altered; the lamp; the inkwell; mosquitoes; the cries of animals; cows. Pigs, calves; hens; children; the portraits; unease in the room; Frida had lived there. At night [a hornet entered as I wrote this]; vermin; creaking furniture. The smell of rotten purine; sulfuric ammonia and carbon sulfur.

The previous evening: Kerstin in the meadow driving a young white bull with a whip, alone in the middle of the herd. [The churchyard: Grossvater's monument!

The morning of 10th September. I went to look for the Ravine. Difficulties. The man who was hiding. Stink of excrement. The wife feeding the pigs; the bad-tempered dog; the bridge swept away; had to turn back. The entrance as though to Dante's Inferno. The acorn fell; a cross inside it. Cf. The oaks in Klam. Impatiens everywhere. The floors sway; the furniture also. Not a cork in a bottle; not a glass to be bought. The bathtub too small; Ammonium chloride; the wash stand αβδερα **[**Abdera**]** [[10th Sept. Cyclone in Paris. **\* See preceding**


11 September 1896. Walked to Schluchtweg in the mist. The beautiful girl with the iron fork .

Three pictures on the miller's house.

a) A Saint.

Saint Florian who protects against fire.

b). The Father and the Son with the globe

c.)

Sundial cocking a snook. Oak leaves. Two birds.

Crowned pigeons with Kropf.

Dreamt last night about Sarah Bernhard. And about Björklund of Allehanda. NB! The black Jackdaw in Klam follows the corpse to the grave. Why do they live in churches.

κερστι **[**Kersti**]** and her look; pain in her heart; located it in her finger; screamed. Her expression the day before: μουττερ **[**Mutter**]**, λοοστομ **[**Looström**]**, βρα῾μ **[**Brahm**]**, v. ῾ολτεν **[**v. Holten**]**. || Mass for Urgrossvater ||.

Saturday the 12th. Visited Schluchtweg, but first prevented by old women and cattle from going elsewhere. The footbridge was slippery from moisture.

The dog. The white miller.

13th September. Bought 500 white cigarette papers. Among these in the middle of the pack a rose-colored one! Cf. **There were several** The two suicides in Ystad after my departure.

17th at night; mild attack; the church clock struck 13.

19th September. Letter from Hedlund about the Cyclone in Paris. Letter from Orfila. [Dreamt of Hans Forssell

Had heard a noise in the attic last night. Went up there.\* Saw spinning wheels and a sewing-machine. Opened a bench lid; saw four black sticks making a pentagram; rearranged them better.

\* With my Dalmatian knife. The point was bent for no reason.

The night after this a storm broke out at midnight and lasted until 2. [Earlier in the day I had described the cyclones in Paris in a letter to Hedlund not without some qualms.]

22nd 23rd Dreamt about Frida young radiant in a boy's cap; I asked if I might introduce her to a relative of mine. [about H. Hirsch.] 22nd: φοργερ **[**Forger**]** . . .

23rd: likewise. – The dog Feldman "knocked" on my door three times and got me out. The crash! – Found a Queen of Hearts. – Kerstin's strange behavior this evening. The night before the 24th: Dreamt about Kerstin again. (She was loving toward me in the

morning.) An eagle hacked at my hand as a reprimand for – ? –

 A walnut profile resembling the black stone head in the wall of Saxen Church.

Friday 25th September. Moved to Klam. The firewood shop. Adverse premonitions. Heavy heart. – The house is No 36.

NB! Received a rose-colored letter from Tout-Paris.

My father-in-law Uhl's brother-in-law (Tiehl) died in the room I am now occupying.

It is extraordinary that the view from my window is exactly the landscape I saw in my Zinc basin in Paris in the month of June (see my album and letter to Th. Hedlund.) Hills with a fir tree outline – and then a plain with outlines of deciduous trees.

26th Sept. Found two Tarot cards which I had already rejected in Saxen. They were numbered X and XVI.

No. XVI represented a) a Gipsy woman reading the palm of an Italian woman, next to an Italian man. b) Two Turks with loaded rifles prepared to shoot. Palms and Pyramids in the background.

No. X. a) A farmer sits in a landscape with a fir tree; next to him a sack. A woman turns her back on him. b) A female wine-harvester with her hand on her heart listens to a man's declaration.

Letter from Hedlund.

27th Sunday morning. The jackdaw\* followed me squawking from roof to roof outside the village, Klam, and finally settled on a roof, below which a black hare (rabbit). Three crows pursued a sparrow hawk. The jackdaw was first pursued by a redstart, then by a wagtail. **[**Illegible deletion**]** An hour later.\*\* The lock of my door creaks. After which comes I am just about to urinate when the landlord's daughter enters and says that fire has broken out in Saxen – at Eisendorf. I have locked the door. and urinated. More creaking – the same woman enters and asks if I need a scale from the kitchen – during which time her beastly dog a Dachshund sidles in. and pees fouls the floor. I double lock the door. [This promises to be a fine day; started off with sea-damaged coffee which smelt of vinegar.] The lock creaks again.

\* This jackdaw is tame; accompanied its dead master's funeral procession and settled on the coffin by the graveside.

\*\* Tante Diehl lived for 7 years in the house where I now live and her husband died here. On my study wall crumbling plaster looks like a portrait of her main features. I tried copying them on a sheet of paper but failed.

# 1896. **12.**

Sunday 27th. The lock creaks again: the mailman! with D.N. Read in D.N. a) that De Laval has drilled with diamonds searching for metals in "Zinkgruvan", but in vain. b) that an autograph swindler Zanini has been arrested in Barcelona.

In the evening: that de Geer had died. **Cyclone all over France!** υειερσ βarn **[**Weyr's child**]**. sοκκερ῾ακκνινγεν **[**cutting-up of sugar**]**.

The 28th September, Monday. Letter fr. Frida. Crash!



 3o Sägemühle: Tortur:

Die Bäume lebendig

gesägt.

Saturday evening: A woman by the stream when we were about to leave: she had a scarf

over her head but a light band across her forehead with a red circle and a half moon; looked like a blood stain.

Sunday 4th Found the marking on the butterfly Zeuzeria which lives on the horse chestnut. Cf. the Seven of Clubs in my card tricks.

> \* The Ladybug took off and agitated its wings just like the cock on the Church of Notre-Dame des Champs in Paris. After which she flew off North–North– Eastwards.

In the evening: Cyclone clouds: The sunset fiery red with a horrible Goblin to the East West or North. [Paris: proved correct!]

### Monday 5th

Cyclone cloud with Oskar II (or Drachmann) in the north. with hunting hat.

Following night: dreamt of a fire and carrying Kerstin out.

Tuesday 6th Found a Nine of Spades (and a Queen of Clubs.) On 29 April I also found a Nine of Spades which meant death! See April above! Found two (3?) twigs which are old runes = A, A. We shall see.

The Latin abbreviation A.A. means: Augustæ, Augusti, Augustales, Augusta. Apud Agrum, Æs Alienum.

A A A F. Auro Argento\*\* Ære Flando vel Flavo (Feriundo) [It is strange, but the next moment I thought of the Alchemy of Silver into Gold from Stephen in America Daily Mail)

\*\* = Argentaurum

Thursday the 8th Dreary. Kerstin anxious. I found No. VII V. in the morning and No. II in the afternoon. Letter from Nordenskiöld.

My things from Hotel Orfila reached Klam. | On this day Lima in Peru burnt. Cf. Now studying the Sunflower's correspondences: [the Sunflower from Peru.] Friday October 9th. Found a piece of white woolly sheepskin. Le Toison d'Or! Sent Wrangel Nordenskiöld's autograph from Idun, dated October 9th 1880.

Saturday the 10th: Found a decapitated rat.

Sunday the 11th = Letter from John Olsson with a red and gold sign like the waiter's cigarette paper at Orfila. | Toison d'or = red and gold.

Monday the 12 October: Slept in the Red Room (Tante Mélanie's. The curtains have the same markings as the Sunflower's marrow in section. Heard that the Jackdaw has been killed. Also. Two paupers in the asylum. dead.

Tuesday the 13th: Woke up: the Sky was rose-colored. The two paupers were buried this morning. (Feldman!) Saw the Queen of Hearts (une femme douce et aimante; renversée = espoir décu) Dreamt of Ida Molard. | Discovered that the Sunflower comes from Peru (cf. Lima!)

 M.K. Wednesday: 14th Found (?). Crash! Ate a solitary breakfast. Solitary evening. A spider lowered itself onto the table; immediately afterward a mosquito. Two bloodsuckers. [In the night between Wednesday–Thursday Kjerrman at D.N. died.] Hurricane in Skåne! 123

Thursday 15th Received L'Initiation. Goldsynthese. Prager's transl. Starved all day.

Friday 16th Depressed. Anxiety in the evening.

Saturday 17 October. Kerstin fell backward into my room this morning when she was coming in to say good morning. She fell backward again in the road before noon. Boiled albumen, water and iron vitriol and added Ammonia. Got the most beautiful gold I have had.

Three sponges from Cabinet.

Had dreamt last night: Frida had had a play accepted in Munich. Ekborn sat musing about me. Littmansson – Heidenstam.


# 1896. **14.**

Sunday 25th October. Read in Allgemeine Zeitung, Munich, about the false Sistine Madonna probably from Gretor–Langen's Workshop). Having returned to my room I felt that the air was poisonous and at my desk an attack like in Paris. It is probably: Amanuensis Bäckström (Aspasia's brother-in-law) or Pbzy, or Delaval, or the Papusists or the Gold Owners or the Blavatskyites who wish to kill me, either by envoûtement or by gas poisoning.

Monday 26th Crash in Häusel. Repairs. Finished the Article on Gold for the Chemical Society: Dreamt about Nordenskiöld and Palmstruch's Botany.

Tuesday 27th

Wednesd: 28th

Thursday 29th Read in L'Évenèment that I was driven from Paris; by ladies.

Friday 30th. Morning: Red glow: Zodiacal light. My clothes hanger:

Looks like me! Broad across the temples; small chin. Iron crown!

Saturday. 31st Anxiety!

Sunday.: 1 November. Allerheiligen Tag. Beautiful weather; but when the church bells rang at 3 p.m and the ceremony in the cemetery started up with music, a howling gale arose in the midst of the sunshine; and it grew dark. The evening: Verstimmung. Kerstin fell and hurt herself. When I turned off the light. November

Monday: 2 Aller Seelen Tag: Sunrise. With blue and light radiant beams.

Discordances! The Trinity.

Tuesday 3rd morning. Kerstin gave me The Nine of Hearts soaked in water Une réussite {

> Dreamt the preceding night that my late father gave me a gold bracelet. Also: that Nordenskiöld, Stuxberg Lidforss were equipping an expedition. Saw the sky above us with the moon in Zenith and a whole host of moons round about. Luggage in Amstetten.

The evening extremely restless: the wind howled for five minutes; my lamp sang; rattled. Lay down fully dressed. Kerstin woke up, cried out with bad dreams. Night of Tues–Wed. Dreamt that my father gave me a blue packet of cigarette tobacco. Hillberg wanted me to read an article entitled 'Cataplasms'. Which angered me. Wednesday


Monday: Gyldén dead.


# 1896, 1897. **16.**

22nd November – (Cont. fr. Page 15). Prayed to the Eternal One to enlighten me and then opened my Bible. Read: \*of the Evil Spirit which the Eternal One sent to plague Saul; and of David who played for Saul.\*\*

Monday

"

[Had dreamt of Viktor Rydberg last night; I was working with a great many books of Magic and Secret doctrines; fought with demons resembling monkeys and other animals.] \*\* In the afternoon an organ grinder came and played the entire time I wanted to take my afternoon nap. Kerstin stayed with me and would not leave. – At 3:30 p.m. we went down to Tante Melanie. News of Tante Tiehl's fit of madness, which took place while the children were with me. Found an Ace of hearts. [A welcome letter, good news.] The night fairly peaceful. Both candles dripped candle grease! [Death?] 24 November. = Feldmann made a mess and fought with the Cat. Kerstin hit her head. Afternoon: three hours wrestling with attacks. The evening awful. Night restless. Candle grease dripped and landed on my head. 25 November. Turned cold during the night, so that the telegraph wires sang. Clear sunrise with gold-lined and rose-colored clouds. Feldmann came and howled during the night. Accompanied me on my morning walk. Discordances. Cold east wind with bright sun. 26th 27th 28th 28th 29. 30 1st 2nd: 3rd 4th 5th In Dornach; at Schlipizka's. Freezing gale which overturned the postwagon – and rattled my door all night. Left Klam. Slept in Budweis. Slept in Berlin. Evening in Copenhagen with Georg Brandes. "Noises" at the hotel December. Malmö. In Skurup. " " " the 6th of December " Malmö: Der Himmel regnet Kater; the oilcloth; the butter knife. 18th December, Eslöv. left for Helsingborg. 19th " Höganäs. Night at Mollberg and Munthe. 20th " Lund. Sätofta (The day before New Year's Eve; left on January 1st) The fly! Night between 2nd and 3rd. Saw Elisabeth (my Sister) as a small sick child. She drew me away from Kléen's company. A child had been killed and lay in the grass. \* Samuel I. XVI. 14. Et l'esprit de l'Eternel se retira de Saul, et le malin esprit envoié par l'Eternel le troublait. Et les Serviteurs de Saul lui dirent voici maintenant le malin esprit envoié de Dieu te trouble. Que le Roi Notre Seigneur dise à ses serviteurs qui sont devant toi, qu'ils cherchent un homme qui sache jouer du violon et quand le malin esprit envoyé de Dieu sera sur toi il jouera de sa main et tu en seras soulagé Tuesday Wednesday Thursday Friday Saturday Sunday Monday Tuesday Wednesday Thursday. Friday Saturday Sunday – – – " Friday Saturday Sunday 1897: January: – – – –

4th Saw Urgrossmutter in the square this morning. An appalling scene in the window opposite. Two black Dogs chasing each other as I came and as I left **[= Lasciviousness]**

1897



\*| Cf. Alp: the cry I heard in Dieppe. Cf. The paper battered by thundery rain. Car à l'alp el pas.

**[18 v.]**

**[**Cf. p. 19, 21 March**]**

# 1897. **19.**

21 March. Read in the paper that on Thursday 18th a storm had swept over Germany from the Rhine province to Berlin. In Bonn (where the Kaiser had studied) the smokestack of a distillery crashed down killing one person. In Solingen (blades) a girl was killed by lightning; another was paralyzed. In Düsseldorf an electric crane crashed down demolishing a tug. In Aschaffenburg the storm extinguished the railway's signal-lamps thereby causing a train collision. NB! On Tuesday the Victory Monument in Berlin is to be unveiled. Will Germany fall through its arrogance and boastfulness, and France be reinstated by Joan of Arc who has been rehabilitated? Sunday

> Read today and yesterday in Swedenborg about the Spirits on Jupiter and was thereby enlightened in respect of many wonderful things which have happened to me this past year. For instance about Esprits censeurs et correcteurs which torment man from evil to good by means of pains in the hand (NB! my hand affliction) in the foot (see 19 March) or in the epigastric region (stomach catarrh 1883, 84)

Outre la douleur des membres ils emploient un serrement douloureux vers le nombril comme causé par une ceinture piquante; des étouffements de poitrine de temps à autre (angina pectoris) poussés jusqu'aux angoisses; des dégouts pour tout autre aliment que le pain, pendant quelques jours (It all fits!)

When the spirits from Jupiter visit human beings they manifest themselves in the following ways: one is an old man with a white face. [I saw this one at the Hotel Orfila created by my pillow and so vividly resembling a sculpture by Michel Angelo, that I showed it to Herrman, the Painter, who saw it and wanted to draw it.] This means: always speak the truth! always do what is right.

L'autre signe est une face qui se montre à la fenêtre; c'est un ordre pour eux de se retirer. Then Esprits contradicteurs who contradict and spoil what Esprits correcteurs have achieved; manifest themselves as feux volants.

Parmi les Esprits du Globe de Jupiter on en distingue sous le nom de

 Ramonneurs de cheminées parce qu'ils ont en effet la face enfumée et Rauchfangkehrer 123

"

qu'ils paraissent vêtus d'un habillement d'un brun couleur de suye. These wished to enter heaven and considered themselves brown although they were black. Can be compared to larvae about to become ugly chrysalides before bright butterflies.

Cf. Kerstin's fear of the Rauchfangkehrer whom she sometimes saw when he was not there.

In the morning: the lieutenant's dog dug round the root of an apple tree; in the garden; a cat lay in the tree above watching. In the evening when I left Åke Hansson's at 8:15 p.m. house sparrows were chirping under the roof-tiles above the entrance. Back home a dog howled. But in my rooms there was a fragrance which happens occasionally although not often. [Cf. Swedenborg: When Spirits approach there is an aromatic scent.] Theosophy! says: Fragrance at the approach of a Mahatma!

H.P.B.


NB! People who cough or whistle when they meet me in the street. Am I alone in hearing their thoughts.

Frida outside Deutsches Teater – Dörum – *Frida Deutsches Theater*

<sup>1</sup>o Collin and Vistén did not see me at Stora torget. 2o Mårtensson did not see me in Åke's dining room. 3o Waldemar Bülow did not see me at Åke's buffet table. 4o E. Geijerstam did not recognize me in the street. 5o The fox at Holte did not see me (Cf. Flower Paintings and Animal Pieces. 6o I saw the woman at Höganäs disappear. 7o Kromnow's girl friend saw a lady disappear from a railway compartment 8o Sven Bengtsson saw the Numismatist disappear from the street in Lund. 9o My Merganser hunting expedition at Kymmendö when the mergansers did not see me. 10o The herons at Dornach did not see me. 11o The foxes at Holte did not see me 12o Littmansson's mother-in-law did not see me in Versailles. 13o Horse and coachman were invisible at Mölle (Kullen) 14o Herrlin invisible. 15o The morning before my wedding: at the Gambrinus tavern when Emil Carlsson came close and looked me in the face, but did not recognize me and left. 16o Bengt Lidforss did not recognize me in Berlin. 17o In my childhood: Father and the Peach – Wild strawberrypicking at the Vicarage \*\*

# 1897. **21.**


shape. Was soft. Three white teeth in his upper jaw. Only his nose affected. His beard had grown half a line. Dressed in his green field uniform. (magicians!)


\* Jesus Nazarenus Rex Iudeorum. Verte.


# 1897. **23.**


proved to be: Dannemora Mines (!).

= Glaze.

# **[23 v.]**

N. wrote Masque prophète, Roman Corse, Comte d'Essex. "Il fait peu de cas de la gloire, **\* 23.**

ne met au premier rang que l'amour de la patrie (Corse)." **(cont)**

Carghèse, colonie Grecque (in Corsica)

N's brevet de capitaine was granted on 30 August 1792 by Louis XVI who was deposed on 10 August

"Expliquez cela si vous pouvez. – Quel protecteur poussait les affaires de ce Corse? Ce protecteur était le maître éternel." Chateaubr

Corsica = Kyrnos.

Napoleon had only three teeth left when he was disinterred. Just like the Duke of Enghien.

April: Herrlin's crisis. 26th

27th

Night of: dreamt that someone threw a letter card to me from a higher vantage point (the Embankment). In the morning notification of an insufficiently stamped letter card from Berlin (Karl Strecker and Lennart Ribbing:) 28th

April: Met an old woman with a cadaverous face. Strolled down to the Asylum; felt this compression of the chest which I have called the electric girdle. The whole way back I was thinking of Frères Saint-Jean Dieu\*. Was prevented from going home by Möller, the Accountant (with the limp). Back home Balzac's Seraphita lay open on my table and a matchstick pointed to the following: 29th

"Faites pour Dieu ce que vous faisiez pour vos desseins ambitieux, ce que vous faites en vous vouant à un art, ce que vous avez fait quand vous aimiez une créature plus que lui, ou quand vous poursuiviez un secret de la science humaine. Dieu n'est-il pas la science même . . .

\* Portuguese Johannes di Dio or Joh. Ciudad 1495–1550

L'Éclair arrived in the afternoon and Hôpital des Frères Saint Jean de Dieu was mentioned twice in it. (As well as once, the day before yesterday) Which has not happened since I a year and a half ago when Jacques Saint-Cère was a patient there.

Waldemar B. now related that last time he was ill he saw 5 small red "monkeys" with burning eyes and waving tails by his bedside.

Read Sar Peladan for the first time 1 May.

Sunday: Saw the New moon! 2nd "

Monday: Started writing: Inferno. 3 "

The fire at the charity bazaar in Paris! 4 "

The Roc bird gave a sharp warning before he brought the money. 5th

Kléen told me that Jörgen had had terrifying nights following Temptander's death.

May 5th.

Below is a copy of the cover of a notebook I bought in Ystad 1896, on August 12. Three horses leap out of the new moon and the crossbeams signify 3 times 3 lunar orbits years. Which will be May August 12th 1899. [Received today May 5th the Journal of Cultural History from Karlin. "May was considered an unlucky month by the Romans and nobody got married during it. Demons ruled during the last weeks of April and the first 12 days of May.]. Compare June, July, August 1899. The three horses at Furusund. The three penitential years, which were followed by better times. [See below the 12th.] See: the Apocalypse

May 12th is called St. Pancras. Was a Nobleman in Rome for 14 years, sought baptism and was therefore beheaded with a sword This is why a sword and a stool with three legs are on the rune staff.

May 11th St. Mamertus, 12th St. Pancras 13th St. Servatius. In Germany: The three stern lords; Die Wetterherren, The Ice Men, The Wine Thieves.

It remains to be seen if anything will happen on 12th May.

[This is written on 5th May.]

Today May 5th. Visit from pastor Hellqvist. Malaise; backache. When I was trying to sleep after dinner: noise from the ceiling, above: lasting long enough.


As I sat by my desk this morning two jackdaws could be seen alighting on the chimney opposite; they dropped a scrap of paper which a house-sparrow caught in mid-air.

8th "

**\*** 1917; when I shall be 67.

May 9th. Saw Gustav II Adolf (or Sigismund) in the ashes in the tiled stove Letter from Ranft that he wants to buy Master Olof. Read Rheingold by Wagner: Sunday

Wellgunde: Weisst Du denn nicht, Wem nur allein Das Gold zu schmieden vergönnt?

[Cf. G II Adolf was written in 1899–1900 and reached Ranft as The Vasa Story IV. Master Olof was I.]

Woglinde: Nur wer der Minne Macht versagt, nur wer der Liebe Lust verjagt, nur der erzielt sich den Zauber, zum Reif zu zwingen das Gold.

Wellgunde: Wohl sicher sind wir und sorgenfrei: denn was nur lebt will lieben meiden will keiner die Minne.

> Woglinde Am wenigsten er, der lüsterne Alp:

– – – – – – – –

Alberich die Hand nach dem Golde ausstreckend. – – – – –

Das Gold entreiss ich dem Riff, schmiede den rächenden Ring: denn hör'es die Fluth – so verfluch ich die Liebe.

\*

	- A wolf-like dog followed me during the morning. Back home again the Lieutenant's dog was in my room. Letter from Gustaf af Geijerstam that the Dagmar Theater wants to buy Sir Bengt's Wife for 600 Crowns! Evening with Herrlin and Ohlsson. "

# 1897. **27.**

Bought first-class coffee today after having drunk sour chicory for five months. This at noon. In the afternoon I opened Sar Peladan's L'Androgyne at random page 107 and read: "Il se souvint de cette anecdote d'un vieux missionnaire.

"À la fin d'une mission, au premier sermon, le plus décisif, je fus frappé d'impuissance, dès le mot 'mes frères', dans mon cerveau aucune idée, à mes lèvres pas un mot.

"Sainte Vierge – dis-je en mon âme, – je n'ai gardé qu'une faiblesse, ma tasse de café, je vous l'offre", et sitôt l'esprit me revint, je me surpassai et fis grand bien à beaucoup d'âmes." – – – Both my wives know what a devilish role coffee has played in my life.

Tomorrow the 13th will show if I get good coffee to drink, which gives me the ability to work!!

In the evening at Åke's I saw a face resembling Bismarck or S.A. Hedlund on the door Slept badly after having gone to bed sober at 10:30. 13th "

Got wretched coffee in the morning which ruined my nervous system and ability to work for the whole day.

Terrible weather! – In the evening Whiskey; at Mortensen's that night the visions of Zeus and Christ.


16th

600 Crowns from the Dagmar Theater. 17th

Saw Bengt Lidfors' double.

Read in Sar Peladan's Coeur en peine p. 23.

"Croire aux sorts c'était bon vers l'an mil; à l'approche de l'an deux mil un observateur constate cependant que tel individu jouit d'une propriété fatale: enguignonner qui le blesse. On lui refuse une demande, et votre maîtresse vous trompe; ou l'éreinte et vous vous alitez; tout le mal qu'on lui veut vous retourne augmenté. N'importe, le hasard expliquera cette inexplicable coïncidance: le hasard suffit au déterminisme du moderne."


that I must be poisoned!

# 1897. **29.**


Wednesday. W.B. had seen his room full of rats right up to the ceiling. Kléen arrived in Lund. Wistén did not dare to enter the room at Åke's. Brandt speaks of Catholicism. Kléen given the Bible to open. turns up the Epistle to Timothy. 16th

## De himmelska makterna.

Bitalanonen at Comments of the problem of the forming of the formain
 Alber estate in the fine the treated on the form of the formation formation formation formas
 and my pet spondenter.

Senare.) Vid middagstiden i dag hördes ett larm liksom af trumhvirflar genom gatorna. Det var floden, som stigit öfver sina bräddar och forsade genom förstäderna. Stor bestörtning råder bland folket. Trupper ha utkommenderats. För åskådaren var det en sällsam syn att se den gula floden, som på afstånd liknade ett eldhaf, välta sig högt upp öfver stränderna; dånande störtade dess vattenmassor fram, ryckande med sig broar och hus. Träd afbrötos som glas. Folket flydde, och presterna voro samlade på höjderna till bön. Från den svarta himlen sköto då och då blixtar fram, belysande folkskarorna, och genom regnet hördes gråt och skrik, blandade med kommandorop från officerarne.

# 1897. **30.** Germany haunts me. Berliner Herold. Eliasson from the Ferkel. Found a photograph of Mondsee and Frida's letters which I read. Have I wronged her? Yes and no! We were both under the spell of the powers. Dreamt night of the 18th of War between Germany and France – NB! Docent Hans Larsson: Nights of Terror and Broken Leg after defending Fröding. Orgies at Åke's. Rumors that Annie Besant has become a Catholic. Midsummer's Day: Kromnow. Finished Inferno (which was begun on 3rd May.) Letter from Kerstin. The afternoon: a sparrow struck the windowpane as I was writing to Grossmutter about the Benedictines. Looked out of the window and saw two large birds circle a few times before flying southwestward. Saw a landscape looking like this on my table-knife: *More like this* Le camp de Cæsar près St. Thomas. June 17th. " 18th 19th 20th 21st 22nd 23rd 24th 25th 26th Sunday 123

## ﺎ ﺑﺎﻟﻤﺴﺎ En dröm om Andrées ballong.

### Stockholm den 2 juli 1897.

Med största högaktning X.

### June.

The door to the street locked twice. An insect on my hand flew Southwards. Poundings. Noise in the street. It appears that I shall soon be driven out! Where to? Toward the sea; near a lock " 28th

When I woke this morning I saw Herrlin. Seen in perspective he sat as it were next to the tiled stove; visible as through a veil; faintly yellow over white; he looked solemn; wore a pince-nez and every now and then he looked toward me, as though he sat watching over an invalid. It was 6:30 a.m.\* This is the first vision I have had. Remains to be seen if anything has happened to Herrlin!!! When I tore off my calendar leaves four of them were blank. Then 30, 31, 2, 3, 4 July followed, revealing the 5th!**\*** 29th Friday:

A sparrow inside my window. Ate bread and flew off.

\* Herrlin told me that he had been ill when he woke up this morning.

**\* These days are actually missing here!**

5th July: Omens of lubricité all day: Baby swallows; cats; horses, girls: In the evening: driven out of Åke H's by noisy people circling round our table; changed places, but still the same We went to the Gambrinus. Full up inside: accosted by two drunks outside; changed places: found ourselves between the kitchen window from which a foul odor emanated and the sewer grid; the train screeched, rattled; belched out a cloud of stinking smoke which enveloped the whole forecourt in a stench. The clouds in the sunset horrible goblins. Went home and slept peacefully. Monday


Cf. Hans Larsson, tickling sensations.

**5th August.**

**See: Aug. 16th [**16 July**]**


In the evening found a 2 of Hearts (= ½ Four.) Johan Eriksson – (B.L.'s cruelty.) " 22nd


Saturn and Venus are now in the ascendant! Cf. The horoscope Carlheim-Gyllenskiöld made for me in which Saturn and Venus govern. Were they also ascendant on 23 × 24 July last year when I was very nearly killed? [Just as I was writing this Johan Ericsson came and described his illness: He did not fall asleep before dawn for fear of being killed in his sleep Has heard poundings. On the steamer saw a stranger come into Heart trouble the cabin and gaze at E. Shabbily dressed, sparse beard, sunken eyes. [Schumann's Aufschwung is now being played in the distance!] NB! 123

\* I rediscovered this pattern this evening in my German Calendar! And the following day on Åke Hansson's napkin.

Bierkommers: Night:

Dreamt of a small child which wriggled out of my grasp. Letter from Mother-in-law Uhl. In the morning saw 2 white pigeons and a black one. The night before 26th: Woke up to the cry of Thérèse. 25th

# Hvarjehanda Nyheter.

1897. **35.** Thunder in the morning. Restless night. A calf bellowed; in the morning my bath towel lay in the shape of an ox's head. \* The great *Sjöbo* murder in Skåne was committed this night! "It sounded like calves being slaughtered." A white butterfly in my room. Carlo Landberg had a cyclone on his estate in Bavaria and was forced to return home from Sweden. Telegram that Andrée's balloon had been sighted in the White Sea. "A few birds circled. above it." This was on July 17th the same morning that I heard the cries and had the feeling that it was Andrée's balloon. Severe depression in the afternoon and evening. Restless night. B.L. spoke of the Swedenborgian who got a lump on his head. And about the Hymnbook. and the Tua girl. W.B's fiancée told stories about: Sofiahemmet Hospital; the man who was dead and rang three times as well as making noises in the reading room. Also about the child that screamed at Lund's hospital and the shadows. W.B. about B L. and the Åre article about my gold basin, where B.L. got a taste of his own medicine. Also: Axel Vallengren when dead, looking as though he were howling for help! Visited the Botanical gardens: saw Fraxinus Juglandiæ. cf. Juglans Fraxinæformis; saw: Quercus Castaneifolia; Quercus Cypressiformis; Corylus laciniata. Hedwig L–s had "ear" surgery. Letter from Dornach. 1stDreamt in the afternoon that I had a very fat wallet; also saw a bill from Hôpital Saint-Louis, for 15 Fr × ctm. 26th July: Monday. 27th " 28th " 29th 30th 31: August:

> 2nd Moved in to 22 Tomegapsgatan. Anxiety! Saw a woman dressed in black with a silver cross; three crosses on a wall. **(See 14 August when M. David died)**

3rd Calmer. The park. Many children; three dressed in mourning; an uncle of theirs had shot himself in Vienna.

4th Woken by a crow cawing on a chimney in the distance; I opened the window; a crow which had hid itself in my yard flew up at the call; the one in the distance stayed put and cawed. A black cat. Later a jackdaw in the garden, which shrieked: ka-ka. Letter from Lindner in Vienna about my Gold. Also from Hŭnderŭp about Inferno. In Malmö!

5th The Andrée rumor: Ole Bracke: Iowa – Germania. August:

A hand pointing upward was formed *of the dirt* on the back of my right shoe. *! Excelsior: from the Dirt!*

6th Adler in Lund. Three white pigeons!

7th A landscape in the Gold basin. See the supplement and compare with the landscape on the table knife page 30. Betula lenta and papyrifera. Heard a complete four-tone chord from a telegraph pole, but only two wires were attached to it. Have a rustling in my ears and Bronchitis; desire to sleep. Die Weltmühle! grinds!

8th Cyclone along the Danish coast.

9th Reften. The walk in the woods. Saw this morning in the polish of the Headboard as in a mirror:

A prison cell: A large man by the open door, resembling Strömgren (or F. Thaulow); outside the door an (Augustine) Sister wearing a white kerchief; next to Strömgren someone resembling B.L. together with several unclear figures.

10th Anxiety. Fear of electricians. The old man who wanted to sell stain removing soap. Hans Larsson and Brodén in the evening with music. Read Saint-Martin. Verité et Erreurs. Prof. Ask's funeral. Night of: 10 × 11 Waldemar B. dreamt that his brother who is in America, was struck down by a stranger. W.B. wanted to shout for help, but was unable to.

I dreamt of my father: asked for our first mother. Saw our home with the gilded gothic wall clock; and found space for oil paintings.

Theosophist meeting in Stockholm 7th 8th 9th 123

**[36 v.]**

August: Ljunglund. G.H.T. Doc. Wallin. Read a short story in G.H.T. about a man who out of hunger sold a ring he had been given in memory of his mother (!) 12th

 " Read Hector Malot's Docteur Claude, which I borrowed from Brand. The story about Strophanthin which causes paralysis of the heart, angina pectoris etc. Cf. the Diary for August 1896. when Doctor Eliasson prescribed Strophanthus for me. Angine de poitrine avec myocardite goutteuse**.** 13th

Ran into Lieutenant Ask, son of the late professor. He was aged 40, rich, happily married; claimed never to have had any sorrows. Also his father, the professor, who died aged 72 "had never known sorrow";**\*** felt uneasy at times over all his good fortune. When I asked the lieutenant "if he had never done any wrong" he answered: "indeed yes, a great deal, a great deal!"


Read in D.N. about a Marie David who gassed herself to death in Paris.

Page 39. According to my Greta, Ms. David died in Malmö around this time as a novice and nurse, Catholic. Andrée rumor from Stavanger. **\***] Cf.

Letter from Adler that Georg Brandes is reading Inferno.

Been reading Abbé Michon's: La Religieuse, against Catholicism. Got this book from Gustaf Brand. Also recently got from B. Un sermon sous Louis XV which is also squarely directed against Catholicism. And Brand is a Catholic and proselytizes. Does he know what he is doing? 15th

During my walk on the Embankment I saw drawn in the sand: 16th Sunday

## B B(jörnsson) *(Böke-berg?) (Bulöw)*

## A Blue Book. was published in 1907: August–September

W. B–w recounted that yesterday Sunday at Bökeberg at 7:30 he had begun to feel unwell and had seen a friend of his, Lindeberg, die; and he had cried out: Lindeberg is dying. – Back home in Lund he found that L. had died on the stroke of 7:30.\*

[Read in Folkets Tidning about G. Brandes' "The Hundred Days" (He has been ill.)] *That must have been his "100 days" Ste Hélène to follow.*

Folkets Tidning had carried a crude attack on Swedenborg.

That same day

[

\* Learnt this evening that W. B–w. immediately before his Vision had said the following: "here someone ought to 'stage' a Revelation of the Virgin behind a fence so the place would become a lucrative place of pilgrimage".

Suppl. Page: 38. [22 August]

I dagens morgonnummer af Sydsv.

Dagbl. Snällp. läses följande:
 Härom dagen afled i Lund underlöjtnanten i Škånska dragonregementets reserv Lars Lindeberg. Han var
en äldre man, allmänt omtyckt och märklig än åtskilliga andra, att han såsom ung student hade aflagt liniesasom lang student made ander inner inner
 föredragit att han ett trettiotal år tidigare kunde
utan svårighet ha fått pryda sig med.
Naturligtvis var det icke bara blygsamhet som förmådde honom att söka en mera underordnad tjenst i armén;
ekonomiskt sedt var det nämligen för en fattig man under de tiderna bra mycket förståndigare att stå som sergeant och fanjunkare med ett godt boställe än att med högre grad få uppbära den grufligt ringa valutan,
hvarmed staten på 40- och 50-talet
belönade sina subalternofficerare. ান 
মানুষ

Men det var icke egentligen härom

和 、 、 2.5

vi skulla tala. ni Denne, som är af en särdeles skämtsam läggning och gerna gäckas med
äfven för andra menniskor seriöss seriöss
ting, satt i söndags eftermiddag i Bökeberg tillsammans med några lärda
vänner. Det var tämligen folktomt ﺍﻟﻤﺎﻟﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﺎﻧﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﺮ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺎﻫﺪ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺎﺣﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺎﻫﻤﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺎﻫﻤﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺎﻫﻤﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺎﻫﻤﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺎﻫﻤﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺎﻫﻤﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺎﻫﻤﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺎﻫﻤﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺎﺣﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺎﺣﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺎﺣﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺎﺣﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺘﻮﻯ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺘﻮﻯ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺘﻮﻯ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺘﻮﻯ

 Madonna uppenbarelse der, så att folk
 kunde komma att valifärda i måskan
 eller också måget norma so nonom on at största alsmaled
och med uttryck af största häpnasti
stirra framför sig. Hur är det fatt?
frågade de förskräckta.

Nu dog Lindeberg! hviskade hr W.

in Man drog Kamakinona Vita Ramakar Rasmat
 Rasmi W.S. Roke Roko Rasmi Rasmi Rasmi

just kl. 7,,,, e. m.!
Underverket hade skett, men på
ett sätt som hr W. sjelf minst hade tänkt sig.

 fallenhet för mysticism och occultism, som på sista tiden kännetecknat vissa bemärkta kretsar i Lund, som förut haft en alldeles motsatt lifsåskådning. Till de kretsarne hör bl. a. en af Sveriges främste författare.

# 1897. **38.**

August. In the night I dreamt that I was allowed to travel. 17th

A wonderful sunset with light blue rays above brown and pink clouds.

Waldemar B. set off to his fiancée in Ronneby.


Sent Inferno to Paris 123

Waldemar B. ill. Extensive rash on his face.

Great anxiety in the evening after lengthy reading of Diderot's La Religieuse which, oddly enough, again it was Brand who gave me. Went to Brand's; from there to the Park. Malaise! Wretched! A dog resembling Feldman (see Klam!) came and rubbed itself against me. Heard Robert le Diable being played. We went to Åke's: Student songs. Went on to Waldemar B. ran into the late Aug. Collin's dog which turned mean when we tried to call him in a friendly way.!

21st

Unpleasant evening with Brand, Strömgren, Hessler, Wulff. Brand gave me a book against the Jesuites! – Also Chambre Rouge by Amédée Achard!

Sunday: Nonsense about the Bökeberg vision: G.H.T, Ole Bracke – 22nd

Malaise: travel fever. Saw a skeleton and skull.

23rd



The above item appeared in La Patrie on the evening of the day I arrived in Paris. My own train arrived at Gare du Nord at 8 a.m. Was the madman on it as well?

Cf. p. 37. 14 August **\***

1897.

### August. Stockenström. Ballisford. 27th

Visited the Jardin des Plantes Saw once more: the Owls, Caymans, Vultures in several new locations; the Bears, Bisons etc. The ravages of the cyclone in the main walk stretched as reported from the greenhouses past the bears and Bisons. A Bison went into its stable, turned its backside on me and shat. A sparrow immediately came and ate. Passed rue Censier and looked into the garden of 4 rue de la Clef. Outside my room in the garden pavilion I saw the box painted white with green diamonds (which I had thought contained accumulators) acting as a pedestal for a flowerpot. 28th

At 5 p.m Papus was in my room but invisible. In all probability he is reading my manuscript at this moment. Malaise; pressure in my chest; occasional constrictions in my back, occasional heat in my rib cage.

Read of Marie Antoinette that when she composed music she felt as if a cool breeze were blowing across her forehead and then seemed like a garland of fire around her head which agrees with certain of Swedenborg's indications of the presence of spirits. Napoleon got cramp in his left calf when he became too angry and was about to lose his self-control. *(Esprit correcteur)*

Sunday: Herz-Mariæ. F. Joh. Enth. A wonderful day! 29th

> Took a walk in the morning along the quays of the Seine. Saw a torn Queen of Hearts in the gutter, the name Judith still on it.

Bought France Pittoresque by the quayside.

The day before I had pondered over the old gold deposits in Picardie near Bouconville. Back home, a letter from Erik Sjöstedt with invitation to St: Thomas at Corbeny, which is only five kilometers from Bouconville! as I established with the help of France pittoresque my only available resource. | Cf. 24 × 25 May 1896 re Théâtre Spectacle de la Nature. In the afternoon Ballisforde and I were to go to vespers in Notre-Dame. He went on ahead to quai Conti to look at books. When I got there he stood holding Liebig's Lettres sur la Chimie in his hand and had it open at page 81 which he showed me. There I read: "Or d'après notre hypothèse, les atomes des substances isomorphes possèdent la même forme et le même volume; leur nombre est le même dans des espaces égaux. Si donc, dans un équivalent de Chlore, il y a exactement autant d'atomes que dans

### (29th August)

# 1897. **41.**

d'atomes que dans un équivalent d'iode, la division de leur poids atomique par leur poids spécifique devra nous donner le même nombre pour ces deux corps. En effet, 35,2, qui est le poids atomique du chlore, divisé par 1,380, qui est le poids spécifique de ce même corps, donne le nombre 25; et 126, qui est le poids atomique de l'iode, divisé par 4,948 donne également le nombre 25."

This led me to seek the analogy: Gold 197 divided by its specific gravity 19 equals 10. What other body has an atomic weight which divided by its own specific gravity equals 10? Answer silicon.

Gold and Silicon are isomorphs; and indeed gold is closest to the spectrum of silicon; and gold (which is related to Quartz) deposits a burnt residue of violet glass in the burner. (silicon) = silicon and manganese (?).

Bought Liebig's Chemistry for 25 centimes. There was a huge poster about Liebig's extract on a house in La Cité for a long time. (It was removed at the start of the Dreyfus trial) Afterward visited Notre-Dame during vespers, which unnerved me totally. (I wept!) Back home read in Dagens Nyheter about the decay of Berzelius's laboratory and that the place stood vacant!

In the evening Ballisford came to dinner with a girl!


A glass harmonica audible in the tower during the night; not only by me. A knocked-over cross with O crux ave spes unica. *The dog on the piles of stones Ballisford ill Angina = This summer devastated by a skin disease following intercourse. "Elephantiasis" of the throat.*

2 The sunset on the way home from Laon. Back in Paris at 7 in the evening. "

Dreamt I was pole-vaulting. It bent and sank into the ground so that my fingers got dirty! (What next!)

3rd Read in La Presse about the Benedictine scandal at Solesmes, which I once intended to visit!

**[**Cf. p. 42, 8 September**]**


September

Cf. 12th September 1907 A Blue Book was published

12th Sunday. Absolutely alone all day. Dreary unpleasant.

Woke up in the night (fell asleep at 11 p.m.). Heard trampling and running above my head; constrictions of the chest and moderate palpitations. Intended to get up, but remained where I was. The clock struck 2 (Cf. 26 July 1896 rue de la Clef.). A door above me opened; someone came down the stairs and into the room next to mine (No. 17; I occupy 18.). What is this? Resembles the phenomenon of my last night at the Hotel Orfila. Calmed down and slept until morning. Woke up in a ghastly frame of mind. Went out! Recalled in front of a heap of sand at the corner of Institut de France that I had dreamt during the night of Gold sand, which resembled this sand. Recalled that one morning recently a well-dressed gentleman had stood digging his fingers into the heap of sand talking to himself. I now decided to take a sample of the sand on my way home. Went up to "Revue Spirite" and bought the issues for 1859 (Mon Ami Hermann) and 1860 (Un Damné) On the way back as I was about to pass the corner of the Institute, where the heap of sand lay (but which I had forgotten) the road to it was blocked on the river side by terrible smoke from steamboats, from the Institute side by a road-sprinkler. I went in through the arch and out again to quai Malaquai. Not until I was back home did I recollect the heap of sand.

Now what does the noise above my ceiling signify? A warning? – I have an appointment with Dr. Papus, 16 rue Rodier. Does this mean I ought not to go there? (Later in the day) I went to Papus's. It was dark and awful there. Felt depressed, but it passed. An owl on the wall.

13th


14th

15th

The same! Found a lead marker on the table at Thirion's stamped L V. What does it mean L. = 50 V = 5. = 55 = Manganese. L V. (Lunds Veckoblad **[**Lund's Weekly**]**.) L.V. (= Litteraturens Vänner **[**Friends of Literature**]**). L.V. Leonhard Vistén. (In the margin ) 16th

# 1897. **44.**

17th To dinner at Sjöstedt's rue Demours, home late. September

	- 21st Letter from Herrlin, and W.B.

"

"

	- In the morning as I walked along Place de la Concorde and the Seine quayside, my whole body swayed with long movements like waves at sea.
	- Thought the ground must have been swaying, but my compass placed on the bridge parapet did not oscillate.

30th

### 1st Alone! Every day the same. Writing Légendes, working October

2nd



Inferno published in Stockholm.

Now malaise begins in my room!

2nd

"

The Glass Harmonica has ceased. Herrman: *visits me.*


Alone. 5th

Saw Jonas Lie's pendulum clock again, but moved to 24 Boulevard St. Michel It was as follows: Showed 13 August, Jeudi. In the globe X beneath it 92. Half a celestial orb with a waning half moon rests on four columns: two women are leaning against the orb; one tall and slender with a garland of flowers, below her a falcon (or some diurnal bird of prey) the other smaller and squat showing one of her breasts; below her an owl (nocturnal bird of prey = Uhl.) 6th

8

9

10

11

With Hermann; Réja, Contat, Chaillée. Letter from Littmanson, overbearing as usual. Visit from Per Lamm 12th

Visited Lamm. Received an anonymous letter from a person who had been in my position. It was good. Included the following: 13th

"When a human being suffers, God suffers too. His only wish is to give all the help he can. But Circumstances, 'the Law' on which he depends, often greatly hinders him temporarily." "It is very important for you not to believe that you lack good prospects for the future." [ = believe that your prospects are good – – –]

"Just think of the incalculable advantage everyone has in that he can get advice from God on all important matters. So the first question must be what He wishes you to do. But the answer he gives to this must, of course, be obeyed unconditionally and without delay. Possibly this may not be advisable for the weaker among us and those who are in spiritual turmoil, since it requires strength to do God's bidding. But there are always others, of course, and those who are not suitable can become so."

It looks as though I am not to be allowed to keep company with Herrmann. He lives on the sixth floor of no. 2 Bd Henri IV. When I climbed up to him I got congestion of the brain and thought I would die in his studio. When I am together with him I get a headache and cannot talk for any length of time. Cf. the above-mentioned omnibus horses which crowded into the cab\*. Cf. The strange scene at the restaurant in rue de Bac.

\*

\* See above October 30th. 1897. The three horses' heads on my Album: see May 5th 1897.

<sup>7</sup>

Ett byråtelegram bragte i går eftermiddag den underrättelsen, att Köpenhamnsångaren Scotia, som i tisdags strandade vid Ystad, men derefter tagits flott af Neptunbolagets bergningsångare Helios, i lördags, efter det bergningsångaren Helios förlorats ur sigte och besättningen upptagits af en stockholmsångare, sjunkit på väg till Köpenhamn, der den skulle repareras. Ty värr omkommo vid tillfället fyra menniskor, deribland tre tillhörande Helios' besättning. Då för öfrigt särdeles egendomliga omständigheter syntes förknippade med olyckan, satte Dagens Nyheter sig genast i förbindelse så väl med sina privatkorrespondenter i Helsingborg och Ystad som med Neptunlaget härstädes för att kunna lemna sina läsare de mest fullständiga och tillförlitliga meddelanden.

### I storm och snötjocka.

Scotia, hvars egen maskin kunde fungera som förut och framdrifva ångaren med den vanliga farten, hade på våg från strandningsstället till Köpenhamn ingen bogsering, utan bergningsångaren Helios gick endast förut. Under hela fredagen rådde ett utmärkt väder, men mot aftonen ökade den rådande jemna vestliga vinden, så att vid skymningens inbrott nästan full storm rådde. Vid 6-tiden var Smyge i sigte. Svåra regn- och snöbyar skymde dock snart utsigten, och en inträffande snötjocka gjorde äfvenledes, att den assisterande bergningsångaren alldeles försvann och ei från Scotia kunde upptäckas. Under tiden växte stormen allt jemt, och fartyget började slingra med stor häftighet. Den å Scotia anbringade länspumpen, tillhörig bergningsångaren, förmådde ej hålla rigtigt läns, och vattnet började intränga i eldstäderna på ångpannorna, hotande att släcka elden i dessa. Genom stor påpasslighet från maskinisternas sida lyckades man emellertid hålla eld i det längsta, men vädret, som stundtals urartade till orkan och hejdlöst kastade d ! åt elementens raseri öfverlemnade ångaren än hit än dit, gjorde att vattnet inne i fartyget nu betydligt ökats, och kl. 12 var elden fullständigt släckt. Annu kunde ei den assisterande bergningsångaren Helios upptäckas, och dennes försvinnande klandrades skarpt.

### Besättningen förlorar besinningen.

För att emellertid bringa Scotia mot sjön och förminska slingringen, gaf befälhafvaren order om ankarets fällande. Besättningen som forstärkts med en del af bergningsångarens folk, 2 eldare, en dykare och en båtsman, förlorade, då elden under pannorna släcktes och omöjliggjorde fortsatt färd och länspumpens arbete, all besinning och lystrade ej den gifna ordern.

Kaptenen jemte förste styrman N. Isaksson och andre styrman A. Jensen begaf sig då förut samt lyckades med bjelp af 3 af besättningen få ankaret utom bords. Detta arbete var emellertid förenadt med den största lifsfara under rådande fullständigt mörker och nnder det sjön skoningslöst slog in öfver fartyget. Ej heller skulle detta arbete nå sin fulländning, utan att olycka inträffat. Kaptenen fick högra handen så svårt skadad, att, när sedermera han och de öfrige skeppsbrutne upptogos af Stockholmsångaren Ymer och infördes till Helsingborg, läkare måste amputera två fingrar. Förste styrmannen fattades under arbetets utförande af gaftelgården och kastades af denna upp i luften samt hamnade derpå till all lycka om bord, men dock på ett farligt ställe. Han nedkom på ångpumpen, hvilken placerats på fördäck,

stäldes blickar hängde oafbrutet fast vid den just nu under gång varande ångaren. Ymer gick nemligen hän i lovart om Scotia. Kl. 5 på morgonen, då vädret något bedarrat, gjordes från Ymer försök att sätta en båt i sjön. Den befans vara under befäl af förste styrmannen å Ymer samt roddes af

fyra af dennas besättning. Baten medtog 6 af de om bord å Scotla varande samt lyckades efter stora anstrang ningar bringa desse om bord å den räddande ångaren.

Det behöfdes fyra resor för att rädda alla de & Scotia ombordvarande, in alles 20 man, nemligen 18 utgörande hela besättningen å Scotia samt dessutom om bord å denna varande danske sjöassuransagenten kapten Hein jemte den ende qvarvarande från Helios, båtsmannen, hvilken af hela besättningen framhalles som en mycket duglig sjöman och som under den ödesdigra natten hela tiden varit i arbete.

### Allt förloradt, utom lifvet.

Manskapet var sälunda bergadt, men intet mera. De förlorade alla sina tillhörigheter och maste lemna angaren som de gingo och stodo. Det enda som man lyckades få med sig var skeppspapperen.

Ymer qvarblef vid olycksplatsen tills dagen inbröt, för att om möjligt försöka att afven berga ångaren. Från denna förmärktes emellertid att eldtungor slogo ut och rök bolmade ur rökhattar och ventiler, hvadan eld alltså utbrutit om bord å Scotia, antagligen förorsakad af något under natten bortkastadt bloss. Det var ingenting mer att atgöra, hvarför Ymer fortsatte sin afbrutna färd. I närheten af Falsterbo fyrskepp påträffades Helios, som varskoddes om händelsen, och efter det den a Ymer varande batsmannen satts om bord å Helios, afgick denna senare för att uppsöka Scotia och undersöka om nå got vidare kunde vara att nträtta.

· Ymer ankrade vid half 6-tiden i lördags afton å Helsingborgs redd och landsatte de skeppsbrutne.

Helios på spaning efter Scotia.

Angaren Helies sökte, telegraferas fran Ystad, förgäfves efter Scotia under hela lördagen och inkom först på aftonen till Ystad, men fortsatte i går formiddag eftertorskningarna. Dessa kröntes slutligen med framgång så till vida, att ångaren återfans liggande sjunken 31/2 mil utanför Sandhammaren på 12 famnars vatten. Endast masternas öfversta toppar äro synliga öfver vattnet. Scotia hade under hela lördagen manlös jagats af stormen af och an och i lördags afton fakttagits på omkring 8 mils afstånd drifva förbi Ystad.

Tvifvel råder om bergningsbolaget kan utfå bergarlönen, då Scotia icke införts i hamn. Helios' kapten hade emellertid velat införa haveristen till Ystad, men detta ville icke Scotias befälhafvare, som förklarade att den skulle repareras i Köpenhamn. För öfrigt tyda de upplysningar, Dagens Nyheter förskaffat sig från Neptunbolaget härstädes, på att

### ansvaret för olyckan

måste sökas om bord på Scotia. Bolagets direktör, konsul E. Liljewalch, har nemligen med stöd af de telegram, han mottagit om olyckan, meddelat oss följande:

Sedan Scotias läckor blifvit på bästa möjliga sätt tätade och en pump från Helios dit öfverflyttats för att hålla fartyget läns, togs Scotia på släp af Helios, och allt artade sig till att gå bra. Emellertid hade till Ystad anländt en hr Hein, agent för Köpenhams assuradörer, hvilka voro intresserade i Scotia. Han medföljde om bord på Scotla, och når man så efter några timmar kommit ett stycke i väg, hade -- så uppgifves det - på hans uppmaning bogserkabeln kastats loss från Scotia, som enligt hans förmenande skulle sielf kunna bielpa sig fram till Köpenhamn. Afsigten dermed kunde ögonskenligen icke vara någon annan än den att bergningsbolalaget icke skulle kunna under dessa förhållanden göra anspråk på mer än en ringa del af den bergarlön som det samma skulle ha gjort kraf på, om Helios bogserat Scotia hela vagen och infört den till Köpenhamn.

Följden blef nu emellertid den, att Scotia, lem nad åt sig sjelf, ytterst långsamt rörde sig framåt, så att Helios, som följde efter för att i händelse af behof kunna assistera, icke kunde gå fortare än mellan »sakta» och half maskin. Så kom snöstormen, under hvilken Helios förlorade Scotia ur sigte, och ehuru bergningsångaren sedan under många timmar gick härs och tvärs och letade, kunde den icke få syn på haveristen, hvarför Helios i lördags afton återvände till Ystad.

Befälhatvaren på Helios har uppgifvit, att om bogserkabeln icke kastats från Scotia, ångaren kunnat binna föras in i Sundet eller i lå innan snöorkanen kom, enär Helios med Scotia på släp kunde göra 2 knop starkare fart an Scotia ensam.

### Dykaren Eklund.

Den omkomne dykaren Eklund hade ända sedan sin tidiga ungdom haft anställning hos bolaget Neptun och ansågs nu såsom en af bolagets allra bästa dykare. Han var bördig från eller åtminstone hemmahörande i Sandhamn, 27-30 år gammal och gift sedan omkring halft annat år till baka.

[Cf. page 47, 26 November]

En meteor. I mandags f. m. vid half 12-tiden nedföll midt bland arbetarne som voro sysselsatta med sprängningsarbeten i Renstjärnasmeteor i form af en hästsko med något tjockare 0 bas än spets. Den lämnade vid fallet efter sig en betaren J. Svensson, boende i nr 48 Kocksgatan, 2 tr. upp. Då Svensson af nyfikenhet ville upptaga den egendomliga stenen brände han fingrarne. Meteoren, som tillvaratogs af stadens arbetsförman, skiftar mellan grått och grönt med glänsande större och mindre prickar samt håller i vikt 11/s kilo

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En stund senare erbjöds tillvaratagaren af en person, som fått höra händelsen, 10 kr. för fyndet, men anbudet afböjdes.


Severe depression. Herrmann came toward evening and then Schmitz; we had dinner and things improved. Back home at 10 guitar and zither playing until 12, during which I fell asleep, and slept well all night. Friday 26th

Blizzard outside of Ystad. See attached newspaper **[**p. [46 v.]**]**!

Cheerful mood all day. Worked on Inferno III. Alone all day and evening. Possibly overly confident. Read Cicero De Natura Deorum in the evening and felt tempted by Aristotle's belief that the Gods do not know our world and do not involve themselves with dirt. As I copied out this last sentence blood appeared on my right hand but no scratch is visible today (28th) Fell asleep at 11. Woke at 12:30 with fully developed symptoms: electric current which attacked my back, spread to my belly and heart. I first sought an external cause but stayed in bed seeking guidance in the Bible and received an answer.\*\*\* Fell asleep again until morning. (In the evening: telegram from Stockholm about M. Olof.] Saturday: 27th

Herrlin should have arrived today; but did not. Advent! At Notre-Dame! has come!

Sunday: 28th

\*\*\* I turned up David's Psalm 32:8. Je te rendrai intelligent et je t'enseignerai le chemin par lequel tu dois marcher, et mon oeil te guidera. Ne soyez point comme le cheval ni comme le mulet sans intelligence desquels il faut emmuseler la bouche avec un mors et un frein pour s'en faire obéire. Plusieurs douleurs arriveront au méchant. Etc.

29th Seraphita p 75: "Le cheval de l'Apocalypse est l'image visible de l'intelligence humaine montée par la mort, car elle porte sur elle son principe de destruction." November: 30th

> Swedenborg recounts in one of his memorabilia that he received a paper from heaven, "sur lequel il vit les lettres dont se servaient les peuples primitifs et qui étaient composées de lignes courbes avec de petits anneaux qui se portaient en haut."

Can it be these inimitable flourishes and circles which decorate 13th-century initials in missals and Psalters?

"The Angels mostly use the vowels a, o, u." The Devils hissed and used x and l, Cf. the last verse of Damnation de Faust. NB! These flourishes are found in detail in the tendrils of certain plants, such as the vine and vetches. Cf. Dalitzch: Pflanzen-Buch. page 69. Pisum Sativum.


occurred! || A difficult night followed!

**[48 v.]**

23rd: The day before Christmas Eve. Letters from the Children. December,

> 24th Christmas Eve. At Saint-Germain l'Auxerrois. Letter from Kerstin. Mother-in-law has read Inferno. Reading Le Génie du Christianisme.

About Drinking absinthe. This autumn I have drunk Absinthe a few times together with Sjöstedt, but always with unpleasant effects. Cf. the scene in his home when I wanted to wash my hands: the whole house in turmoil. Later with Herrman; the Café de la Frégate. The room filled up with peculiar characters, so that Herrman noticed it and said: "But we are surrounded by bandits, aren't we?" (H. sat leaning his back against a brown-painted iron pillar.) I answered: "And you are sitting in the pillory." We felt uneasy and left; he without emptying his glass. Thereupon we dined in rue du Bac. We sat opposite each other. Suddenly a fiendish odor arises between our faces and then disappears. I silently ask myself if it is possible that he is so badly brought up. He must have thought the same about me, for he said immediately afterward à propos nothing: Ich liebe Raffinement im Leben und Verkehr . . . It seems we cannot be in each other's company, and after that evening H. stayed away. The last time I drank Absinthe was outside the Reine Blanche. I was alone. Suddenly two ill-dressed men besmeared in filth as though they had emerged from the sewers, and a dreadful woman, drunk, dirty, with lascivious gestures, stopped on the sidewalk in front of me. All three looked at me with such mocking spiteful eyes that I was forced to leave. I have never seen such types in Paris, and wondered it they were "real" or "projected". –

25th The Sacré Coeur medallion which I had tied to my Rosary fell off again this morning. Back home I found the Theosophist-Christian Tract Three Letters on a Vital Question from Stockholm. There is pounding on the wall on my right! Am I to move again? – Letter from J. Castelot about Clavenad: who makes gold.

26th

27th

28th With Herrmann. Das Lιτερατουρ **[**Literature**]** – . . . .

29th

30th The ashtray smashed! The gold basin knocked over.

31st Last night I dreamt that I was in the Tuileries with Napoléon I who had returned; saw three busts forming the capital of a pillar, one of which was of Napoleon III, the two others were of the "young ones . . .". Saw in the background

V.S!

# **[49 v.]**

Louis-Philippe and his relatives who had reached a compromise with Bonaparte and now had governmental duties. I was employed in some capacity by Napoleon and treated the young princes as subordinates. Napoleon was thin but with a broad head; one moment it was red like Ekström's or Kalle Möller's the next it was broad pale He was dressed in a threadbare blue officer's tunic like Gustav III's Swedish Costume. He dressed in order to go out into Paris; I looked out of the window and said: there is no danger; the people are calm and have waited so long for their emperor that nothing will surprise them.

.

I came out into the Tuileries Gardens, saw Stockenström and said: I am with the Emperor! – He replied: so I have heard.

Then followed a supper with "Madame". When I came out I met an elderly schoolmistress. I said: I have dined with the Emperor: She replied: well, yes, you are related, aren't you!

1898

January 1.

"

cover of new Calendar for 1898.

Cochery's carriage horses bolted and crashed into President Faure's carriage in which Faure and Méline were riding. (In January the following year Faure died

2nd In the morning: The sky was overcast but brightened in the west where a pink glow was visible. Walked down rue Jacob westwards and saw the chamber of deputies illuminated by the sun while the whole street and the sky above were in the shade! Visited Boulevard des Invalides and sketched Napoleon in a three-cornered hat as formed by the corbel and cornices. (See Inferno I.)

Rosa Canina: since its root-bark was effective against Rabies Canina. Cf.

 NB! Viola Canina for skin diseases. V. ovata against the bite of the Rattlesnake. Viola tricolor's leaves contain prussic acid. Ipecacuanoha is a Viola.

# 1898. **51.**

6th The number 1 1 1. (or 1 1 2). The Icelander's num Reading Astronomy these days I found the sun's diameter to be 1 1 1,8. I was struck by this number, since it represents the Atomic weight of Cadmium which is also 1 1 1,8. (NB! The decimal!) I then thought: According to the Occultists the Sun is Adam Cadmon's eye. Painters paint the sun with Cadmium. Cadmium accompanies Sulfurous Zink (Blende) which has lines similar to the Wiedmanstätter configurations on meteorites. ZnS = 97 = ½ Gold. Iodized Cadmium = 365 like the days of the Solar cycle. Cadmium crystallizes like fern leaves. Sulfate is used for eye diseases when the cornea grows dim.**\*** The Sun's parallax = 8″,6; Cadmium's density 8,6. (Saturn's longitude du Noeud ascendant = 1 1 1,5. Etc. || Today the 6th in the evening I consulted my chemistry book and found Manganese heptoxide Mn2O7 and long ago I had written in the margin: 222 = 1 1 1 (NB! 1 1 1). I happened to have put this chemistry open on top of my notes for the IIIrd part of Inferno on the cover of which was written in red. (meaning Part 3.) Now Andersson the Icelander came and passed the time of day with me. Apropos of nothing he points to the red (three) and says. – Look there's my number at the Library. – Really? I replied? – Yes I have number 1 1 1 (One hundred and eleven) he answered. – Is this a coincidence? – What does this 1 1 1, which pursues me signify? The Earth's diameter is 1, the Sun's is 1 1 1 in relation to that of the earth. 1 1 1 is Cadmium. What then is the earth? 1 = Hydrogen. Cadmium appears in the Solar Spectrum, but not Gold. 1 Kilo weighs 28 on the Sun. But 4 × 28 = 1 1 1 (1 1 2.) : 28 = Silicon, 56 = Iron = 2 × 56 = 1 1 1. January I = 126 I2 = 252 In Vita Sanctorum, there are accounts of blind people who were cured by gazing at the Sun! **\***

> As I got home in the evening terrible black clouds banked up into reclining giants in front of the moon . The moon

The Sun's density: (Water = 1) = 1,37; Earth's 5,44; Mercury's 15,99. Mars' 0,98.

Cf. Exodus, passim.

sailed into one of them and became its eye. After this a large black bear could be seen from behind, dancing; then a Bison; but between the two a small child whom I welcomed joyfully. The first beautiful thing I have seen in clouds. I grew anxious! But after a while the clouds disappeared and only faint white traces of them like a fairydance remained. I slept peacefully all night. The day before yesterday the 5th two men appeared on the roof opposite my window; there was a persistent knocking on the wall to the right of my room; smoke appeared from behind the mirror above my cheminée. (I was occupied with Chemistry)

Are these warnings of approaching dangers, or threats of punishment?


I had colic at the identical time.

q NB!

 Night of 17th Dreamt that Pbzy pursued me with a dagger. Saw Aspasia with a

mass of snakes. Unrest in Paris

Attack in rue Berzelius. 18th


[52 v.]

StringsStrendyang den 1 - 1 - 1 - 1 - 1 - 1 - 1 - 1 - 1 - 1 - 1 - 1 - 1 - 1 - 1 - 1 - 1 - 1 - 1 - 1 - 1 - 1 - 1 - 1 - 1 - 1 - 1 - 1 - 1 - 1 - 1 - 1 - 1 - 1 - 1 - 1 - 1 - 1 -


to the Queen of Holland.

### Saint-Martin.

(Erreurs et Verité.)

"Il n'y a personne de bonne foi, et dont la raison ne soit pas obscurçie ou prévenu, qui ne convienne que la vie corporelle de l'homme est une privation et une souffrance continuelles. Ainsi, d'après les idées que nous avons prises de la Justice, ce ne sera pas sans raison que nous regarderons la durée de cette vie corporelle comme un temps de châtiment et d'expiation; mais nous ne pouvons la regarder comme telle, sans penser aussi-tôt qu'il doit y avoir eu pour l'homme un état antérieur et préférable à celui où il se trouve à prèsent, et nous pouvons dire, qu'autant son état actuel est borné, pénible et semé de dégouts, autant l'autre doit avoir été illimité et rempli de délices."

"Ainsi, quelque dérangement, quelque irrégularité qu'un homme éprouve dans sa constitution corporelle et dans ses facultés intellectuelles, ne le croyons pas pour cela à l'abri de la Justice, parce que quelque petit que soit le nombre et la valeur des facultés qui lui restent, il en devra toujours compte, et il n'y a que l'homme dans la folie, de qui la vraie Justice ne puisse rien exiger, parce qu'alors cette Justice le tient elle-même sous son fléau."

> The head = Salt. The chest = Sulfur. The stomach = Mercury –

\*

	- Sunday: Delhom came: talked about Catholicism. 20th
	- Night 20 × 21. Woke as the clock struck 2. A spring in my mattress creaked. I lay awake and heard distant voices reciting a rosary (women). In the morning was nearly knocked over at the Palais Royal by a large scruffy dog, which then reappeared in Rue de Rivoli. 21st

Kleksography. A man approaches the crucifix on a salamander (crocodile). Blood drips from the Crucified figure. Note in white on the cross Zola sentenced! Jesuits (three) seen in rue du Bac and the Boulevards. (fire) Dragon

In the morning an American flag between two tricolors. In the evening I saw someone resembling Emmens (or Eliasson) with a hat (or laurel wreath) A Roman Emperor.

	- 27th In the morning I walked in the Tuileries Gardens; reached the Orangerie on the Feuillantines terrace; stopped and saw Napoleon's monogram on the gable, exactly like the one above on the curtain ; at that moment a black poodle came and rubbed itself against me; I looked around, and on the other side of rue de Rivoli the windows of the Rothschild apartment were open. Went round the corner of the Orangerie (along the Feuillantines terrace): the following had been chalked on the wall: 20 7 ber 96 (20 September [18(?)] 1796. An elderly man came out and shook a mat. Also written in black: EGENTELET. Sunday


Orangerie in the Tuileries Gardens. "Oh qu'il fait beau bon quand le soleil luit. Vive le beau

28 Feb 1 March 123


Sunday: Finished "To Damascus". March 6th

Saint-Jean Dieu has haunted me twice these last few days. Moïse Lehman. Monday 7th

Saint-Jean de Dieu. Sent off "To Damascus". The night before the 8th I dreamt of Napoleon I. And that Rothschild had spread the evil rumors about Josephine. Also dreamt that I had to leave the hotel. Tuesday 8th


Dreamt about Klemming and golden ships. Also about Heidenstam. Saw a Japanese (?) Warrior in the coal fire, excellently done His front teeth stuck straight out as they do on Japanese war masks

This morning in the Tuileries Gardens: At the corner of the Orangerie where along the Seine terrace where a child wrote Vive le beau Soleil last autumn (see above) someone had today written: "C'est fini avec le Ciel (le) Adieu! This made me feel despondent! and like a lost soul. But when I reached the large pool, which had frozen over and had patches of green algae in the ice, I noticed one such patch gleaming like gold. When I moved, it proved to be the yellow from a rainbow projected by the sun behind me, which now developed all its colors and spread out over the entire pool. This delighted me. (Cf. my rainbow in rue de Fleurus.) 14th

### Ms. M.S. called; gave me white lilacs. (Marika Stjernstedt.) March: 15th


Progress with my Chemistry: Discovered that the atomic weights of 22nd


81 = H2Se 81 = ZnO 23rd

Worked on the composition of Air and Water; dead-tired, no results. 24th

In the morning. Found an Ace of Hearts and immediately afterward a ten of Diamonds. Home again: Flowers from Nice (Ace of Hearts) and a promise of money from Stockholm. But in another street before I went home: found a large number 13. When I had passed it and turned round I read it as 31. Thought 13 = CH and Phosphorus = 31. Is Phosphorus a converte reversed CH? 25th

Immediately afterward there was a number 18. When I turned round it became 81. Thought: Water is:

Hydrogen 11 Hydrogen = 1 = 18 = 8 = Oxygen = 88 Oxygen = (equiv atom equiv equiv. 11 in 88 = 8 = Oxygen's equiv:. 18 is the Mol. weight of water What are 81? and 19? 19 is Fluoride. 81 = Sucre

Found the numbers 13 – 31 again. Thought as follows: if 13 = CH and if Phosphorus is an inverted CH then Ph = 31 CH HC = Phosphorus an inverted Nitrogen 29th 123 123

Ph = 31 = CH3O 31 13

	- 2nd After much anxiety, malaise and "promptings" I decided to leave. And packed! "
	- 3rd I left Paris; in the morning. "
		- 4th In Hamburg and Copenhagen.
		- 5th Copenhagen || Astronomy. The starry sky! Orion.
		- 6th Ditto
		- 7th Lund

Easter alone. Peaceful. *(Cf. Paul Cavallin's Confessions)*

17th × 18th The early hours: woke toward dawn to the bellowing of calves exactly like what I heard the night before the Sjöbo murder. (See **[**p.**]** 35) July 26th. When I let my blind up there were two black birds sitting in the tree. (Black crows.)

Fairly calm. Nothing happening. Herrlin's Copenhagen journey and crisis. which forced him to pray.

> May 13th. Paul Cavallin had woken up at midnight on April 13th and heard the word "13th" *April*. Woke up now at midnight on 13th May and with the feeling that he was doomed!] NB!

9 May.


17th Sven Bengtsson , *The Theosophist* , visited me. Told me that he had modeled a new Mephistopheles (Lucifer) which had also cracked – Said that he had read *my* Legends last Saturday and found everything accurate. Last May:

Sunday morning when he woke and got up to see if it was daylight, everything went black before his eyes and he felt giddy. Stayed in bed that day! *Lucifer*

His attacks continued on Monday, and his eyes could not bear the light – While he was sitting with me, his eyes could not stand the daylight, so he had to turn his back on it. [When we discussed occultism, I had a slight attack of the old kind. It means: "must not speak of"]

Paul Cavallin is in hospital and fears for his soul. Considers himself damned, since voices heard saying so. [Was later picked up by his sister.]

Georg Brandes has had a fall in Naples and is laid up!

This shows that it is Ibsen who is the criminal prophet, and not only I! Now the cross (in addition to the other grand crosses!) has been laid on him

"The most highly developed women"

20th Tore off two straps as I dressed this morning. Met the garbage collector's cart outside the house. Met two tear-stained girls outside the Café Lundagård. May:

Herrlin visited me. Anxiety afterward. In the afternoon received a letter from Lund containing a bit of potassium cyanide (?) which I threw into the tiled stove. Well chosen, maybe well deserved!

Program people are possessed (possédés.).

1898. **60.** The night before 21st Thunder from dusk till dawn: the Storm abated and blew over during the day. May: 21:

> Learnt: that Christian Bülow was present at the dinner for Pastor Stoltz at which Professor Bendz was the speaker.

[On the night of the dinner I dreamt that Old Man Bülow stretched out his glass across the dinner table in order to drink a toast with me; which surprised me; after that he sank down so that only his head was visible above the table. Cf. The great family tragedy of his daughters at the Helsingborg masquerade, which the papers wrote about at the time.]

Daily mists and dark at midday.


Young Wulff was not afraid when the sun shone!

Gråberg shot himself at about this time [Last Rites!] –

Read the name Pikulell [!] in D.N. In addition an article called Fakirs! I took it personally! 27th

**[***Tooth***]** The last front tooth in my upper jaw [except for the two front ones remaining] fell out. NB! My front teeth consisted of a collection of small carnassial teeth unsuccessful carnassial teeth. The two front teeth in my upper jaw on the contrary chisel-shaped.

Had placed a bottle of Nitric Acid in the sun in order to transform it according to Tiffereau's Gold method. The bottles stood amongst six others: a bird excreted onto this bottle alone. Cf. Brand and the two birds [\* See the 31st] which left droppings on his shoulders when he thought he had passed his exam, but in fact had not! For two days now I have noticed two jars in the window of the Pharmacy in the square: On one of them it says Cyan Ferro Kalium Technique – – – On the other Capsules Myrh... Dreamt last night that I took yellow potassium ferrocyanide to eat; and asked if it was poisonous. 29th

Letter from Philp: among other things "Have you tried playing with animals? Birds, spiders . . . (Cf. Spiders on May 23rd!)

A bird has left droppings in the mortar in which iron, silver copper were to produce gold! = Iron Sulfate, Chloride of Copper, Silver Oxide with Nitric Acid + Oil of Cloves or Oil of Lavender. 31st \*123 Au?


There's not the slightest doubt that Christ is presaged here, since Christ in fact succeeded Zeus. Who else could be meant? | Hercules prophesies Prometheus particularly as his liberator. But Hercules never overthrew Zeus.

Prometheus: – – – nie erfährt er

Durch wen er sein Tyrannenthum verliert! 

The Iron Age in Sweden starts at the birth of Christ and with it come runes and Roman culture. The Greek Gods moved to the North. The Svea people with Odin arrived just before Christ. Just before Christ Greece was ravaged by Mithridates, Sulla et al.

Asian pirates plundered the temples: Proserpina's in Hermione; Aesculapius' in Epidaurus; Poseidon's at Isthmus etc., Apollo's at Actium, Hera's in Argos. Zeus' at Olympus and Delphi had already been plundered. The oracles fell silent.


In Lystra Paul was regarded as being Mercury and Barnabas as Jupiter. Acts 14:12 ff.

"Petit Sabaôth le bon"

Pistis Sophia calls Zeus "The little Zebaoth, The good, (The 5th Archon) The 1st Chronos, 2nd = Ares, 3rd Hermes, 4th Aphrodite, 5th Zeus. These 5 command 360 Archons who command whose 1800 Archons in each Aeon. Zeus is thus, a Power, Might or Dominion. Who then is Prometheus!

Neither the Ash nor the Walnut tree have come fully into leaf, but the corncrake could be heard this evening. Gallinula crex. Le roi des Cailles. According to the French Fauna it follows the Quails. But it can neither fly nor swim. Being migratory birds, how do these millions of corncrakes from England and Scandinavia "disappear" in autumn? Miracle! 2nd

In Meyer's Encyclopedia this bird is said to exist only in Northern Europe and Mid-Asia. Where does it then migrate to? in winter? Or where is it to be found? || Comes to Italy in October; disappears in November. (Oken.)

Pliny calls him Ortygomĕtra = the Quail's mother.

### 2nd [Cont. fr. p. 61] June:

For the past eight days I had been reading the Pentateuch, marveling that this Jehovah who dictated the Decalogue, could take pleasure in the gory sacrifice of bulls and goats whose blood splattered onto the silken veil and the shrine of gold etc. It occurred to me that Jehovah was a lower Aeon who for his half-substantial life needed vapors from the fountain of life (blood.)

On the morning of the 2nd I entered Tullstorp's Antiquarian Bookshop. T. asked if I wanted German Philosophy. He lit a candle. and showed me the section. Straight away I picked out a work with the title: Philosophie der Geschichte oder Über die Tradition (Anonym) Münster 1834 etc. Opened the book and found the Cabbala. Immediately bought the book, which is said to be by one Molitor (Müller?) The next thing I found was Leibnitz' Theodicée.

When I started reading Molitor I found in the Cabbala a satisfactory explanation of expiatory sacrifice in the Old Testament and through this the idea of Christ's suffering. In addition the Cabbala provided an explanation to all occult phenomena: in a word This book enlightened me and I saw in current occultism a preparation for Christ's return and the coming reconciliation between religion and science.

3rd Read the Cabbala all day and been at peace. But in the evening having gone to bed I fell prey to anxiety and cold tremors. Awoke at midnight in an anxious state. Fell asleep again and woke as I dreamt of a banging on my door; the door was thrown open, Mrs. Frumerie (Agnes Kjellberg) forced her way in; simultaneously I was shoved forward by a powerful gust of wind on my back so that I felt as though I were hurtling into Chaos. Woke up. A while later the clock struck 2. June

What was this? Am I forbidden to read occultism? But the peace while reading and the evolving idea of reinstating Christ by means of reason into the minds of materialists and philosophers? Baader would help me with this; he who already has sought reconciliation even between the Oriental and Western churches.

Why am I being afflicted now? – This morning I saw K.A. Tavaststjerna on my wallpaper. Question: have I any responsibility for T.'s fate?

# 1898. **63.**

June 3rd [Cont. fr. p. 63 **[**in fact 62**]**.] I do not think so. I helped his Wife with her Germanlanguage debut at the Residenz Theater in Berlin, in the space of 6 weeks, and without any ulterior motives, since I was engaged to my future second wife. I never participated in T.'s drinking parties, and only met the man cursorily. Nor does my writing appear to have infected T, since he was never an immoralist; and he "had faith in womankind" –

> This morning I had my chemicals thrown out having realized that it was forbidden. [Birds excreted particularly onto the bottles I was using for experiments, my hands got deep cracks in them etc.] When I passed the foundry-yard coal lay heaped up there: in some lumps minerals gleamed with the deep yellow color of gold not the brassy color of iron pyrite: one could see how this gold arose out of adjacent ferric oxide; and this ferric oxide from contiguous lime.

\*

This rekindled my interest in making gold, and I felt that I had been tricked into abandoning alchemy. Am at this moment at a complete loss.

June 4th In the morning after this restless night the atmosphere in my room was poisonous and airing it was no help.

Read part of Leibnitz' Theodicæa. It had Fo-Hi's Arithmetica Binaria as a supplement.

\*

 = H = O

*Equivalent? Atom?* 123 123 = 1 = Oxygen + Hydrogen. = 0 = Hydrogen – Oxygen. = 2 = Oxygen HO. = 3 = Carbon H2..................... Duo Rerum Principia Perfectum Imperfectum = 1. = Oxygen H. O = **[**illeg. del.**]** O = Quatuor Imagines ex duobus principiis proxime natæ. Majus Perfectum Minus Imperfectum H2 = = 3 = *Oxygen Carbon* = 1. = *Nitrogen* OH Minus Perfectum Majus Imperfectum HO = 2 = *Oxygen* = O2 = *Hydrogen* = **[**illeg.del.**]** = (Cont.)

[Cont.] June: 4.

 Octo Figuræ ex quatuor Imaginibus promanantes. montium? Coelum Aquæ monitum? Ignis Tonitrua = H3 = OH2 = HOH = O2H 1. 2. 3. 4.

$$\underbrace{\text{Tenth}}\_{\text{5.}} \text{= } \text{H}^{2}\text{O} \qquad \underbrace{\text{Aqua}}\_{\text{6.}} \text{= } \text{OHO} \qquad \underbrace{\text{Montes}}\_{\text{7.}} \text{HO}^{2} \qquad \qquad \underbrace{\text{Tæra}}\_{\text{8.}} \qquad \qquad \underbrace{\text{Tæra}}\_{\text{8.}} \qquad \text{-O}\_{2}$$

These 8 create 64. Can these be the 64 "Simple Elements"? Then follows Tabula 64 Figurarum seur Liber Mutationum Yi-King. Can these be my commutations in "Types and Prototypes in Mineral Chemistry"?

Sky = 1. = Lightning = 4. Earth = 8 = Mountain = 7. Fire = 3. = Water = 2. Cloud = 6. = Wind = 5. 2 5 Water = = = OH2. Oxygen = Carbon = Hydrogen Oxygen Nitrogen Nitrogen Hydrogen If one looks at Water and = then it resembles = Hydrogen Equiv. = Carbon Atom Wind Air 123 = Hydrogen = Oxygen = O = H 123

$$\bigwedge \mathbf{D^{\natural}} \text{August Bonderson tines his voidin}$$

A Hardanger violin is tuned in this way.

Country fiddlers from Skåne occasionally tune their fiddles like this, but reluctantly, because it's "demonic". Cf. the Cabbala on uniting what nature has separated: Perverse! – Wagner is a Satanist.

Satanism = To believe that God is evil. [Cabbala.]

### **Cf. 24th June.**

What then can the "rats" of delirium be? Larvae, temporary materializations which are attracted to the drunkard's stinking body; forms of punishment! Rats like flies are unclean animals; living in privies and sewers. Kolthoff recounts that he caught earth rats in

Norrland's mountains by pouring out aquavit, as he had learnt from girls in high summer pastures.

*June 23rd. Bismarck died July 31st.*

	- Malaise. No work 9th

Reverted to tobacco. Desire for work returned. Saw the mouse dead outside my front door. 10th


S.A. Hedin ill. Defense Minister Rappe ill. The Norwegian minister's horses bolt. Danish minister's ditto

\*


NB! "The larvae" around the sewer outlets in the Botanical garden. The dockside bums in Coal – tallow – tar etc. by the bridges. **See adjacent clipping!**

The letter to Kléen, which was removed from the mailbox when I came! Kléen was in Lund.

[Rubensson is retiring; Fredriksson, Mrs. Hartman have retired; Hartman dies; Knut Almlöf ill, Löfström the publisher of the quarto edition of Master Olof died on a bicycle. NB! The thunderstorm in Berlin in the night before the 23rd Cf. Old Bülow's talk about pumping down thunder, and that nobody in towns is killed by lightning: this was said a few days earlier. Lightning destroyed trees on Unter den Linden. The Russian Embassy Residence and the Ministry of Finance were damaged.

Last night I dreamt that I was in Vienna and saw the Hofburg Theater, new, light; I was in a cheerful frame of mind as though I had had a play accepted and wanted to call Schlenther 26th

## Helvetesdogmens offer.

Den okanda qvinnan, som kastade sig framför tåget vid Jönköping i lördags till maskinisten S. O. Ekvall vid Jönköpings mejerier.

Prints

rit klen och nervös.

Så uppträdde i vintras i stadens missionsansa

Derskade namber standige, singsdia, benne vorman and met vormandes, vormandes, vormandes, vormandes, vormandes, vormandes, vormandes, vormandes, vorste vorman, vorissiones, v nervstyrka och sinnesro. att »natten va-

ritz foldago bado avaliga, natt fattade varioan var
it Errolliga, voroliga, nati, fattade vorvillade, forvidade,
tribus abeslutet, och kastade, forvidade, forvidade
lan lift

Och der med obetvinglig kraft sin bir prosperation prosperations productions of the productions of the productions of the propriates of the proportions of the market firam-

Note the name Ekvall and the place Jönköping. The Attarp court case concerned the Ekvalls and was heard in Jönköping. Is this a descendant?

Cf. Ekvall from Jönköping who made the Getting Married medallion and went mad; this E. was a descendant.

Ett guldmakarebolag har bildats i Milaner under namn Societar filma allagger and and markat per manatan mana markatikas
di Moderna Alonaget alika sebagai magazing and markatikas
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# 1898. **66.**

Had been speaking to Herrlin about electricity and had connected it in the old way with my attacks. Today telephone workers were repairing the wires which pass over my roof. This has always been the case in the past too when I begun to connect electricity with my 'attacks'. Or does it mean that I am to get out? July 6th

House of Lies.

Whence the name Bethoven? In the Old Testament Beth-Aven = House of Sin. 123 123

Beethoven evening with Herrlin and Strömberg (MD) As we left Åke Hansson's a Meteor could be seen soaring like a rocket to the South. Back home there was a letter from the Kristiania Theater – " 8th

W. Bülow versus Key. [Cf. B's visit to Malmö Prison.] The rats. Holmberg's distiller died. Crop failure in Skåne! La Bourgogne! wreck off New York. The downfall of Spain. The partitioning of China!


Letters from: Lugné-Poe. Gandolphe. Hazelius. Encounter with Key's woman: in the cemetery.

	- Awoke this morning vividly recalling "Swiftly life's hours pass" which I repeated from memory several times; followed by "Orpheus sang . ." Thought I would die today. " 28th

Zola is to be divested of his Legion of Honor. This almost pleases me, since he does not deserve it after his last outburst of rage. There is a strike in Malmö and the "liberal-minded" Danielsson wants to prevent the use of machines. Superb! These petty tyrants think all wisdom resides in them, and that the

development of the world's destiny can only be dealt with by them.

Letter from G. af G that Gernandt's have bought Damascus II –

Sketched out my Play about Magnus The Good (Eriksson.). **(The Saga of the Folkungs.)** 29th

The night between 29 × 30th Dreamt that I drank wine together with King Oscar II in a large gathering, including ladies. A rat gnawed at my window frame as though it wanted to get into the room; it sounded very tendentious and I lay awake for an hour.

Woke from my afternoon nap to find myself enveloped by a blaze of light which was not lightning. 31st

Bismarck died the 30th †. at 11 p.m. Will France now arise again! freed from her nightmare!

From the Depths of Swedish Hearts is played daily. at Mrs. Svensson's.


Dreamt vividly of Pby.

In the morning when I opened my window: a black cat seized a white baby pigeon and ran off with it. I rescued the pigeon which appeared not to see the cat and hence did not flee. Now, set free, the pigeon fled after the cat and settledin the most dangerous spot behind a fence precisely where the cat used to liein wait. The pigeon regarded me with anxiety, as though it thought I was the enemy. Found a one of clubs . 4th

Herrlin told me that he had "seen" Pby on the Copenhagen boat. The night between 4 × 5 On my floor there was a thread like this = P. (Pby)

The night between 4 × 5. Dreamt that I killed a giant eel by plunging a sword down its throat.

Herrlin told me that the pharmacist Zach. Olsson had said that he had had a gold reaction from my samples.

I then decided to take up chemistry again. But Olsson was away now.

With Mortensen and Sylvan. Olsson still away. 5th

# 1898. **69.**

	- Ordered Chemicals for my Gold from the Pharmacy. Kleen and Hektor in Lund. ῶστεν **[**Östen**]** at Åke H's. In the evening I read about St. Lawrence in La vie des Saints. "L'or que vous désirez si ardemment n'est qu'un vil metal tiré de la terre, et c'est la source de bien des crimes . . . [I already knew this, which is why gold will be stripped of its value and lose its attraction.] The night between 9 × 10 dreamt about Georg Brandes. " 9th
		- Decided to leave. 12th
		- Left Lund; and in so doing a new hell commenced; almost indescribable. 13th

14th NB! "In Rome" with Jason. 123

Left for Korsör at 12 p.m. – Evening in Hamburg. Left for Cologne. Saw Carsten's statue with the bas-reliefs in Copenhagen during the morning. 1o Jason returns home with the golden fleece. 2 Death, Sleep, Fate, the Furies. A "larva" stood in front of me blocking my view. Two whores passed by laughing. Cf. the Jason statue which I bought on the morning of my wedding day May 6th 1901, still standing on my tiled stove. (Nov. 24th 1903.)

Left Cologne in the morning – the Chemists get off at Verviers. Alone with Dr. Julius Hirsch lawyer from Bohemia. "Have we not a Father, has not a God created us?" Was written on a wall in Brussels, in gold lettering on a marble tablet as I rode in a cab with the Jew In Brussels by dinner time 15th

16th In Bruxelles Grand Hotel A neighbor plays the flute. Opposite, a music hall where they play until 11 p.m. Above the roof three crosses on a church are visible . August.

Found a five\* of spades and an iron nut and bolt. \* 5 = Sensuality's number.

> 17th Ditto Out of the Grand Hotel into La Cloche d'Or. No. 19 Marché aux Peaux. [NB! Or = Au = 19 spec w.] Parted from Hirsch who was an intelligent and gemüthlich fellow. At the Wierz museum I was handed number 97 = Au equiv.

18th Ditto Telegram from Brand in Heyst; in the evening.

19th left Brussels:

Ste Hélène was Constantine Chlorus' wife. He deserted her when he became Emperor [just as Napoleon deserted Josephine when he became Emperor]. When Constantine The Great ascended the throne he "acknowledged" his mother.

Scène:

 Napoléon. Bertrand.

N. [deep in thought]

B. Your Majesty!

N. You know. I am sitting here wondering: why is this island called Ste Hélène?

B. It is apparently in honor of Constantine Chlorus' wife, the blessed Helena.

N. And what did that holy lady do?

B. We can check in this calendar. [reads.] "Ste Helena, Constantius Chlorus' wife; cast off by him when he became Emperor, since she was of humble birth . . .

N. [rises; looks sharply at B. as though to read his thoughts]

(Cont. fr. prev. page) August 19th

B. [reads] After the Emperor's death . . .

N. That's enough. [pause.]. Do you imagine that I deserted Josephine because she was of humble birth?

B. No, I do not believe that. Your Majesty did not have the right to place another man's widow on the French people's throne, and introduce another man's children as pretenders to the throne; your Majesty was under no obligation to show forbearance toward Cæsar's wife in circumstances where she through her failings cast a shadow on Cæsar.

N. Quite so! – But do you know the main reason why I separated? Because you see behind Cæsar there was a man, and when Josephine gave children to her first husband, but not to me, an unpleasant doubt was cast on my virility. – But why, for all that, does this damned island have to be called Ste Hélène – For all that!

\*

Reached Heyst-sur-Mer; met up with Brand. No. 113. A hot chimney heats my room intolerably. Shortage of water. Raie au beurre noire. Thunder; the sea luminous. "

Bought cigarette paper with . Bought Coppée: La bonne Souffrance. Cervelle! for dinner. " 20th

On my last evening in Lund between 10 and 11 in Åke's garden we could hear seabirds high up in the dark sky above our heads. It I heard similar sounds between 10–11 last night here in Heyst. **\*** It meant: See below 1898: Page 92 **[**in fact 82**]**. at Grönegatan 14

I was given the upholstery material and cushion by Mrs. Bülow.

" 21. \* or on wallpaper:

Awoke in the morning and in broad daylight I saw my pepper-and-salt suit entirely transformed: on a field of bluish green was seen copper-colored branches resembling the pattern on ladies' brocade material, or the "ramage" on 17th-century goffered paper.\* After a moment it disappeared gradually, not instantaneously. What does this mean?**\***

Cf. Page 105. the colors in the girl's hat!


royal graves at Saint Denis Speyer; Heinz was the name of the man who led the action. 100 years later or in 1792 the royal graves at Saint-Denis were plundered; the leader was called Heinz [See Bædeker Paris] In 509 B.C. the last Roman king Tarquinius Superbus was killed; In 509 A.D. Clovis became king of Gaul which succeeded Rome. the German imperial 123

Brutus killed Tarquinius Superbus; Brutus killed Cæsar.

Had decided to go to Paris and stay at the Hôtel de Londres rue Bonaparte. Read in Le Gaulois this morning that rue Bonaparte had been dug up and was under water. A butterfly entered my room twice and flew northwards on both occasions. Here the Big Dipper stands right above the sea in the evenings. " 23"

# 1898. **73.**

23 (cont). It One of the worst things I know is sitting down to a table d'hôte and eating many courses. Circumstances now force me to do so. It is an odd penance! And in order to stand the many courses I must drink wine. Beer drinking is not permitted. Among other things, I detest seaside resorts. And here I am at one! August

"

24th St. Barthelémy = Bartholomew Night!

24th Left Heyst: Saw a large Christ Blackbearded head in the mirror this morning and the wall full of gold coins. My railway ticket was numbered 7917 = 197 = Au. The tombola: No. 790 = 97 = Au equiv. My luggage no. 105 = Ag. Railway carriage from Namur to Cologne = 198 = Au The cab in Cphgn = 106 = Ag.

Arrived at Maredsous at 5:30 p.m. The sun emerged from a triangular

My room in the monastery: B. Victor III. PP. [Victor, Pope decided that Easter Day should be a Sunday; persecuted heretics who denied the divinity of Christ.

25th In the Monastery Library. Ansgarii Diarium was moved by Abbot Thymo from Corvey to Rome in 1261. Been missing ever since.

Found Latin Songs by Klemming, signed in handwriting the image of Klemming's, although not his! Signed

Note 96 = Au equiv. Cf. Realgar 9 6 31 ! 31 39 96 69 61 ×

hole in the clouds.

Horaire:



attacks. Woke at midnight with an attack which was overcome.

**[** \***]**

See: 13 Nov. 1897.

Reading Goldsmith on Nemesis. September. 5th

> 8 threads = 8 days like the infant's age at circumcision. 5 books of the Pentateuch. 10 Commandments. 7 = 7th day the Sabbath. 9 months carrying a child. 11 stars bowed down to Joseph in his dream. 13 attributes of mercy in The Eternal One. 7 + 9 + 11 + 13 = 40 days which Moses spent on mount Sinai. 613 the sum of the Law's commandments. 6th

It is remarkable that Gold making came to the fore 1896, 1897, 1898. 196 = Au; 197 = Au; 198 = Au.

Reading Goldsmith on Nemesis (Providence). 7th "

Merimée Charles IX. The King was not devout; and it was not until the 28 August that he issued the order for the massacre. Coligny had already been murdered on the 22nd. "Coligny avait traité trois fois avec son souverain de puissance à puissance; c'était une raison pour en être haï. Who rang the bell the night of the 24th at around 2 o'clock, is unknown.

In Copenhagen. There was a scent of Jasmine as we sat outside the Dagmar Hotel. Adler, Mortensen and Norrie also noticed it. The same thing occurred at Åke H.'s one evening and Mortensen noticed it. (now this autumn) 8:

En oafbruten via dolorosa.

När kejsar Frans Josef den 2 nästkommande december i sitt ensliga och
sköflade hem kommer att blicka tillbaka
på den väg han tillryggalagt, sedan han den 2 december 1848 - erinrar Sverinrar Sverinrar Sver

of the San Single Comments of Comments of Children
 A Comin Andrewing Single Sommer Collection Comments
 Comments len af ungraren Johann Libenyi, som tillfogar honom ett djupt dolkstyng. Sex årvid Villafranca afträda sitt härliga lombardiska konungarike till Italien. År 1866 beröfvades Österrike både sin dominerande ställning i tyska förbundet och sina venetianska besittningar. Den 6 juni 1607 Albrechts grupsta do ster, tild frage 1867 skjutes kejsar Max, kejsarens äldste broder, vid Queretaro i Mexiko.
Den 13 juni 1886 mördar kung Ludwig Don 10 - Jam 1000 - Morau. Bang Bang Barana.
 Liberara Sill Republikans Basis Charas Barrial
 Libraria Eill Roman Simula Baran Baragan Organisan San 80 januari 1889 inträffar den hemska katastrofen, som gjorde slut på de förhoppparets ende son, kronprins Rudolf. Den
29 juli 1894 störtar kejsarens kusin, er-

af hästen och dör samma dag. Den 6
september 1895 handskas den endast 20så oförsigtigt med bössan, att densamma brinner af och dödar honom på fläcken. År 1897 omkommer kejsarinnans syster, färliga basarbranden vid Rue Group i Paris, och den 10 september innevarande år faller kejsarinnan Elisabeth för mördarehand.

ﻓﺎﻟﻌﺎﻟﻢ ﺍﻟﻤﺎﺋﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﺘﻮﺳﻂ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺎﻋﺪﺓ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺎﻋﺪﺓ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺎﻋﺪﺓ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺎﺣﺔ
ﺍﻟﻤﻌﺎﻣﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﺎﺋﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺗﺴﺘﺨﺪﻡ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺎﻋﺪﺓ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺎﺣﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺎﺣﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺎﺣﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺎﺣﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺎﺣﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺘﻮﻯ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺘﻮﻯ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺘﻮﻯ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺘﻮﻯ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺘ Erkehertiginnan Maria Immakulata, kejsar-dotten sijuk field Valeries System Sistem Sistem Sistem Sistem Sistem Sistem Sistem Sistem Sistem Sistem Sistem Sistem Sistem Sistem Seingiftade strumpor. Kejsarens dotterdotter Erkehertig Ottos olyckliga äktenskap och skandalerna i den genom enkekronprip sostade koburgska framiljen invert besingstige monart
förstämmande på den ridderlige månar.
ken. Sist men icke minst förbittras kejsarens dagar af de nationalitetsstrider,
som hota att underminera sjelfra grunder, monarkiens existens.

 Man kan alltså med skäl påstå, att få
borgerliga familjer torde hafva blifvit så hårdt pröfvade af forsynen som den fursteatt, hvilken har sitt stamsäte i Wiens kejsarborg.

Cf. p. 76, 10 September


September: 9th

NB!

1898. **76.** The Dreyfus situation is now as follows. Dreyfus has written to his Wife that she ought to seek the help of Boisdeffre whom he believes to be honest. But Zola has in fact accused Boisdeffre.

Mrs. Dreyfus says that she believes her husband will return, feels that his situation will improve; but that at the last moment something unexpected will bring everything to come crashing down.

Now that Henry's suicide and Esterhazy's defeat have shown that there is such a thing as divine justice, how can one then believe that Dreyfus suffers innocently? NB! All the godless are convinced of Dreyfus's innocence. Est-ce assez!

Eagles and storks are fighting in Macedonia. The eagles are victorious.

S. Martin Évêque de Tours 4th Century, 11 November was an exorcist. When dying he saw "l'ennemi du genre humain"

S. Eloi condemned 50 heretics and had the apostolic power to consign them to Satan.

Moved out of the Central Hotel and back to Tomegapsgatan 22. 10

The Empress of Austria murdered.

NB! The great Cyclone in Paris struck on Sept. 10th 1896.

The Empress E. was born on Christmas Eve (24 Dec) 1837. Became engaged on 24 April 1854. Erected a statue to Heine. Sportswoman. Married the grandson of Emperor Franz whose Marie-Louise married Napoleon I and who was the grandfather of Napoleon II. Sister of the Duchess of Alençon.\* Related to Ludwig of Bavaria. and Maximilian of Mexico. Archduke Rudolf her Son.

\* Who died in the Bazaar fire.

[76 v.]

# Den fjerrskådande "Söderåsgubben".

Kejsarinnan Elisabeths mord förutsagdt.

Skall ännu en af iordens store falla för mordarehand innan året har gått?

 Till Malmö-Tidningen skriftves från norra
Skåne följande, hvilket vi meddela för kurl osteredis

I trakten af Söderåsen lefver en gammal gubbe, om hvilken många underliga historier äro i omlopp. Den gamle tyckes vara en nutida Svedenborg, ehuru man aldrig har hört honom braska med några besök af andar. Men i likhet med Jesper Svedbergs son besitter han en oförklarlig förmåga att kunna se in i framtiden.

Mannen ifråga spår icke i egentlig mening; han hvarken lägger kort eller rotar i kaffesumpen. Förutsägelserna komma helt apropos, när >anden> faller på honom. Deremellan, påstår han sjelf, vet han inte mera än andra menniskor. Gubben eger ingen lärdom och kan med nätt nöd långsamt stafva sig fram i bok. Det rådde just icke så ordnade skolförhållanden i hans barndom, för en 70 år sedan, der uppe på åsen.

 För att nu anföra några exémpel på hans märksom vidrer en händelse för dagen.

I lördags ätta dagar sedan stod han vid middagstiden utanför sin stuga och samspråkade med tre bekanta från socknen, bland hvilka befann sig skolläraren, som berättat mig händelsen. Plötsligt tystnade han och stirrade med frånvarande ta sväfvade fram i rymden. Att tilltala honom i sådana ögonblick lönade sig icke, det visste sällskapet, ty han svarade aldrig. Slutligen vaknade han upp och sade med en djup suck:


– Jo, vil få spörja något vid den här tiden åttalldagar i dag – långt bortifrån utländerna.
Dom sticker i i hjel en qvinna då, ja gu' gör

Och i lördags middag mördades med dolk kejsarinnan Elisabeth!

Förra sommaren var han i ett ärende till en grannförsamling. Trött af vandringen gick han in i en utmed vägen liggande gård för att hvila litet. Bäst han så sitter ser han sig pröfvande omkring i stugan och frågar derpå husfadern: - I ha'n väl brandförsäkradt?



Bonden tänkte inte vidare på det der, men äldsta sonen hade varit inne och hört samtalet. vandrarens ord ur hufvudet, gick han en dag, fadern ovetande, och lät försäkra gården. Detta ned och orsakade en eldsvåda som lade hela stället i aska.

Till bevis på hur blindt allmänheten tror Söderåsgubbens ord kan omtalas, att han en gång var inne hos en snickare i bygden, hvilken äfven brukade göra likkistor. För närvarande sysslade han med annat arbete och hade icke heller någon kista på förlag. Ingen var sjuk i trakten, så det han. Men den gamle var af annan mening.

 kort.

### Kejsarinnan och anarkismen.

 Då kejsarinnan Elisabeth för flera år sedan vistades i Paris, rigtade hon en gång till dår vistades i i armineren moren det vorkleiner frågran
 frågrande , polispressen om det vorkleiner og får mångar
 frames dårar, som väntade lysam klinker att mångar att mång och ett kaotiskt unistand I samnanet. Tilkejsarinnan skämtande för att sånar såra med månet.
kejsarinnan skämtande för ande för att skant-

ara oratt.

Decerting of mot - Dras fully de distances and the different.
Series the of mot - Dray fines desimments and the differen
gradering of mot - Dress for spectangels. And and the

voiso af intere mot Picquart, som fångslas och
kännes.
afskedas ur armén. afskedas ur armén.
4. Målet mot Zola, som dömes af juryn.

Domen kasseras af kassationsdomstolen.
Reinachs ärekränkningsmål mot Roche

fort, som dömes till fem dagars fängelse.
6. Målet mot Reinach för öfrersättningen
af en artikel ur en engelsk tidskrift. Rei-

nach utstötes ur armen.
Zola dömes. målet mot Zola i Versailles.
Zola dömes. mat Picomant för Ir diskretlener

2014

quarts protest förkastas af kassationsdomdomstole

10. Målet mot du Paty de Clam for delaktighet i nämda förbrytelse. Äfven han fri-

krogass i manuta forbryteise. Arven han iriEsterhazy, som på grundersökning mot
Esterhazz, som på grund af kompromettekamos.
Betstaktigsministerlets undersökning mot
Betandig, som på grund af kompromor mot
Parada broft utstötes ur båtren. Af kompromenter og med en med en med all and en er fl

anti Ali försvunnen. sm His

· Men - men - jag har ju inget mått på de döda!


Och på tummen uppgaf han två mått, ett för en karl och ett för en qvinna. Och så stor var tilliten till fjerrskådaren från åsen, att snickaren på hans ord verkligen tog ihop med det abestälda arbetet. Knappt hade han emellertid kistorna färdiga, förrän en hemmansegare i grannskapet dog af slag och nära nog samtidigt drunknade en torparhustru i Rönneå. När anförvand terna kommo för att beställa kistor, stodo dessa redan färdiga och voro alldeles af den storlek som behöfder.

Många dylika besynnerliga historier äro i svang om denne underlige gamle, som blygsam och tyst lefver sitt anspråkslösa lif bland Söder sen bys kar, utan att på något sätt förhäfva sig öfver den mystiska egenskap han tyckes besitta.

Slutligen förtjenar nämnas att han i dessa dagar förutsagt, att innan året gått till ända skall ännu en af jordens store falla för mördarehand och >det skall ske med stor knall» - spränghomb eller kula?

Tiden får utvisa om också denna hemska förutsägelse kommer att slå in. Pan.

### Cf. p. 77, 13 September

14th Found a Torn Nine of Spades.

17th It had been foretold the Empress would be killed by an anarchist. The white Lady of Schönbrunn had been seen shortly before.

18th Sunday. Having lived soberly without aquavit with my meals and with no evening visits to cafés for the past week and as I felt well, having regained my ability to work and peace of mind, Gillberg and I went to Åke Hansson's yesterday evening. – A cat came three times and looked through the door. Slept miserably!

Promise myself today never again to taste Aquavit, Cognac, or Whiskey! May God help me to keep this promise! Includes: Rum, Arrack, Absinthe.

Member of Parliament A.P. Danielsson attacked.


	- As I sat in my room I saw a 10-year old girl writing in chalk on the plank across the road With my binoculars I made out the writing as follows: 2nd

345 = Manganese = Nickel. 789 = Iodine = Gold.

1444442444443

Is this Iodine from Manganese? See: Antibarbarus! 345:6. = 57,5 = Ni 345 = Manganese 789:4. = 197,25 = Au 789 = Iodine acc. to Berzelius. 123 123 123

> What does this mean? The division gives 57,5 = Ni. above and 197,25 below. But 197 is the atomic weight of Gold. 57,5 = FeH2 Maybe the Swedish Hymnbook is intended? No, it only has 500 hymns. [My pen-wiper has the patent number 7194; and the bank note I sent sister Elisabeth for the lottery bore the numbers 1, 9, 7.]

> > Elisabeth won 50 crowns!

A Magpie, very rare here in Lund, laughed outside my window. Dreamt during the night of the 3rd that an attendant from the Royal Library came and gave me a 1000 Crown note which I was to keep and make out a receipt to Johan Ohlsson.

10th Saw a 2 on my sponge when I woke up this morning. Found a 2 in the street later printed on a piece of paper. = NB! 2 = The number of dissension (entrevée) and of everything created.

11th The shot on Cphgn's ramparts. W B's sister's fiancé.

Night between 11th × 12th dreamt so vividly of Kaolin Alkali with Acetic Acid (without now being able to recall the context), that I was convinced in the morning that it referred to gold making and plays some part in it.

Sister Elisabeth won 50 Crowns.

3rd

Geijerstam came to Lund. October. 21st

> A comet is visible beyond the Big Dipper's η. 22nd

> > Dreamt during the night between 22 × 23 of a spider which was white; also: that a black thundercloud came into view and that I was afraid of being struck dead, but there was only a faint clap.

G. af G. left.

23

27

Alone and working on The Cloister.

31st October. Saw a five of Spades demonstratively propped up against a window. Spades = Death, bereavement 5 = Sensuality. NB! In Brussels on 17 August I also found a 5 of Spades. 31 October: The night before 1st November. Woke with familiar shivering [See Swedenborg's dreams] Thought that Kleen was in the room but could not see him. The clock struck once. After that I waited half an hour; it then made a slight sound to announce the hour; but did not strike again although I waited for another hour. The clock had struck 1:30. I thought Kleen was dead. = The death of sensuality. 123

November: 4th At 9:30 in the evening when I was about to go to bed I was overcome by shivering and got the impression that Kleen was in the room.

Dreamt of a reddish-brown horse which bit me = War. 1442443

 "puce" November. 6th Sunday: A bird excreted onto my hat. A registered letter for 1,000 Crowns from Gernandt! Out with the Bülows at Åke H–n's. Simplicissimus confiscated. Prosecution!

8th The owl 'tu-whit tu-whoo'd' in the evening.

9th A woodpecker, a crow, a cat in the morning.

Westrup's tailor's bill amounted to 196 Crowns = 196 = Au.

10th Promise myself never to taste punch again! May God help me in this!

**[79 v.]**

**[**Cf. p. 77, 17 September**]**

### Luccheni

Appears to be a temporary incarnation of an Esprit correcteur with the task of punishing the Empress. His whole behavior is obviously unreasonable from a human point of view.

But he is also a splendid caricature of an anarchist, and talks nonsense like one.

Asks for death since it will dematerialize him again. Appears incapable of suffering. "Lacks father and mother" hence unborn!

Cf. Madesjö = the fool who must certainly be possessed. He also makes himself invisible!

Denies the murder charge.

Stopped smoking tobacco. Kleen admitted to Lund Hospital. November 11th

12th


Dreamt Night between 22 × 23 of a sparrow which had built its nest in a cushion; of a rat which moved its tail so that it resembled a snake; the snake broke off and disappeared behind a tiled stove. Got out of bed at 6 a.m. The sky sparkling bright; the morning star (Venus–Lucifer) twinkled demonstratively in the Southwest. Went back to bed. The morning clear, cold; mists dispersed; rosy clouds in the Southwest where Venus had been visible.

When I lit a cigarette here at home it began to smoke from an outhouse chimney from which I had never before seen smoke.

I put down the cigarette; the smoke disappeared. Later I lit a fresh one; the smoke began again!

Dreamt of a she-wolf which was to be killed, but the large dog, which was to hunt her, got himself involved in a flirtation instead, and with that the she-wolf was free.

Restless nights.

Mrs. Marholm can be seen on the globe of my lamp

on my wallpaper.

2 × 3 Night = Storm, noise from the window-paper. December


Kleen was buried in Hör. A magpie flew up in the cemetery. A dog howled. A pig was being slaughtered as the service commenced. An icy wind met us in Hör: The church bells were inaudible. although they were being rung. 15th

December:

The name Pikulell to be seen in D.N.

19th Finished "Advent", my fairy-tale play. In the evening Toward the end when the nativity scene becomes visible my pince-nez kept falling off In the evening I went out at W. Bülow's invitation; it thundered, rained and blew in a demonstratively unpleasant way. [There is said to have been lightning] At Stadshuset there were noises above our heads in the old way. Despondency! Felt I was damned!

What have I done now? In "Advent" I allow lost souls to hope for an end to their torments. Is this what is forbidden? " However, B also grew depressed so we had to go home, each to his!

20th Discordant! Found a twig in the botanical gardens.

(A couple of days later I found a thread of wool in my bed in the shape of a T)

22nd Musical evening with Strömberg, Herrlin, Mortensen.

29th Moved from Tomegapsgatan 22 to Grönegatan 14.

A white dog welcomed and delighted me; the sun was shining after a rainy morning Saw two white swans above the Embankment. In the main staircase of my house: Apollo and Minerva.

Was given a pillow in copper-red and blue as a Christmas present; the sofa in my new home has the same colors and the same palm-frond pattern as I saw on my suit at Heyst sur Mer on August 21st 1898 [See page 71 of this Diary]

Now, 8 days after having finished "Advent" in which the child Jesus plays a part, I read E.T.A. Hoffmann's Das Fremde Kind (in Serapionsbrüder) in which the child Jesus appears as Playmate as he does in my fairy-tale play. Hoffmann has been lying on my table for three months. Could I possibly have got my idea, which I thought was new, by telepathic means from the books lying on my table? NB! The child Jesus appears in Teufelselixir as well.

In to

Grönegatan.

1899. **83.** 1.st The sun was shining down toward Malmö and the Sound this morning. Started work on the play 'Magnus The Good? [The Story of the Folkungs.] Stopped working on that Play a couple of days later and started on a Parisian play on the 15th of January – "There are Crimes and Crimes" [Intoxication.] On my calendar: View of Stockholm. Peaceful in my new lodgings! January

15th Started on the Parisian play "There are Crimes and Crimes".

1899

by whom?

16th

22nd Birthday at W. Bülow's.

Dreyfus seems to think better of the General Staff than the Dreyfusards and Zola do!

21st Dreamt at night of my mother of whom I have not dreamt since I was 15 years old. She said kindly, with some indifference "Do not concern yourself with Catholicism" – I answered: "Indeed I must! for that is Christianity!"

I reached the age of 50. The dinner agreeable. But later Anna Norrie arrived and things turned horrible, dancing, a terrible racket.

24th Back home at 9 after a quiet evening with Herrlin at Åke H.'s. Went to bed at 10. At midnight shivering and an attack; heard my circulation as though a water faucet had been turned on; thought I was about to die. "Dreamt" that I was lying in my bed and that Herrlin was sitting next to me talking of philosophy heard his voice, saw him. Thought I was awake; but was not. Thought someone was knocking at my front door. Got up to open it; but nobody was there –

At this point I woke and it was all over.

Got up in the morning in good health and spirits.


On 1 May 1889, however, Gustaf af G told me in Lund that, shortly afterward, Karl Staaff had admitted that his belief in death as the end had been undermined just because of Karl's death.


26th Went to Stockholm.


Herz has restless nights!

windows.

## **[85 v.]**

Mr. X maintains that he is convinced of Dreyfus's innocence since Bülow has declared in the German parliament that he knew nothing of Dreyfus's spying activities. 1o Is Bülow omniscient? 2o Cannot Dreyfus be guilty without Bülow knowing about it? 3o Even though B. has stated that D has not spied on Germany's behalf, D might have spied on behalf of other powers [Italy has been mentioned! The fortifications at Nice.]

\*

One asks: Why is Dreyfus downcast and silent when informed that his appeal has been allowed? – In the natural order of things he should be delighted and now reveal openly what he previously could only tell "the secret court".

Mr. Y. replies: It could be pride! – Magnificent! as logic, and psychology! Dreyfus is informed of the appeal and nevertheless wishes to commit suicide. O pride!

This is magnificent! Because the Governor did not hear it, the warden's testimony is false!


Shakespeare has always been odious to me. **of the Folkungs finished now in April.** 25th

# 1899. **87.**

26th Finished Almqvist's The Emerald Bride which is not particularly remarkable But on page 44 we read: "But to deceive a deceiver need not be a fault, an evil, a sin, he thought, in cases where there are no other means whereby his deception may be undone." Underneath this a reader has noted in pencil! "Almqvist! Almqvist! The oatmeal gruel!" The book was published in 1845. The catastrophe took place in 1851. || born on November 28th 1793\*. On page 241 Almqvist states his moral view: "It has occurred to me, that everything in the world may be called the opposite of what is right: to which may be added that everything which is right is the opposite of the other, then everything in the world is backward" Page 446. "For when great religious wars have broken out it has always been the case that one party has declared that cause to be God's which the other party maintains is the devil's . . . April

\* 1793: Girondists, Louis XVI and Marie Antoinette et al. beheaded.

On the same day I read Blanche: The Girl from the Dockside. On page 144 it says: – "but if one could deceive the father of lies with a lie thus restraining his evil influence, then I do not believe that God would punish one for it."

	- In E.T.A. Hoffman's Serapionsbrüder page 161. "In alter Zeit hatten wir einen frommen schlichten Glauben; wir erkannten das Jenseits aber auch die Blödigkeit [inadequacy] unserer Sinne; dann kam die Aufklärung, die Alles so klar machte, dass man vor lauter Klarheit nichts sah . . . jetzt soll das Jenseits erfasst werden mit hinübergestrechten Armen von Fleisch und Bein . . ." 6th
	- In my present lodgings where I have written The Story of the Folkungs (about Magnus and Erik) someone has scratched on a windowpane with a diamond 10th

Erik Magnus

This is strange! It was already there when I moved in. And it is also strange that the father Magnus's heart is larger than that of his son Erik!

Cf. the spring of last year when I bought Starbäck's 11-volume history, the very pages I needed to read on Magnus Eriksson were missing! Whereupon I drew back, taking it as a sign not to write! [However the Story of the Folkungs is now finished and accepted by the Dramatic Theater. How to tell when a temptation is to be overcome or a warning obeyed?]

Where is Roget's testimony? About the memorandum sewn into Dreyfus's tunic etc.?

\* Proof: two false witnesses or a drunken police constable

\*\* Even during

Zola's trial

La Matin Presse

said that Esterhazy had written the memorandum from dictation. (or copied Dreyfus's memorandum).

Even if Esterhazy had written the memorandum, Dreyfus might even so have passed out the documents in question.

1899. **88.** 26th Catulle Mendès has been wounded in his private parts in a duel! It is a great defeat for the Naturalists. Flaubert died in semi-obscurity and poverty; Zola in exile; Desprez Autour d'un Clocher died in prison.

Maupassant = cf. Horla; Huysmans in a monastery; G. Brandes on the rack; Strindberg in Inferno; Fröding in hospital; Vallengren, Kleen died young – Ola Hansson a Catholic Edv. Brandes in court and ῾υνδρισκαν [the dog whip]. Subsequently imprisoned Hans Jæger has ceased to write; destitute. Herman Bang! Cf: The young Graybeards in Lund and the Tua coterie. Wicksell not an associate professor until the age of 50! Cf. in Germany: Aron Holtz and ? Schlaf!; Hauptman's teacher – Hartleben Richard Dehmel, Pby, Böltzsche et al. who did not exactly have much fun. Nietzsche, E. v. Hartmann.

I told Holst this when he visited me last summer. Cf. my chemical correspondence with Dr. Eliasson et al. Also my article in Hyperchimie: Les gîtes aurifères de France, (1898).

But there ought also to be Gold in the streams of Småland particularly those near Ädelfors and similar formations (see Sw. Geological Map) where Gneiss, Eurite and Hyperite converge! That is to say around Värend etc.

31st Strömstedt passed his final examination!

W.B alone at Åke's! Dreamt of Collin. I with F. Vetterlund.

A pale-gray cat followed us all the way from Åke Hansson's all the way down to the Cathedral. Allowed itself to be picked up. Had a female face! Rubbed itself against our legs! [We thought of Kleen.

1st The Court of Appeal has decided on a review of the Dreyfus trial After having 2nd spent a whole year reviewing it.

NB! This whole spring I kept company with Nils Andersson, Gillberg and Little Bookseller Schedin.

May.

Mrs. Edgren, Kowalewski, Mrs. Benedictson; dead! Mrs. Skram once in an asylum. Krøyer insane. Drachman is ill and poor.

**[88 v.]**

14243

14243

Similarity of the writing paper! Magnificent!

The sentence of 1894 "appears (?) open to doubt and untenable".

How does he know that?

A lie! The gambler etc D. What evidence!

The sum total of the Dreyfus trial seems to be: the Generals had plenty of clues, but in order to procure material evidence, they had it fabricated; particularly as all their witnesses were rejected.

Dreyfus in other words guilty of his crime, and the generals guilty of forgeries. Hence suum cuique!

Yes he had: to Lebrun-Renault and a prison guard!

Today June 3rd a telegram that Esterhazy has admitted to writing the memorandum. It was clear even at the time of the Zola trial that Esterhazy had written the memorandum from dictation Two months ago a lady sent a telegram from London that Esterhazy had admitted this. Simultaneously it was claimed in England that Esterhazy had agreed to accept responsibility for the memorandum for a large sum of money. Has Esterhazy been bought in order to bring pressure to

bear on the appeal at the last moment? Yet Esterhazy still maintains that Dreyfus is guilty. NB!


Dispatched The Vasa Saga I to Gernandt's. Telegram from August Lindberg. 13th

**Gustav Vasa completed on June 12th.**

June 20th. I found the words below in the Bible.

Jeremiah: Ch. 39 v. 16 ff.

Behold, I will bring my words upon this city for evil, and not for good; and they shall be accomplished in that day before thee. 17. But I will deliver thee in that day, saith the Lord: and thou shalt not be given into the hand of the men of whom thou art afraid. 18. For I will surely deliver thee, and thou shalt not fall by the sword, but thy life shall be for a prey unto thee because thou hast put thy trust in me, saith the Lord.

# 1899. **90.**


Cf. my polemic with Landin about Gold synthesis and Landin taking out a patent immediately afterward as I was told by Karl af Geijerstam. See my commentaries on the patent in my Notes about Gold. **Cf. Lundström's visit to me [ \*] [**Cf. p. 115**]**

Letter to me in which I was called Cagliostro (= calculating scondrel.) accused of "pampering crooks", of being ungrateful, and it spoke of "royal fawning and flattery" etc. nonsense. Depression all day! Saw accumulators being painted white outside the electricity works –

Was serenaded by students: Winter's storms are o'er among the mountains. When they sang Yea I'm


A man selling baskets and pipes asked for me. He kissed my hands and said he was a Hungarian (Dalmatian)

	- At G. af G's at Skytteholm. At v. Steijern's at Kaggeholm. 21 123

**and** 

Hugo Philp and I that night: a crow croaked above our heads; the Flag on the Philps's house at half-mast. Back home I saw the face of a dead person with bleeding lips on my towel. 25th **Blue.**

# **[90 v.]**

Notebook bought in Ystad on August 12th 1896 Three horses' heads etc. see page 25 of this diary.

[Cf. p. 91, 28 June and p. 92, 2 July]

[Cf. p. 91, 30 June]


**[91 v.]**

July 6th.


NB. "Dreyfus' treason."


Furusund –

# 1899. **94.**

3rd Köpmanholm and Furusund resemble Ebal and Garízĭm, "mountains of the Curse and the Blessing". (Deuteronomy.) August

On Köpmanholm Ebal with Stentorp, Helsingholm, Skams-sund stands the chapel. Here are piles of stones, burnt woods, ugly farmland, naked rocks. No hotel no entertainments. This is truly where the unfortunate live.

On Furusund Garizim, with its beautiful pastures and Groves, the houses have names from Italy (Hesperia): Lido, San Carlo, Villa Franca, etc. Here is the hotel; here music, entertainments, parties, here are the young,

This is strange! NB! I saw this landscape in the plaster of the outer wall of the Elementary School building in Lund (with Nils Andersson)

When you approach from the sea Furusund lies on the right, Köpmanholm on the left.

Nora left. 5th

> The White horse, called Tycho, which grazes at liberty has beautiful black dendrite like markings; is normally well-disposed toward humans. This morning he laid back his ears and yawned nastily; after which he rolled over.

> I had decided to return to Lund for a while to fetch my belongings and attend Nils Anderson's wedding. But became restless for several days and speechless. I then decided not to go: and immediately regained peace.

I read today 1st Book of Kings 13. 15 ff. "Then he said unto him: Come home with me, and eat bread. And he said: I may not return with Thee, nor go in with Thee: neither will I eat bread nor drink water with Thee in this place; for it was said to me by the word of the Lord . . . Thou shalt not turn again to go by the way that Thou camest". || This made me decide not to go! 6th

I read 1 Samuel 16. 14 ff. "But the Spirit of the Lord departed from Saul, and an evil spirit from the Lord troubled him. And Saul's servants said unto him: behold now an evil spirit from God troubleth Thee. Let our lord now command thy servants, which are before Thee, to seek out a man, who is a cunning player on an harp, and it shall come to pass, when the Evil spirit from God is upon Thee, that he shall play with his hand, and Thou shalt be well."\*

Yesterday evening the 5th I met Mrs. Heyman, Her lover and Daughter in the dark, dressed in black to go to her husband's funeral.

Today: awoke with unusual rumblings in my stomach. My hat fell into the basin. A woodpecker squawked; a dog howls.

\* Psalms 55:10 "Destroy, O Lord, and divide their tongues that and let them perish . . ." Judges 9.22, 23. "When Abimelech had reigned three years over Israel, then God sent an evil spirit between Abimelech and the men of Shechem . . ."

**Esterhazy's letter and Dreyfus' plight**

**Esterhazy's letter:**

The same frequently recurred during my life with Harriet. That on certain occasions I got sand in my eyes and felt as heavy as lead – nailed down. And when I visited her in the evenings both on Biblioteksgatan and at Stureparken, I fell silent, somber, and had to leave. She thought I was angry, but I was not. Signified: that I must not approach her! **\* p. 95**

**[94 v.]**


123

**[94 v.]**

**\* p. 95**

approach her!

**Esterhazy's letter and Dreyfus' plight**

**Esterhazy's letter:**

The same frequently recurred during my life with Harriet. That on certain occasions I got sand in my eyes and felt as heavy as lead – nailed down. And when I visited her in the evenings both on Biblioteksgatan and at Stureparken, I fell silent, somber, and had to leave. She thought I was angry, but I was not. Signified: that I must not

1899. **96.** 26th Slept in the afternoon. Woke with the impulse to seek David Strömberg, the Physician, in order to listen to Bethoven. Went to my desk to look up Strömberg in my Address book. Just then the maid came in with a letter from Helmer Strömberg, the former Opera singer, who thanked me for "Advent" and explained that he had been in Uppsala Asylum but had recovered his sanity through prayer. A case similar to mine, Herrlin's and Paul Cavallin's etc. August

> This must be a case of partial "clairvoyance" – that I sensed a letter from "Strömberg", but was unable to distinguish which Strömberg. For it has in fact happened to me many times that I have "read my letters and newspapers in the post", i.e. that I have more or less known their contents, before they were delivered. I have described several cases to Herrlin. But I had sensed this letter from H. Strömberg which was written a couple of days ago; for yesterday there was a telephone call from sister Anna asking me whether I wanted to visit Uppsala (cf. the Asylum). This aroused a faint suspicion that my nervous state of the past few days coupled with reserve and helplessness had alarmed my sister. [In the evening of the day before yesterday when I told Hugo Philp that I had been in hospital in Paris, he asked me if it was not La Salpetrière?!] But my thoughts have also touched on conversion and Christ these past few days. It may be Strömberg's preoccupation with me which I have sensed at a distance.

Yesterday I read in the Bible that "Thou shalt return through the wilderness to Damascus"

Be that as it may ever since I left Furusund I have been stressed and worried by several "warnings".

After writing this I went for a walk outside my lodgings and met Professor Holst (geologist) He mentioned among other things that when Måns Jönsson (Ola Montanus in The Red Room) reproached me for having allowed him to end up committing suicide Holst apparently answered Jönsson who was then a "Pietist": After all you have ended up with a "spiritual suicide"

29th Found an Ace of clubs on Djurgården ditto 3 ditto Ace of Spades ditto 8 8 of Diamonds. August

Discordances αννα **[**Anna**]** wanted a divorce.

1st Read Mrs. Skram's Hieronymus and At St. Jörgen's. Horrible! More horrible than my Inferno! Her clothes were marked with 6660 [= 666 = The number of the Beast.] September

6th On my morning egg 27 was written in pencil **NB!**


162 = Starch = C6H10O5

Starch separates at 160o into Dextrin and Sugar. Does then 6 × Alumina = Al6 or Si6 = Starch? NB = 160o and Mol. weight 160 (162) Albumen C6H10O5NH2 = 178.

Dreyfus sentenced in Rennes to 10 years imprisonment under extenuating circumstances. The extenuating circumstances are presumably: that the man is of German extraction and hence acted out of innate feelings for his country. (= Germany) 9th Sept.

> It is remarkable that the majority of Swedish newspapers believe D. to be innocent. They do so on the strength of the Laywers' pronouncements and the denials of the accused. But when one knows that Lawyers undertake to defend absolutely anything their statements are worthless, and "the first duty of the accused must be is after all to deny".

Dreyfus' lawyers assert that they were not called upon to prove Dreyfus' innocence. How strange: They and Zola have sworn that he is innocent: they ought to substantiate their claim.

In accordance with modern legal concepts and procedures, the generals have to arrive at their verdict on the basis of the conviction they have gained during the trial, the testimony of witnesses, confrontations etc. When they have come to the conclusion that the man is guilty, they must adjudge him guilty, despite the denials of the defendant and his lawyers. The fact that they have not been able to impart their conviction to the lawyers is natural since the task of lawyers is not to accept the arguments of their opponents.

Paul Cassagnac who was the first person to request a judicial review in L'Autorité. During the Rennes trial he became convinced of Dreyfus's guilt and retracted.

Verte!

**[97 v.]**

(Cont. from previous page). Sept 9th

> Carrière, the government's representative, started off in Rennes by believing in Dreyfus' innocence. During the trial he grew convinced of D's guilt. There must be reasons for such changes of mind.

In addition it is a monstrous injustice toward the judges to tear up a sentence three years later, when vital witnesses are dead (Attel, and oth., Henry et al.) and when human memories are so fallible.

If in fact some documents really were forgeries (Piquart for that matter was also guilty of forgery!) this does not affect the likelihood of the defendant's guilt, since he was sentenced on the strength of 300 genuine documents and on the incriminating testimony words of countless witnesses.

The generals were disgraced for not having been scrupulous; Henry had to commit suicide because of his foolish and criminal zeal – Here justice appears to have been meted out in all directions.

There remains: Zola's perjury (He swore that Dreyfus was innocent); Labori's simulated (?) assassination; and the mendacious telegrams of the whole lying press; G. Brandes leveled the accusation that Dreyfus had ferreted out the Generals' "pilfering from the kitties"; and Björnson's frivolous hypotheses that Dreyfus had no need of money and was a good family man, a man of honor etc.

This is the greatest war of lies ever fought, and awakens one's longing for the real old raw wars! The lack of principles of an irreligious age demonstrates its consequences.

\*

It should be noted that my compatriots at a distance here have acquired a blind faith in Dreyfus' innocence, while after a meticulous review the Court of Appeal in Paris was not convinced of D's innocence, but referred the case to a new military tribunal to obtain clarity. In other words: what the Appeal Court was unable to unravel has been solved by my compatriots! without further ado and before a single document had been made public. They had their sentence ready based on Zola's declamations!

Dreyfus has been compared to Calas. Well, in that case D. ought first to be proved innocent. [Besides: Calas is considered innocent of having murdered his son physically, but guilty as a fanatical Huguenot [= "Pietist"] of having tormented his son into committing suicide

(Cont)

This resembles a portrait of Jean Lundin, the Lieutenant in The New Kingdom.

**See: The Occult Diary's Supplement, 2 Portfolios.**

# 1899. **99.**


**[99 v.]**

If the wretch had known so much, why is he silent when D. is sentenced once more.

# 1899. **100.**

Yesterday Sunday at Lidingöbro with Dahlströms and Philps September 11th:

Mrs. Dahlström described that there had been ghosts the last night in her house at Furusund; "furniture had been pushed around" and "packing cases had been nailed down . . " Her children had also heard it. Investigations had revealed nothing! It is strange that I have had "furniture moving" above me the last few days and it had made me rather anxious. Monday:

> Today the 11th it is worse than ever and I have also experienced "electrical sensations" in my back and chest as well as much anxiety.

Read yesterday that the Theosophists are holding a congress in Stockholm with Mrs. Tingly (?). Each time there has been a Theosophist congress I have been anxious. As I sit writing this, someone is making a noise above me and I have a "stretching" sensation in my back and chest.



Mrs. Minna Sickinger in Haag Nieder-Oestreich. (See enclosed letter.)

4th In the morning I sat on the cape beyond Täcka Udden and Sirishov thinking about the curse which has constantly dogged my work for the theater, compared to the theater work of others. Tried in my mind to defend myself against what I might possibly have transgressed in Getting Married; at that moment I saw lying on the ground in front of me a revolting object, which I flung away with my umbrella unsure of whether it was real; for it seemed to be an answer to my questions: [= πρευεντιυ, βεγαγναδτ **[**contraceptive, used**]**.] On another occasion this autumn it happened that I was walking along the road thinking as follows: All women are wh–s. At that same moment my eyes fell on a scrap of newspaper and an advertisement in large letters: Stud stallion. October:

7th At G. af G's at Saltsjöbaden.

8th Sunday: There was pounding on all my walls, and on my ceiling during the morning. Must I get out again?

Sparrows congregated outside my window this morning with meaningful looks. Gave them some bread.

9th The sparrows have not returned. During my morning walk along the Djurgården shore I saw a crow attacking a writhing roach I chased off the crow and threw the fish into the water; but it floated. The crow returned! I could do no more, but left.

**[101 v.]**

**[**Cf. p. 102, 26 November**]**


8th Letter from J.E.L.

whom I am about to delineate.]

Paul turns up!

20th Hector arrived from Malmö. Rang my doorbell; that same instant I felt a stabbing sensation in my stomach! – I accompanied Hector to Anglais but once there I immediately felt so ill that I had to leave him and return home!

25th At Geijerstam's in Saltsjöbaden. We discussed Tegnér; I praised his poetry and quoted from The Age of Aesir. When my memory failed me G. af G went to his bookshelf and took down Tegnér's Poems. 2 pages with The Age of Aesir had been torn out (and by his dead son). I went on to speak of Tegnér's mental illness and his Inferno in Växjö. [Today Sunday the 26th I see in the paper that a cyclone passed through Växjö yesterday evening. Two willows had been torn up by the roots a house was damaged. (Östragård) What does this mean?

### 26th Found a grubby Queen of Hearts in the gutter. Visit from Thyra L. – November


December. \* 24th At August Lindberg's on Christmas Eve; saw a skull formed by Mrs. L:'s gloves.

\*

25th Went to sister Nora in Norrköping.

27th Home again! In the morning I saw Charles XII on the wallpaper of the Standard Hôtel in Norrköping.

altercation in the railway carriage. = Charles XII.

*Which was written in 1901, although I had never thought I could write it!*

28th The Dramatic Theater has accepted "There are Crimes and Crimes".

**[**29**]** 30th Axel Danielsson died in Elsterberg in Saxony.

30th At the Philps' for dinner; a whiff of free Iodine floated past, exactly as after Kleen's death.

January 1st The sun has returned after a long absence. A small pale gray elongated cloud cut across the sun's disc as it rose; above the sun the cloud created a row of gilt-edged alps

1900

At G. af G's in Saltsjöbaden. Together with P. Hallström and Rich. Bergh. 2nd At Branting's for dinner. Despondency: A foot-long gas flame shot out like a broom of fire when I was going to turn on the light in the hall on my arrival. The old Br home! My furniture which Br bought at my auction. φρυνσ **[**His wife's**]** room; the strange λυκτεν **[**smell**]**. Br hates music, with reason!

\* I have myself worn a brown coat and blue trousers this winter.

Gold sediment with Iron vitriol gleams brown and blue! 123 3rd A girl was patrolling outside my window. I finally got up to have a look; whereupon she left. I only had time to note that she was wearing a gray hat with a copper-brown band and a blueish-red veil; these colors awakened memories of the pattern with identical colors which I "saw" on my clothes in Heyst sur Mer and which I rediscovered on the pillow given me by Esther Bülow, and on my sofa in Grönegatan, Lund where I wrote "There are Crimes and Crimes", The Story of the Folkungs, and Gustav Vasa. I found the same colors in my room at Furusund, where I wrote Erik XIV. Cf. p. 71 and p. 90.\*

This girl may be J L who has written me several letters and declared her love, also sent me flowers (violets) and which I have never seen before.

**\*** 14243 14243 Found a six of Diamonds and a ten of Spades! A journey. Sorrow.

3rd × 4th. Dreamt at night that I saw Strömstedt dead without a head; dressed in gray with medals or something similar on his chest; he had only one leg and Professor Ribbing flung the corpse forward, holding the only leg. S. landed on the floor in front of something furniture-like which did not register clearly. His "medals" were of an unusual shape and of brass, two of them, one above the other. Finally also his head emerged having been concealed beneath his clothes.

4th Heard music reminding me of Lund: Flowering, beautiful valleys etc. from an apartment above me; in the evening at the Riding school Gleam of summer lightning. Letters from Wistén, Herrlin, Nils Andersson et al. in a word: Lund haunts me. 5th But so does Austria: Letters from Klam, from Vienna with the Hofburg Theater

5th Woke up this morning with the number 2.123 in my mind. If it is a telephone number then Long distance 21.23 = Ekman & Co Printers, Manager Kungsg. 17. Oddly enough Albert Bonnier has 1.23. [Mrs. Emma Kyhlberger\*\* Västerl.g. 40. Gen. 21.23]

\*\* Now in January 1907 there is a chance of getting capital for a theater from a man named Kyhlberger through August Falck, Jr.

**[**See pp. 106– 107**] \***

Jan. 24th **[**Cf. p. 106**]**


7th August's name day The sun shone in the morning. Finished the second act of Gustav Adolf.

5th At G. af G's in Saltsjöbaden. Met Doctor Wetterstrand and Wife there. She was born at Herrestad near Ystad. Told me that Dr. Eliasson was very ill. The compartment was unheated on the journey out and I froze unspeakably. Became indisposed.

6: News of Axel Danielsson's final suffering, anguish and death, which depressed me.\*

\* Played cards at the Philps': I dealt and got **\*** the ten of Spades and the ten of Hearts reversed i.e. facing me, see preceding page. **[**P. 105**]**

January

The sun\*\* entered my room once more after an absence of nearly two months.\*\* Spring is in the air.

Paul haunts me. Karin Månsdotter is being revived!

cross see adjoin.

Obscured by the roof of the barracks

\*\*

1900. **106.**


10. At Christiernsson's at Saltsjöbaden. δημωνερ **[**Demons**]**. ––– February.


13th Read in D.N. that Wirsén and the Sw. Academy have started utilizing the Nobel inheritance in a strange way!

Cf. prev. page January 30th. when I looked at No. 18 Skeppsbron from Strandvägen. In the morning a black butterfly flew up from my coffee tray and disappeared behind my right ear. I was unable to find it again.\*

Found a printed sheet with a mourning border with "Jettatura, by Th. Gautier".\*\*

14th Went out with G af G. Rydberg's hotel and the glass of Whiskey!

15th Hertz in Stockholm

16th Read Garborg: "The Lost Father" which describes his Inferno crisis. While reading it "I found myself" in Montparnasse the whole time. And a violent longing to be in Paris seized me; particularly to be in rue de la Grande Chaumière!\*\*\*

Gustav Adolf which had got bogged down moved forward. It had been –27° in the morning; by dinner time it was only 7°.

The paper strips in my windows howl as I read chemistry; Saw telephone workers on roof tops yesterday and today; have heard noises above my ceiling the last few days\*\*\*\* (This usually means a move) It feels as though something new is in the offing for me once I have finished Gustav Adolf. A journey, a move maybe something else; what? ?

The snowdrifts in the street cast shadows in the evening that resemble Alps with fir forests; or Gothic cathedrals

18th Took out my notes about gold making. Immediately there was pounding on a wall. Put the papers away; the pounding ceased. Began once more with the gold. The knocking started again! [And on a wall behind which nobody lives.]

21st Finished 4th Act of Gustav Adolf.

22nd This day is called Petri Cathedra. Today I received by mail 1o A clipping from Le Monde et L'Univers about my "conversion to Catholicism 2o Mme Prager's translation of my: "The Keys of Heaven" or The Wanderings of St. Peter, printed in Leipzig. What does this mean?

24th Michelsson's A Shadow. Dress rehearsal of There are Crimes and Crimes:

 The monks on the curtain at the Dramatic Theater 25th At the Dahlströms'. Read Doré's Dante. Saw the monks on the curtain again. Signified hypocrites. Alchemists get itching skin rashes.

\* On the 15th I saw the same butterfly on Anna's coffee tray but painted!

\*\* Axel Danielsson's portrait with a mourning border lay underneath it for several days.

\*\*\* Two days later D.N. wrote about me and the crêmerie in rue de la Grande Chaumière.

\*\*\*\* Nothing had been cleaned today! Everything . . .

### It feels like Sunday all day. There are Crimes and Crimes at the Dramatic. Fredriksson at the Rydberg. Sister Nora came. Engineer Thulin. During the night a dog outside my door. The Rex ran aground off Rügen this same night. The dog still there. The murder in Solna the same night. Visit from Ivar Tott and Ragnhild Strindberg. on the Rex Ivar T. knew nothing about the Rex, which had run aground on the morning of the same day Mia gave notice and left! [The last time Nora was in Stockholm, Ebba gave notice!!!] Visit from Fåhræus, Karl Larsen. "There are Crimes and Crimes" appears to have met with great success, but no joy reaches me. Only heavy seriousness and responsibility; in truth I feel despondent; afraid of company; have declined five dinner invitations and dare not enter a Café. That it has been granted me to reintroduce "The Lost Father" on the stage seems to me unbelievable. Stonemasons at work making a terrible noise outside my window. During the night between 2nd × 3rd I heard a rat gnawing and this disturbed my sleep. Seriousness! Seriousness! Sunday. At the Philps'. Awful! Repeated cases of "occult events" during the afternoon. We played cards. Hugo told the story of two people who died. at a card table when they were about to pick up a dropped card. Bagge was one of them, another was a pastor. [NB! We had dinner at Anglais where this same deceased Bagge's brother was sitting.] G. af G told me that There are Crimes and Crimes had been well received by the largest 5th newspapers. I was unaware of this, and believed the reverse; particularly that AB and NDA had been mean; which was not the case! 5th It is a day of prayer today. Put on light trousers this morning, but had to change to February 26th Monday Gunnar Heiberg in Stockholm. 27th 28th March 1st 2nd 3rd 4th 1442443 123 123 1442443

Trouble at Anna's. 6th

others because they were "too tight".

Finished Gustav Adolf which I mapped out in September *1899* . ! TBTG! 7th

8th Uneasiness – Fire at the Théâtre Français; Voltaire's statue rescued. Saw Boïto's Mephistopheles. γ. αυ γ. **[**G. af G.**]** when he had read G II A. March


Cf. the pieces of paper with 96 in the streets of Paris.

14th

A new "Rex" disaster. Note Gleerup. That was the name of the Captain on the Motala which was to take me to Amsterdam and Paris in 1875. (See: Le Plaidoyer d'un Fou)

Today, the 14th a Mr. Gleerup came and offered Havana cigars for sale! Dreamt last night that Siri's hair had been caught in a gooseberry bush. [Rumor has it that Siri is begging in Finland pleading poverty, despite their having received 8,375 Marks from me last year and 1000 this year. ] *already by 14th March]* 16th A Pigeon flew ahead of me and laid down a birch twig. [Olive, or Birch]. Found a heel iron.

17th At Warburg's. Schück wished he were in a Benedictine monastery; Carl Larsson wished "he were a Pietist".

18th At Hugo and Anna's. Awful! Visitors at the Philps' – Whole day awful. Telephone out of order. Hugo ill. I was in a state of mind where I saw all the guests naked and registered the smell of each one of them.

**\*\*** Cf: Red and Blue. **page: 105. 3 Jan. and p. 71, 90.**

20th Saw in my mirror a large rose-colored half-moon (or pair of wings) slowly descending. On the morning of the 21st I saw a screen in a window in Banérgatan painted with a child in white garments, roses

22nd Saw as I emerged from my front entrance two pairs of pale blue wings in the air above Ladugårdsgärdet.

26th At the card table at Richard Bergh's I cut and turned up the Poker figure with one red and one blue wing on its hat **\*\***

1900. **111.** 27th Was to meet γ αυ γ **[**G af G**]** and φαλλστρωμ **[**Fallström**]**. γ **[**G**]** came with Viktor Rydberg; φ **[**F**]** with August Blanche. Conversation then turned to their dogs and cats. φ said that Burén had commissioned a grand patriotic play from him. I was surprised that B. had not approached me. [At that moment Burén stepped off a tram and passed us.] March.

> 29th Pastor Flyborg died. At the age of 70. I have been studying "pietism" these past few days, spoken of Pietists and also about Flyborg. He was pastor in Torrlösa and Skrävlinge.

> 30th Heiberg's Article in D.N., thanks to which I broke with a number of outmoded ideas from the past century

31st A pigeon landed on Anna Lisa's hat and dirtied her. A red-white-and-blue meteor in Arboga.

1st Paul Cavallin visited me. April

2nd Danish painter Krøyer mad. Drachman is sick and impoverished. (See pp. 88 and 91.)

4th With Branting and his wife.

Rumor of collection for the Crown Prince and for Pastor Bergman of Jacob's Parish. (Cf. Wirsén and Hildebrand)

6th A pigeon with a twig flew over my head.

In low spirits all day. G A being revised. Read Wester's Bible commentary. Heard σκονα ῾ελενα **[**Belle Hélène**]** played at the post office in the evening. Out with Gyllensköld. 7th Professor Hjalmar Holmgren's wife died!

8th Palm Sunday: From Strandvägen I saw the newly built Southern Theater with its roof full of flags. I was just thinking of my "religious comedy" which will inaugurate the theater on 1st October this year!

Yet another Pigeon that dropped a twig.

6 April 31 March 16 March. **Cf.** 14243

At the Fåhræus'.


**[112 v.]**

About the Ceremony of conferring doctor's degrees at Lund and the Honorary doctorates

\*

\*

1900 **112. 113.** 16th (Cont. fr. prev. page) Anna Lisa had read about in Flammarion's "The Unknown" about a girl whose maternal uncle died; signed "Utte" Aix. Am I to die now? (Anna Lisa is called "Utte" by her siblings) April.

17th Out with G. af G. Arrived in a strange way at Christian Eriksson's. There I saw his sculpted reliefs Betula nana and Trifolium hanging side by side. I had written about these two this morning for Juleroser. E. was ill, suffering from dizziness; a relief had fallen to bits; E. showed Clarence von Rosen some perverse bronzes.

G. af G. and I talked about occultism.

The next night was dreadful. Felt that Axel Danielsson and E Kleen were in the room, with a number of smells. [When I entered the room the atmosphere was "poisonous" so that I had to air it; despite the vents in the wall being open]

18th I was standing by the window; two parts of a Dagens Nyheter was moved by the breeze into the gutter facing my window. Immediately afterward a telephone call from Staaff. – – – *[at D.N.]*

19th At the Dalströms' in the evening. Hugo Philp picked up some books and immediately turned up botany. Schopenhauer and the Tourist Association's Yearbook Tante Thiel in Klam died during the night between 19 × 20.

21st Two telephone calls from Karin Larsson. σαμυετετ **[**Conscience**]**.


25th Together with Axel. Spoke of our childhood: all at once it felt as though time sank away under me and that I was standing alone, old, having cut off all contact with the past ("the '80s") without having firm ground in the present. Dreary!

> Conversions: Huysmans Coppée, Mrs. Schram, Jørgensen, Garborg, Fröding. Kleen, Cavallin, Helène Nyblom, Strindberg, Ola Hansson, (the Salvationists of the '70s and '80s) v. Steijern; Carl Larsson had his children baptized –

The maid came in and told me someone wanted to see me. I went out, opened the front door; there was nobody there, but there was a velocipede. I went into the kitchen and made inquiries! They replied that "it was a mistake". Curious I went out to examine 8712

the number of the velocipede: it was 8712. I thought this number means something and determined to memorize it or write it down. Forgot the matter however (and the number). A quarter of an hour later I wished to open the window. At that moment the velocipede emerged from my front entrance with the number 8712 ostentatiously visible! ??? **NB!**

# 1900. **114.**

1st G. af G. paid me a visit at around noon. His wife had a stroke then, without our knowing about it. [[Had dinner with the Philps' at Hotel Rydberg; terrible weather, with snow and wind. May Day demonstration with blood-red rostrums. Two canons were unlimbered at the Horse Guards barracks. Discord at the Ph's. May.

2nd I was to join Richard Bergh and Nordström at Hotel Rydberg in the evening. In Kungsträdgården I felt that an unpleasant meeting was in store. At Jakobstorg I met Wirsén; he radiated evil and I felt it in my chest; I then met Bergh, who told me about Mrs. G's stroke and imminent death. I started to sweat. Depressed all evening, but thought continuously of Wirsén. Home early. Dreadful night, during which Mrs. G. haunted me.

Same old woman and the same scene, same place and same words, on May 31st, 1901.

3rd In the morning I met a poor old woman who begged for a coin; she got a sizeable one. She wept, said that she had slept in a stairway the night before, and had prayed to God that she might meet a compassionate person. I asked her not to forget to thank God. She asked if I had suffered much . . . I replied that I had been as poor as she was and had "entreated"

Ms. Jane L– – –d patrolled outside my window again; wearing a green hat; was dressed in black with her hand in front of her mouth as though she were consumptive. Had not seen her since last January 15th this year.

Mrs. Geijerstam died between 5–6 p.m., but I was not informed, until the following day.

4th Saw a cat stalking two pigeons in the street; a dog came and chased up the pigeons thereby rescuing them – Saw a non-commissioned officer throwing stones at a large rat. At the Philps' in the evening Märtha found a "Deathwatch" beetle in her hair. Shrieked and thought it was a wasp.

6th Out at G. af G's

7th Mrs. G. buried

13th Went for a walk on Djurgården; despondent; a group of young people gentlemen and ladies with picnic baskets broke into a spring song on reaching me. I felt like the aged Faust. Axel at the Philps'! Anxiety, palpitations, headache. In the evening two telegrams from Berlin that my première had been a success.

14th Nora came. A large laurel was hanging in Karlaplan.


KCl (KFl **[**illegible deletion**]**; on K2CO3 the figure was 113.) 131 = 11 = C

13 31 = CH2 = P.

May NB! G.E.K. 26th Woke with a firm desire to look for Berzelius' Textbook of Chemistry 1st Part at Klemming's (!) Antiquarian bookshop. Rode there; asked for Berzelius' Chemistry in Swedish. They replied: We only have it in German. I took the German one. I then asked idly whether they had no single parts of the Swedish edition. – "Possibly", was the reply! – I accompanied them to the stack and found the Textbook's 1st Part (in 2 editions), only that part! NB! Two months ago I found Part 3 at my lending library On May 15th brother Axel brought Part 2 [see above May 15th this year] What is this?

> Met someone with only one eye this morning [Cf. May 15th this year.] The day before yesterday at the photographer's my portrait turned out to have one eye. Is it I who am one-eyed? –

Saw a landscape with Lombardian poplars and cypresses: witnessed by Nils Andersson (Lund).

14243 It was the corner of Banérgatan Torstenssons and Riddargatan and . . . Isn't it Karlavägen where I Hugo dizzy spells again. have been trotting up and Henry ill. down all summer!

28th Cold! Anxious!

The pendulum clock in my room has stopped at 2 minutes to 2! (at 2)


June = 1st Travelled out to Furusund. Calm! Charlotte Sg said goodbye at the quayside.

2nd Anna told the story of Mrs. H. at Shoemaker Andersson's, who made an unfavorable remark about domestic theft; in revenge her maid was harassed out of the house and afterward this the Lady who had been robbed was accused of having stolen a purse! Cf. The water-carrier who threatened εμμα **[**Emma**]** with dismissal if she did not allow him to carry water (also γρισεν **[**the pig**]**.)

3nd Whit Sunday. Found a large stone heart in a puddle of water. (Cf. 1896 The stone heart.

Georg Brandes is now in the Municipal Hospital!

Have a cold; with a temperature; malaise; no work; mosquitoes.

One day cold; the next as hot as an oven;

14th

**[116 v.]**

These second-rate lines, composed by himself, can be read on Viktor Rydberg's tomb.

# 1900. **117.**


Her sister waited outside in a cab – part in Damascus.

1900. **118.** I had got stuck with my play The Leaf Market; then Andersson, the photographer, came, and happened to speak of steamboat conditions on the Sandhamn route. Since I was about to paint a scene in the Forward saloon of a steamboat I took the whole intrigue from Andersson's stories and carried on from there. July 10th

With Nilsson and Hillberg, Fallström, Hellen Lindgren – 11th

13th

Telephone call from Herman Andersson (the photographer) that he had smelted Aluminum powder, Potassium Chlorate Sulfuric Antimony and a Ten-öre coin (Silver and Copper). The coin had turned yellow throughout. A 10-öre piece contains 1,45 grams silver and 0,58 grams copper. = ⅓ Cu.


Found a piece of paper with Lund printed on it. Back home: a letter from de Wahl in Barsebäck inviting me down and with greetings from Lund. [[Visit from brother Axel!

Sunday. Read in the Bible: II Chron. 20:20:

"Believe in the Lord your God so shall ye be established; believe his prophets, so shall ye prosper"

Also: 26:5:

"And he sought God . . . and as long as he sought the Lord, God made him prosper."

This is the sum of all wisdom, and thus has life has taught me. If those who are "persecuted" by misfortune make the experiment! I learnt all this this wisdom as a child however: "He whom God loves, (he who loves God) finds happiness!" What avails all wisdom after that? Compare: Acts 26. 24: "Festus said: Paul, thou art beside thyself! Much learning doth make thee mad."

Was disturbed by rats in the window paneling when I tried to sleep after dinner! In the evening I took a cab and drove round Djurgården It seemed bewitched: met only cripples of every conceivable variety; drunken, red, even children who resembled demons – A dog tried to jump up onto my driver's seat; the driver conversed with me about loathsome topics; finally I had to ride behind two whores one of whom appeared to love the other; one was dressed as a nun, black dress with high white collar; one was like φριδα **[**Frida**]** [the older fat one]. There were groups lying on the grass at Rosendal, but always two men and one woman – – – . In the midst of it all, and the only person I recognized was προφ. μονταν **[**Prof. Montan**]**! It was horrible!

The street lamps were lit this evening!

17th Found a dead rat in my galosh!

14th 15th **\*** NB! I dissolved the coin in Nitric Acid. Added a piece of chalk and the copper left a metallic deposit on it. This could become a new method of extraction from water in the Falun mine, where copper now leaves a deposit on iron.


5th Opened my Bible: found Ezekiel 23:31. "Thou hast walked in the way of thy sister, therefore will I give her cup into thine hand. Thus saith the Lord God; Thou shalt drink of thy sister's cup deep and large; thou shalt be laughed to scorn and had in derision, it containeth much!" What is this?

Oskar told us yesterday about the violin he had given to Vinberg's grandson, and which is now worth 3,000 Crowns.

Axel explained about. αννασ στιπενδιυμ **[**Anna's scholarship**]** to Leipzig, not to Paris.

8th With the Aug. Lindbergs and G. af G.

9th Letter card from Kersti (Frau Marie Uhl, her grandmother, about the receipt of the 4,000 Kronen Oesterreich. See: attached – letter card.

Reading Hilma Strandberg's terrifying books. Her 1st is almost as terrible as Inferno and Mrs. Schram's = Hieronymus.

Walked past the Philps'. The blinds were drawn; two hens could be seen on


15th Woke up with rats gnawing around in the room; got the strong impression that the behavior of these rats is »occult» or warnings! particularly since the rats are never visible. 16th Peaceful!

17th Peaceful! But out with August Palme – and drank; grew anxious.

18th Woke to the sound of rats that never showed themselves.

NB! My hands which have had sores for a year have healed in two days since I bought a new hand basin and adopted the habit of always throwing out the dirty water and wiping the basin afterward. [I left my gloves at Palme's yesterday; and went without today. Maybe that too contributes] Spent the entire day believing that πιεσεν **[**the play**]** which is being rehearsed at the Sw. Th. concerns me.

19th Sunday: Found a large number of playing cards face upward on Djurgården: A five of Spades, a ten of Heartsa seven of Clubs a two of Hearts

27th A volume by Josep Balsamo from the Lending library had been missing for several weeks giving me much trouble. Yesterday the 26th I got a letter from a relative asking me to return Paul Clifford by Bulwer which I had borrowed ten years ago. This morning I went down to the Lending library; said I wanted to buy Bulwer. They had it and I bought it. I also said I wished to pay for Balsamo; they wanted to wait, it was sure to turn up again. – Home once more I found Balsamo lying on my table. Do not yet know where it had come from. (My cleaner probably found it after it had fallen down somewhere; which does not make the matter any less extraordinary) No, it had been borrowed by Ms. Låstbom.

1900. **121.** 28. A blue and red velocipede (See above blue and red) with the number 26.31 stood outside my entrance. August

Am reading Dumas Père Mémoires d'un Médecin. The German (Austrian) regiments which attacked the people on July 13th 1789 were called Reynach, Salis Samade, Diesbach, Esterhazy, Roehmer. Note Reynach and Esterhazy (the Dreyfus trial)

Yesterday a visit from H. Christiernson. He told me that Mrs. Hennings and her husband had become Swedenborgians (in Copenhagen.)

3. Received the document which dissolved my second marriage. It is dated Vienna February 5th 1897 September.

> Letter from Lippmansson who is on a visit to the monastery Grande Chartreuse, on account of a "nervous complaint" (?).

Gold is in the news again. Derived from seawater. Iodine-rich salt water is precipitated with iron vitriol to which is added some hydrochloric acid; "the glittering ferric oxide is dissolved in aqua regia" after which it is precipitated with Stannous chloride; gray deposit. (Aftonbladet, from Revue des Deux Mondes). According to Aftonbladet Emmens' gold was introduced in August 1896. See this Diary about what happened in Ystad in August 1896, at Dr. Eliasson's.

Out with Mortensen.

4th Anxiety! Dinner with γ. αυ γ. **[**G. af G.**]**

5th Anxiety! Nervous! With Christian Eriksson and Gyllensköld.

6th [See press clipping on opposite page and compare page 47 November 25, 1897 in this Diary.]

7th Dr. Eliasson in Ystad died! – NB! I saw Eliasson twice this morning, i.e. two persons who resembled him. But at the time I was unaware that he was dead! With K.O. Bonnier in the evening.

8th Found a piece of paper with 98 [= the equivalent of Gold]

Out with Richard Bergh.

After I had got home at night the telephone rang 3 times

9th Sunday. Sin imposed as punishment. Romans Ch I. v. 25. "Who changeth the truth of God into a lie. For this cause God gave them up unto vile affections\*. . . September

\* Perversion!

v. 28. And even as they did not like to retain God in their knowledge, God gave them over to a reprobate mind, to do those things which are not convenient." Thus sin itself a punishment.

In Romans Chapter 7 the problem of Evil and the question of Freedom of the will appear to be solved. Verse 13."

Verse 15. "For that which I do I allow not, but what I hate, that do I."

v. 17. "Now then it is no more I that do it (Evil), but sin that dwelleth in me."

v. 19. "For the good that I would, I do not; but the evil which I would not, that I do."

v. 22. "For I delight in the law of God after the inward man; But I see another law in my members, warring against the law of my mind, and bringing me into captivity to the law of sin which is in my members.

v. 24. "O wretched man that I am! Who shall deliver me from the body of this death (sin)?"

v. 25. "So then with the mind I myself serve the law of God; but with the flesh the law of sin."

15th Switzerland has long haunted me; I was for instance walking along the street with Axel speaking of Switzerland; at that moment I saw a piece of paper with the Swiss coat of arms on the sidewalk, a white cross on a red background. This find recurred several times.

"Gustav Adolf" was published today!

17th Dreamt that Dr. Eliasson lay dead; but awoke and got up.

18th Dreamt that ῾ειδενσταμ **[**Heidenstam**]** kissed the top of my head.


[122 [a] v.]

24. Nervous – September:

25thFound a Belgian flag [sweet wrapper]

Sat at my desk thinking of going abroad and finishing with Sweden. At that very moment, and in a demonstrative way, "I know a land" was played at the Guards Barracks opposite.

Gustav Adolf has now been distributed and judged. I feel as though an unreasonable hatred were being discharged against me, and as though this hatred threatened me with dangers. And yet I wrote my play in good faith, that I was resolving old conflicts. **[**illegible deletion**]**

On the day the book appeared, I was sitting at my desk; looked up; and the colors of the rainbow fell from a cut glass onto a dove on my screen. [Cf. September 19th 1899. page 100 of this Diary. Also: page 102. and November 1st.]

26thOut with Richard Bergh and Carl Larsson; dinner at Djurgårdsbrunn; playing ninepins in the sunset; cheerful mood, R.B. was of the opinion that G II A had been well received.

27th At the Barracks they played "Manhood mettle and courageous men" but staccato and insensitively as though with the intention of spoiling it. Immediately afterward: "Hail to thee Glorious North", and Josefson's "Our country"

28thWith Grandinson and Palme. Saw Switzerland's White cross on a red background, a white triangle etc. in the Freemasons' House. An unknown boor accosted us in the restaurant.

29thOut with G. af G. at Lidingöbro.

30th= Sunday. Having got home in the evening I found "Vårt Land" in my mailbox; I experienced quiet calm satisfaction and realized that C.D.W. had written about 1st October: Gustav Adolf and fancied that he had let himself be persuaded. Put the paper aside without reading it. The following morning I read in "Dagen" that Wirsén had been fulminating. This is all the more strange since I normally register hatred telepathically. Did his hatred being unjustified have no power over me? 2nd Went to Saltsjöbaden.

October

6th In the evening; home from Saltsjöbaden.

9: Started writing "Easter". Negotiations with K.O. Bonnier.

10th K

14th Thyselius' visit. 15 The De Wahls. The rainbow fell across my manuscript. 123

16th Am reading about Christ's death sentence engraved on a copper plate found in Aqvila Christ sentenced on March 24th in the 17th year of Tiberius' reign. The witnesses were called: Daniel Robani pharisee, Johannes Zurobabel, Raphæl Robani, Capet! NB. Capet [= Louis XVI.] Took a nap after dinner and "sensed" that Forsstrand died. (Forsstrand in America)

**[122 [b] v.]**

Said, now in October 1900, by Waldeck-Rousseau, thought to have formed his cabinet in order to acquit Dreyfus.

Note: independent judges whose verdict is respected. In that case Waldeck-Rousseau must believe that Dreyfus's judges were just and that Dreyfus was guilty!

NB! Francis Schlatter = Herman. Cf. the year 1896 = the Inferno year together with Herman in Paris

King Oscar has been ill, and still is – Nils Andersson came. To dinner at Gernandt's. Depressing! On the way home (– thinking about Molander's premiere which was just taking place –) I met two men, one of whom called out: "Long live Aug. Sg, Sweden's greatest writer!" (Molander had tried to block my plays, Back home but I dared not wish him ill.) Back home, I read in Aftonbladet that my "Gustav Vasa" had been successfully performed in Schwerin at the Hoftheater. This naturally pleased me. [Yesterday was the anniversary of Gustav Vasa's first performance in Stockholm.] I then read an account in the Evening edition of Stockholms Dagblad, of a magazine article by a Professor Fahlbäck in which he says that Sweden lacks any trace of Dramatic art. October 18th

This morning I read in "Dagen" that Molander's play was worthless both as literature and drama. 19th

This evening I shall no doubt read that Molander is Sweden's greatest Dramatist That is "The Game of Life"

Molander's play went brilliantly! What do you know! – And De Wahl grew hoarse!

In 1639 the small Golden Horn with its runic inscription was found in Denmark. It is noteworthy that Arne Magnusson published at the same time

This was Holberg's great period.

In 1734 the second Big Golden Horn was found. At the same time as Arne Magnusson had just finished collecting the Icelandic Sagas. The inscription on this horn: Ek Hlevagastir Holtingar Tavido." Oehlenschläger was born in 1769 – In 1802 both horns were stolen, and in that same year Oehlenschläger's Poems appeared, incl. "The Golden Horns" in which he interprets this poetically. The two Golden Horns are the two golden tablets which after Ragnarok will be found on the Plain of Ida (said Gernand) yesterday)

The last days of October: The palm of my left hand is cracked with the signs and together with (reversed seven) But is 6 or 7. Palme came one evening and was nervous. Just then my hand bled so much that my tiled stove got bloodstained.

Last day of October: finished The Dance of Death. Saw a partial rainbow behind Gustav Adolf Church mostly green and rose-colored.

1st Saw On the scarf I bought yesterday v. v. v – there is the trademark: Veni, Vidi, Vici! November

**\*** Then it happened! After the 1st Act I went up onto the stage and thanked βοσσε **[**Bosse**]**. Remarked on the final scene where the kiss should be given with her veil down. As we stood there in the middle of the stage surrounded by many people, and I spoke seriously about the kiss, βοσσεσ **[**Bosse's**]** little face was transformed, grew larger and assumed a preternatural beauty, appeared to come close to mine, and her eyes enveloped me with flashes of black lightning. She then darted away for no reason, and I stood there bewildered with the impression of a miracle and that I had been given a kiss which had intoxicated me.

After this β haunted me for three days, so that I sensed her in my room.

Later I dreamt of her, as follows: ιαγ λαγ ι εν σανγ; β. κομ ι πυκκσ κοστύμ φραν σκενεν; ῾ων υαρ γιφτ μεδ μιγ. ῾ων σαδε ομ μιγ. "Σε δηρ μιν βρύγγαρε" γαφ μιγ φωτεν αττ κύσσα. ῾ων ῾αδε ινγα βροστ **[**I was lying in a bed; B. came from the stage dressed as Puck; she was married to me. She said of me. "Behold my brewer" gave me her foot to kiss. She had no breasts**]**. absolutely none!

### **[**Cf. p. 121, 7 September**]**

Gustaf Strindberg who had seen Damascus, said: that β was the image of Aunt Philp (my sister Anna). Now my second wife (the Lady in Damascus) resembled sister Anna. In other words β. resembles both of them.

Several years ago β played the girl in my play "Facing Death.". β's sister and brother-in-law were staying in the same boarding house as I in Paris –

β lives in Grev Magnigatan 12, opposite the house in which I lived as the author of Master Olof.

# 1900. **124.**

November 3rd The sun no longer shines into my rooms.

6th went to Kaggeholm, Gustav Adolf's Day.

7th Found a ten of Spades = A journey (?) in a book [G.H. Mellin's Sweden.] at von Steijern's and immediately afterward a Five-leaf and a four-leaf clover.

9th Left Kaggeholm.

10th Mild! Find live earthworms on Djurgården every morning. Last year I spoke to a Swede about Gustav Adolf at Lützen. At the time I had a fisherman who could find no earthworms, due to the advancing armies frightening the worms into the ground. The Swede answered: Worms, on November 6th? – In Germany, I answered. – But so as not to incur that sort of Ballhornian criticism, I took a rat catcher! – – –

13th Read in Berzelius about Newton's thermometer with linseed oil – at 5 p.m. At 6 Dagbladet came, containing an article on the subject!

Read in "Dagen" about Sulfur in Coal Gas.

Molander ill, was operated. De Wahl ill. The Swedish Theater standing on its head.

15th First dress rehearsal of Damascus. The inexplicable incident with βοσσε **[**Bosse**]**. **[See opposite page]\***

19th The sun is shining again after a long absence. It is dry and cold –

"To Damascus" will be performed tonight.

"Jacob's Rod" or the three stars in Orion's belt have haunted me these past few days. Have even seen them formed by the gas lamps and lights in windows in the South of Stockholm = .

20th Looked out of my window toward Orion; a "star" fell and went out in the middle of Orion!

21st Visited The Younger Painters' Art Exhibition. Saw Bianchini's "Korsö Lighthouse". It is strange that this deserted lighthouse has haunted me the past few days. And that ten years ago my thoughts turned to Korsö lighthouse, where I dreamt of being able to settle and pursue the natural sciences, particularly astronomy.

One summer's morningnight in 1872 (?) we were sailing off Sandhamn I woke and went up on deck; did not know where we were; saw Korsö lighthouse illuminated by the rising sun. Fell into ecstasy and saw a vision of the future connected with Korsö lighthouse! During my life since then I have many a time recalled that moment as being among the loveliest in my life; and I have often thought of painting the lighthouse at that moment!


Walked along Strandvägen in the evening, somewhat despondent. Looked up at a window on the third floor, which was illuminated. A delicately drawn young female figure stood by the window waving a double Palm frond Does this augur peace? 30th

2nd Sunday. 1st in Advent. At G. af G.'s in Saltsjöbaden. December

> 3rd In the morning the maid said that "Mr. Sg's son called yesterday (Sunday)" I panicked and pondered what might have happened. How the reunion would work out. What I should do with him. etc. Went out for a walk. On my way home I met two young men of deplorable appearance whom I thought was him. Not having seen Hans since 1892 I was unable to recognize him. This was one of the most horrible experiences I have had. Home once more I anticipated him so vividly that I finally felt he was in the room. I agonized my way through the morning; then my nephew Gustaf arrived and the mistake was cleared up. But the impression remained until evening. [Might be connected with my visit to G. af G. where I had to mix with his uncouth sons]

6th Carl Larsson, Karl Nordström, G. af G. Richard Bergh to dinner at my place. **\***

7th This morning I met a stranger who was rude and abusive. I wished him the same in return. In the evening I read quotations from the Talmud:

"Choose rather to be among the cursed than among those who curse, rather among the persecuted than among the persecutors. Consider holy writ: there is no bird which is more persecuted than the dove; yet God has chosen her as a sacrifice upon his altar." In the same place I found: Human Life by Voltaire.

> "Sensual Pleasure, in youth's fever Your delights I sought to find; Startled by your hollow measure Sweetness soon turned loss unkind, In my winter-time your treasure Became vanity and wind. Lust for high repute and fame Rent my manly heart so blind; Days consumed by strife entail Nights when sleep eludes my grasp

**\*** A Sleepwalker's Nights shown them at the dinner table The mood low. It struck me that this was a farewell dinner to the "Eighties"

– – –

O, what was my zealous aim? = Honor is dross, howe'er defined.

\*

Fear not the tyrants' threats and envy's castigations;

God sees you – t'is enough. What more reward dost seek?

This is a different Voltaire! Kellgren translated the above.

12th I sent πασκ **[**Easter**]** to β in the evening. Sat down in the evening to write an analysis of the role for β. Felt as though I had a telepathic relationship with β. That night I dreamt . . . [See Page 124.] ˚

In the morning my thoughts kept turning to Richard Bergström who died 7 years ago (1893). I recalled him in several scenes from life, heard his laughter and his words on several occasions. At midday a letter came; the address was written in his strange handwriting, which struck me, since I have never seen anyone else write like him. The letter was from G. U–n. (Gustaf Uddgren.)

Later, at the dinner table, R.B. positively haunted me.

[The Theosophists would say: now, after 7 years his soul has been released from his body, and he is once more beginning to establish contact with the living, as teacher or administrator. Cf. When Wagner died, it was as though the movement died down for a year. Wagner's wife lived in an apathetic daze throughout her year of mourning. But at its close she revived and devoted herself to the movement. "Wagner returned."

G.E. Klemming also died in 1893. But it was not until 1896 that I experienced contact with him (Cf. Inferno when I got drops of candle grease in my hair one night at Klam, had to smile and asked: "Is it Klemming?" For it was so like him. That same evening I had found Holberg's Witchcraft or false alarm in Tante Melanie's bookcase. Had dipped into it, but found it foolish.

My father died in 1883. But I did not start dreaming about him until 1896. Around 1898 in a dream he proposed that we should drink a first-name-toast.

24thChristmas Eve. Alone at home; read my correspondence with Siri Wrangel; and found very strange things in the years 1875, 76.

A falling star when I opened the window.

25thReading: that Æschylus died, killed by a tortoise, which a flying eagle let drop. that Sophocles choked on a bunch of grapes [Bacchus?] that Euripides was torn to pieces by dogs (Diana's? ate the "misogynist". Actaeon was torn by hunting dogs because he had seen Diana naked. Dogs = the passions, sensual delight etc. Swedenborg) [The tortoise's shell = Apollo's lyre = [Tortoise = Those who believe themselves wiser than others. Swedenb]

ﻣﺮﺍﺟﻊ ﺍﻟ

### Massmördaren Nordlunds sista stunder.

Fängelsepredikanten berättar.

Fängelsepredikanten vid Långholmen, pastor Hylander, hvilken ofta besökt Nordningen och som äfven vakade hos honom
den sista natten, har i ett samtal med en medarbetare i Svenska Morgonbladet medsinnestillstånd, särskildt under natten föra afrättningen.
Enligt hvad i nämnda tidning meddelats

t Hinnss I manner företagist incretagist installer
 in sex särskrilda reder företagist hans första besök, som ägde rum omkring
tre veckor före afrättningen, föreföll Nord-

 frid i afrättningsstunden; men senare som and for atter
rade han : #Nu ttor jag, att jag, att jage skreft grate
frid också då." Ett annat innikkining stra ออก och hon hade på honom gjort intryck af att vara en troende, gudfruktig kvinna.
dan under fängelsetiden på Långholmen hade pastorn af Nordlund fått veta, att denne io Dasa Hoas Aromania gått i fullbordan.
Om sina forna kamrater på Långholmen

yttrade Nordlund : "Det är nog många af
dem, som tycka sig säkra och duktiga, men dent, som tyeka sig sakta och dagg, skudle and le
icke bliftya så må mot den modelage skudle med med med med med med med med med med meden. Den den den den den den den

och agen gripande stunde stunde stundera.
 H. war en gripande stunde studio marker and marka data.
 H. mig'', med

1. Löstor och men där med den man de man men man man man man
 1. Roston and men die mind men men man man man man manar manar manar manarin
 Mark men merkest in minister men tydligt hörde dessa ord.

N. dött i tron på Kristus.

 Rörande Nordlunds karaktär framhöll
pastor H., att han af naturen ägde ett i högsta grad hårdt sinne, hvilket framträdde
hos honom redan som barn; hade dessa onda anlag i tid blifvit rättade och kvästa, skulle hans lif väl blifvit ett helt annat. N. var emel-släende vittnesbörd härom.
 Nordlund sökte icke på minsta sätt ur-

s Nordiand sokte icke på finista sådan sådanska sådander
 framade ett lif efter detta ; i annat fall hade jag
i okte kunnat göra det."

## Hvad skall hända år 19017

Hvarje år utkommer i London en alma nacka, som kallas »Old Moore» och som utger sig för att kunna profetera det marna rätt ofta gått i uppfyllelse, atnjuter almanackan ett icke ringa anseende.
Den utkom första gången 1749 och utgår nu i ett par millioner exemplar.

>Old Moore> för 1901 varslar mest om bedröfliga händelser.

Under årets första månader kommer Frankrike att hemsökas af politiska orospåman för att profetera det!

I februari och mars bli förbållandena i Indien högst betänkliga, i maj utbryta gelska hofvet gerna sedd person blir van sinnig.

I juni låta anarkisterna ånyo höra af sig. Ett attentat planlägges nämligen.
mot unge kung Alfonso, och Englands

I juli timar en olycka i östern. Pest dien, och många upprörande katastrofer inträffa.

I augusti hotas Holland och dess unga drottning af en stor fara. Den kinesiska

frågan tar en by vändning.
I september kommer offentliggörandet af vissa vigtiga bref att väcka stor uppmärksamhet i Europa.

man ssammer i håller krig på att utbryta
mellan England och Frankrike, men förekommes genom den senare maktens eftergift.

november utbryta uppror i Indien och Egypten, och i december komma upp-ート pp och mordhistorier att höra till ordgen för dugen.

pro

### 1st Light mists and then clear!

2nd Visit from a Spiritist (District Judge Hgn) who said that Swedenborg wished to speak to me. The previous evening Carlheim Gyllensköld and I had talked and read about Swedenborg. January:

1901

3rd Opened Linder's Lexicon and found Swedenborg. I.e.: Swedenborg haunts me. So too does βosse.

A smell of Celery has pursued me now for a couple of months; everything tastes and smells of Celery. When I take off my shirt every evening it smells of Celery. What is this? My κυσκ῾ετ **[**chastity**]**, my celibacy?

5th Finished The Crown Bride, and felt as though a pause had now begun in my Dramatic writing.

Longing to be in Paris; planning the journey.

8th Met βοννιερ **[**Bonnier**]** who discouraged me from making the trip to Paris. Read the Echo de Paris sent by the Courrier de la Presse, and was put off. Got a message from βοσσε **[**Bosse**]** that I ought not to go. Read in the paper that 9 people had frozen to death in Paris. Decided not to proceed. For I had βεδτ γυδ **[**prayed to God**]** the day before to grant me a sign of ῾ανσ υιλια **[**His will**]**.

9th Reading Balzac. "Lucien enfin était aimé absolument, et comme il est extrêmement rare que les femmes aiment un homme." [The woman does not love; it is the man who loves and the woman who is loved]

12th Reading Sophocles: Antigone: ends as follows!

### Chorus:

"The choicest of the gifts of the gods is Thoughtful Wisdom; let therefore all beware Of offending the Immortals. When Pride has paid With smarting wounds for acts of rashness, It learns at length thoughtful wisdom."

"Those trees which bend, laden with fruit survive; but those resisting, are torn up by the roots." – Therefore let anger wane! Alter your thinking!


22nd My birthday: the intermezzo at the Swedish Theater. Out with Carlheim-G. and Palme – Met three unpleasant crones in the morning. Thought defiantly: it does not mean a thing. But the day turned out awful with bad discordances.

Bergman and X-rays.

23rd At dress rehearsal of The Saga of the Folkungs. Charlotte was operated at 6 o'clock. I was nervous and had to lie down; a smell

24th of corpse. 24th The sun shone into my room again! [Charlotte survived her operation successfully] Dress rehearsal of The Saga of the Folkungs. When the scene in Brigitta's chamber was about to begin, I was overcome by such depression that I had to go into a room and open the window and drink some water; this lasted for half an hour. Later on I went into the auditorium and "saw" γ αυ γ **[**G af G**]** in the royal box staring fixedly at me with his owl-like eyes; one side of his mustache had fallen down and on his forehead he had something black = . Of course it was not him, but for some minutes the illusion was complete.\* Also "thought" that I saw Adolf Paul in the orchestra seating. Had dreamt of him the night before, that he had shaved off his mustache. 25th In the morning I saw a flag hanging from a house on Strandvägen. Became happy. At closer quarters I saw that it was a pure Norwegian flag at half-mast, with a wreath round a crest and something inside it. What does it mean? – Answer it was the English flag for

Queen Victoria who died recently! rehearsal. Which subsequently proved to be a

January

\* Was later told that the Philps had been at the dress

lie!

ρεπυλσιων μωτ β **[**Repulsion for β**]**.

Now in the evening I am sitting alone at home while The Saga of the Folkungs is being performed. I feel all the excitement, which now and then subsides – presumably as the curtain falls.

Contemplating my life in this way: Is it possible that all the horrible things I have been through have been arranged for me, in order that I might become a dramatist and describe every spiritual state and every situation. I was a dramatist by the age of twenty. But if my life had proceeded calmly and quietly, I would have had nothing to describe.

Heard today from ραγν῾ιλδ **[**Ragnhild**]** that a man from Småland has taken my entire name It is curious that August Lindberg's name has lately been taken for mine on the telephone. Just as γ αυ γ **[**G af G**]** has confused his identity with mine ever since we became acquainted, to the extent that he believes himself to have done the things I have done. Maybe Providence requires a battle in order for us to defend our personalities against the attacks of others, and submissiveness is indolence and cowardice. [Dreamt last night about φριδα **[**Frida**]** but **[**illegible deletion**]**]

1901. **131.** 26th Read last Sunday about the Vineyard Workers in the Vineyard who all received the same recompense (67 öre = 1 denarius), both those who had worked for one hour and those who had worked for eleven hours. Those who had borne the burden and heat of the day complained of the unfairness. It cannot be denied that their sense of justice appears well founded; but Jesus replied: "You received what you asked for; why do you complain of my goodness?" – Well, the answer is satisfactory, for another time you will receive more than you have deserved and the deserving less. – Where does the boundary go between envy and a sense of justice? \* I have been reading the curse in Deuteronomy Chapter 28, verse 43, 44. "The Stranger (the Jew?) who is among you, shall mount above you higher and higher; and you shall come down lower and lower. He shall lend to you, and you shall not lend to him. He shall be the head, and you shall be the tail." Read the Bible in the evening: Nahum Chapter 1, verse 15. "Behold, on the mountains the feet of him who brings good tidings, who proclaims peace. Keep your feasts, O Judah, fulfill your vows! for never again shall the wicked come against you; he is utterly cut off." Would that it were so! Night of 26 × 27. Dreamt of β; she was acting on the stage. After that I saw β dressed as a boy, crouching down, and I was surprised that she was so small. περσοννε **[**Personne**]** was at her side – – – x x x x x x \* 28th Played A Midsummer Night's Dream (Mendelssohn) Had a reminder that β would come. Whereupon the maid came and announced Ms. υαλλβεργ **[**Vallberg**]**. I did not receive her. Immediately afterward I opened Euripides and found "But do not take a fancy to a malicious woman" and immediately afterward: "Visits from evil women were my downfall." January \* *Possessed her!*

> Let this suffice! Cf. The strange incident in the street last year, when thinking about whether it was my duty to remarry, I fell and hurt my ring finger.

January: 29th

\*

It is Swedenborg's birthday today. I read Hannah Joël's "On the Other Side" which describes the asylum = Inferno.

30th Reading Mæterlinck: Le Trésor des Humbles, from 1896. A wonderful book! In the evening a letter headed »The Nobel Institute of the Swedish Academy» from Karl Warburg.

Calm! ονσκαδεαττββροτεμπαλμε **[**Wished that B would break with Palme**]**.

31st παλμεκομ οκκ βερατταδε αττββρυτιτ. ῾ανσ υενστρα ογα υαρ ονδτ, ῾αρδτ **[**Palme came and said that B had broken off. His left eye was evil, hard**]**.

μεν ιαγ ῾αδε ρεδαν εττ παρ δαγαρ φορυτ αμνατ λοσσα β. φραν π. ι κρονβρυδεν σαμτ σκικκα ῾εννε τιλλ μύνκενμεδ πασκ ενσαμ **[**But I had already a couple of days earlier intended to detach B. from P. in The Crown Bride and send her alone to Munich with Easter**]**.

1st February. Out with Gernandt. Back home found Idun with Strindberg's table at Madame Charlotte's in Paris. February:

> π **[**P**]** told me that β had asked if Σ υαρ ωνδ πα ῾εννε. ῾ων φρυκταδε δετ **[**S was angry with her. She feared so**]**

2nd Candlemas! I was met this morning by the hoisting of flags at Skansen! Bright sunshine.

This day

3rd Sunday; at π. βερατταδε διυερσε ωμ β. ελακτ **[**P's. Recounted various things about B. Mean things**]**.

4th Theater's first reading of πασκ **[**Easter**]** today.

## [132 v.]

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### Conversation overheard from passers-by in the street – \*

The older Gentleman: "The same room and the same bed . . ." o1 The younger Gentleman: "Heavens how strange . . ."

o 2

1901. **134.** 11th Cut my left-hand ring finger on the spot where the ring used to be so that a large drop of blood appeared. Alone all day in a quiet mood; reading Péladan and τανκανδε πα β βεδιανδε῾εννε ομ φορλατελσε φορ μινα ωνδατανκαρ **[**thinking of B asking her to forgive my sinful thoughts**]** In the evening a ray of green light from the lamp fell on my chest and followed me wherever I went. Will the light now at last come? February Monday:

Since βs βεσοκ **[**B's visit**]** I have entered a new phase in my life. Long for purity, beauty and harmony. The 2nd Act of Damascus III is influenced by β who has now entered my life – ["Les êtres sont perméables les uns aux autres . . . à propos de la divisibilité du moi, de la formation des personnalités multiples et de leur pénétration réciproque, de la réflexion en une conscience nouvelle des tendances émotionelles contrariant la personnalité normale, du phénomène des Abwerpsykologen etc de la faculté télékinesique des états emotionnels intenses – – –] I have experienced all this since then: Harriet and I have lived telepathically at times and have "enjoyed" each other's presence at a distance, after she had initiated me into the secret.

12th. The night of: restless. Awoke at 2 a.m.\* My telepathic relationship with β has increased to an alarming extent, I live only with her in my thoughts. βερ γυδ ρεδα υτ δεττα **[**Pray God to resolve this thing**]** which threatens a catastrophe. π **[**P**]** has disappeared.

This morning I woke up with a temperature and chest pain went out nevertheless. Saw the golden cross on Jakob's church demonstratively bathed in sunlight above the Synagogue. Back home, found a parcel from Maredsous Monastery, which I visited a couple of years ago.

What I am going through now is both terrible and wonderful – it is as though I were awaiting a death sentence. Sometimes I believe ῾ων αλσκαρ μιγ **[**she loves me**]** sometimes not. God's will be done! If only I might know it. Until now as many portents have been favorable as unfavorable. On the occasion of her last visit I felt as though an angel were in the room, and I resolved in favor of goodness, hoping for reconciliation with womankind, through a woman. For three days now I have had her in my room and felt an uplifting ennobling influence – such as a demon surely could not provide.

If the Powers Above are mocking joking with me, I am prepared to bear that too! [Cont. on next page]

\* *Possessed her, when she sought me out.*

1901. **135.** 12th (Cont fr. prev. page). I had a fit of weeping now this evening while reading "Easter". Thought among other things: Has someone been crying for my sake today? Or has β? My fate will probably be sealed today. Will love too, great and lofty, return? And are the previous century's marriages based on economic calculations a thing of the past? February. Tuesday:

13th Reading Josephin Péladan's Prométhéïde; in which he has written parts the missing 1st and 3rd parts of Æschylus as well as translating the 2nd part of Æschylus' Prometheus It is gigantic!

Today has been a brighter than yesterday. My temperature gone –

In the evening I sent β a letter and an Easter birch twig and a daffodil.

It is strange: but yesterday with a temperature everything was black; and it was impossible to light up the rooms. It was dark. – – – Today the rooms are strikingly light with the same lighting as yesterday.

In Peladan's Prométhéide there is a description of Pandora, the Greek Eve, first as sent by Zeus, (who laughed as he sent her down) to torment humankind; but Prometheus transformed her into a blessing for humanity as mother, wife – – –

What will happen now?

Wednesday:

Night between 13 × 14. Rather restless. Lay awake; sad dreams and thoughts.

14th Discordant, although the sun is shining. All my thoughts center on β. but as though she would come as good, loving and restore my faith in the goodness of woman and mankind. β resembles 1o my second Wife (whom she has performed in Damascus) 2o my sister Anna 3o my mother 4o Mlle Lecain the beautiful Englishwoman who wished to ensnare me in Paris; and who was like all of them; often giving a warm motherly impression, so that I often longed to be under her beautiful warm woolen coat at Mme Charlotte's as though in a mother's womb. But she was a demon said Goguin and she enticed men – and women. 5o She smiles like my son Hans when he was four years old – like an angel.

I pray to β's guardian angel every evening that he should make her good and me good through her. Are these illusions?

Demons can disguise themselves as angels. – – – – –

I waited all morning in mortal anguish. The clock struck o'clock the half hour. I collapsed as though life was coming to an end at the thought: she is not coming! – – – Immediately afterward she came! Simple, mild, good, not as glittering

(Cont. next)

14th (Cont. fr. prev.) February:

> – – – as last time. Spoke with warmth, dignity, kept the conversation above trivialities . . . I brightened up, but was so moved by the happiness of seeing her, that I cried . . . Finally I kissed her hand and thanked her for wanting to come and visit me. When I showed the gold-making cabinet, my hand bled. – She said: You have secrets, you have! [meaning the papers in my cabinet.]

At 4 o'clock I was overcome by a fit of weeping – cried in general – over my own and humanity's misery, for no reason, an unclear feeling of happiness, of pain at not owning happiness, with a premonition of impending unhappiness.

Night between 14th × 15th fairly calm. Dreamt of Sister Elisabeth –

15th Today; sunshine, clear air, rose-colored haze – But somewhat discordant. Got no paper. Strange On inquiry I found that the Old Woman cannot deliver any longer and that puts an end to "Dagen". It is strange that there were two hostile mentions of me in the paper yesterday, and I wished I were rid of it. And now I am!

Have not worked, but slept all day and read Péladan – fairly calm. But have been longing! Rich. B. here with me this evening – – – 16th Letter from β. which made me peaceful and happy.

I answered it – She was so pleased with my portrait.

The strange smell of incense was noticeable today more intensely than usual. The idea then struck me that it was β. I sniffed at her letter, and it smelt of incense! – So it is her! But the smell has become nauseating. To begin with it was good, upplifting; then it smelt of madness and witchcraft. Finally nauseating and arousing dread.

In the evening Fåhræus, Gyllensköld, Axel – At supper I saw fireworks, golden and colored rain! from Skansen. Made an certain exhilarating impression.

17th Tranquil, wonderful night. Awoke clear-eyed and cheerful. Detested coffee and drank milk. Walked on Djurgården: flags hoisted at Skansen. A couple of dogs fawned over me! Read in Sthms Dagblad: Love is best! – Today's Gospel text was about Love = Caritas not Eros. Amor – Sunday

> Found a tourist plan for a journey to Italy in Mæterlinck. Now intend to travel to an Italian monastery which Richard Bergh has found. The smell of incense, which succeeded the smell of Celery, and has become repugnant, diminished today. If only I could have a new one!

In the evening I saw the cross in Slottsbacken created by gas-lit street lamps. I see it from time to time, not always.

# **[136 v.]**

1876 in the Swan. NB In 1892 a new star appeared disappeared in April. Returned in August 123next to β in Taurus in Auriga (Capella) on 23 January

Nova Perseus – visible 22nd 21 February **1901** of 2nd Magnitude, the 23rd of 1st Magnitude, surpassing Capella and Rigel; white and blue. On 27 Feb. it diminished. On 2 March of 2nd, on the 6th of 3rd , on the 13th of 4th, on the 22nd of 5th magnitude; with a period of 4 days. Oscillating in April and May until the middle of June, when it gradually diminished. Initially bluish-white, then orange-yellow, red, but in July again white, and in August violet. From 4 – to 22 March red. **\***

Nova in Gemini visible on 16 March 1903, resembling Nova Persei.


**[**Cf. p. 138, 25 February**]**


[Cont.]



It's now 6 p.m. Nothing has happened. Freezing cold at dinner time. Overwhelmed by sleep again.

Wrote a letter to β and resigned myself. The smell of incense returned straight away! What does it mean?

1901. **141 [a].** 5th Mailed the letter to β at the corner of Strandvägen. I then walked round the block expecting to receive an inkling of a reply when passing Grev Magnigatan. – – – I reached the corner of Storgatan – – – and one window in her apartment was open, and a little female head protruded out of the window, – – – What does it mean? March.

But this morning when I had drunk my morning coffee – I heard my name whispered in the room, although there was nobody there. **!**

> In the afternoon I played A Midsummer night's dream. Fell prey to dark thoughts – and threw β's portrait into a cupboard. Immediately afterward she arrived!

It was now 4 o'clock! At 5 o'clock I was engaged!

O! God have mercy on us! And bless our union!

Just imagine! I have kissed her pretty little mouth and tiny milk teeth! – And this morning I resigned myself! How strange life is?

[A strange baffling coincidence. This morning I had handed over braces ῾ανγσλεν **[**braces**]** to be mended and straps σπαννταμπαρ **[**straps**]** alteration to a pair of trousers βύκσωρ **[**trousers**]** – ¨

**! (See suppl.)**

6th Intended to go into town to buy rings – Then a letter arrived from β in which she warned me about her wickedness –

I have now written a reply and am waiting.

When I got back from my morning walk my landlady had put the key of the parlor door on the inside and had made up a bed on my sofa – What is this? Are we to fall so swiftly? – – That is what it is leading to! Where it has to lead! Where it always leads, must lead! Why wait? Maybe she cannot become a mother! In that case why these prosaic arrangements?

Expected her to come at 3:30 as promised! She did not come! Black thoughts and passions raged!

The clock struck 6! Then she came; light, calm, radiant, firm – and that settled the matter. She gave me violets! We went down to the Newspaper office and put in the announcement. The evening together with the Möllers and Harriet at the Rydberg.

7th A wonderful dinner at the Rydberg with Harriet.

8th Dinner at Lidingöbro; a carriage drive through Djurgården. Met the King – – – Beethoven evening here together with Harri**[**et**]**, the Möllers, Axel, Carl Larsson, Richard Bergh, Gyllensköld.

My ring arrived! The number 5172. [NB! on April 10th I paused in Sibyllegatan and at a tailor's I saw a black-and-white material numbered 5172]

9 Västerlånggatan Wahlberg. It was Jeffkin who later became my tailor.

My Diary resumes here after an interval from March 8th. 18 April.

After many wonderful moments together with Harriet who really loves me, we finally succeeded today in getting permission for our banns to be published. Our joy was great this morning, particularly since we had been faced with difficulties.

$$\text{Alone in peace all day. In the evening at 6 a feeding of anixety (Hartiert was then at the } \sim \text{Møllers'). At 7:30 I went to Harriet -- She had been \"spọyọ\"\pi\& \\$ [poisoned]\text{; and was in a addition taking aseonic tables, so there was a small of arseonic --}$$

April: Olavus Petri. Our banns are to be published today. I got up at 5 a.m., saw the sun rising in marvelous air. A pale heart of light with a green outline fell across my bed three times. 19

In the evening walked with Harriet facing the setting sun, which shone in our faces.


today: = Water = 6. = = Fire = 3 = *Carbon* = *3* Clouds. 123 123 but

 = Sky = 1 = *Hydrogen* = Earth. = 8 = *Oxygen* The signs are from I Ching; created by the buttonholes in the statue's coat. 123 123

Those who understand can see this As musical notation = E G B F .

$$\sharp\_{\ast}$$

Sv.D. May 17th 1901.

"Dreyfus was justly sentenced by the courts-martial of 1894 and 1899."

1901. **142.**

After an engagement full of glorious moments, and beautiful battles against ugliness!

6th Got married for the 3rd time. Our homecoming with the parlor full of flowers and the whole apartment illuminated was like a fairy-tale. ναττεν. ῾αρριετ **[**That night. Harriet**]** has a hernia – (uterine.) I wanted to comfort her; by saying that it made no difference to me since I loved her. Then she grew angry and she wanted to blame me In spite of this I possessed her twice. 7th Harmony. May 123

8th She says that I am the man who was meant for her – in every respect! And I am sure she is chosen for me. I call her my first "wife"

We walk round the apartment and wonder if it is real, if we will be allowed to stay here or not. We do not feel that it belongs to us.

This home has been bought with my Collected Dramatic Works, 30 years of toil.

Jonas Lie's book Trolls has started haunting the house; Lindelin in particular.

Inexplicable longing seizes me to flee and and sit rent a garret. I tell my wife this. She understands!

The actor Hanson struck by a bullet on stage. It turned out to be "cotton waste" and plaster.

Strains and stresses start with Press Week and ∆αγμαρσ **[**Dagmar's**]** innocent procuring. Harriet wants to go to the masquerade. I buy suitcases and threaten to leave.

## 29th

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Ragnhild Thott evidently died this month.

She was shot by her lover with whom she had run away to the Caucasus. [Cf. p. 143, 21 June]

Om earlen af Russells häktning för bigami, hvilken vi förut omtalat, skrifves från London: Arresteringsordern utfär rande från London. Då han måndag middag ankom till Waterloo-stationen, tilltalades han af en civilklädd polisman: - Är ni earl Russell?

— Ja

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Vaguen for till Bow-Street. Då lord Russell steg ur vagnen rökte han helt lugnt en cigarr och stod där helt obekymrad och leende, medan polistjänstemannen skickade bort vagnen. Han bad blott att få underrätta sin bror om arresteringen och inträdde leende i domsalen. Sir Franklin Lushington förhörde honom i sitt privatrum. Undon vantan på domåren ankom ford Russells fört fört fört fört fört fört fört fört fört fört fört fört fört fört fört fört fört fört fört för tört för tört för tört för tört för t ut .

Angående själfva förhistorien till häktningen föreligga nu följande detaljer: Lord Russell hade gift sig den 6 februari 1890 med Mabel Scott, men blott lefvat ett par månader tillsammans med henne. Sedan deras
skilsmässa, som fullbordades samma år, bodde han i Maidenhead och hustrun hos sin mor i Bray. Sommaren 1899 mottog lord Russell besök af Mrs. Somerville, född Mollie Cook, och i juli samma sommar försvunno båda från Maidenhead. Den 24 augusti hade de skrifvit in sig i en främlingsbok i Reno, staten Nevada. Under sitt uppehåll i iceno,
stat fick lord Russell äktenskapsskillnad från sin första fru. Den 14 april 1900 skaffade han sig giftermålslicens i Nevada.

Russell, bodde i London och önskade gifta sig med Mollie Cook samt tillfogade, att han icke visste något lagligt hinder för giftermålet. Nästa dag infann sig paret inför domaren Kearley, som fullbordade vigseln. 8 maj foro de tillbaka till Maidenhead, där de sedermera hufvudsakligast varit bosatta.

 Mr. Doulton anförde till lord Russells förirån sin förra fru, och för att styrka hans
bona fides omnämnde advokaten, att lord Russell själf telegraferat underrättelsen om sitt bröllop till Times. Russell hade också genast återvändt till England och hade icke gjort någon hemlighet af sitt nya giftermål. Denna process är åtminstone den fjärde, som engelska domstolar haft om hand på Russell, earlens första fru, har sedan den.
13 mars 1899, då hon första gången visade sig på Royal Theatre's i Plymouth scen, med ganska mycken framgång uppträdt å skilda platser i England.

# 1901. **143.**

30th Explications. σκιλνασ ι σανγ **[**Separate beds**]**. May ..

> 31st Met the same old woman as I did on May 3rd 1900 – Same scene, same words! [See May 3rd 1900.]

φορσωνινγ **[**Reconciliation**]**.

	- 21. News of ασπασιασ **[**Aspasia's**]** death! June

22nd Harriet went into the country; Two white doves, two small children by the cab. June:

23rd Finished Charles XII in the evening; at that very moment a band started playing out on the common, and the flags round the Maypole unfurled in the breeze. Letter from Harriet, loving, tender. June:

25th Harriet home. Radiant with happiness. She reads Charles XII to me. We are now convinced that our union will last forever, for we are living in complete harmony. I send a telegram to Kymmendö to rent a summer cottage. If not available, we will travel abroad. Harriet overjoyed to be at home in her "yellow room" which is so beautifully peaceful and as she puts it κύσκτ **[**chaste**]**. It δοφταρ **[**smells**]** of incense. 26th Radiant morning full of joy and hopes.

Telegram from Kymmendö that it has already been let! – – – I then feel that I "may not" leave Sweden but have to stay in my country. H. is cross.

In the evening she leaves – without a farewell, without saying where to!

What a night of sorrows!


Found outside Gotthard's flag factory a three-cornered triangular piece of blue and white canvas . A hairpin: .

	- 2nd Met Harriet. We travelled to Hornbæk. Stayed at the inn. 10th Moved into the ivy-clad Red House

at Hornbæk.

1st set off for Berlin. In the evening checked in at the Aachener Hof.

### 2nd August

3rd Out to Charlottenburg. [φασανσ δαγ **[**Dreadful day**]**.] after scene with Harriet. She wanted to visit a whores' café, but I did not.

4th 5th


20th ῾ων σαδε αττ βαρνετ σκαλλ ῾ετα βοσσε. συαρπα ταλ! κρακκ! **[**She said that the child is to be called Bosse. Gave as good as I got! Crash!**]** In the evening a fireball fell from the constellation Auriga Capella.

21st Relatively calm, but awful. Did not see Harriet until dinner time. At the same time in the evening a fireball again fell in the vicinity of Capella; later on a shooting star. Easter performed –

22nd Woke up with malaise toward Engelbrekt on which I am working. Took out The Corridor Play and Setting up House.

Overcome by sleepiness several times. Read about Beethoven. Dinner time came. Then a letter arrived from Harriet in which she said that she had "gone for ever". – – – Now what will happen? What is this affair, which I have treated with holy seriousness? Henrietta (= Harriet) is today's name. Had a telephone call from Richard Bergh this morning. It is my father's birthday!

(Cont.)

Bought a book of prayers for every day of the year, and felt comforted! *This book later provided me with great edification and instruction, in 4 Parts, but anonymous.*


Axel came. Played Beethoven.

### 5th Ghastly! September

### 6th Today I painted!

For the first time in these last few years the thought of suicide arises. The motive: I feel that this woman now walks round with the most precious part of my soul which she has received, and serves me up at parties. I feel defiled through her. Strange men defile me by the looks with which they defile her. Through this woman I sink down into filth even though we are separated, for I can feel her from afar. Schopenhauer interprets "la jalousie légitime" in this way: My thoughts are conveyed through my woman to the sexual sphere of a male stranger. She makes me perverse in a certain way, indirectly, and against my will. Suicide is a mortal sin; but Dante finds Cato reprieved from the Inferno, since he took leave of the world of sin and servitude when he saw no possibility of maintaining his soul above the filth.

I feel how my spirit is bound to the lower spheres in which my wife now moves. This love affair, for me so great and extraordinarily beautiful, which dissolved into a mockery, has made me fully convinced that life is an illusion, and that the loveliest experiences which dissolve like bubbles in dirty soapsuds, are intended to instill into us a loathing for life. We do not belong here, and we are too good for this miserable existence.

My soul loved this woman and the brutality of marriage revolted me. Moreover, I have never really understood what the great love of a beautiful female soul has to do with crude procreational activities. Love's organ is identical with one of the excremental organs! Is

that not typical!\* But I cannot live in a spiritual marriage with a

\* Hegel has said the same thing, I discovered four years later!

(Cont.)

# 1901. **147.**

6th (Cont. from previous page) woman who is not my faithful wife, because if she is free and enters into a relationship with another man, she exposes my soul and transfers my love for her to a man – and thus causes me to live in a forbidden relationship with a man's soul or body or both! Sept.

E v. Hartman says that love is a whim of nature designed to trick men and women into reproducing themselves.

Life disgusts me and has always done so! Everything is worthless! I have fulfilled my obligations and been sufficiently tormented. Would seem to have the right to depart!

\*

This time I treated life with reverence, and then life treated me cynically, and That is how it has always been! When I was a young believer and idealist, I was mocked for it! When I became a materialist I was persecuted for it! Life was wilful, like a woman; whatever I did was wrong! and I was abused! When I was immoral I was abused, and when I became moral, I was abused even more! Human beings are not born evil, but life makes them evil. Then life cannot be an upbringing, nor a punishment (which improves) but solely an evil! To live we have to hurt others, simply by being in their way.

I was born for domesticity and a wife – and see what I got!

(My most recent thoughts on woman and love firmly based on experience are in the Third Part of Damascus.) –

(Cont.)

\* This card fell "by chance" out of the Biographical Lexicon during these days of sadness.

Note the reverse side, our child is called Anne-Marie.

J.L is Johanne Lehman, Harriet's mother.

Harriet says that it is her mother's handwriting. During these dreadful days I have said a Catholic prayer daily to Harriet's Guardian Angel (I always had her Mother in mind, as though asking her protection for my unborn child.)

NB! During this period Harriet sought company in High society at Architect Liljekvist's. But his mother was a childhood friend of my mother's, and Harriet was told every good thing about my mother.

1901. **148.** 6th (Cont.) "Resignation": well, that was my last attempt! But by tolerating everything, one finally comes to tolerate filth and degradation, and one must not do that! September

\* See adjacent page and card!

7th Dreadful day. Painted! – – – Saw a pigeon this morning hopping along the road on only one leg! (Cf. a dream in 1906 in which I saw H–t with only one leg.)

With women everything is unmanageable: whatever you do is wrong. One day you are called a σατύρ **[**satyr**]** and the next day ιωσεφ **[**Joseph**]**. You never know what they want, if they are σιννλιγα **[**sensual**]** or κύσκα **[**chaste**]**. One fine day there is a child: then they "wonder" how it could have happened. "It is not possible." In a word that is when the mixing of the poisons starts. They begrudge the husband his paternal happiness; and wish to deprive him of it even at the risk of themselves being suspected of being ῾ωρωρ **[**whores**]**. But breathe that suspicion and all h–ll is let loose!

Women regularly complain about disappointment in pleasures. But a man would die before complaining. It never occurs to a woman to think that a man might also be disappointed in her. These are the eternal torments of mutual recrimination, as though they held the keys to paradise in the bedroom.

Sent a letter to Harriet. She had been very ill yesterday and had had two doctors. She was still confined to bed today. What has happened?

\*

\*

8th Letter from Harriet. She says that she cannot return!

Cato = a symbol of the freely reached decision to abandon the servitude of sin:

In the evening she summoned me to a meeting at the Möllers'. I saw her again. She behaved like an actress; dishonest, scheming, on the make. She was so changed that after ten minutes I got up, and said: "I do not know you. This is a stranger." And then I left without saying goodbye. (She resembled Nenny Geijerstam.)

1901. **149.** 9th The yellow room was cleared out! God was merciful to me and gave me the strength to bear it, although I bled inwardly. 10th In the evening a visit from Albert Ranft! Engelbrekt has been accepted by the Swedish Theater, Charles XII by the Dramatic Theater. NB! There is Silence from Harriet. September

10th

11th The grand piano sent away. Harriet had her greatest and most beautiful moments at it! So ethereally great and beautiful as it was only granted me to see her!

Dreadful days!

13th Harriet came to me. Began reproaches; when I reminded her of some of her many infamies meannesses, she left of course. She had pecked at my liver for four months and I had kept silent out of consideration; when I come with a single and justified reproach she leaves as though I had assaulted her! – That is womankind! When she left I calmed down and did not miss her.

16th. The decision to shorten my life myself is an old one; I started at the age of 8. But now it revives as a commanding duty. The woman who has left, has taken with her the best and finest part of my soul. I can feel at a distance how she goes round dirtying my soul, which I had washed tolerably clean during my Inferno years. It feels as though through her I were entering into an illicit relationship with men and other women. This torments me, for I have always had a horror of contacts with my own sex. To the extent that I have broken off bonds of friendship when a friendship developed a sticky character resembling love – (I have of course never been able to explain these breaks to other people)

Cato = A symbol of the freely undertaken decision to abandon the servitude of sin. Yes, that is how I feel now. And the "decision" is maturing. I look upon it as self-sacrifice to God, who asks for this proof of my belief that he is good and that I have nothing to fear since I have already atoned for most things through suffering here He demands this act of manly courage!

(Cont.)

punished for it!

carpet beating and piano lessons. The following morning the tiled stove in my bedroom was demolished.

My past? Can a writer's life be unraveled? Does one have the right to regret the past, from which one has learnt? and which one did not personally stage? One has lived as best one could – and not as one had wished! To be dragged in the dirt as I was, was in itself a punishment! Most of the evil I have done has been out of foolishness and in the heat of the moment – like other people! And have I not been sufficiently punished? [See Third Part of Damascus] [Cont]

\*

# 1901. **151.**

28th (Cont. fr. prev. page) When I saw Harriet's beauty, which at times could be "ethereal", I trembled. And then my previous belief in woman as an intermediate link between man and child was shaken. At such times I told myself, that woman is of a higher origin, but more deeply fallen than man. For womankind's meanness and mendacity are immeasurable – "she cannot speak a truthful word". – – – When Harriet was in our apartment it was literally illuminated; when she left it grew dark, literally not figuratively. *But not always! Often the reverse!* But her luminous (?) little spirit could not overcome my darkness, and when I realized that, I begged her to save herself. But it was too late! – "Poor Friend, I said; it will probably be up to me to leave, and thereby restore you your liberty – and light. Negotiations; doubts; to and fro – 4th Out at Djurgårdsbrunn and had dinner with Harriet – Thereafter home – x x x . Then she left! promising to return move back to me tomorrow. 5th Harriet returned! – – – Light! TBTG! 6th Sunday! – – – There is peace! At the Opera! Heard Aida! 7th 8th 9th Peace! and light! But mingled with a certain anxiety that it 10th will not last! 11th Darkness! 12th 13th Sunday. De Wahl and Palme to dinner. 14th September But how can light comes from the dark letter in 1901. October:

> 26th A bird flew into the parlor as I stood with my coffee this morning; flew out of the window in my room. *It was clear.* Found an ace of diamonds!

proceed from darkness? For she underworld, "the most evil woman ever born", she called herself in a

# 1901. **152.**

18th Reading about the teachings of Indian Religion – The whole world merely an illusion.\* The divine Primordial Power (Maham-Atma, Tad, Aum, Brahma) allowed itself to be seduced by Maya or the Reproductive instinct. In this way the Divine Primordial Substance sinned against itself.\*\* Hence the world only exists due to a sin if indeed it exists at all – for it is only a dream image,\*\*\* a phantom whose destruction is the task of asceticism. But this task comes into conflict with the instinct of love, and the net result is an endless vacillation between sensual abandon and penitential torment! November.

This appears to be the answer to the riddle of existence!

\* = Bosh or relative nothingness

\*\* Love is sin; for this reason the torments of love are the greatest hell there is.

\*\*\* Hence my Dream Play an image of life.

I happened to find the above in a Literary History just as I was about to finish my Dream play, "The Growing Castle". That was the morning of the 18th. But this same morning I saw the Castle (= Horse Guards Barracks) as though illuminated by the rising sun.

"Indian Religion" now gave me the explanation of my Dream Play and the significance of Indra's Daughter, the Secret of the Door = Nothingness. I read about Buddhism all Day.

19th Received by post the Price list for the "Buddha statuette with the self-growing bulb "Sauromatum venosum" (which grows without soil or water.)

# 1901. **153.**

<sup>21</sup>st The sun illuminated "the Castle"\* . A bonfire lit on the common. November

Met the Old Woman on Djurgården. [I met her the first time on May 3rd 1900 (The day Mrs. Geijerstam died) The second time on 31 May 1901 (Aspasia died) \* (= Horse Guards Barracks)

> In these days the following happened: Suspecting that λωυισα **[**Lovisa**]** had acquired a key to the sideboard, I nailed down the door. Straight away all this occurred, in one day. 1o That the wardrobe door jammed so that we had to send for a locksmith 2o That the lock of a suitcase jammed. 3o That the kitchen door was closed when Harriet and I came home – so that we could not even get any water.

> > \*

\*

Engelbrekt was performed at the Swedish Theater.

Dec:

Row about the Nobel Trust and the Academy.

19. Dreamt during the night of a calendar, on which 2 the number 27**\*** was visible. A while later 29. I then asked for 28. December:

**\*** Cf. page 263 in this Diary (the year 1907) where I am warned about June 27th.

**[153 v.]**

As I stood washing myself in the morning in my room I noticed that my trousers, which were hanging from a hook, were very wrinkled. Thought: I shall have to send them to be pressed. When I turned round a little while later the trousers hung there pressed, smooth, and pressed with creases, which is not my habit. I shivered, as one does faced with a miracle, but at the same time smiled at the absurdity. yet I felt that it was a kindness from an "invisible being", a sign of approval. **\***

1902


my views on the unity of matter and the unity of the so-called simple elements when compounded. In this context there was a mention of the name Bridgewater. and books . . . When I woke up I remembered The Bridgewater Treatises, published in Sweden in the series entitled Library of Popular Natural Science. I looked up Bridgewater in Meyer's Encyclopedia. And found that Prout had written the volume on Chemistry. This was a great and pleasant surprise – since I have searched in vain ever since 1896 for this Prout, who advanced the theory that the so-called simple elements are merely hydrogen condensations. A telephone enquiry to Klemming's told me they had the book!

1st Harriet said that she had recently seen the word Bridgewater in Balzac's Beatrix. February

1st (cont. from prev. page.) February

> At dinner time it occurred to me that Harriet would like flowers. I first thought of a white hyacinth (because this morning Harriet had longed to live in a white room) and yellow tulips. But then I changed to a pink hyacinth and yellow tulips. I telephoned to Jöhnk. Half an hour later a boy arrived with a white hyacinth and bright yellow tulips. I was annoyed and objecting that I had ordered a pink hyacinth and not a white one and therefore I returned the hyacinth.

After a while came a pink hyacinth –

But a little later still a pink hyacinth and yellow tulips arrived.

Harriet came home and I learned that she had ordered similar flowers from another place; however, she had first decided on a pink hyacinth, then but changed to white, as the pink ones were so ugly.

\*

Charles XII performed. Around noon Harriet met saw Eliasson, the actor, putting a letter into a mailbox in Karlavägen – On the day of Engelbrekt's premiere she had met Eliasson putting a letter into exactly the same box. – – 13th

 the Bofors accident. Arvid Sohlman was injured again. Cf. page 33 in this Diary, 1897, 19 July when Sohlman fell under the horses! εδυαρδ φορδδβεργ **[**Edvard Forssberg**]** died. The end of February:

March:

8th Harriet ill in the evening and during the night expecting the baby. A υνδερβαρ **[**wonderful**]** day. (Clothes on fire at night.) Harriet raised the alarm during the night; I leapt up to telephone for the midwife; when I lit the lamp, the pile of my dressing gown caught fire, so that the flames spread wildly. I keep wondering what is in store for us! It was a false alarm.

16th Finished Gustav III.

This is the day on which Gustav III died! (The murder)

Doctor Lundqvist, our family doctor died.


17. γαυγ σποκαρ **[**G af G haunts me**]**. Chemistry! The number 85 visible in several places. 123

18. 85 is Potassium Nitrite which deposits Gold. 

The Annunciation 123

25th Our daughter was born. at 7:15 p.m. 

26th Visit from γαυγ **[**G af G**]**.

5th Saturday: Explication! Dark! Easter April:

6th

7th 13. Disturbances in Brussels (and

Dark. Sickness.

14.

15th

May.

4 5 123 Earthquake on Martinique.

6. Wedding day!! υταν βλομμορ **[**without flowers**]**. Only ακσελ **[**Axel**]** came.

11th I discovered that the numbers of the planets are the square of each other's up to and including the Planetoids.


This makes it likely that there are planets beyond Neptune and their numbers (= distance from the sun) ought in that case to be the squares


I reported my findings to Gyllensköld who admitted that they were new, and an astronomical discovery.

And then the wood opened up to the north and far away in the blue distance I saw what I took to be the north cape of Lidingö and Djursholm. But in all probability it was something else!

The (Mrs. Geijerstam died 13th Harriet ατερκομ **[**returned**]**. We went to Tyresö. Met the Old Woman on Djurgården again! cf. p. 153.

14th All well again after λανγ κόλδ **[**long coldness**]**.

and Aspasia died after the previous encounters)

15: κρακκ υιδ βωρδετ μιδδαγ. βρευεν **[**Crash at the dinner table. The letters**]**. New accident at Bofors. cf. p. 155.

1902. **158.** June 29th The sun shone on my dark rainy landscape. A round disc, light green with rose-colored edges disengaged itself and floated into the room, above my desk. Was repeated several times.

Cf. 19 and 27 April 1901.

The incense fragrance *from Harriet* has long since gone and been replaced by cheap vinegar


Occupied with starting a theater together with Hillberg.

13th The night of the 14th when a decision about the theater premises was to be made I had dreadful allegorical dreams.\*

Harriet returned home with the baby; I wanted to turn on the electric lamp in the parlor; but the switch broke and it remained dark. A little while later the light was on!

\*

\* I was to make a voyage by sea, and in good faith I stepped aboard a vessel, which suddenly appeared to be moving, rowed by men with huge oars, and among the rowers Carl Larsson and Östman from Kymmendö. The boat turned out to be a barge, with the inside whitewashed and stinking of manure. I wanted to escape in another boat, which was better, but found myself on an indescribable scaffold of frail laths, rods, wires which threatened to snap, lead pipes which bent, nails obstructed and I was in danger of falling at any moment.

The following morning I abstained from the theatrical venture. *[But the dream came true, when the Intimate Theater was established]*

Last night I dreamt about Carl Larsson who was dressed in gray (first I thought it was brown, with a brown scarf which then turned out to be red) He was going to have dinner with Molander. (who is dead.) 16th July.

> In the morning I walked along Strandvägen. Two men passed by me inducing an unpleasant feeling: The shorter one was dressed in grayish-green, the taller in brown. Walk as I might, they were in my way without actually following me – I stopped in order to let them walk up Arsenalsgatan, as I intended to walk via Berzelii Park. They stopped at the corner of Arsenalsgatan and went into Berzelii Park. So I took Wahrensdorffsgatan. Came to Silvander in the Opera House. Shopped. Walked down to the Grand Hôtel took a cab for home. In Stallgränd I saw two men, but now it was the taller one who was dressed in grayish-green and the shorter one in brown, i.e., the reverse of the previous two; and they were not the same men. ?

I also dreamt that Harriet was angry and voiced threats. She said something like: that my eyes would burn up so that my heart would feel anguish. I woke up having wept so that my eyes were burning.

\*

\*

The same thunderstorm cracked the firewall in Gyllensköld's house at Sibyllegatan.

Cf: 1907, 23 April

18th

20th 22nd 19th Thunder. 20th Sunday. My Prayer book contained meditations on: the voice of the Lord is over the waters The God of Glory thundereth. As well as meditations on thunderstorms. 123 Harriet came home. We were sitting at breakfast. A violent thunderstorm broke out which scared H. It rained into the parlor (onto my head). Bertha said that pigeons had built steel wire into the gutters so that the water was not draining properly. The tiled stove creaked. [But there was no sign of a crack in the ceiling!!!

Then we were to go to to Mariefred. H. got left behind at the station by mistake. And so I got home alone after having sat on Tumba station for a couple of hours.

Met the Old Woman on Djurgården. See p. 157, (June 13th) Jan. 9th November 21st 1901. [I feel cheerful for no reason today. Sent G III to Personne and Christina to Ranft

# 1902. **160.**

23rd Harsh letter from H–t. To which I responded sharply and openly, for the first time! July.

26th Harriet came. Had dinner x x x and left again, uncertain whether we would be having more children.

28th Sv. Dagbladet carried the attached article about Stjernhjelm. The strange thing is that Stjernhjelm has "haunted" me this spring – and that in "Trinity Night" I have based my hexameters on his.


```
3rd
     6th Harriet returned.
```
1st Gyllensköld, Geijerstam and I at the Rydberg. Dreadful night at home followed. September

> 2nd The first half of the day very nearly the most horrible I have ever experienced! Turning point at 5 p.m.

1902. **161.**

I was walking one morning along the shore at Sirishov and suddenly heard carpets being beaten across the bay. I turned my head and alongside Källhagen's shore I saw a boat whose sail was "flapping". Thought: strange that a small foresail can flap so loudly. At that moment my glance passed beyond the sail, and up on the slope behind it I saw people

In other words: an effect can have two causes, one close at hand and the other more distant.

\*

He was living in Regeringsgatan on the 2nd floor and although a musician he never played after 10 at night out of consideration for his neighbors. I was about to interrupt him with the observation that consideration toward others brings its rewards . . . when Axel continued . . ."What happened? People moved in on the floor below me and started to play and sing at 10:30 and continued until late at night. The people who lived above me, thought that it was me, and reported me to the landlord, who came and abused me!" (Sic!)

Similarly: I was walking along the left-hand sidewalk of the bridge to Djurgården when my eye caught sight of something red on black over to the right – It was the collar of a Salvation Army soldier; but my eyes continued in the same direction and came to rest on a large number of black and red (and white) flags flying from small Finnish cargo boats. This made an impression on me; and when I turned my head to the right, I saw through the

bridge balustrade the hem of a peasant skirt which was black with a red border.

Axel told this story yesterday, apropos playing the piano after 10 at night.

7th Strange happenings during this year.

beating a huge carpet.

September

7th Strange happenings during this year. September

> I was walking one morning along the shore at Sirishov and suddenly heard carpets being beaten across the bay. I turned my head and alongside Källhagen's shore I saw a boat whose sail was "flapping". Thought: strange that a small foresail can flap so loudly. At that moment my glance passed beyond the sail, and up on the slope behind it I saw people beating a huge carpet.

> In other words: an effect can have two causes, one close at hand and the other more distant.

Similarly: I was walking along the left-hand sidewalk of the bridge to Djurgården when my eye caught sight of something red on black over to the right – It was the collar of a Salvation Army soldier; but my eyes continued in the same direction and came to rest on a large number of black and red (and white) flags flying from small Finnish cargo boats. This made an impression on me; and when I turned my head to the right, I saw through the bridge balustrade the hem of a peasant skirt which was black with a red border.

\*

Axel told this story yesterday, apropos playing the piano after 10 at night. He was living in Regeringsgatan on the 2nd floor and although a musician he never played after 10 at night out of consideration for his neighbors. I was about to interrupt him with the observation that consideration toward others brings its rewards . . . when Axel continued . . ."What happened? People moved in on the floor below me and started to play and sing at 10:30 and continued until late at night. The people who lived above me, thought that it was me, and reported me to the landlord, who came and abused me!" (Sic!)



## Dreyfus. This opinion is widespread in France.

NB!

# 1902. **163.**

```
19th Sunday. – – – Harriet in the evening = incense so that she noticed it herself.
             I: wallflower and violet. [x x x] fear of children.
             Rausch is on in Berlin –
             Lillan ill. –
             22 Wednesday. Simoom.
             24th Friday: Fair Haven and Foul Strand published. Fetched Harriet from Simoom. 
             Freemasons Restaurant – – – pleasant walk home. Back here crash concerning my book.
                  Dreadful days –
             Sunday: Horrible morning, right up to 3:30 – – – – – After which H. home. Lidingöbro 
             with the G. af Gs
                About this time I bought "Dans la Praïrie", by Emile Souvestre second hand.
                I opened it at random and above the story "La Fille de l'Avocat" were pencilled
                the words "August
              From there"
             The story concerned a man who had remarried although his first wife was alive (Bigamy) 
             He is honorable enough to get divorced and return to the previous one. She This woman 
             actually dies later on and unites the two of them.
             I started thinking about my relationship and the my suffering in August, September 
             last year. Might this be the punishment? for my remarriage, to Harriet, without my 2nd
             marriage having been properly dissolved.
 October.
November
  October
                                       bis
                                     Harriet broke the two rings she had been given by me. ??? 
                                     Including the one with the blue Sapphire –
                                          further on the word "September" had been written
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28th Saw Hauptman's The Beaver Fur Coat. with Harriet and the G af Gs.

30th.See facing page: The views of a Jew (P. Lamm's?) on Dreyfus's guilt.

11th: P. Staaff fell "ill" after having persecuted Harriet in D.N. November:

12th In the early hours: Ellen (in the kitchen) dreamt that she had Lillan with her during the night. I came in with a necklace of bells I wanted to give Lillan. I asked if the Mistress would be away that night. Ellen answered: "Probably" since she was to look after Lillan. I leaned my head in my hands. She asked me to leave. I replied: that I first had to fetch medicine in Tegnérlunden. I appearered to be drunk.

1902. **164.** 18th The smell of incense has ceased. Last night Erik XIV was performed at Schwerin's Hoftheater. Telegram! – Met the old woman on Djurgården. Harriet was to go to a concert with ∆αγμαρ **[**Dagmar**]**, a meeting I dreaded. A couple of hours later a telephone message that ∆ **[**D**]** was ill and unable to come. The incense again very strong. 20th Ms. Key called, was sent packing by me – with good reason. November: 19th

> 22nd At the dinner table the following inexplicable event took place, when Harriet was out. My wedding ring, which sits above my engagement ring (with the sapphire), fell off my finger onto the floor, but NB! my engagement ring was still in place. This is absolutely inexplicable!

Staaff admitted to hospital – Newspaper report that Hamsun has disappeared.

14 × 15 – In the early hours – H and I talked all night until morning. December:

> περσοννε ῾αρ οπερερατσ φορ εν βολδ ι νακκεν **[**Personne has been operated for a boil on the neck**]**.

Mολλερ **[**Möller**]** fell from a cab as though shot by a bullet – his φρυ **[**wife**]** was spat on by a street urchin.


1903

20th which disappears.

1st First Sunday in Lent. Ill. March.

> My Articles The Mysticism of World History are appearing in Svenska Dagbladet. I feel that in this way I have regained the role I anticipated in Master Olof. Opened the Bible and came at once to the first chapter of Jeremiah, with which I open Master Olof. "Then I said: Ah, Lord God! I do not know how to speak, for I am too young." But the Lord said to me: "Do not say, I am too young, for everywhere I send you, you shall go, and all that I command you, you shall speak." "See, I have set you this day over nations and over kingdoms, to pluck up and to break down, to destroy and to overthrow, to build and to plant."

[Today ῾αρριετ **[**Harriet**]** intended to leave with Lillan, as she later told me.)]

3rd Read about B. Lidforss in Svenska Dagbladet that he had broken into the home of a schoolboy in company with others and used violence and that he was said to have been arrested. He had sued Stille. 4th

During my morning walk I met a gentleman who so resembled Lidforss that I intended to greet him. But it was not him.

This evening when ῾αρριετ **[**Harriet**]** came from Lindberg's Per Gynt, we had a dreadful row during which I let rip. Went to bed in the most horrible state of discord. Thought I would die of guilt feelings. But then I read in my Prayer book: "This is the man whom we once held in derision and made a byword of reproach – we fools! We thought that his life was madness and that his end was without honor. Why had he been numbered among the sons of God? And why is his lot among the saints?" Wisd. of Sol. 5:3, 4, 5. This book otherwise so severe was mild and comforted me, so that I fell asleep feeling I had been right in speaking my mind as brutally as I did. Admittedly I was woken up a couple of times during the night, but had beautiful dreams such as I have never had before. I dreamt among other things that I was walking along a garden path with beautiful flowers and children; but at the exit there was a large dog which took both my hands in its mouth and kept them there. I understood this as being symbolic and was not frightened: After this I was accompanied by small children that who held out roses for me to kiss. It seemed to me as though I they set store by my having kissed their roses. Since this was the first time somebody addressed me kindly in many years, I wept.

 (Cont.)

# 1903. **167.**

5th Awoke in the morning in lovely peace as though all evil had departed my house. It seemed pure and peaceful. (just like last summer when Harriet was away.) March.

Went out for my morning walk without having seen wife and child. It had rained during the night, spring air, sunshine and mild breezes. People appeared kindly disposed toward me. Met "the Old Woman on Djurgården" who prayed God to bless me Sat down on a bench at Framnäs. The sea was open at one spot. Then a sawn-off fir branch was blown across the ice by the wind. It stopped at the edge of the ice! And lodged there. – (A few days ago something similar occurred at the corner of Banérgatan, when a withered sawnoff bush came rolling in front of my feet. Cf. September 1901 on the common.) [During the morning when I came out of my room into the parlor I heard something rustling behind me. Turned round and saw how a sheet of tissue paper fell down in front of the large portrait of ῾αρριετ **[**Harriet**]** as Juliet, and covered it.]

Returning after my walk, there was not a sound in the house. I thought everyone had gone out. But only the mistress had gone. Indescribable peace now reigns as I write this. She came home again!

6th Dark in the apartment, oppressively poisonous.

 Dull days. Calm, but threatening. Lillan ill.


9th Dreamt in the early hours that I was in a garden, under cherry trees where the outermost branches had black cherries, the inner ones whiteheart cherries. A young girl (a child) came and kissed me and, said something pretty. and gave me two apples, a large and a small one.

During the morning the following occurred. I was standing in Holmqvist's bookshop with only the girl present. The entrance door slammed shut. Then I thought: If anyone were to come now and find me shut in with a girl. – At that moment someone rattles the door The girl goes and opens. I wanted to make myself invisible. The next instant I heard Gyllensköld's voice behind me. It was him. But he did not recognize me at first.

 10. Dull days! 11.

Saw an image of Swedenborg on the wallpaper when I woke up.


 (Cont.)

# 1903. **169.**

April 5th (Cont.)

Then I was outside again and intended to go in to look for Harriet; but had to cross something which was white: rather like a "lava field of white animals, including seals, or trolls" which wished to pull me down to them, this in connection with something sexual which I detested. First I was dragged down but was released. And finally found Harriet in a small room with some people. I saw her in a corner, but when I came up to her she had "made herself invisible", had disappeared. She then reappeared, but when I was about to tell her about H.W. she was gone. Then I was to leave the place and sat in a bus with several people. The bus drove off, but came back to Idun. I asked for Harriet. C. Larsson had now lured her away from me "to a matinee" I grew angry with him, and sensed an enemy in him. Looström, the bookseller, now appears and he and I are to go to a café together. He goes first, over junk on a dangerous path which I do not want to risk. Inquire about Harriet again. "She had left with Mrs. Thiel." Note! this! C L's role in Harriet's divorce!

\* \* \*

Idun had a meeting this same night!

note The red Horse in Revelations means War and Bloodshed.

9th Maundy Thursday.

Easter Day

Sunday. The arcade in Birger Jarlsgatan has haunted me for a long time, particularly the shop selling shells and its owner. I went down there; saw a photograph of the Idun Society with Wieselgren. On the way home I went and looked at no. 33 Jungfrugatan (where Harriet had rented an apartment last autumn and where I had looked for a two-room apartment in the spring.). There, in the third floor corner apartment sat a white-haired 123

Rålambshov in a dream the 16th

12th

 woman and in the window there was a huge drinking horn with rich silver ornamentation. [On 1st April 1907 Harriet and Lillan moved into 23 Jungfrugatan. [and there the real divorce took place]

Dreadful days. The nursery is sealed off for the extermination of vermin; the house is upside down; the maids in revolt.

But Harriet informs me that no vermin have been found in the room; (she used the expression "occult" about the vermin.) In spite of this the room is closed.

17th I opened the room to air it without telling Harriet.

 Palme came here in the evening. (We talked among other things about Per Staaff! at 10 p.m.)

18th Awoke with the sun hung gleaming over the horizon, casting a rose-colored light over my bed. over my bed. (Told Harriet that I had opened the room. She wept, why I do not know!) Sv. Dagbladet contained article VIII of The Mysticism of World History.

 In the morning I walked in the direction of Valhallavägen. There I met Pallin, the lecturer, whom I had thought dead. He had only one eye and said "Ugh" as he passed me. Oddly enough I read his Recent History only yesterday. And at this moment I do not know whether he is alive or dead!

In the afternoon I learnt that Per Staaff died yesterday evening at 10 p.m. [[In the evening Axel came, and told me: that he had met Staaff in the street this morning and had greeted him, received his greeting in return and had noted that he looked haggard. (Naturally it was not Staaff, since he was dead! Cf. my meeting with the dead. Dr. Eliasson. 7 Sept 123

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21. Finally reached agreement with Geber about Collected Dramatic Works. (Saw a rainbow over the Common.)

At Gyllensköld's for dinner with the R.Bs and the Christ. Ericssons

\* My sister-in-law in Vienna.

April.

19th Marie Weyr died\*

25th Letter from Albert Engström in Grisslehamn with invitation –

29th Went to Grisslehamn – – –

A man stepped on Harriet's dress on Drottninggatan and shouted abuse at her, in the middle of the afternoon; called her a slut for having a trailing skirt. She looked for a policeman. The man disappeared.

4th Returned home from Grissleholm. Welcomed back, with festive table and flowers. May.

20th Harriet went to her brother's wedding in Norway. Inez told me that she and Harriet had found a bunch of keys which were subsequently advertised in the paper and which turned out to belong to Karl Staaff's safe – The evening, before Harriet left, the castle (the growing castle) was illuminated (by the sun) in one of the windows. Harriet played Beethoven's Largo, which was used as the overture to Damascus. Friendly atmosphere. I have lately been finding broken locks and keys.


Letter from φρυ γυλλενσκολδ **[**Mrs. Gyllensköld**]** in the same vein! concerning Gyllensköld.

	- B. Björnson junior invites me to a performance at the theater. 2nd

# 1903. **172.**

3rd Walked along Sturegatan in the morning. A man with a cartload of potato sacks drove alongside me in an annoying manner. I tried in vain to get ahead of him, in vain to drop behind. Then I turned into Humlegården, passed a shrubbery; on the opposite side of which stood some men engaged in watering; the water sprayed through the whole shrubbery like a fine rain and a colorful rainbow appeared against the green background. June 1903 –

Discord!

This same morning my path along Djurgårdsvägen was blocked by a pit in which three men were standing; like a grave being dug.


[Märta Philp got engaged to Fröding today. I did not know this.]


In the morning I saw a white sailboat adrift in Djurgårdsbrunn's Bay. Just as I reached the shore where I was walking the sailboat drifted ashore beside me; there was no one in it. At the Brantings' in Duvnäs. 12th

Sunday: On my way home from Djurgården I saw a cat at Oscar's Church coming down a ladder with a baby bird in its mouth. Two magpies followed it. Further up Narvavägen there lay a dead baby bird. – – –

20 21st **[ \*] Cf. the Steamboat at the same spot on Sept 26th 1906.**

6th Left Blidö after dreadful rows. July

July June

"

10th Axel came and played. I sat by the window and looked at "The growing castle" (Horse Guards Barracks) through the window, but the windowpane reflected the four candles on the piano so that it looked as though the Castle was illuminated. Accompanied Axel downstairs to open the front door. Just then a female stag-beetle struck the red outer wall of the house so that it fell on its back in front of my feet. I turned it the right way up – and went upstairs.


1903. **194.** 7th Harriet gave me a seal representing a woman in l'art nouveau style as a Christmas present; also a rune stone (tomb stone)

8th The Dreyfus trial resumed. See Suppl. The Luther drama haunts me.

Today the woman lay separated from the seal.


August

Harriet came to town this morning, but I did not hear from her. – Axel I bought roses in the morning; asked for pale ones, but was given dark ones which grew blackish toward evening. Axel was here and played Brahms, which made us nervous and discordant. The lamps burned unevenly; the sideboard creaked; the tray rang out; the clock behaved spookily. 15th

Then came a telephone call from Harriet. She was sad, mild; ("Are you fond of me?") She had run into difficulties in her new home at 30 Biblioteksgatan.

Sunday. I rescued two wagtails and two pigeons from a cat on Strandvägen. Met several cripples and one-eyed individuals. 16th

The Luther Play came back; despite my having shaken it off.


I felt happy all day without knowing why.

Gyllensköld came in the evening and we went to Lidingöbro.

Axel and Tägtström came; played violin duets. 20th

August:

September

Started writing the Luther play!

1903. **195.** 21. Alone all evening; drank milk. In the evening I looked out of the window and saw the star Capella near which two meteors fell on 22 Aug. 1901 (the day Harriet left). As I stood looking at the star it was hidden behind a cloud. I thought to myself: quite so! A little while later it was clear again and twinkling. And in the distance an electric floodlight threw a beam of light up into the air; and it reached right up to Capella. That night I woke up first with a feeling that Harriet was attacking me out of spite. Afterward I dreamt that I was lying on my sofa in my study; someone came in with Lillan and held her out for me to snuggle; I took her little face between my hands to look at her; but I was unable to open my eyes; it was dark – I was blind. At that I woke up and wept copiously. Believed that Lillan was ill. Dreamt once more about Lillan.

22nd Worked on my Luther play. Sensed Harriet amicably all day (Incense) (Dreamt during the night of 21 × 22 about Carl Larsson in connection with a large social gathering with flowers; also of gardens and finally of a large cluster of pink roses. Read that G. af G is moving to Attarp in Skåne. (Attarp!) (Misprint for Allarp.) Labori has been a fiasco in the Humbert trial. See Suppl. 27th Dark day!

28th Friday. Today's name is Augustine. This is strange because precisely today I am writing in my Luther play about Luther in the monastery where he is called Augustine. And NB! On August 17th is called I sketched I began to sketch out the Luther play and saw in Luther's biography that he entered a monastery the same day. But add to this that August 17th is Alexius' day, and Alexius was the name of the friend who was murdered!

Brighter! 5th Finished my Luther play. TBTG

Saw this figure on the ceiling of the Yellow Room 14243

Resumed contact with Harriet and Lillan; who are living at Biblioteksgatan 30

Harriet has bought a grand piano; when she played it for the first time her engagement ring broke. Later she hit her mouth on the music stand so that her lip swelled up. At Harriet's a blob of candle grease like this fell in the shape of a p. (Personne?) There's a visible on H's mirror cabinet. ???

Harriet and I walked along Karlavägen in the sunset and saw a shining meteor fall toward the east. (This meteor was not mentioned in the newspapers.) 17th


Read a sermon comforting parents who lose their little children. 27th

2 years have passed since Harriet left! October

> She and I are now experiencing the best period we have had together! Harmony in every respect! We live apart, but meet in the afternoon and evening together with Lillan.

Having written From Deserts to the Land of Inheritance (after Luther) I have now


Crash at the Dramatic Theater directed against Personne! (Capital P!)

	- Erik XIV went well in Kristiania.

 Lillan is afraid of her shadow. October 30th.

Harriet told me that Sigrid had met an old woman by the entrance who had asked about Lillan: "Is this child as wise as she is beautiful? – When Sigrid answered Yes; the old woman continued: "Then she will not live long."

1st Harriet, I and Lillan drove were going to drive to Djurgården. As Harriet stood outside her front door with Lillan waiting for the carriage, she saw two horses' heads appearing round the corner: "Look there's our carriage coming!" she said. The horses came into view, and – they were drawing a hearse – Are these warnings? November

2nd Rupture with Harriet for no reason!

3rd Alone!

4th 4th In the evening; met 2 cabs with a woman and a child dressed in white. The Old Woman on Djurgården. Evening at Axel's; Anna and the children 5th came.

5th Saw "the Castle" illuminated by the morning sun. Cheerful mood; saw a "Victory with a Triumphal Wreath" in a window in Banérgatan. Met all of my Djurgården acquaintances. Flags are flying! Finished "The Lamb and the Wild Beast". Harriet with me in the evening!

# 1903. **197.**

November Anniversary of Gustav Adolf's death.

There were 6 knocks on my door, while I was working on "The Gothic Rooms", but there was nobody there!

Cf. The stone that was flung into a streetcar very nearly killing Harriet on October 4th 1903 **[**in reality 1902**]** page: 162. 15th

Saw the number 735 on my tiled stove. December 6th "Saw" Gustav Adolf's image twice running, once with a saucepan on his head, the second time with a cap. It is the anniversary of his death today. Last spring I saw G A in a cloud; he was microcephalic without his laurel wreath; then followed a portrait of John George of Saxony and of Wallenstein. An illusionary likeness. 8th In the morning I found outside Banérgatan 31 two separate halves of a round black and silver powder box (funeral) Thought of Harriet's hearse. Harriet broke a mirror last Saturday morning.

10th I walked up the hill to Rosendal this morning thinking of an adventure that befell me at Sirishov two years ago. Just as I rounded the path I met a company of soldiers; I wanted to give way but had not time; they halted, made a left turn and faced me in a single line so that, recognized, I had to pass them in review. (That was then.) When I now had reached the top of the hill I heard two riders talking loudly, in an irritating way. I turned my back and went down the hill, but now had the riders' conversation alongside me. I therefore took a path leading down to the shore where there is a bench on a hillock. Then I heard a command from the direction of Sirishov ordering a halt. Saw a company of naval seamen. Turned toward the Rosendal Shore Promenade to wait until they had finished. But, a moment later the seamen had formed a line in order to fire, and they had cut off my way across the hillock. I collected my wits, walked through the middle of the firing line, while they fired a volley; there were murmurs, but I pressed on; the officer gaped, but I passed on. What was this?

14th Harriet came with Lillan; said she had very nearly been killed when the mantelpiece of her tiled stove collapsed at her home in Biblioteksgatan 30. I fetched Harriet from the theater in the evening and we drove back to my apartment; in Storgatan a fire engine came careening toward us – our cab horse wrenched over to one side so we very nearly toppled over. Harriet burst into tears and was sure there was a fire at Lillan's. We drove hurriedly to my apartment and telephoned to Biblioteksgatan – Everything was calm, but Harriet remained despondent. She had recently dreamt of a fire at their home.

1. Saw Gustav Adolf on my bedroom curtain; he had a blonde mustache but his hair was jet black and his eyes black.

2nd Harriet to dinner. Then in the yellow room! Fear of children. Went down to Harriet and Lillan in the evening. Harriet was excessively nervous and I was scared. Back home I "saw" a child's face on a card with roses placed on my calendar. Thought: now there will be another child.

Gustav Adolf performed in Berlin. Dec. 4th

Sun on windowpanes everywhere in the morning. A cart with palms and laurels pursued me. Rose-colored and yellow. Harriet with me in the evening; very pleasant atmosphere Night-telegram about Succès d'estime of G II A.


Gustav Adolf rose again in Berlin; well received 2nd time.


At around 11:30 I turned on all the lights in the apartment as though for a farewell party, like the last evening before a journey (thought of Brussels and Paris; and intended to sell the furniture) thanked God who gave and took away.

	- Worry about the rent 30
	- Ditto. But at the last moment a registered letter arrived. At Harriet's in the evening. But since she found me gloomy I left. Ran into the "Yellow Miss" and the Maid from Banérgatan, also C G W with Wife! TBTG 31

Sunday 7th

1904

1904. **199.** 1st Sun all day. Met the pianist Lundberg. Visit from Christian Eriksson. New Year's greetings from Branting. (Only these.) I did not meet Harriet all day. Worked on Gothic Rooms. Read Chemistry. Found a lottery prospectus on (Sirishov's) strand promenade with the numbers 500,000 visible. Harriet had a vision this night. She woke at 2 a.m. and saw my head above Lillan's cradle, with eyes red from crying, and I said: How long must I wait for you? 13th A bell fell from the Christmas tree and broke. 19th Supper at Harriet's with Mrs. Hansson. 20th Lillan freed from her lace-up vest. My watch broke – 22nd My birthday. Harriet here; with roses. 23rd Broke off relations again for the umpteenth time. 24th At the dinner-table rose petal from Harriet's flowers rained down over the china; resembling red hearts. 25th A dog with just such a rose leaf in its mouth met me in the entrance and wanted to come in. 26th The parlor clock stopped. 27th Axel here; played Bach. 28th Desolate, awful. Longing to get away. 1st Resumed with Harriet. Fear of children. Believe we shall have a child. January 21st Re-potted all the palms myself. The King's Birthday. 123 Feb. Russo-Japanese war! = 123 March There's talk of gold again. 9th Harriet here in the evening. We spoke of getting divorced. Crash! – She left; probably for the last time. – Horrible! 10th Lonely! Met a sleigh in the morning transporting two pedestals, overturned. (Symbolic.) Mæterlinck is divorced. He got married in December the same year that I married Harriet in May.) Alone. Lillan visits me with Sigrid now and again Chemistry and color photography. 23rd Finished Gothic Rooms. 25th Cleared my room of Chemistry. 7th Harriet returned. 8th 9th Found this morning in black

> Harriet and Lillan came to dinner. Harriet left hastily. In the evening I was sitting at my desk; suddenly I saw the electric lights in the parlor grow dim; my room was filled with smoke (the lamp) was smoking. There was banging on the walls. ? A warning!


Harriet ill. –

4th My neighbor's cuckoo clock has started again after a long silence, maybe a year.

(Cf. page 162, October 12th 1902 when the cuckoo clock started and foretold horrors.)


# **[201 v.]**

Page 202. **\*** (25 Nov. **[**in reality 24 April**]** 1904.)

Since then I have often observed these clouds and discovered constants, recurring outlines of high mountains (as along the Rhine) with castles and forests; valleys, coastal inlets surrounded by wooded heights (resembling Kymmendö's coastline. For me Kymmendö seemed always to be an occult phenomenon, of supernatural beauty.) Am now reading in Plato's Phaedo (Dalsjö p. 137.), that the earth is situated at the center of the heavens; that we live in hollows in which water, clouds and air flow together. Above our hollows lies the Ether, of which water clouds and air form the sediment. We are unaware of this, but call the

air heaven. But if one were able to fly up there, one would see the real heaven and the real earth. This is of exceeding beauty, crimson, golden, whiter than snow and chalk. The mountains there are made of cornelian, Jasper, Emeralds and so on, gold and silver etc. There dwell the blessed partly inland, partly on islands around which the air flows in the same way that the sea does around our islands. What water is for us, the air is there, and what is air here, is Ether there. The temperature is mild and there are no illnesses. They have groves dedicated to gods; they hear divine voices, prophecies and revelations; the sun appears the moon and the stars appear there as they truly are. (Next follows a description of Tartarus the underworld.) Those who have led a pure and holy life dwell uppermost on earth. We should therefore seek wisdom and virtue, for sweet is the reward of victory and great our hopes; one should whisper to oneself such joyful hopes! Temperance, righteousness, moral courage, love of liberty and truth are ornaments of the soul.

The earth in the shape of a concavity can also be found in the culture of the Egyptians and the Chaldeans, pictured in Heegård: Popular Astronomy, Sthlm 1902.

In Flammarion's The Atmosphere, the Earth is also pictured concave

as it appears to Balloonists who always have the horizon on a level with themselves.

1904. **202.** 19th This day is called Master Olof (Olaus Petri) NB. Gothic Rooms comes out tomorrow – Met two horsemen on Djurgården, (with a long interval) who were unable to rein in balky horses, but who finally gained control of their animals. – I walked up to Hasselbacken and contemplated the verandah window and Bird cherry next to which I sat at our Wedding table in the Sun when I married Harriet. I felt scarcely any emotion, only a quiet pleasure at being free, and I did not regret what happened; on the contrary saw it as light, almost beautiful although it has been so ugly. NB! Three years ago today I applied for publication of our banns! April

NB. Yesterday I saw a bust of Wirsén in a junkshop at Tunnelgatan. It stood between an old hourglass with a stone-age axe, and a copper coffee pot. (It is symbolic, isn't it!)

20th Gothic Rooms out in Stockholm –

The first person I met in the morning was v. Essen, the Marshal of the Realm. Mrs. Möller has been ill in bed since last Sunday; was found blue in the face on her sofa. Her husband had gone to Spain.

23rd Saturday. Axel, Nordström, Gyllensköld, Ericsson the violinist here. Solemn atmosphere. I "poisoned by tobacco"

24th Strolled on Djurgården – Saw the number IX, 9 three times. "Saw" Harriet dressed in blue on my Shore promenade. Am still not sure if it was she or not. Sunday:

> In the evening I saw clouds in the direction of the sunset, forming heights, mountains, hillocks with leafy trees and castles (resembling Valhalla in Rhinegold). NB! For three years now in spring, summer and autumn I have seen similar cloud formations in a Western, Northwesterly direction, after sunset. I am coming to believe that there is a basis in reality for these "cloud formations" since their shapes are constant; that they are aerial reflections (or mirages) shadow projections of places on earth of which we are ignorant. Swedenborg speaks of high places on Earth, which are unknown to us and where mighty spirits dwell.

See facing Page NB! **\***

Harriet was acting in A Venetian Comedy; in the middle of the play she got the notion that her jaws were locked and that she was unable to speak. A doctor had to be sent for!

**[**Cf. p. 204**]**

# 1904. **203.**

30th Axel here. Recounted the following. Yesterday the 29th three buttons fell off his indoor jacket for no apparent reason. When he was going to put on his overcoat, a button fell off that as well. In the evening, he watched Gluck's Orpheus. That night he was woken by an assault on his door and experienced great angst He got the impression that it was Charlotte and Ragnhild (deceased) who wanted to come in. Now this evening he brought an Almanac for 1849, which he had bought in the junkshop with Wirsén's bust (See April 19th this year). 1849 is the year of my birth – The Almanac is annotated up to April 3rd and the writer mentions on every other page that he is writing to "Strindberg" (he does not say which one.). It is mostly concerned with sums of money and the owner of the book appears to be a travelling merchant. Other names mentioned are: O. von Knorring (lieutenant), Warburg and Kypers et al. I woke up this morning to a tooth falling out of my mouth. April

### 5th Harriet takes mud baths. (!) May.

Lillan came to visit; lost a button from her coat.

6th Axel, Rich. B. C-Gyllensköld, Nordström here in the evening for the last time before the fall. Axel played Beethoven's ninth symphony and his G major concerto, the overture to Egmont. I have never been so moved. Atmosphere rousing and good. At midnight the electric light failed, so we sat in the dark. Then I realized that it was all over with Harriet. We said our goodbyes as though forever from this apartment. I got a candelabrum and went into the bedroom to go to bed. Recollected the wonderful atmosphere of our wedding night. But, oddly enough, I did not remember that it was my wedding day; remembered it first today the 7th in the evening. Three years since then!

7th Have re-read Inferno and Legends in a solemn state of mind, but still do not understand the intentions of Providence, whether we should suffer for our tenets or whether we were to be punished and disheartened.

11th May. Oh yes!

It is now believed that he might have choked on his own vomit.

It was later discovered that he had not choked but gotten poisoned; by mistake or not, is not known. Prof. Bendz found morphine.

	- The student Dalén in Lund died under suspicious circumstances after the Carnival. Ascension Day. In the morning I was to read the sermon and was very distressed. At that moment the most beautiful music with mandolin and harp, including the Intermezzo from Cavalleria, was played in the yard: It moved me so that I burst into tears. Next came cheerful, but beautiful tunes, which lightened my mood. I took it as a gracious sign that my darkness would be somewhat dispelled! Axel here in the evening. Gloomy!
	- In the afternoon I awoke from a dream in a fit of weeping. As I did not happen not to have a clean handkerchief, I searched in jacket pockets in my wardrobe; finally found my tailcoat, which I have not worn since the wedding. In it lay a clean handkerchief, which thus had been lying there waiting for three years (!); ever since our wedding evening! Three years! 14th

This spring three similar faces have played a part in my life: Tor Aulin's, which

resembles Captain Bergman's of the Artillery (who visited me) [and Nils Strindberg's] (the Balloonist's) and a third person's, whom I now forget . . . County Judge Millar

Met the "Old Woman on Djurgården". She got 8 crowns; I felt it was the last time I would run into her.

Lillan came in the afternoon when my distress was at its height What is in store now? Harriet expects to die on the 16th on Monday! (See April 10th this year.)

Dreamt of a hearse.

16th Received an impudent letter from Harriet; haughty and mean.

Axel here in the evening. "The growing castle" (Horse Barracks) was illuminated by the sunset for the first time for ages.

 Whitsun cold and dreary. 123

17th Saw a white cross outside my entrance.

24th When I pulled up my blind this morning there were two pigeons sitting on a chimney caressing each other, demonstratively. Harriet sent a loving euphoric letter.\* Lillan here for dinner.

See Supplement. "To Father." ― \*

# 1904. **205.**

## *[In Black Banners]*

25th Worked in the morning on Fugues and Preludes, including among other things the following. "Or do I need to provide a paraphrase definition, that which only gives a paraphrase?" In the morning, the mail brought Novalis' Schriften from Schering and there I read in Part 2 page 126. "Eine Definition ist ein realer oder generirender Name." "Die reale Definition ist ein Zauberwort" – Did I read this book in the mail last night? Incidentally I found points of contact in Novalis with what I am currently writing; but Schering who sent the book does not know what I am writing now. May.

Letter from Nils Andersson in Lund that he had had a dream about me as strong and vivid as reality. Promised to come!

\*

\*

Read a few days ago in Mæterlinck's L'ornement des noces spirituelles (by Ruysbroeck), the Introduction page XVII. "Elles (les pensées) ont l'immunité des anges de Swedenborg qui avancent continuellement vers le printemps de leur jeunesse, en sorte que les anges les plus vieux paraissent les plus jeunes; et qu'elles viennent de l'Inde, la Grèce, ou du Nord, elles n'ont ni patrie ni anniversaire et partout où nous les recontrons, elles semblent immobiles et actuelles comme Dieu même. Une oeuvre ne vieillit qu'en proportion de son anti-mysticisme; et c'est pourquoi ce livre ne porte aucune date."

Read Novalis and found that my Fugues in Gothic Rooms are similar to Novalis' fugues and that several of my ideas are to be found in his book. How am I to explain this? – Possibly through the sleep which overcomes me several times a day. I always wake up the wiser, it seems to me.

In the evening ninepin bowling at Lidingöbro with Gyllensköld, Rich. Bergh, Kristian Eriksson. On the floor of the bowling alley, three drops of blood that we could not explain. Students bothered us.


(Cont)

## **[205 v.]**



**\***

\* not lover!

Now I recollect a number of minor incidents from the beginning of my relationship with Harriet. A couple of months before I got engaged, I woke up in bed at night and felt as though H–t were there. I "possessed" her (in my arms before we were engaged, but I did not seek her out, whereas she sought me. As engaged, when I visited H–t in her home I was overcome by an inexplicable heaviness so that I fell onto her sofa, saying: "I feel so heavy and I feel as though I am sinking down through all the flooring drawn toward the center of the earth." (The opposite of levitation)

At the beginning of our marriage H–t got cramp in her calf when she lay in my arms.

On our first night, H–t had a prolapsus uteri. I had heard previously that she had had gynecological troubles; I felt compassion for was sorry for her, and wanted to comfort her, but then she became angry. I did, however, possess her twice that night, though without pleasure. The following day she used her periods as a pretext. A few days later we resumed, but I now thought I detected an internal contraceptive and became angry. Tore myself and had to wear a bandage; thought of going to a doctor but did not. She still complained to me that she did not have any satisfaction. I understood nothing, but possessed her twice each day, yet without the anticipated pleasure. Her uterus often fell down at the climactic moment and pushed me out. It felt as though a hand from inside were slowly driving me out. Finally everything was cleared up. and the pregnancy established. Maybe there is meant to be a battle! But so unattractive! [On our first night Harriet was so like my 2nd wife that I was scared.] Our first nights were also disturbed by "nightmares". We both woke up with heart palpitations and fear, so that we had to get out of bed. (At the same time her previous admirer\* the actor **[**illegible deletion**]** was shot during a performance of

Cyrano. There was "cotton waste and plaster" in the bullet wound. He has since admitted that in hospital he got the idea that it was Nemesis, because he had tried to prevent our union.)

Now on 5th August 1904 Harriet tells me that she **[**illegible deletion**]** *lacks a κλιτωρις* **[**clitoris**]** – This after having read a book about sexual life, which she did not know about before. But: on August 26th this year, the same day Harriet left for Finland, she slept with me in the afternoon: Her "well was closed" as on our wedding night; that is to say: **[**Three deleted lines where the following words are decipherable:**]** compact bud big as a pine-cone (not )

and stopped me. But she achieved an orgasm, without me; and declared satisfaction. But she had got it without me. Is she a hermaphodite? **\*** See above Cont

# 1904. **206.**

	- 30th In the morning I saw a cart just outside my entrance inscribed with the word "Victoria". Harriet came in the afternoon; and we "resumed" (fear of children!). "
		- 31st Crash again! Rich. Bergh, Gyllensköld and Axel here.

1st Went to Furusund with Lillan at 1 p.m. Harriet, who was to go to Copenhagen in the evening in order to get a divorce from me, stood by the quayside and waved. I felt no emotion; just noted quite coldly that I had had a young, beautiful wife, and felt grateful for it, and justifiably proud. Ran into Svennberg onboard the boat; we had a feast. June.

Beautiful evening at Furusund. The night somewhat nervous.

2nd Glorious morning. Walked alone to Monte Bello. As I stood there again after the passage of four years seeing my archipelago with channels and islets, I rediscovered myself. And when I saw the north promontory of Köpmansholmen, which I sailed past last year, fleeing from Blidö and Harriet's tempestuous way of life, I felt as though I had regained purity, liberty and peace.

At 10 o'clock the bells rang in Blidö church! Memories of last year! Have brought Sakuntala with me in which Harriet is to act this autumn. It has number 2751. This number reminded me of the number of my engagement ring and of Jeffkin's cloth number for my first suit. See March 8th 1901. But this number was 5172. Read Sakuntala all day and felt as though I were talking to Harriet. It seemed to me that it was about the two of us. The

penitent, to whom a Fairy\* was sent to trick him into breaking his vow of chastity. The son is the king who loves Sakuntala but forgets her due to some curse (Fluch) etc. And it deals above all with a ring. (See Feb. 5th 1901, my struggles before I decided to give in to my attraction to Harriet)**\*** Menaka\*

# **[206 v.]**

### June 12th 1904. Suppl:

My present daughter Anne-Marie (with Harriet) has come to resemble my daughter Greta ever since it was decided that H–t was going to give guest performances in Finland.\* Harriet resembles: 1o Sister Anna 2o Märtha Philp 3o Mlle Lecaisne in Paris 4o my 2nd wife. 5o She occasionally resembles my brother Oscar as a child.

When I was a child I was so like John Georgi that our maternal uncle mixed us up. Other people also noted the likeness.

Axel tells me that Seippel, the protocol secretary, finally came to resemble our father so much that it was confusing

These: The Seippels and Georgi belonged to our circle in my childhood, but we were not related to them.

NB! \* Now on March 20th 1906 Harriet is once again in Finland, and Lillan has once more come to resemble my Greta (who is in Finland.)

– The right-hand one is Lillan!


**[207 v.]**

NB.

13th During the night I dreamt of poison, white in a liqueur glass, which someone had emptied (H–t) June =

14th A strange day. Lillan ill, but got better after Sigrid had massaged her. In the morning innumerable scraps of newspaper were floating in the water off our jetty, looking like netmarkers.

In the evening a visit from Nyman, the artist. Then came a letter from Harriet that she will be returning to us in Furusund on Monday.

Immediately afterward a horned owl was heard, and when I went out to look for it a large bird flew across our roof, and was perhaps the owl. I slept restlessly during the night; woke up and felt dreadfully despondent although the sun was shining into the room. Sigrid had spoken of ghosts here at Isola Bella (Five farm hands had seen a black lady in full sunshine. Others had seen a white one and called her Mrs. Lagerheim.) The color violet pursues me out here. Small violet windowpanes in my study on the first floor; a dark violet lily was growing in the yard; violet wallpaper in the parlor; (is it bereavement and death?); found a wig with a violet bow; violet curtains in my room; violet paper as a table runner;

Theosophists say that we are living in violet just now.

later was given violet suspenders by Harriet. Slept on my sofa in the afternoon. Woke up to cheerful music coming from the sea. It was an excursion steamboat.

In the evening a moth appeared and fluttered demonstratively around my bottle of liqueur. Slept restlessly at night.

15th Dull.

16th Harriet's scent which has been absent returned, powerfully;

17th Letter card from Harriet with Notre-Dame, where she lit a candle for me last Sunday. Difficult night with a southwesterly gale.

18th


20th Woke up despondent. In the morning walked past a house and heard someone playing the same funny tune on the piano I had heard through the wall at Karlavägen played by someone unknown.

# **[208 v.]**

June. Harriet's return from Paris to Furusund belongs to my loveliest memories. When she left my bed that night, she was not like herself, but had a long oval face (like her portrait in Miss Hopps (?)) and she gave off a fragrance so strong and exquisite that I fell into ecstasy and very nearly lost consciousness. This is supernatural and at times I believe her to come from very high above, not an ordinary mortal. An "Apsaras" (see Sakuntala). **[ \*]** 22nd



2 Slept in the afternoon. Woke up to two women's voices in the parlor. Thought it was sister Anna and Märtha. Went out. Found two ladies dressed in deep mourning and with black veils who were looking at the apartment!!! September


My neighbor's cuckoo clock can be heard striking again. Usually a bad omen!


was the chief objection to gold making.

Gustaf Eisen visited me.

22nd Sept.

**(Cf. page 52, 13th Jan. 1898**

New rumors of gold synthesis (an Italian!) are in the newspapers.

few days a poker has been standing outside a door in my staircase.)

26th Erik Hedlund and Euphrosyne Ölander engaged!**!!**

The day before yesterday\* when I was coming from Numa Peterson where I had bought crucibles for my gold making, and was walking along Smålandsgatan, I saw a man standing on a ladder outside a shop window; I could not see what he was doing, but it looked like flames. On coming closer I noted that he was gilding the name Erik Hedlund on the pane, and the gold leaf which was fluttering in the wind resembled fire – (Note that for the past

	- Found a King of Diamonds in the gutter.

Slept on the sofa; woken by a wooden block which had gotten loose and fallen down from the Cupboard!

1904. **214.** 5th Eisen visited after dinner; the electric light failed. Thereupon a vile letter. Beastly evening. Ellen handed in her notice. Anna came back with tales of woe. 6th Three years ago today Harriet returned. Today the divorce is under way through Fürstenberg. Nora was to come, but cancelled. October.

Ellen walked out in anger. Fröding and Märtha in the evening.

7th Dead calm. Sister Anna and Nancy took care of the household. Cold in the evening and northern lights; which I had not seen for 12 years.

Night of 7th 8th; woke at 4:30; opened the Bible and read Ezek. 24:15. "Also the word of the Lord came unto me, saying, Son of man, behold, I take away from thee the desire of thine eyes with a stroke: yet neither shalt thou mourn nor weep . . ." [NB. I found this passage two years ago during exceedingly hard times . . .] Read Next this strange passage fell open:

Jeremiah 15:10. "Woe is to me, my mother, that thou hast borne me a man of strife and a man of contention to the whole earth. I have neither lent on usury . . . yet every one doth curse me. The Lord said, Verily I will cause the enemy to entreat thee well in time of evil and in the time of affliction." Etc.

8th Nora came. Dinner here.

Letter card from Lippmanson with the word: Excelsior.

9th Sunday. In the morning in the half-light I saw a rosy glow on my laurel wreaths, which I was given for Master Olof and Lucky Per. Had coffee on Djurgården; birds approached and were given bread. Saw a dead fish in Sirishov Bay. Dreamt of Harriet during the night.

10th Sore throat. Dark in the apartment –

My divorce proceeds –

11th A white figure was visible in the tower of The growing Castle.

12th Black.

13th Blacker! I wish I were out of it all; think I am sinking, down, down, into the horrible details of daily life and housekeeping.

"Evil woman without a heart

17th Found a dirty queen of Diamonds in the street – <sup>20</sup>th My Divorce announced in Sv. Dagbl.**\*** 22nd: In the morning, flags were flying outside the registrar's office in Jungfrugatan, where I applied for the publication of our banns. 23rd Earthquakes in the whole of Sweden, the Kristiania region and Jutland, but not Copenhagen. Panic mostly in churches during divine service; also at Drottningholm in the wings (Prince Carl's rooms.) At 11:30 a.m. Earthquakes in Sweden in 1879 : Nov. 9th 1901; Aug 26 1903. 10th 6 in 1847; April 13th 1851. March 5th 1877; 1879 in Sthlm. Kinnekulle 25th Met a fellow at Sirishov. In one hand he was carrying something which resembled a child dressed in white, but with a cross on its face. In his other hand he carried a basket with an araucaria. I thought of a dead child. Saw coffins in a shop window; One mediumor honor" October loving? 123 Sunday 123 \* 123

> 26th Anna left my home and returned to hers. Saw a sarcophagus this morning to the east above Finland.

sized in light oak and two small white ones.

― \* In Kristiania the University was shaken and the Zoological collection damaged (The lower animals in spirits = Nansen's Professorship of Zoology.)

I recently cut myself while shaving, on my neck, at the same spot where I had three birthmarks (which Dr Lamm cut away) The sore is not healing. Cf. page **162. Sept. 12 1902.** *Is it the 3 Wives?*

27th The City Law Court's decree today divorced me from Mrs. Bosse. TBTG. When I left Axel in the evening I was unaware of this, but the air had cleared, the stars were shining and the planet Venus sparkled. Arriving home I found the information and it made me happier than I have been for a long time.

28th Beautiful morning. I found piles of mown reeds as litter in Sirishov Bay; also an empty box floating, and a similar smaller one on land.

Two white figures are standing on the tower balcony of the growing castle. A moving van on Karlavägen (Am I to get out?)

**\*** NB! Read Harriet's letter, which is appended. From Helsinki in reply to my request for a divorce! She says that "She loves me". Then what is

29th Lillan moved out; Harriet came home from Finland. October

30th Strong contact with H–t. x x x *despite being divorced!* Sunday.

31st Ditto

Quite recently a velocipede with with the number 51968 has turned up Now 196 is Gold which is embedded in 58 = Nickel But August Palme has number 58 Huvudsta and has called me up several times the past few days.

7th In the morning I met an empty pram with a black cloth in it near Swedenborg's summerhouse at Framnäs. On the shore lay two hoops (rings) which partly covered each other . In Sirishov Bay there were two heaps of straw. November

> Am reading Hesiod about the people of the Iron Age (the present one) and he wishes he had been born into another age. "It is a people of iron and they never rest from the toil of their labor by day, nor even by night. A sinful people – To them the Gods send severe tribulations; Nevertheless happiness is intermingled with their worries, but this happiness also leads to misfortune. One day Zeus will destroy them when they are born with gray temples, this loquacious people. The father cares not for his child, nor the child for its father; not the guest for his host nor the servant for the servant, nor brother for brother; Still they dishonor their aged parents, revile them and speak unkind words, scoundrels ignorant of divine vengeance. They never reward their ageing parents for their care in childhood. The fist is the law, and one city lays waste the other. Uprightness and fidelity to oaths are never rewarded, no more than being just or good are; oh no, he who indulges in sin and transgresses the law is honored; scoundrels deceive virtuous people and commit perjury without hesitation; envy dogs men's steps, unfortunate creatures, with odious voices and frightful faces delighting in injury."

This is without doubt the whole truth**,** and the fall was due to Prometheus who deceived the gods. Pandora (Eve) was sent as punishment with all the world's misfortunes.

July 1st 1905 the island starts to sink, after the Japanese victory in Manchuria and the Korean Straits.


6th Saw a slab of ice with two reeds in Sirishov Bay; looked so matrimonial ; also a green mirror-frame without glass; which lay floating there. December:

> Elisabeth who had improved is worse again. Anna-Lisa who visited her yesterday the 5th handed her a letter from me, in which I invited her to come to me were she to recover.

Night leading to 6th strong contact with H–t; then all day today. The Growing Castle (Life Guards Barracks) in magical light while I worked on "Black Banners". Two white figures are standing on the tower balcony.


11th Richard Bergh and Axel with me in the evening. Axel played Beethoven's Ninth Symphony 1st Movement. While he was playing a shiver ran through me, and I felt a sudden impression that Sister Elisabeth died; and I expected to see her sitting in my armchair. This quickly passed, and the evening was pleasantly animated until 1:30. Letter from Harriet! Anna here to dinner! We spoke of Elisabeth. Monday the 12th At Axel's in the evening. On returning home I learnt that Elisabeth was dead. Sent a letter to Harriet in the morning. Answer: **"**Wait**"**! Sunday

17th Elisabeth was buried. None of her Siblings there. Axel had dreamt during the preceding night, that he saw Elisabeth, who said rather pointedly: "It is a long way to Uppsala, (where she was buried), but it is not far to Vaxholm (where the Gyllenhammars live.). In order to relieve himself from reproaches for not having gone to the funeral, he gave 25 Crowns to a poor woman.

Now afterward Oskar says that on the day of Elisabeth's death, and at the hour of 9:30 p.m., he prayed for her and in so doing had "seen" her.

Anna says that on the evening of the 10th she had been so nervous that she could not fall asleep, and then had thought of Elisabeth. Furniture had creaked etc.

Today the day of the funeral, I read the order of burial in the hymnbook at 1 p.m. when Elisabeth was to be buried. When this had been done, it occurred to me that my play Easter might be missing from my recently completed Collected Dramatic Works. I checked! It was missing! – This is strange, for I valued Easter very highly; and I had thought that Elisabeth sat suffering for my sake. Subsequently I sought worldly delight in my third marriage, and maybe had no right to it. Defected from suffering, and by so doing the beautiful poetic play Easter would be taken from me. – – –

19th Alone in the evening. Looked out of the window into the dark: Down below in the gardener's tobacco plot two lights could be seen, one very large and one as small as a star. They were two pieces of glass of different sizes, in which the moon was reflected – Made a deep impression on me. "The star of hope flew from my breast" . . . *Harriet and Lillan.*


was taken home in a cab, and stayed in bed for a week! (It was she who separated me from wife and child!)

26th Boxing Day. Axel and Maggi and the Gyllenhammars in the evening.

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# 1904. **220.**

\*

December: 30th It says in the newspapers that 150 members of the drinking fraternity S.H.T fell ill after their latest revels, and two have died; Svedbom and Patrik Gyllenhammar, the dentist. The fraternity was a right-wing association which cultivated libelous songs and parodies; doubtless it was auto-poisoning that caused their stomach pains. Today a very encouraging letter from Oscar von Fielitz in Leipzig who wants to undertake a Strindberg tour. It is strange, but a few evenings ago I sat meditating, gazing at my electric ceiling lamp. I noted that reflections of the "wick" on the shade formed the Greek letters ο and φ (o and f). I thought of Otto von Feilitzen, my teacher at the Lyceum.

31st Axel got engaged. At the Gyllenhammars'.

PTO!

1905

<sup>1</sup>st January. I was given this calendar as a Christmas present by my Lillan. Anne-Marie.

> The day cold, but calm and sunny. During the morning my clouds were visible above "the Castle". Cf. page 202. These clouds resemble a high Coastline on Rügen, with wooded heights and narrow valleys leading inland. (See: Plato's Phaedo); but there are recurring landscapes which I recognize. So it is a question of mirages, aerial reflections of the "high places" which Swedenborg speaks of. (The monastery at Lhassa resembles these cloud castles. See: Hellwald The Countries and Peoples of the World, the new edition) In the afternoon visit from Axel, Maggie, Anna, Märtha, Hugo Fröding – Letter from Harriet, loving.

3rd My front door was open this morning; was shut, but it opened again twice by itself. Means a death!

Avalanche of rocks in Norway.

11th 12th 13th

Am now meeting Harriet! *as before!*

18th Was walking at Rosendal in the morning; saw two gardeners down on the lawn sawing and chopping down bushes; I continued, without their appearing to notice me. But when I turned round, they made haste, first the one with a saw, then the one with an axe, so that they were constantly meeting me on the way. After that I felt a pleasant warmth and peace, just as on the first day of spring.

Having come down to the jetty at Kaptensudden, where I usually "see" ῾αρριετ **[**Harriet**]** climb up the steps from the water, I saw a well-dressed woman holding a child by the hand climbing up. from the ice. NB! ad notam!

19th Harriet here in the evening. Among other things she told me this. At the bazaar last fall, she was courted by Fr., the actor, engaged to Ms. Th. He took a handkerchief from Harriet and kept it. It had been bought in Finland and was conspicuous (rose-colored). A few weeks later Fr. had disappeared. Harriet walked along Biblioteksgatan and found her own handkerchief with a knot in it! But there was no sign of Fr.

Cf. The Winter Palace in Petersburg fired on.

**\***

The same gale tore the roof off Svea Life Guards Barracks in

Stockholm.

29th

Akershus fortress was where it started.


24th When I was about to drink from my caraffe this morning, it smelt of kerosene. Having gone out into the corridor there was a smell of kerosene; the lamp had newly been filled. When I got down to Kristian Eriksson's there was a smell of kerosene in his studio; the workmen were using kerosene in the molds.

NB: Yesterday the 23rd I set about re-potting a large palm. Placed it on the ice chest in the hall; here it almost damaged the electric ceiling lamp. Carried it out into the kitchen; there it threatened the Auer gas lamp. Ebba lifted off the shade and glass so as to protect them. But then the "Sock" on the burner broke. It was unavoidable!

Found 2 dynamite cartridges tied together with a wire – on Sirishovsvägen. 25th Found one of the cartridges empty (discharged) 29th Kristiania palace damaged by the gale.**\*** 30th Found both cartridges again tied together as on the first occasion. Found a seven of clubs (= Ordre, économie, gain honnête.) Harriet ill. Dark.

31st Harriet ill. "Almost died" in the morning. Dark, and bad weather.

Jan.

Turmoil in Russia.

1st Lighter. The sun illuminated "the growing castle. Sister Anna paid a visit. We spoke among other things about cello playing; I compared a cello solo to the bellowing of cattle. – In the evening when I went to bed at 10 p.m., I heard a cello solo from afar. Thought: Now there is one of those in the house, which I shall have to put up with. Was at H–t's in the evening. Major row about a dinner service! February

Suppl. May 3rd


A twig of the bird cherry which was leafing out outside the window at Hasselbacken at our wedding on May 6th 1901. Taken in 1905. We celebrated our wedding in two groundfloor rooms to the right.

Suppl. June 15th.


1905. **225.** Sensed Harriet all day as though she were in difficulties. I slept in the afternoon and woke with my left ring finger having gone numb. June 16th.

This spring the journalists Klas Ryberg and Josef Nyman\* (colleagues of mine from the 1870s at Dagens Nyheter) both died Björklund of the Allehanda resigned. These three were my worst enemies in the press. **[**\***]** Nyman was burnt to death!

> 17th This morning there was a notice board floating in the Sirishov Bay with two public notices nailed side by side!

Strange stories. Richard Bergh's wife and daughter were recently operated on for some nasal disorder, and both suffered severe loss of blood. Rich. B. who is healthy nevertheless started bleeding (from his orifices) and did not know what it was due to. Συμπασκομενοι **[**Sympaskomenoi**]**. Compare: Goethe's desk which split while a fire elsewhere consumed another desk, made of the same wood and by the same carpenter. Cf. When sister Elisabeth died and I fell ill.

This past winter I have been plagued by a child in an apartment below playing Old Man Noah (which I detest!) – But my daughter is said to have plagued the neighbors where she lives (at Stureparken) by playing on her mother's grand piano. Is there a connection here? Cf. all the presents I have been given which have disappeared or broken as soon as I have fallen out with the donor.

Saw beautiful female faces on my pillow and sheets. Harriet's, and a nun's.

\*

Have sensed Harriet all day as a taste on my palate. Today too my left ring finger has felt numb.

18th This morning a wooden block fell from the dining table for no apparent reason. (Crash).

Saw the number 11969 on a windowpane. 123

= Au.

"Saw" Adolf Paul in a doorway. – Saw Geijerstam's portrait in Sandberg's bookshop; spat in front of it. – Back home again I read in the paper that he was in Stockholm. (Yesterday evening I read about him in "Black Banners"; the evening of the day before too.) Letter from Harriet, loving; she is not enjoying Hornbæk.

In the afternoon today our "engagement palm" (given us by brother Olle) fell over by itself, and broke above the root. ?

After dinner I saw the tobacco allotments below us full of shining stars created by the sun's reflection on shards of glass. It was as crowded as the starry heavens! [In the evening a magpie outside my window facing Narvavägen.

Fortsättning följer.

D

(Cont)

18th Sunday. Alone in the evening, as the whole day. Gloomy. Silent lightning in the N.E. (Furusund) where I longed to be. June

19th Heavy thunderstorms with torrential downpour 10–11 a.m. It grew so dark that I had to turn on the light.

20th The following picture was visible in Harriet's Mirror cabinet in the green room: A well-dressed lady with strong hips without a head in hasty movement put her hand on a cat's head. Beside her lay a skull. This was caused by fittings on the silvering of the mirror.

NB! When Harriet was away in the autumn of 1901 an image appeared in the same mirror thus a Mephistopheles with a jockey cap on backward.

Yesterday the 19th I received a letter from Prof. Fittica, chemist in Marburg. about my Sulfur analysis. Then during the day I was twice prompted to look at Cleve's chemistry; in which I picked up old tracks. Cleve (chemist in Uppsala) died today

Searched yester today the 20th in my chemistry papers. Found Winterl's Andronia, a chemical element, derived from red-hot coals and saltpeter, and which produces both metals and organic substances. Today the 21st I read in the paper about the discovery of a primary element. 21st

22nd

Letter from Harriet. After dinner I stood at the parlor window and saw through my binoculars the following awful spectacle on the common. A black board resembling a

target but without circles, and with lathes like a gravel harp = Jet black jet black but with brightly gilded angels*' heads* at the bottom. Three piles of shining yellow curly Palm fiber; three large Angels of gold blood-red ninepins . (two?)

I went to take an afternoon nap. After sleeping I looked out of the window – now everything was gone, but three black ash-heaps were to be seen, and a great many scraps of paper! What does it mean?

It may be a practical joke, an unknown amusement, or a game; it made a particular impression on me, and that is the main thing. It was probably bedding from the hospitals being disinfected.

Cf. This Diary May 30th 1907 (page 262.)

# **[226 v.]**

Radium. (Meyer's Encyclopedia Suppl, 1900/01) Produces headaches, as do X-rays. Spectral analysis of Radium shows lines for Barium and Uranium. as well as some unknown ones. Radium lines appear only in a powerful discharge. Pour a solution of Barium Chlorate into a solution of Uranium Nitrate, and then precipitate it with SO3. The Barium Sulfate is then radioactive. **\***

So Radium is presumably a Barium Sulfate. But the presence of Uranium determines the activity.

The atomic weight of Radium = 225

 or 223. 14243

# 1905. **227.**


Our chemist Cleve died about this time. He must have grieved himself to death at the triumph of idiocy!

### Jordskalfvet.

### I Norge"

g, ga Ej minst i Norge var söndagens jord-86 | Lj minst 1 Norge var sondagens jordter skalf synnerligen häftigt. I Kristiania
ter märktes jordskalfvet, enligt skildring i en af därvarande tidningar, först som ett
sakta klingande i fönsterrutorna, ungefär som när regn piskar mot rutorna, hvar-betogos många af en panisk förskräckelse.
De störtade ut ur husen, ryckande till sig hvad de i hastigheten kunde få tag i och i åtskilliga fall utan att ens taga på sig och andra lokaler, hvarest många män strade fore battidade, för strångs sin sån å sån är att att att att att att att att att att att att att att att att att att att att att att att att att att at getorna, dår. gast, stannade folk förskräckta och stirpå husen, hvilka liksom gungade på lös
grund. Efter att skakningen var öfrer lag "dar" anna" forskräckers" nå ger den belir belir belir belir belir belir belir belir belig bele "
till litigan denna" innung berumen berum beliga, ingrafi in t

Största rörelsen väckte jordskalfret f der

mest oblyggliga scener föreföllo under
trängsoln i gångar, trappor och dörnar.
« Värst gick det till i Vor Prelserer, treste 

ilora bada

 - Kristiana mali vespressa Ofver 150 glas met pr 50 af dessa gingo sönder.

 stader.
 met förrade Törrade Törrande Tölska digt från ej mindre ländre andre stållen. Mi BenaFrom från som seprim in det fram Minenser och månen mån
Kritter vis som seprimål indre från får mår mån
Folkelt samma öde fabrik samma öde. Lika starka scener omtalades från flera

Nordera aflidne riksarkivarien Odhner

addra norska gräder. erhöll en stor remna och vattenledningen
erhöll en stolläckor. I östra Erredrikstade kyrkan och vållade stor panik. En man genom ett af kyrkans fönster. Étt min-

I Drammen uppstod likaledes panik i atheria jordskalfvet ej återupprepades, lyckades det inskränkte sig till förskräckelsen, ref-

sprichar | anotstar | ella | berät- | alla | berät| Barometerssän | var har | efter | alla | berät- | Burgerie
Barometern - tillkärnarna fver - ju liftfordag,
Barometern - tillkärnaria frem - ju luftförderen - eij er binderler med våldsamma vulkaniska utbrott, som
sätta luften i rörelse. Det är därför inter
anmarkningsvärdt att barometern förhöll sig lugn under jordskalfvet, som ej kan kanutbrott.

### (Enskildt till Svenska Dagbladet.)

 söndagens förut omtalade starka jordskalf
ikkttogos vid fyrplatsen samma dag ytterligare fem stötar senare på e. m. och på natten.

### I Danmark.

 ningen känts myllrade folk ut på gatorna, se om det kom något mera. Många hade damer, hvilkas klädsel var mycket brist-1 – Enga kirke pågick gudstjänst, då skalfI Frue kirke pågick gudstjänst, då skalfwa panik, då man märkte grunden gunga

ander der neinga muset.
gen - Marre Jesus, det en gammal krimment, met en met en met en met en met met met met met met met met met met for men men men så få, som tänkte som hon. Det var andra


På flera hus föllo skyltarna ned och . Få hora hus fono baytta na nod von
många klocker stannade. På pontonbron
mårkte man skakningen som en förskjutning af bron i riktning från söder till norr

I Skagen var skakningen mycket stark. Färnvägsklockan stannade och alla husen
skakade. På samma sätt i Histhals, där landernorma på fyren gungade som under
den etarkaste storm. Från åtskilliga på er måter
ser meddelas, att ekskulingen aller aller får tillamåande

ech fått kväljningar.
 Emellertid har jordskalfvet i Danmark
hufvudeskligen inskränkt sig till norra
Futland. Åfrem i Danmark var barometern helt och hållet opåverkad af skakningen
och var under dagens lopp i stigning.

### | Finland.

Angående fordskalfvets omfattning meddelade vi i går att statsgeologen dr E. Svennara som sim bestandua Timania Timani Striktingst
inga - telegraniska artiket lärven stiller lärittyren start först för art
erbålling bärom. Dema mannan mannat met mit mi anlända finska tidningarna. Sålunda berättar Hufvudstadsbladet:

I söndags kl. 12.12 på dagen förnam stationsinspektoren å Riihimäki plötsligt ett egendan förfören af aller han it sinn it sin bost bost bost andret, andra
 andra Ulginigen benägenhet att gunga i norrooch söder.
Stationsinspektorens fru, som befann sig I rummet invid, rönte likaså ett intryck i stationskontoret på nedre botten. Lam- For under loss of courter and sebactir portuinder
 der millyr loppe thesioners and selamineral delement
 Referen från nort år sister at ander and ander at beti sanka marken.

(Enskildt till Svenska Dagbladet.)

### Em ny jordstöt observerad.

STRÖMSTAD, tisdag. Vid half 2-tiden i natt iakttogo flera personerar
skilda delar af staden ett starkt dån liknande det som i söndags förnams i samband med det starka jordskalfvet. Denna at massa i dalot dos av anna för at mason
Expressioner i dagen. A Bamma förumsen met magna en master
– GRTEBORG, i dage tiska – En tiskage en stores met stem me efter den första jordstöten i sondags en svagare skakning märkts och mellan kl. 3

och 9 på kvällen ännu en. UDDEVALLA, tisdag. En jordstöt, 18 lika stark som den i söndags, märktes i lö
matt kl. 1,25 på skilda platser i Bohusiär, br

[Cf. p. 215, 23 October 1904]


so exactly the knight and was gazing upward just as he did. This is the strangest thing I have experienced. – Immediately afterward I found on my tray a mother teaching her child to read; but the child was holding a cross in its hand.

4th In the morning I walked past Villa Bellini where the π῾ιλπs **[**Philps**]** lived in 1900. I thought of that wretched man in anger. A dog immediately barked behind the fence. I said "ugh". Then a women was heard joining in with the dog and singing something derisive which however I could not catch I turned round and spat, wishing her gone.

The following day I heard that in the evening of the same day thieves had broken into this lady's house and burglarized it. (Her name was βωλιν **[**Bolin**]**.) ´

6th This morning there were three rose-colored flowers (Althea) stuck into a palm pot on the verandah.


# 1905. **230.**

6th August

> 13th The plebiscite in Norway. The weather was clear and beautiful in the morning; I had a sense of something great and solemn with a whole nation rallying to renounce foreign domination. In the evening pitch-black clouds with the most vivid shapes moved in from the West: bears, trolls, dwarfs. One figure had a three-cornered hat

(Charles XIV). The sunset appeared fiery red; and there were occasional flashes of lightning.

King Oscar fell ill yesterday Saturday (throat ailment.) It is quite strange! The Queen as well (facial neuralgia) and then Prince Carl (gastritis)

30th Eclipse of the sun, frightful storm; Stromboli erupts.

5th Letter from Harriet in Gothenburg *at Castegren's* (See Suppl.) She is in Inferno. 6th In the morning a white canoe was lying in the Sirishov Bay, ownerless. (Cf. the white sailboat at the same spot on June 12th 1903.) Saw a velocipede with the number 1 1977. September <sup>123</sup> **Cf. 11969 page 225 –**

= Gold.

With Henning **June 18th 1905.** Berger With Gustaf Jansson.

10th Last summer in Denmark a "Naval officer" pursued and courted Harriet. She liked him; he probably intended to propose. But it then transpired: that he was 53 years old (she thought 35); that he was a merchant navy captain, and that he was out of his mind. (He had however been a cadet in his youth, and married once.) It sounds very much like a fable. (I was 52 when I married Harriet) The man was also occult, described wonderful

experiences. And he was considered unmanly, since he was refined (and did not wear heavy boots.) It is just like a replica of Harriet's husband (of me) whom she may now taste, in another edition.




Strandvägen everyone looked black, and their faces were invisible, so I was spared seeing them.

13th Thiel (Ernest) called on me and bought paintings.

16th Harriet was to come as it were tomorrow Sunday, but cancelled until Tuesday. She was sensed as kindly the whole morning until dinner time, when she disappeared – During the whole of this recent period, buttons have been falling off my clothes. Cf. April 1904, when the same thing happened to Axel who got engaged in December.

19th Harriet returned home *from her journey*; dinner!

21st The Big Dipper appeared at 8:15 p.m. directly opposite the bar of the parlor

24th Christmas Eve at Harriet's with Inez and Alf.

that Elin had taken Harriet's clothes and watch!

25. Christmas Day here. 123 29th Philp amputated.

window.

# 1906. **234.**

1906

1st Sunshine; visited Harriet and Lillan with flowers in the morning. H–t βαδαδε **[**took a bath**]**! Dinner here for H; and Lillan. January

 Peace and loving kindness with Harriet.

9th In the morning a man who tipped out lime so that it whirled up into my eyes; a Christmas tree thrown into my path was picked up by a boy on my return, and carried into a house. Now in the evening when "Creditors" is performed at the Vasa Theater for the first time, my neighbor's cuckoo clock was heard. (8:30 p.m.)

10th "Creditors" a success.

13th Saturday. At H–t's in the evening until close on 10 p.m. She asked me to stay, but I left.

14th Sunday morning; woke up after a restless night with the feeling that I was released from H–t: made plans to escape. A letter from H–t arrived at about 10:30 a.m.; convinced that it was a "final letter" I opened it with some emotion. It proved to be a euphoric love letter! But during the morning there had been a telephone message from H–t that she was ill in bed and unable to come to dinner. I was ill too, but went to H–t's in the evening. She asked me to stay the night, but I left.

15th At H–t's in the evening. Poisonous, gloomy, so that I had to leave. H–t told me that she had had a dreadful inferno day; quite indescribable. εκσκρεμεντ **[**Excrement**]** – – –

17th Henning Berger, Jansson, Ruhe here in the evening.

18th Philp died at 8 p.m. Exactly 6 years to the day (Jan. 18th 1900) and hour since he had a stroke.\*

\* Napoleon sat on St. Helena for Six years; Bismarck sat in Sachsenwald for six years, forgotten, rejected; Heine lay in bed for six years, Linnaeus for four years after his stroke.

**[**Cf. p. 234, 18 January**]**

**[**Cf. p. 235, 28 January**]**


G. Brandes in 123

Sthlm. 123

Birger Mörner visited; told me about ῾ειδενσταμ **[**Heidenstam**]**.

17th Saturday H–t here; angry. Lost her engagement ring. On this day Feb. 17th my father married, for the second time. The ring had been stolen by Ebba! [See. June 1 1 1907]

21st After a period of unpleasantness, darkness, and controversy, Harriet invited herself to dinner with Lillan. The wine merchant had sent a bottle of Champagne by mistake. So we celebrated H–t's birthday then (instead of on the 19th) Bright and cheerful. Lillan was sent off to Inez. Alone with H–t.

1906. **236.** February: The paneling in the parlor was broken up **[**illegible deletion**]** in the search for Harriet's engagement ring. It was not there! (She had probably thrown it away!) (I got engaged on March 5th 1901 at 5 in the afternoon!) The ring had been stolen by Ebba! Informed of this on June 11th 1907. 27th

Visited Harriet in the evening. Despondency; ill, décolleté, beautiful, evil, loving – She told me that she had intended to write me a final letter yesterday evening; this depressed me so that I felt cold to her caresses, which angered her. I left abruptly. Dark at home.

	- At H–t's in the evening; Lillan had a bath; it was bright, warm and peaceful. – So now you know! 2nd
	- Harriet went to Finland. 5th
	- Henning Berger and Albert Engström here in the evening. Letter from Mary Karadja. There are Crimes and Crimes on at the Dramatic Theater! Performed at the end of 7th
	- February 1900. 8th

This morning a green rope was hanging on the fence at Framnäs. A company of naval seamen attacked the greenhouses at Rosendal; after which they did an about turn and aimed at me.

The whole day mean and out of joint. See Calendar Mörner had invited Lennart Lundberg to come here at 9 o'clock in the evening; I telephoned in vain the whole day to have it changed. Finally a call from M. at 8:30 p.m. with a cancellation, after Ebba had carried on for hours about the food, what to have, which I did not know. 13th

Finished a story for Hvar 8e Dag. "Strange coincidences" In this story I describe how the hero is crushed to death by a rider's horse on Djurgården. The day before yesterday the Marshal of the Realm, von Essen was crushed by a rider's horse on Djurgården. His groom can now be seen riding alone along Sirishovsvägen, and now after the accident he gave me angry looks – Also: wrote in this same story how the balls and music in the apartment below mine had ceased. Immediately afterward there was a ball; exactly as though they had heard, or read what I had written. Also: wrote in the same about a Red Cross nurse. Today Anna came and spoke about the Red Cross nurse who had been looking after Philp recently, and about sister Elisabeth (Cf. the story.) 17th

**(Cont.)**

March 17th.

# 1906. **237.**

At the beginning of the same Story (The Roofing Feast) I have described how he goes to his neighbor and asks if he may use the telephone. This occurred to me last spring; now, as I am writing, my neighbor's wife Mrs. (Hök) comes for the first time in five years and asks if she may use my telephone. (Cont.)

> Last autumn my thoughts often turned to Brussels, switched to Bruges then B. Mörner arrived with a message from Mme Karadja who lives outside Brussels, in Bovigny, to which village she invited me.

> But last autumn my thoughts also turned to Augustendal on Sickla Island where I thought of getting a cottage. Since then the factory there has burnt down, plans for a ferry and railway have emerged.

Mary Karadja was going to engage a tutor from Lundsberg's (?) school. Then the school caught fire, quite recently. Lundsbrunn (?)

Harald Wieselgren died today. He and I were born with mutual antipathy. He "persecuted" me for many years. Now today when he died, the national museum bought a bust of me, and I thought it cleared the air.

Axel and Richard Bergh here. I spoke to Axel about G. af G. who wants to place me under a legal guardian; I immediately became almost blind ("got sand in my eyes."). Cf. page 95, August 10th 1899, about Gerda Fröding and Harriet. Axel played the 1st Movement of Beethoven's ninth symphony; I seemed to hear a cock crowing. When the music stopped, Rich. B declared that in this 9th he hears an awakening countryside, "the crowing of a cock" etc. What was this? Telepathy? But where did I get the crowing from? 20th


**[237 v.]**

 Bird cherry of my wedding day at Hasselbacken outside the room where Harriet and I celebrated our wedding. May 6th 1901.



Mrs. Westdal from Banérgatan died.

**[**Cf. p. 239, 19 May**]**

**[**Cf. p. 239, 19 May**]**

**[**Cf. p. 239, 19 May**]**


30th In the morning went to Klemming's Antiquarian bookshop, where I have not been for two years. Feared meeting Rosenberg, for whom I feel a decided aversion. Entered to buy Kopp's Geschichte der Chemie, which used to cost 40 Crowns, and which I have hesitated to buy for several years. Rosenberg stands there, as disagreeable as ever; Kopp had been sold. Rosenberg explains that he has been away from the shop a couple of years (just as I have). But now he goes into the rooms, returns with the third part only of Kopp (there were no more). It cost 2 Crowns and I took it. It was here I bought Berzelius in the same way in 1900 (see this Diary. May 15th and 26th 1900.)

1906. **240.** NB: Naples and San Francisco this spring! When? April 18th. 14243

	- 14th Ruhe here.

15th In the morning I walked along Biblioteksgatan; a cart with a red flag (explosives cart) drove past me; the red flag annoyed me, at that same moment I looked up into the air and there was yet another red flag (above the corner of the roof of K M Lundberg, it was the English flag); I was irritated and looked down; a lady dressed in dark clothes with a flaming red hat was walking ahead of me. What does it mean? Red = love. [For the past eight days my clothes have been covered with tiny scraps of red thread] In this connection I was walking along thinking about a Herbarium humane (Collection of human beings) which I wanted to write, a piece for each day of the year, i.e. 365 passages. Just then a streetcar with the number 365 drove by; a while later I passed a stationary shop; in the window there was a herbarium with the title Herbarium in Gold lettering. At this I decided to write the book like that and no other way.


*27th ?*

The calendar fell down and came apart right up to December 30th. Portents of death today and yesterday; my watch stopped at 2:35 during the night between the 24 × 25; the door opened by itself. Alf is very ill. 123

When I was going to take my afternoon nap, I was woken by my own cry of "Death!" Meteor in Gothenburg.

Fireballs seen three days in a row from Halmstad, Varberg, Ängelholm. Found a Ten of Hearts; = Success, Good fortune. 27th

 D.N.

Pretty eyes!


Dark!

8th Sunday. Woke up the morning thinking it was Saturday. Heard the bells ringing and asked Mrs. Janson what it was. It is Sunday. Yesterday evening I saw the King on the doors of the tiled stove; he lay dead in his shroud. Thought in the morning that the ringing was on account of his death. Dark!

Writing Breviary. It is dark, but perhaps it should be undertaken in seriousness.

9th Telephone from Baroness Fock that Gustaf Fröding wants to meet me. *I did not go.* 11th In the morning when I awoke I saw Harriet life-size dead on my sofa. She had a white scarf across her mouth; in a white blouse with a black skirt. (It was formed by cushions and my discarded clothes. (H–t has a sore throat! and chest.) Saw streetcar 365 again. (Cf. previous page)

14th July. From my window this morning I saw a cat, which caught a baby magpie and took off, pursued by the magpies making an terrible din.

\* [[Dreyfys has now been declared innocent, because two documents out of several hundred are said to be forgeries. Now the court met in secret and behind locked doors, and that was fitting.

But where is Labori and his "murderer"?

Clemenceau who has now "rehabilitated" Dreyfus, was a Panamist and a friend of Cornelius Herz.

Esterhazy has said that he had been offered 600,000 Francs to admit responsibility for the memorandum. He says he wrote it, but maintains that Dreyfus is a traitor. But which memorandum did he write? There are two; and the one Dreyfus had sewn into his tunic and which was found at Île de Rez, where is that?

Dreyfus was always suspected by his superiors, because he was a snooper, and brought strangers into the offices, where maps and charts were lying about. It was for these reasons suspicion fell on him when documents charts and maps disappeared.

There are those who believe that the false documents in the dossier had been planted there by Dreyfus's friends, and that seems likely, otherwise the generals would have destroyed these dangerous papers. Where Dreyfus' friends are concerned, one has the right to believe anything. After the verdict in Rennes, Waldeck-Rousseau declared that justice had been done; and W. Rousseau was after all a Dreyfus minister appointed to acquit him; but could not.


2nd Thunder! In Denmark 100 farms have been set ablaze by lightning and burned the past few days. 4th A break in the Breviary on April 30th. Henning Berger here in the evening. 9th Continued the Breviary. – Harriet's Letter cards envelopes stamped Nessus M.M.C. all summer A letter from Albert Engström today in which he refers to Marika Cederström as M.C. Just recently Henning Berger has yet again wished to bring me and M.C. together, but I cancelled again. She is not going to place the mantle of Nessus on me! 16th 17th 18th Earthquake in Valparaiso (Chile) The whole city on fire. (17th) The Breviary now entitled Diary was continued. It is five years since Harriet left. Cf. 1901 and the following years. The star Nova Persei, the Bolide in Capella, etc. My father's birthday! Robinson Crusoe's island has sunk! August 13th Harriet and Lillan back, Greta here! Martinique: May 8 1902 22nd August. Row with εββα **[**Ebba**]**. Eisen is here! September: 123

3rd: Telephone from Tor Aulin among other things that he had fallen and broken his foot outside my front entrance. This morning flags were flying from "The growing castle" and cannons were fired. [NB! Birger Mörner also broke his foot, when he was here.]

5th Thunderstorm at Storängen again. Cf. May 18th **[**in fact 19th**]** this year (page 239.)

10th Eisen to dinner. Among other things he told me that in America earthquakes are heralded by the arrival of birds; they are white underneath, black on top, resemble shore birds, but the species is unknown and they are called earthquake birds. Cf. that when the Steam Mill burned in the 70s flocks of birds were seen in the air; the newspapers quarreled about what species; they decided on Oystercatchers, but these had already migrated.

NB. Eisen's face was transformed during the evening, so that he resembled Dr. Schlenter, Fischier (The Citizens' School) Hjalmar Söderberg. on top

12th In the morning a large white bird with black wings 13th Brother Olle in the evening – flew ahead of me along the road on Djurgården; large as a Stork or a Black-backed gull; it flew so low above the ground that I thought it was tame; but it disappeared by Wikander's

house. A Black-backed gull that sweeps so low along a road is so unusual that I was confused. Thought of Eisen's earthquake birds.

13th Brother Olle here.

# 1906. **243.**


21st

Levertin died during the night – A bright morning, good news from Malmö that Miss Julie had gone well, with August Palme. 22

In the morning I walked down Strandvägen, in a cheerful mood; continued along Hamngatan; saw Klara church and School with surroundings, where every house was a memory; reached Vasagatan, saw Klara primary school, where I had taught; passed the Vasa Theater where Master Olof and Lucky Per had been performed, came up Kungsgatan, saw a horrible portrait of myself; walked up toward Hötorget, Badstugatan, Oxtorgsgatan with the house where the Seippels, then Wieselgren lived; walked along Regeringsgatan past Jakob's school and Axel's home, down past the furniture dealer's, where I bought my last lot of furniture; but the whole time I was drawn up toward Stureparken to Lillan and Harriet, and "it occurred to me" that I had to go there bringing Lillan's school fees and some perfume for Harriet. I had tried to enter several perfumeries on the way, but they were closed; I now tried anew, and after several attempts I found French Muguet, but not Lilac (Lilas) which I was looking for. After that I looked for flowers at a florist's but found none. Went up to Stureparken 3. There the sun was shining, there it was beautiful, Harriet and Lillan were friendly and grateful.

I then walked home to Karlavägen; and I thought: this resembles an agony or moment of death, when all of life passes in review; and I thought of writing about this morning walk, which in the space of an hour and a half provided a resumé of my life up till now. When I came home, I felt that life was easy and light; something oppressive had fallen away; I took time off and felt in a holiday mood. Received good letters, even money. Around 2 o'clock I learned that Levertin had died (10 a.m.). *But did not know that until now!*

This is inexplicable. He dies, but I experience my agony. And Harriet should have a perfume (because he stank.)

Attendant circumstances: When I woke up this morning, water ran out of both my ears. Also: was informed that L's corpse immediately decomposed, so that he had to be buried hastily on account of the smell (= the perfume) L. was thought to have been poisoned by a gargling water; was blue in the face. = Potassium Chlorate.

[[Dreamt at about this time that Harriet had injured her leg, and immediately afterward I saw her with one leg sawn off. Cf. 1901 and in several other places about such an injury.

# 1906. **244.**

September

26th Woke up this morning in anger and berated Ebba about things that have disappeared, porcelain, glasses etc. She demanded a reference in order to move. At that I felt as though I would be moving out of the apartment, and fell to thinking about travel. Down by Djurgården bridge I saw a steamer, small white, which lay at anchor in the middle of the bay, smoke rising, and steam up, just as though it were waiting for me.\* I walked on, said goodbye to Djurgården, and transported myself to Brussels. From Strandvägen I saw above Sickla Island cloud formations to the south like mountains with castles of the usual type:

These days I was alone, living in Brussels in my thoughts. On October 2nd Mörner came and told me about a letter from Karadsja who lives near Brussels.

\*\* But it was not the Professor! whom Harriet believed.

Let's see now whether there will be a journey!

\* Cf. 12th June 1903 when the white sailboat with taut sails and not a soul onboard, landed at my feet at Sirishov.

August Bondeson died the day before yesterday, Anna Rustan yesterday.

27th Harriet told me that she had received a letter from Professor Castrén with a cynical quotation from Goethe's Venetian Letters. The following morning (27th) the newspaper carried a telegram from Hfors, saying that Castrén\*\* had been flung out of bed as a result of a bomb blast.

28th Harriet at the doctor's (whom she says resembles Dreyfus), and he made an incision in her throat with a knife. The doctor claimed that she had "glandular tissue" left in her throat since childhood, and that it had to be removed.

\*

The following has befallen me this autumn since Harriet and Lillan returned. One light evening I went to Stureparken 3 in order to see my child. As I entered Stureparken I saw Lillan standing by the entrance to an underground (cellar-) workshop. An meanlooking girl wanted to drag her down, but Lillan resisted. I waved, but Lillan did not see me; I called out, she did not hear me. Then I wanted to rush forward, but when the unknown child tugged at Lillan's clothes, but a lawn with iron railings prevented me. There were only a yard or two between us; I shouted, but my voice was inaudible, even to myself. Finally the child tore herself free and ran to her front door; I ran after her, she seemed to be fleeing from me whom she did not see. when I at last caught up with her on the staircase. It was like a terrible dream!

A few days later Harriet told me that Lillan had seen me passing by when she was down in the park. I had not seen her, nor heard her cries, but had continued walking. This caused the child to ask her Mother, if I would recognize her (Lillan), when she was grown up. – It is terrible!


cuddled me, but I was cold. When she withdrew, her face changed into Miss Hopps's. Cf. page 209 and adjoining.



home".)

## **[247 Suppl.]**

### Astronomy:

Today October 24th 1906.

8:30 p.m. I scrutinized the Firmament through my periscopic glasses. The stars in general appeared as faintly radiant round spots. without a nucleus. But Jupiter which appeared immediately to the right of Castor and Pollux showed a round nucleus with rays . On closer inspection Capella in Auriga showed itself in the same way as Jupiter, with a nucleus and rays, in other words as a planet. Now Capella is peculiar in that, like the planets, it has the same spectrum as the sun. This cannot be due to its brightness, for Pollux which is also a 1st class star displayed neither nucleus nor Rays.

The same applies to Aldebaran.

 Betelgeuze. I.e. they resemble Capella. Arcturus. 14243

Cont. 16th Sent Lillan a present. Andersson, the photographer, here with a successful portrait of Carl Larsson. October:

> 20th Have not seen Harriet since the 6th. Lillan here for dinner. It was bright in the apartment in the evening. The star Capella, which has not been visible since the 12th emerged again clearly. All the portraits in the Green room have been re-hung after being taken down recently. This was due to a conversation with sister Anna this afternoon. In the past few days I have read Nansen's Journey with Fram for the first time – A priceless book; the hero is whining and homesick; poorly observed; one learns nothing about sun, moon, stars, northern lights etc.; only menus, sleep, parties; and when each bear they shoot is a great event. Nordenskiöld did not write like this! His bearings are unclear; after all Fram drifted right across Nansen's path, but no thought of meeting Fram again turns up anywhere. And there is no map of the two drifting parties in this thick book. And how did he get to reach 86° 14′ when the ice was drifting. Fram drifted as far as 86°, but also Westwards to Spitsbergen.

> Sunday 21st Alone all day. At dinner time as I stood looking at Harriet's white portrait, my neighbor played "Softly o Softly, slumber from Storm and Snow" It was Swanwhite's Song by Atterbom and Geijer. "O Lonely Little One, 'twill soon be time to die." Drachmann arrived in Stockholm this evening.

Marcus wrote in Stockholms Dagblad about my natural science and Fracée *Francé*. I was unaware of this. 22nd

23rd Visit from Drachmann and Wife. Capella appears to be a planet. See supplement. I observed this in Dieppe in 1894, and made notes, but have mislaid them.

Have not seen Harriet since 6th October.

25th Anna, Hugo Fröding and Märtha here. 26th The cuckoo clock was heard this evening. (She came back on 6th October 1901 after leaving with my child!)

27th


29th Read in the morning paper that G af G is moving from Lund to Berlin. That is what I felt yesterday, Sunday.

### 29 (Cont. from previous page) October

1st Wednesday Found a horseshoe in the morning. November

2nd

3rd I woke up in the night with burning pains in my bronchial tubes, chest and stomach; thought I was poisoned by arsenic. But after a couple of hours I felt well, got up, walked. My sweat smelt of metal (brass, copper) Axel and Richard Bergh here in the evening; good atmosphere; Beethoven.

5th Have not seen Harriet since 6th October, when I withdrew because she was expecting her suitor Professor Castrén, and I did not wish to be the back-up. Do not know if he came.

8th Engineer Thalin died in an accident at Domnarvet. His father died last summer.

9th Palme here in the evening.

10th After a long period of darkness and fog, the sun appeared with a clear sky and a North wind this morning. Capella and all the other stars in the evening. To note: Since disengaging myself from Harriet I have 1o regained a clear path to Christianity 2o become reconciled in my mind with my worst enemies such as γ.αυγ. pαυλ, π῾ιλp, σιγυρδ, υιρσέν **[**G. af G. Paul, Philp, Sigurd, Wirsén**]**, even λευερτίν **[**Levertin**]**. And I live as though I were preparing myself for death. Whatever of beauty I wrote during my life with Harriet, seems to me now to have come into being as a reaction to her evilness; and by conceiving her beautifully, I sometimes succeeded in influencing her toward good! *In her own words, she "was*

*the most evil person born"!*

15th Found a Five of Hearts. (It was folded like a Four and dirty) In the early hours: Dreamt of Klemming in connection with something bright, happy, innocent, which made me laugh good-naturedly. The attached letter from Schering with a positive opinion from Francé, arrived this morning.

17th Received white lilacs from someone unknown. *(Harriet?)* Axel and Rich B. here in the evening.

18th Lillan and Ruth sought me in the afternoon, but I did not hear them ring. They left a bottle of wine for me at my neighbor's Augusta. *| It was from H–t!* Sunday:

**A Blue Book** 20th November: Finished the Diary (Breviary) which was begun last spring.

(On June 23rd. Cf. what happened on that date.)

21st In the morning met a handcart with three sacks of birch-bark; immediately afterward a company of sailors with a red warning-flag.

 23rd The calendar had fallen down this morning and the copper wire was torn off – Harriet is ill: Gastric ulcer (?) pain in her foot! November

 24th Lillan visited me.

 28th Sense Harriet intensely every day.

Last night I dreamt: of white horses which were followed by brown ones; this worried me, so that I tried to escape; but then I fell under a white one which lay down on top of me; I crept out and was saved.

This morning a cart came with a large white horse, first behind me, then it crossed my path in an unpleasant way; when I was about to step aside (thinking of my dream), a cab with a brown horse appeared and brushed against me; the coachman shouted, I narrowly escaped being run over.

Christ's descent into Hell surely cannot have been anything other than his descent to Earth in human form. Dante speaks of individuals in hell who simultaneously live on earth in indeterminate shape.

\*

\*

The telephone rang in the evening; I went to it; it was Harriet; she spoke simply of the performance of Sir Bengt's Wife, which Ranft now wants to put on. I opposed the idea, and the conversation was precisely the same as last autumn on the same subject; the same words. I then gently broke off the conversation. NB! I have not seen and not spoken to Harriet since 6th October = 7 weeks. The conversation was conducted and terminated without a trace of emotion. Either she was of such indifference to me, or we had silently continued our cohabitation, so that the whole thing now seemed banal.

29th Pelleas and Mëlisande is being performed tonight.

1st The sea serpent sighted at Saltsjöbaden! The King is ill. December

This morning I was walking along Grev Turegatan deep in thought. Just as I was about to pass my cab driver's (Nyberg's) entrance, I am stopped by a carriage which I could hear the sound of but which I could not see. A hearse was then being dragged out of the entrance!

2nd At the Metropole with Ranft.

3rd Frithiof Hellberg died.

These last few days I have again been dreaming of Harriet with a leg injury. See above in a number of places. [This autumn, too, she has been treated for foot injuries (twice) 6 December. Today it is exactly two months since I saw Harriet. Have sensed her intimately all day. Lillan on a visit; she was so pretty, sensible and sweet.

13th Miss Julie performed in Stockholm. Went well!



1907

Writing After the Fire **Op. II**

\* The 13th

NB!

\*


I found this obituary in a notebook, when I was going to give Anne-Marie some drawing paper! What does it mean?


23rd H–t seems less hostile.


8th (Cont) Inquiries revealed that the tapestry was designed by Gunnar Hallström in 1905, and costs 2000 Crowns. April

Visit from Harriet and Lillan. H–t had also noticed this tapestry with Lovisa Fahlman.

12th Found a red feather! Gloomy!

> 13th Two pigeons outside my window! A blue feather floated in the air outside my window, from north to south.

Read yesterday in Deléen's Dictionary of Fables (the Edda article) that Gylfaginning resembles the Indian Purâna and that Kennings resemble the Amarasinha (both in the Prose Edda.)

This should be investigated!

14th Alone. Mood brightened in the evening; I got out some arrack liqueur, which I have not tasted in fourteen days; as I lifted the glass to my lips, a brilliant galop was played in the apartment below which made me happy. Sunday:

15th Found a red feather again, but in the street.

Today at 12 noon (it is now 10:30) is the Dress Rehearsal of A Dream Play. It is strange that this play was written after 40 days of suffering (Aug. Sept 1901), when Harriet had left with my unborn last child. Now when it is to be performed I have suffered for 40 days from both an oppressive (black) inferno atmosphere and domestic misery.

The sun is shining; the tobacco shed is wide open and four white (forcing bed-) windows stand out dazzling white against the wall.

A certain calm resigned uncertainty prevails in my mind. I wonder whether a catastrophe may not hinder the play, which perhaps should not to be performed. It is true that I have spoken kindly of humans, but, to wish to advise the world ruler, is presumptuous (possibly blasphemous); that I have exposed life's relative nothingness (Buddhism) its insane contradictions, its malevolence and intractability may be commendable, if it offers mankind resignation; the fact that I have demonstrated man's relative blamelessness in this life which entails guilt is surely not evil . . . But . . .

Just now a telephone call from Harriet: "How this will go now lies in God's hands". Yes – My sentiments exactly! I replied; and I wonder whether the play may be performed. (I believe that has already been decided by the Powers Above, as also has the outcome of the premiere, if it takes place.)

It feels like Sunday just now. The white figure is seen out on the terrace of "the Growing Castle". My thoughts have lately

# 1907. **255.**

## (Cont.) 15th April

. . . dwelt on death and the hereafter. Read Plato's Timaeus and Phaedo yesterday. Wonder whether I shall die now, or shortly. Am working at present on "Toten-Insel" in which I describe the awakening after death and what follows after, but hesitate and feel dread to reveal life's bottomless wretchedness. I recently burned a play which was so frank that I shuddered. This is what I do not understand; if one ought to conceal the vileness and flatter people. I would like to write optimistically and beautifully, but may not, cannot; I take it as a dreadful duty to be truthful, and life is indescribably ugly. Now the clock struck 1 1! . . . (The rehearsal is at 1 2 o'clock.)

8 o'clock in the Evening: I watched the rehearsal of A Dream Play and suffered so immensely; got the impression that it shouldn't to be performed . . . It is presumptuous, and probably blasphemous (?) . . . I feel disharmonious and scared. (a lost soul.) Got no dinner; ate a cold meal at 7 p.m. straight from the container; just got back my Three Chamber Plays from the Publisher.

\*

During my religious brooding these past forty days I read the book of Job, while certainly telling myself that I am no righteous man. But then I came to the 22nd chapter in which Eliphas the Tishbite exposes Job: "Thou hast taken a pledge from thy brother for naught, and stripped the naked of their clothing. Thou hast not given water to the weary to drink, and thou has withholden bread from the hungry . ." "Is not thy wickedness great? and thine iniquities infinite?"

Then all the comfort of Job's book crumbled, and there I stood abandoned again, at a loss. What is a wretched man to cling to? What is he to believe? Can he be blamed for being in error?

Yesterday I read Plato's Timaeus and Phaedo, absorbing so much contradictory wisdom that I flung away my devotional books in the evening and prayed "God who loves all children" with all my heart. And now what? God help me, Amen! Castegren came this evening; both downhearted. – The night peaceful.

1907. **256.** 16th Read proofs of "Black Banners" written in 1904. Hesitated whether the book is a crime and ought to be withdrawn. Opened my Bible and happened upon Jonah's book, in which the prophet is forced to prophecy, even when he had concealed himself. This comforted me! But it is a dreadful book! April

17th "A Dream Play" is on today. Quiet snowfall in the morning. Read the final chapters of Job's book in which God punishes Job for his presumption in wanting to criticize his works; Job begs forgiveness and is forgiven. Peaceful and gray until 3 p.m. Then Greta arrived and told me that I have been proposed for an honorary doctorate from Uppsala at the Linnaeus celebrations in May – and that the dress rehearsal of A Dream Play was favorably reviewed.

Alone at home in the evening; on the stroke of 8 the doorbell rang; a little girl brought a laurel wreath and three roses from someone anonymous with the inscription "Truth".

"Light" "Liberation". I immediately took it to Beethoven's bust on the tiled stove, since I have him to thank for so much. But today children have been haunting me. This morning when I stepped out of my entrance I first met a lady with a little girl; when I got home I had a noisy child and an old woman ahead of me; I grew so depressed that I tried to wait for them to go; but it was impossible; when I had to wait for them to go go past them the old woman bared her teeth at the child: "don't go ringing doorbells, You". Then in the afternoon as I was lying down in the Yellow room, a child was whipped three times to terrible screams in the house next door. What does this mean? Is it a reply (to A Dream Play)? Human beings = naughty children!

Visit from August Falck!

The tobacco shed closed, but outside it I saw a large gray goose (it was a manure barrow.\* "The Castle" (= Barracks) is dark tonight. My neighbor's cuckoo clock sounded! (highly unusual) Has indicated horrors in the past, but last time all well!

At 1 1 o'clock at night telephone calls from Harriet, Castegren and Ranft that A Dream Play had been a success! TBTG!

18th Turmoil in my mind! Hatred rages against me, Harriet's too who from afar cursed the play hoping it would fail, envious hatred, because of its success. Visit from Falck! [Found a stone on my staircase! Axel here this evening!

NB! After 40 days of fasting and trouble, suffering of every kind, deep cuts seen on both my hands as though from huge nails (= stigmatization!) Is this Easter for me? Am I to be crucified again? As I crucified Christ? I contemplate death awaiting a catastrophe!

This morning I saw rays of light from the manure barrow in front of the shed. The sun reflected in a shard of glass! \*

Now I have even drunk beer with wormwood (= gall) for a whole month.

*Cf. page 256*  **[**in fact 255**]** *when I prayed "God who loves all children".*

1907. **257.** 21. In one of my windows at Banérgatan 31 there is now a small white cutter (a toy) fully rigged; at the helm sits a child in a blue cap. (Cf. This Diary about the white boats in Djurgårdsbrunn Bay.) and later I noticed a little girl dressed in white in the boat. Visit from Harriet and Lillan; very friendly. Schering has recently sent me Klinger's etchings of Dead children. Premonition of a child's death! April

During these painful 6 weeks when in addition to everything else I have been given overcooked and filthy food and have complained with Job: "Can that which is unsavory be eaten without salt? Or is there any taste in the slime of the purslane? . . ." the answer came back in Ezekiel 4. "And thou shalt eat it as barley cakes, and thou shalt bake it with dung that cometh out of man, in their sight" (And the Lord added: "Even thus shall the children of Israel eat their defiled bread among the gentiles . . .") When the prophet complained, he was granted the favor of baking with cow's dung . . ." [ = Prefiguration of the destruction of Jerusalem.] [Cf. below the 23rd when I told Axel about

this; then lightning and thunder began.

A Dream Play has now been going well since last Wednesday. So it is apparently permitted, but I had to suffer until then. My disharmony still remains, but not totally. [Cloud mountains in the North and Northwest have returned! 22nd

Anderson, the photographer, here this evening; uneasy mood. When he had left at around ten, I opened the parlor window. The starry sky revealed itself thus:

A meteor like a rose-colored rocket then "fell" from Draco horizontally from East to West between Cassiopeia and the North Star to Capella.\*

23rd Axel here this evening. I told him that I had been served such dirty food that I could not thank God for my food, (as at the same time I had given beggars 2 crowns for dinner, that much). At that instant a flash of blue lightning streaked past the parlor windows and immediately afterward thunder rolled. This occurred three times in a row!


26th Dark!

<sup>\*</sup> Capella. see several places in this Diary, starting August 22nd 1901.

26th (Cont). Apathetic, idle, without interests, can do nothing; tried writing about Linnaeus' System, but lost interest. Shivered and felt a mortal chill at dinner time; ate without enjoyment. Opened the Bible and hit upon reproaches for blasphemy in Job's book. Wanted to read the Psalms, but then there was a pounding on the wall. After my dinner nap I found that the thermometer outside the window had been wrenched off. This thermometer, which neither of us wanted to hang up (since neither believed in the permanence of our union) was left lying around, and landed up in a drawer. When Harriet had finally left the house, I put it up. – Why is it loose now? And who did it? Harriet feels friendly all day; very! (too much so) H–t is giving a benefit performance this evening. of A Dream Play. 1st Harriet left on tour. Lillan to dinner; cold like a stranger – ill-mannered, due to Mrs. Möller's upbringing. 2nd Mood a little brighter! Thinking of Idylls and Pastorals. Slept in the afternoon, and woke in ecstasy, having seen the Dalarö of my youth, 1871, in a dream. 3rd Bought a Horace (Kumlin) Opened it at: Book I:34. "The poet's religious conversion." Belonging to the Epicurean sect . . . Horace not particularly zealous in his divine worship. However a sudden lightning flash and a thunder clap out of a clear sky finally taught him that it is not a blind, involuntary force of nature but the hand of a god which hurls the lightning. Thus roused to reflection he wishes to stress Jupiter's might etc. as a warning and terror to his irreligious compatriots." April See: the chamber play "Stormy Weather"! May.

Telephone call from Harriet in Uppsala.

Telegram from Nils Anderson "in reply to unposted letter".

4th Dreamt at night that the large palm in the parlor had been transformed into a heavy fir tree (Mourning.) This morning an old woman with a basket stood outside my entrance; the contents of the basket included fir branches. Nils Andersson arrived.

Axel and N.A. here in the evening. Axel despondent; played the C minor symphony among other pieces. After the Appassionata he grew emotional and said: "I have a feeling that this is the last time I shall be playing the Appassionata". He looked miserable; I guessed the reason, but said nothing.

5th Saw a rainbow in the N.E (= Furusund) after dinner and my mood grew light; hope returned.

### Phenomena

The stars appear not to have any distance (are Erscheinungen); I trained a pair of opera glasses onto Vega (in Lyra) and Capella; after that with the same focus I could look at the streetcar in the harbor at Värtan, a kilometer away and the heap of stones below my window. NB! 123


that the husband was down there alone. Made a dreadful impression, and I can hear the husband suffering in the silence down there!

19th (Cont) The Farmers' almanac says the following about January and the Sign of Aquarius, under which I was born: May.

"A child born in Aquarius has good manners . . . believes what he is told, is frank, reputable, light-hearted and amenable; furthermore, he tells the truth, hates lies and those who deal in them . . . He becomes the best among his brothers, survives his parents. His children are simple and easily disciplined. He will also oppress and dishonor many womenfolk.

In the month of Aquarius he is happy, rash, and of good cheer. In Cancer (July–August) he falls ill (quite right, I always have a sore throat at the height of summer, the only illness I have had) In Virgo (September) he dies. In Scorpio he becomes rich. 14243

### October December

In Sagittarius he succeeds in all things. In Aries disasters. (Feb.) If he reaches *(March.)* 14243Dec.

the age of 32, then he will be 60!" A lot of this fits. If I ever get the Nobel prize in December, and die at the age of 60, then there's something to it.

The planet Saturn is at its most powerful in Aquarius (and Capricorn) Gyllensköld has prepared my horoscope: Saturn and Venus were ascendant when I was born! I have not believed in Astrology, but now I do not know what to believe! I have reason to suppose that Capella is in some way connected with Harriet and myself.

See This Diary from August 1901 onwards.

When I woke up in the afternoon I heard the pianola and the phonograph in the apartment below (Cf. previous page) But also female voices. I thought that M's wife and children had come back and I rejoiced; but straight away heard dancing and chatter from women who could not belong to the family; it was a different tone. I then imagined the home taken over by careless women, and the contrast so moved me, that I began to weep. – This is what my dream of a home and family was like; harsh, severe, but purifying; sanctity! (And what did life give me!) However the laughter died away toward evening and the following day it was silent again!

*[He was divorced and was now celebrating a new engagement!]*

It seems to be part of my fate not to be permitted to defend myself! As soon as I attempt to justify myself, I am told I am in the wrong, and they call it justice!

If I were to write about the experiences of the past few years, and about what now weighs on my mind, nobody would believe me. I have nevertheless slipped in a hint in Historical Miniatures page 379! It is so horrible, and every attempt to change it, is impossible. When I married Bosse, there was soon a baby. But she envied me the great honor, and out of spite she left with the unborn child. She alleged that I had deserted our bedroom, but the truth is that she asked me to change bedrooms, since the pregnancy gave her an aversion to my person. She returned, the child was born. After that she did not wish to have any more children, but nonetheless to go on living "as married". This led to tedium and disgust. First we separated, then divorced. After that we resumed relations and I became her lover, and still am. Query: in what respect have I failed? I was after all rehabilitated! And yet I am not! for her lies are lasting! in spite of all refutations! I was not good enough as her husband at 50, but as her lover at 58 I was good enough! This is sublime! Sublime!!!

# 1907. **261.**

19th (Cont.) Today Whit Sunday, naturally I dined alone. As I was sitting at table two pigeons came and pecked demonstratively on the parlor window. I gave them bread, and peas; they ate; all the while looking at me through the window. When they had finished, they kissed and flew off. I thought of it as a visit from Harriet and Lillan, who are far away, and of our Sunday dinners. May.

Swedenborg's mortal remains are to be brought back to Sweden. Have been reading Swedenborg all day! and yesterday!

20th Woke during the night to the clock striking 3; simultaneously an electric switch was heard to click and then my tin bucket jangled three strokes, then two. I felt no alarm, but turned on the light and took it as a warning. Dreamt of murderers, whom I evaded. Also about a gold coin (in my waistcoat pocket) which multiplied. Whit Monday.

Reading Swedenborg: During his visits to the other spheres he finds that the Earth is the worst of all planets, since the people there do not say what they think or else say something other than they are thinking. Therefore they have governments and regents, which do not exist on the other planets, where people live only in families, and where they cannot lie. Swedenborg says in Mem. No. 5048 that the Swedish nation on the whole is inferior to others and with the exception of Russians and Italians "the worst in Europe; for Swedes do not say what they think". Quite so!

Today I am fine, and went for my morning walk –

Crash with Ellen at the dinner table, since she had given me over-cooked pigswill! She gave notice! Let us see now! what happens! [She stayed.]

21st Gloomy, threatening. Reading Matter on Swedenborg. If indeed the earth is a prison then regents and governments are prison wardens, and in that case we can hope for little improvement. Only suffering and death can set us free. And human beings torment one another as prisoners; he who deviates from evil is boycotted by the other prisoners. Lillan came at noon; the door to my room opened, the child held out a sheet of white paper, without greeting me, but at that instant she fell headlong. Tuesday.

I cried out and picked her up unharmed – the paper was a bill from her dentist, which I should pay. The scene made an unpleasant impression. Could it mean that I had treated my father in the same way? Yes, but I did at least greet him first, and I dared not present a bill – without asking permission Should this mean, that I bring up the child but only pay, then I ask: what father can bring up a child (a little girl) when the mother stands between them? Then I ought first to cripple the mother, before I might teach the child what is right. And I have not wished to do that; consequently I have turned away, so as to escape seeing the abomination! (Cf. Die Beichte) Besides, children do not let parents bring them up! Only school and life do that, when the mother is unwilling to do so.

Lately, when it has been overcast all day, it has nevertheless cleared up at about ten in the evening, and Capella has emerged, but only for a short while, whereupon it has become overcast again. This is most striking. Cf. Capella in this Diary ever since August 1901.

**\*** <sup>I</sup> searched for the explanation in the Bible! And <sup>I</sup> read: "Surely our adversaries are cut off, and what they left the fire has consumed."

21st (Cont.) May.

Black Banners will be out in the next few days. Gothic Rooms published on April 20 1904. (The Isola-Bella summer) Black Banners was partly written in 1904 (Fugues and Preludes) After a long painful evening, I dreamt at night, for the first time in my life of something beautiful, resembling a vision from "Devachan"

22nd during the night I "saw" a room so indescribably beautiful that I was in ecstasy. There were bedecked name-day tables and there were flowers, bells in dark violet-purple as huge as **[**illegible deletion**]** hats, and they were mobile – Later on I saw a simple but cozy apartment; there Harriet as a young girl was lying on a bed. Later I was out in a landscape of luminous fresh green vegetation with Nils Andersson – Two small diurnal owls came flying round N.A and me; I tried to catch one of them with a book. Immediately afterward I saw butterflies as large as thrushes in the most beautiful colors.

Dreams of this kind are said to indicate that the end is near. Brother Oskar here.

23rd Linnaeus Day. Alone, Gloomy. Brighter in the evening. Saw an electric searchlight to the N.W. and a reflection of the moon on the glass of a greenhouse-bed. Capella appeared around 10 o'clock

24th In the morning strong contact with H–t, which continued as the day progressed; all day and increasing toward evening. Otherwise the day gloomy, colorless.

It is remarkable that contact and harmony with H–t provide a certain bright exultation of my spirits, although she hates me on one level. At times she divines who I am, but then evil influences come from outside. She must be both very elevated, and very low! She is the most wicked and basest person I have met, the most stupid and ugly, in one way, but sometimes also the reverse in every respect!

27th August Falck here!

28th Met a load of green turf. Torvald Nyström here.

Nyblom died

this morning.

29th Black Banners published. Reached agreement on A Blue Book, on excellent terms. Decided to stay in town and the at apartment.

30th Out on the common this morning something in light wood looking like a pyre and a haycock was assembled and prepared. At dinner time something which now looked like a small house (privy) was set on fire. It burnt fiercely, yet did not burn down, but remained standing, black. The yellow haycock of wood shavings stood untouched by the fire. The house was set alight once more, but burned, but did not burn down; remained jet-black. People close by had red (vermilion) objects resembling ninepins. What it was I do not know. Meant: either that I would be burned, but not burn up; or that the old privy could indeed be burnt, but not consumed. I interpreted it as a pyre being built for me. Cf. This Diary, page 226, 22nd June 1905. See adjoining Page!**\***

NB. June 27th!!! Anne-Marie! See: Page 252 **[**in fact p. [251 v.]**]**, 13th March!

I received unexpected money from Germany today!

This evening the cloud mountains could be seen to the north, distinct vegetation through my binoculars, also inlets with reflections on the water.

1907. **263.** 31st Nothing! Axel here in the evening!

June 4th On Djurgården: saw a dead kitten and a chopped-down withered fir tree floating in "Refuse Bay".

 Pastor Björck here! – Ms. Svensson's drama students giving a performance! Row!

9th Saw a long procession of children with a "white banner" (!)

Sunday Read in Melin's Bible: Deuteron. 25. "When God commands, you may avenge yourself, but not otherwise." Ditto 26. "Sacrifice to God must be joyful, holy and pure, for this reason you may not eat thereof when you are in mourning or unclean." (This is strange! But the mere presence of a corpse rendered a person unclean. Normally the saying goes: Sorrow improveth the heart)

> 11th Telephone call from unknown lady that Ebba had stolen Harriet's engagement ring. It disappeared on Feb. 17th 1906. It is strange that before the call about the ring, (with a Sapphire and two diamonds) came, I was occupied with precious stones; and a book with color pictures of these is still lying open beside me.

12th Mrs. Kreüger paid a visit with the ring. I returned it to Harriet with a "final letter" and declined her visit!

Wistén here in the evening.

\* or something else!

May

13th This morning I discovered from Djurgården Shore Promenade, between Framnäs and Sirishov, that the cloud formations to the North, Northwest, and Northeast are constant. So they must be ether reflections\*, because clouds must of course change shape and position, and cannot retain their shape and location in the sky for several months. I shall now draw them and if possible have them photographed. They resemble floating islands, with bays and beaches; valleys appear between the island elevations covered with deciduous foliage; at times they seem to be identical with the evening cloud-banks to the Northwest, i.e. with castles and steep Rhineland slate hills.

When I stand on "Lovers' Point" (where Kristian Eriksson's group is to be placed) a long island in the Archipelago is visible between Oscar's Church and the Barracks (Svea and Göta)

I showed this to Gustaf Janzon three weeks ago, and he admired the likeness. A steeper island can be seen above Källhagen with sheer cliffs rather like this and a vague

n.b.! I see this cloud to the left

most frequently in the morning at the end of Linnégatan seen from Humlegården

suggestion of Castles

I have seen similar images for a period of three months now. The author of Wolken in Meyer's Encyclopedia, mentions Cloud Banks in the Northwest at sunset!

Memento: 27th June: Anne-Marie.!

# 1907.

June 16th Sunday: Schering's wife and child have left him – I now wonder whether he too has taken part in "rescuing" Harriet from me, i.e. separating me from wife and child. Brother Axel who was evidently duped into warning Harriet about me, lost wife child (1901) and wife (the Blidö summer 1903). Staaff drowned himself, separated from Amanda. Gyllensköld, the worst, lost wife and child. Rich. Bergh was subjected to unspeakable suffering through wife and children. August Palme had to part with his "flame". The actor Hansson immediately (May 1901) got a bullet of cotton waste in his chest. G af G has had his fill in his second marriage!!! H. S–g has had to part with wife and children. H. A–n has a hell at home; ditto Arthur S–n with his woman! Architect Liljeqvist was struck down by a dreadful disease – Nemesis Divina exists!

# 1907. **264.**

13th (Cont.) Having returned home I saw these clouds all morning from my window; toward afternoon they moved to North-East; after dinner at 3:30 they lay in the North-EastWest (where my evening clouds normally are) but large whitish-yellow cumuli. At 6 p.m. they were visible in the Northeastwest but faintly smoke-blue in exactly the same place (from the flag pole at the Veterinary's to beyond the Tennis pavilion) and with the same appearance as the evening clouds. Hence there must be a constant, or constant clouds with periodicity of movement. June:

Klein and Thomé I. page 554 speak of Strati and night clouds. "The sky in our northern regions is often darkened during high pressure periods in winter by a type of low-altitude floating beds of strati, which remain motionless for days on end." Do they also remain unchanged? And what are they then?

The reported height of these clouds 1,800 meters is just the height at which the High mountains "commence; the snowline in Norway is said to lie at 8–1600 meters.

Letter from Harriet, loving! – The sound of the cuckoo clock was intense audible during the evening.

Dreamt last night of ten-öre coins that were gilded. I have received a lot of money since Black Banners was published. The newspapers **at first** kept quiet about the book, but it sold out immediately.

14th Off to Djurgården in the morning with Anderson, the photographer, to photograph the clouds, but they were not visible. – Home again at 9 a.m. I saw cloudbanks of the usual shape on the horizon in N.N.W., N, and N.N.E. They remained there until 3 p.m. although a brisk eastly wind was blowing, which is inexplicable, since clouds follow the wind.

Yesterday evening the sun set in these cloudbanks which since morning had moved to the N.W. But the clouds did not cover the sun, instead the sun somehow appeared to be in front of the clouds. As did the new moon, just after sunset.

20th The sun sets close to the left of the Domed turret on Valhallavägen N.N.W. at 9:05 p.m. – (the same time right up to 24th) [Nybrogatan 68] Reinhardt has accepted Wetterleuchten (Stormy Weather) for the Kammerspielhaus.

Sense Harriet amicably; believe she is in Åre. Have not seen her since May 1st.

In the morning a thick (purposeful) cloud of smoke from a chimney flowed directly to the house, where Hugo Fröding and, Märtha and Anna live, visible to the left of Katrina church, from Banérgatan.

Broke with Anderson, the photographer, due to his mendacious and deceitful nature. In the Sirishov Bay (Refuse Bay) a freshly painted board in red and white and an all-white ditto was washed up on the beach. 1442443 innocent love


1907. **266.** 27th (Cont.) Falck and the Lindroth Brothers were here in the evening. Took leave at sunrise. 28th Alone! Nothing! 29th During the evening I first saw a parhelion in N.N.W. then two similar ones above the sun which was hidden by clouds, one larger, one smaller! A while after the sun had set below the horizon, the sun was visible a bit further to the North, although fainter, above the horizon. 30th This morning I once again saw Gunnar Hallström's Tapestry, Yggdrasil, which first appeared when A Dream Play was being performed! and meant all well! Cf. page: 253, April 7th 1907. 1st Svennberg here in the evening. 5th Received an unexpectedly large sum of money! (Bonnier.) 8th Dreamt last night that one "Stjerneld" had refused us permission to put on performances. Saw a Fire Engine No. 1 this morning; immediately afterward in the sand of the avenue an E (formed by a twig); directly after that a 6 (from a wood shaving) Nothing! Alone! Waiting for a license for the theater. 13th August Lindberg paid a visit! 14th At 10:30 in the evening Capella appeared in N.N.E for the first time since May. It flashed out. And it is strange that I sought her in vain yesterday in clear weather at midnight. What does it mean? **(**Tomorrow the first street lamp will be lit**)**. Jupiter is in Gemini and Cancer this year. At 11 o'clock Cassiopeia and the North Star appeared. 15th Falck here; told me that Baron Cederström and Clarence von Rosen were both thrown at the races, were injured, and are now in the same hospital!!! *[Both had Ellen Hartman]* Georg Törnqvist died! Likewise Gustaf Larsson! June July Salin was the name of the City architect. Sunday

> 16th My Daughter Karin paid me a visit with Greta. Falck's theater was inspected by the Fire Chief and others!

At 6 minutes to half past 8 there was a knocking in the piano several times; I thought of Axel, whether he was in distress with his mean wife who separated us, or whether he was ill and longing for my Beethoven piano at which he has had his great moments.

17th Large white and red banners (no Black ones), tents and sports equipment etc. seen on the common during the morning. When I woke up in the afternoon "Brisk spring breezes" was playing; then there were games and races; later on they played "Marche Lorraine" which I heard for the first time in Paris at Hotel Orfila during my Inferno year 1896 (See Inferno) I wept at the memory! – Falck came in the evening with good news about our theater!

July 18th. Letter from Axel about his two clocks which adjusted themselves to each other (See Supplement!)

1907. **267.** 19th Alone! Called to mind today the Linnaeus celebrations in Uppsala in May. Hæckel, who is Linnaeus' worst adversary, was crowned in honor of Linnaeus. The Master of Ceremonies ex-lover of B L conferred the laurels, also on those who did not know the first thing about Linnaeus and nothing about the natural sciences. Asses' banquet! It was "the Camorra", the Black Banners in the Cathedral! The Ape Mass! The Black mass in Uppsala Cathedral. 20th The tobacco shed was opened in the afternoon and the old woman hung up her skirt again. Telephone call from Falck that our theater was being obstructed. Axel and Falck to supper. 21st Falck here for dinner. Received a friendly letter card from Lillan (Harriet). 22nd The Old man opened the Tobacco shed in the afternoon and now the skirt was gone. I expected a message from Falck all day, but did not get a word. For the City Architect was to give the decisive answer! 23rd It is 8 o'clock in the evening; have been expecting Falck all day, still have not heard from him! The old woman seen in the shed, but no skirt. The pianola has been playing in the apartment below! During my morning walk along Djurgården Shore Promenade (to Sirishov) two seagulls came and "looked" at me; on the road lay: a rose petal then a Jasmine flower, alternating right up to the Promontory. It is now 10:30 and I have heard nothing from Falck! 24th Falck came; things were looking brighter and by dinner time the Building Committee had authorized the theater. In the evening by landau to Lidingöbro with Falck, for drinks. Supper at home! Falck said that Professor Schück died a month ago, jumped out of a window during a fire. This was untrue; confusion with Professor Rudin and Kolmodin, (see this Diary 7th January 1907.) 25th Friendly letter from Lillan (Harriet). Many poor people! (After the drive in the landau?) Browall here, given 15 Crowns with which to rent himself a room and so get away from Grubbens workhouse. Unlike his usual self he was somewhat inebriated, recited poetry and dropped a ten-crown bill in the hall when he went. He returned and was given a warning and the tenner! 27th Falck here; the police commissioner has sanctioned our theater; joy! 28th Letter from Lillan (Harriet). Alone! Gloomy! 29th Harriet and Lillan came; but Ellen left so we got no dinner. I set the table with cold food myself at 5 p.m. Then Ruth arrived! 4th Sunday: Ruth left. Ms. Johansson came. Director Michelsson called on me. Falck called on me; we spoke disconsolately about our theater, which now seemed to founder, and we thought in terms of the People's Cultural Center, the National and several others. Then a thunderstorm broke out and we saw the flashes of lightning strike Lidingö. – The following day we were told that the thunderstorm had also struck on Runmarö (where Mrs. Björling is now living.) July. Saturday Sunday August:

9th Woke up in the afternoon to a clap of thunder which first sounded like the roaring of an angry mob, or a war-cry from above – August

> 10th Woke up in the afternoon with a vivid sensation of my deceased stepmother . . . Falck came in the evening and stayed into the night in order that we might see the Perseïds (the Falling Stars)

Immediately afterward an elderly man was seen, whom I first took to be my late Father-in-law's Fatherin-law, (Urgrossvater on the Danube) but he had a cap like Frederick the Wise; his eyes were clearly visible and were angry; after that a little girl appeared, holding on to the woman's skirt.

I then came happened to speak at length about my childhood and stepmother. The Falling Stars failed to appear.

11th Sunday. In the morning I saw in a cloud a very finely drawn woman with her profile to the right, her hair as on the adjoining figure, arms stretched out forward; and she was holding something in her hands which I could not see, but took to be some crumpled material which that she was offering to someone.

Later when I took my morning walk, there was a man sitting on Lovers' Point reading a paper DN; I immediately saw the female figure above, and read: Lace Laundry in large letters! – What it all means I do not understand!

Compare my cloud vision in the summer of 1905 when I went to Furusund! (in this Diary) Alone all day, gloom!

12th Immediately after the publication of Black Banners C L paid me a strange visit. As he sat on a chair by the window a bumblebee flew in and buzzed around him. A while later when we went into the drawing room, a new bumblebee flew in through the parlor window and buzzed around C L. (C L did in fact sting before departing)

Some time later A L paid me a visit of sorts; as he entered my room a large white seagull appeared outside the window, and looked in at us!

14th A shooting star from Capella. The previous evening an owl shrieked as a shooting star exploded. 17th Saturday. Falck's Theater licensed! F. and Mrs. Björling spent the evening here

1907. **269.** August \* Large bust! 20th I read the proofs of A Blue Book in the evening. It then turned pitch dark due to black clouds, piling up; I saw myself in a cloud\*. Thunder showers; afterward it cleared up and a large rainbow stood round Gustav Adolf's Church, which was illuminated by the sun. Clouds with castles, fortresses and temples appeared above "The Castle" (Barracks). 21st 22nd Six years ago today (1901) on Harriet's birthday name day and my father's birthday Harriet left with my unborn child, for no reason. That same day a bolide fell in Auriga next to Capella. A year ago today a comet appeared in Pegasus! Am proofreading A Blue Book and feel as though my mission in life were thereby completed. I have been permitted to say everything I had to say. 23rd Dreamt in the afternoon that I was walking in Loviseberg (one of my childhood homes) and saw the largest pond dried out. This pond was always a danger to children, since its edges were a quagmire and the stinking pond full of frogs, leeches and lizards. Now, in my dream, I walked across its dry floor and was surprised that it was so clean. Thought: that is the end of the frog swamp now that I have broken with "The Black Banners".

\*\* 24th Falck here in the evening; at the table I cut the ring finger of my left hand, so that my handkerchief got soaked in blood. Wondered what it meant. The following morning at around 5, I was woken by strong contact with ῾αρριετ **[**Harriet**]**. x x x

25th At 12 noon. I found the apartment filled with the smell of roasted bird. Went out to the kitchen and asked why: The maid replied that a hazel grouse takes 3 hours. I looked it up in the cook book and found ¾ of an hour indicated. So now the same misery as last spring is cropping up again – I shall have to eat ruined food left by some stranger, who eats before I do. If I complain, then the maid will depart and I shall have to bring home pigswill. Why does this have to happen to me? What have I done? I have not treated my fellow humans like this; and I like giving, but I do not want to eat leftovers in my own home! and nourish a vampire who drains me of my strength.

29th Saw the usual cloud in the morning at the far end of Linnégatan. But its lines created: a lion and immediately afterward an elderly man with a big beard and a crown on his head. I felt "ecstatic" as though faced with a vision.

\*\* This morning I saw from Strandvägen the familiar cloud from the corner of Linnégatan: Went in to Eldh. He had also noticed it!

26th A large iron meteor off Long Island (Boston)


Levertin died on 22 September last year.

## Grieg died!

Cont. 1907. **271.** September 2. (Sedan Day). Dreamt in the early hours of Carl Larsson and Karin.

> 123The sun set in fiery red and

black clouds; haze and heat. 11th Axel here; both of us nervous! 12th A Blue Book is published today! The first cloudless day of the year!

Dreamt last night of G af G who attacked me with a broken foil I parried! Also dreamt that I was in a deep stone quarry, where I had climbed up onto a steep slope; could not get down, nor up: I thought quite calmly: "Will just have to shout for help."

The past few days Nightingale pipes have been sold in town (The Nightingale of Wittenberg!) Falck bought one, I bought two! At this moment one is being played down in the street.

The day before yesterday, the 10th, uneasy and depressed in the apartment; two doors to the corridor opened of their own accord. In the afternoon I was "attacked" by ῾αρριετ **[**Harriet**]**. Instantly furniture began to be moved above my head, which scared me! – In the evening when I wanted to take a Whiskey, there was a banging on the walls! I kept sober the whole evening!

This morning the 12th met a stream of people for no apparent reason.

The White Figure appeared today on the balcony of the Barracks after a very long absence. A fellow on Djurgården got one Crown and was ecstatic; prayed God . . .

Today my calendar says: "Was sich soll klären, Das muss erst gären."

The pianola is playing below me at this moment: Beautifully, festively! At 10:45 a.m.! Took delivery of flowers which I had bought! The graphophone below me is playing and singing. Schoolboys at arms are now assembling on the common, with banners and music. Today I got new clothes which fit! My old clothes have felt tight to the point of torture the past few days! – **?**

Anne-Marie came to dinner – Afterward we drove to her home in a landau. In the evening a letter from Director Michælson with an offer for Master Olof. Axel came and told me that A Blue Book has been well received by two large newspapers. Played a Beethoven sonata. Northern lights above the Castle! (Barracks.)

13th Clear all day, but the dim segment of the northern lights

remained above the Barracks all day. I expected northern lights, but nothing came! 14th Clear sunrise; then with the on-shore wind loose clouds trailing so that it became uniformly gray. Cleared up around 9. I read the poster for The Crown Bride in Strandvägen. Clear all day, but in the evening at 5:45 the sky was covered by the most dreadful clouds, black profiles in hanging slanting soffits followed by a thunderstorm in N.W. with a yellow sky.

The Crown Bride is on tonight! **W!**

The black clouds moved out to sea.

20th Dreamt during the night that a black dog leapt up onto my shoulder; a white dog sat below. When I opened my window in the morning I saw two dogs, one white and one black fighting over a length of rope! Later in the morning I saw two black dogs on the same spot but in an unpleasant situation. Sat Sapienti! (Black dogs = vices, Swedenborg.) Nightingale pipes can now be heard in the streets.

September:

These "Alps" were visible on September 19–24th, in the same spot. They appeared again exactly like on 30th November and in the same spot!

22rd Found an eight of Clubs this morning. "Grande joie prochaine." (Jeune et jolie fille etc.). **See the 27th**

For three days cloud banks resembling alps, with Alpenglüh in the evenings, have massed in the N.E, E and S.E, and this although a brisk northerly wind has been blowing. They start by Värtan's two smokestacks and are visible above and beyond

smokestacks

Lidingö, from my window facing the common. Värtan's (Cont)

25th There's an embankment (wall) of clouds encircling the whole horizon at a considerable height; and the banks to the West (the evening banks) which otherwise rest on the horizon now rest high up in the air.

Falck here in the evening; told me that on the previous night at 12:30 he had been walking with Kylberg, the artist, under Ranft's windows on Strandvägen and had had a bottle of Benedictine flung in front of his feet. The bottle did not break; but contained not liqueur but an unknown liquid. Falck handed it over to a policeman, who thereupon exclaimed: You gentlemen must have an enemy up there!

Falck who heard a cricket in my room on the evening of the 23rd had a cricket following him and Kylberg in the street that night. When they stopped, the cricket ceased. In the morning I found a green game counter, square (50 points)

27th Letter from the unknown (Muriel) with the same prayer to God to avert misfortune\*. When I opened my window in the morning, regimental music! – Have also acquired a neighbor who plays beautiful and cheerful music. At 11 a.m. a letter arrived from the Royal Dramatic Theater with an offer for Master Olof as their inaugural piece.

Falck to dinner, which was a success. When I opened the window after dinner, music again Axel here in the evening and played Beethoven.

Willehad Lindström buried!

\* Or receive a great joy. Just as I had copied the prayer Michælson's letter arrived. The prayer went: O Lord, We beseech Thee, have mercy upon all mankind, deliver us from evil and sin and take us with Thee through eternity! Amen!

28th O Lord! We beseech Thee, have mercy upon all mankind, deliver us from evil and sin and take us with Thee through eternity. Amen!

3rd Gustav Adolf's church illuminated in the evening! (NB! The previous day the newspaper had spoken of Falck's production of Gustav Adolf.) October

> 6th October. The anniversary of 1o Anna's wedding 2o my unsuccessful journey to Paris. *1879?* 3o Harriet's return with my child in 1901. – I was going out for a drive with my Anne-Marie. Harriet, whom I had not seen for two months, came down to the carriage. [Siri v. E. who has been in town for a fortnight leaves today.] For quite some time now I have been tortured by tight clothes; today I let them out with an elastic band and found relief. – When I reached Falck's theater they were smoking my bust (Max Levis's) with burning sulfur in order to remove patches of rust. (!!!)

# 1907. **273.**

During this walk I lost the ornament I was given by a woman theosophist in 1900: Seven roses, Seven fires and a white dove etc.

\* Immediately before this, Falck had told me that Dagens Nyheter this morning had a brilliant review of A Blue Book quoted from Verdens Gang!

11th At 6 in the evening Anne-Marie paid a most unexpected visit. She sat at my desk and drew. Then a Finn (Wentola) paid a call. He looked like a cretin and murderer. He said practically nothing, but stared at the child. When he left, I got the impression that the Finn had wanted to murder me, because I had spoken well of Bobrikoff; and that the child's presence had protected me.

\*\* The same evening that Lillan was here!

I heard the next day that Falck's actor Kellberg had shot himself at 6 o'clock\*\*. The reason being Syphilis *(?)*. It is odd that I had occupied myself with medicine that day and discovered that Syphilis is ptomaine poisoning from rotten Spermine C5H14N2 which turns into Cadaverine C5H14N2 and consequently can be cured with Atropine or Phenols. Just as I was busy with this, the child came and interrupted so that I had to tear myself away from my work and try to be kind!

Row with Ranft about the promissory note.

14th Dreamt at night that Klemming

13th Saw G.E. Klemming in a cloud!

took a red crayon portrait, which I had made of him, and placed it approvingly in a collection, while he discarded another one (Cf. A Blue Book; *where I wrote about him.)* 19th The row with Ranft.

20th Ditto

12th Axel here!

21st Ditto But the morning peaceful, and in mood for writing. In the afternoon Rosengren, the County Judge, came and threatened foreclosure if Falck did not pay the rent for the theater!

"O, Lord! We beseech thee, have mercy upon all mankind, deliver us from evil and sin and take us with Thee through all eternity! Amen."

22 The rent for Falck was procured through Bonnier to whom I pawned this Diary for 2000 Crowns, but with the right to redeem it.\*

"O Lord! We beseech Thee, have mercy upon all mankind, deliver us from evil and sin, and take us with Thee through eternity! Amen!"

\* *Was subsequently redeemed!*

# 1907. **274.**

23rd: Gloomy! Fog. At night after a difficult evening, the fog dispersed, and the moon appeared, together with Capella. A white face with dark eyes and a mustache was visible in a cloud; I thought of Nordensköld or Retzius. Around 11 o'clock Jupiter ascended in the immediate East; but he did not stood in the sign of Cancer diagonally below Gemini. I thought of Swedenborg. Then Then a shooting star fell from Capella, but out of Cirrus clouds. In the moonlight the "star" was white and I became convinced that the starfalls occur very close to earth and come from Cirrus clouds. Last autumn I saw a shooting star immediately after sunset, and it was rose-colored like high-altitude clouds, tinted by the setting sun. At all events I was relieved of my despondency, when I once again saw the stars and Jupiter (Swedenborg's house) which I had not seen since last year. October

During the night I dreamt of Retzius and Wife (my father and several others) Mrs. R. was very friendly toward me.


"O Lord, we beseech Thee, have mercy upon all mankind, deliver us from evil and sin, and take us with Thee through eternity Amen!" 28th Dark and gloomy, threatening. Fog. 29th – – – Brighter in the evening; the Moon, Jupiter, Capella visible. – In the morning at the Sirishov Bay: Bubbles from the bottom; a sewage outlet from Skansen; a large brown rat. 30th Woke in the morning feeling dizzy, so I did not dare to go out. The first warning!? "O Lord! We beseech Thee, have mercy upon all mankind, deliver us from evil and sin, and take us with Thee through eternity! Amen!" Sunday 27th


# 1907. **276.**

24th Christmas Eve. Alone, gloomy! Aug. Lindberg looked in. Telephone in the evening from Axel Jäderin, and Tor Aulin. Absolutely alone all day, and the evening too! 25th Working on the 2nd Supplement to A Blue Book. *Harriet had invited me, but I did not want to go.* Dec.

Gloomy, dreary, no Christmas atmosphere.

28th The evening overcast, gloomy; worry about the rent for the Theater. But twice during the evening the clouds parted, the stars Gemini and Jupiter showed themselves.

29 Today clear air this morning, Sunshine. During the morning cloudbanks were visible from East to North, and in the East in the shape of a ridge of Alps just as before. (See prev. page of this Diary.)

The morning wind blew N.E. to S.W as throughout the winter, but in summer it blows from S.W to N.E.

30th **"**Stormy Weather**"** was a success at the Intimate Theater.

31st Falck now owes me 18,190 Cr (Eighteen Thousand One Hundred and Ninety) Crowns! Lillan and Greta visited me.

Bonnier rescued us with the rent for the theater! Falck here in the evening!

1908. **277.** 1st: Beautiful sunrise seen above Alpine clouds from the Valhallavägen corner of Jungfrugatan. Bright sun after that. Met Gustaf Jansson. Received telegrams, cards and flowers! January

 The Theater gradually going better!

5th Sunday: Bright sun; spring in the air. Saw an Ace of Diamonds. (Letter.)

Writing 2nd Supplement to A Blue Book.

1908

18th wrote about the Philospher Hegel during the morning. In the evening the Theosophist Ljungström announced himself for a visit at 7 p.m. Immediately afterward an anonymous letter arrived from an old woman about the Philospher Hegel's death (see. Supplement) as well as a warning against False doctrines (Theosophy, Buddhism). Ljungström came; left at 8:30. At 9 o'clock the sculptor Notini came and picked up my Buddha statue, which had been standing on the tiled stove ever since Lillan was first expected in 1901. (Buddha had to go!) This is strange!

Feel as though I shall be leaving the apartment; preparing my departure.

21st The Ghost Sonata performed at the Intimate theater.

123 22nd This morning: first a red cloth waving from a window, then a white one. Greeted Mårten Rosenström; then a small child, who curtsied to me, when I nodded; after that Gustaf Jansson! Flags were flying on Djurgården! – – – A newspaper page came blowing toward me; I halted; the page landed at my feet; I looked at it; on it was a portrait of Carl Bowallius; the professor, who founded the Biological museum (just next to which I was standing!) What does it mean? I always felt an antipathy toward the said C B, and he toward me – – – It is 12 o'clock! I have received "ladies' letters", which I have put in the wastebasket, but also flowers! Know nothing as of yet about the reception of The Ghost Sonata yesterday! The day before yesterday I bought the shell Conus marmoreus from the Indian Ocean. Its markings are exactly like Cuneiform writing. There are whole groups on it. etc. I read in the Large Meyer Encyclopedia that this shell was greatly prized in India and used for ornaments. Is it possible that the Assyrians took their writing from here just as the Chinese took theirs from the shell of the Tortoise? Or that shell lime was used for mortar in Babylon? It is edible too; can it be kitchen middens. 1st Playing with Fire and The Bond went well yesterday. 2nd The theater is going better! [Thinking terribly much about Lillan, dreaming about her, longing for her, believe that she is ill! Oh! 3rd Theater going downhill! 5th 10th About a fortnight ago I heard inside me: μωλλερ **[**Möller**]** has been arrested, and My 59th birthday! -ratus The Frida Uhl 123 scandal! February:

two days in a row. "15 μωλλερ **[**Möller**]**" has now been chalked up on my staircase Dreamt a few days ago that Emil Hillberg had fallen on the ice and lay dying. De Wahl is "ill" so he is not considered capable of playing Master Olof on the 15th, for the opening of the Dramatic Theater.

and was passing Karlavägen 38, a housemaid came screaming out of the entrance, with her clothes on fire. It was a dreadful sight! She fell over in the snow and I took off my overcoat; with which I extinguished the flames. – – – It was the most awful thing I have seen . . . played the nightingale pipe!

27th Anne-Marie here. I read stories; we played hide-and-seek in grand style. She laughed more heartily than I have heard her do for a long, long time. Greta came; then Lillan and I left. Out on the street the child asked: Is Greta going to move? – Move? – Yes, like Mama? – (Did she mean get divorced?)

"Christina" is on this evening.

At 11 o'clock this evening extensive Northern lights above a very high cloud bank in N N.W – N E N E. Cassiopeia right above the barracks.

Cassiopeia = (double V!!! who came!)


day. What I am experiencing now is so extraordinary. Harriet and I are friends; she "seeks" me. *I eat little, drink little; dress myself, for whom? It is as though I were engaged, living in 1901 and seeing Harriet as young, 7 years ago, great, splendid, ethereal*, in my imagination!

together with some of my letters from 1901. Strong contact with Harriet throughout the

1908. **280.** 11. Yesterday evening I wrote a letter to Castegren asking him to take up Swanwhite for Harriet and her fiancé. The letter did not get mailed that night. During the night I was twice violently sought by H–t, and I responded. But having felt at around 10:30 yesterday evening as though H–t were in great distress. In the morning I mailed a letter to H–t as well as Castegren's, to hear if she wanted to act Swanwhite. She sent the following reply. Suppl. 1. April

12. Last night: It really was as though I got married again . . . And with no reproaches. In the morning I sent flowers and a letter. Greta came; she brought Svenska Dagbladet with a glowing review of Swanwhite in Helsingfors, by Prof. Castrén (who recently proposed to Harriet) In the afternoon the attached letter from Harriet. Suppl 2. Sunday.

13th Last night: As from 11:30 I had Harriet in my arms; I "saw" her face, heard her breathe, kissed her little hand goodnight. And then we slept until morning, just as in the past when we were newlyweds. Monday.

> What is this whole marvelous thing, which I have been experiencing for 8 days? On the 4th Harriet got engaged to W. But she sought me twice that same night. The following day the 5th, I experienced the bliss of love as though I were engaged; that evening I played Romeo. On the 6th no contact with H–t; Axel here, we had to eat supper in the kitchen (Easter atmosphere from last year) On the 7th a Sunday atmosphere all day. Read Harriet's letters Did nothing, thought of H as though she were dead and wept, all day. In the evening I heard someone playing Schubert's serenade: "Through the night the song is sounding, my belov'd for you . . ." but without knowing where it was being played. On the 8th Lighter mood. She was with me all day, and I believed her to be unhappy. I wrote her a letter which was not sent. Swanwhite was on in Helsinki. On the morning of the 9th found Dramat. Theater's program, with August Palme's portrait and program for Candida. The letter to Harriet got mailed. On the 10th read H–t's letters all morning and wept! Wrote her a highly charged letter. On the 11th wrote to Castegren to take up Swanwhite for H–t. At around 10:30 in the evening I felt as though Harriet were in great The 12th distress. That night she was with me twice ecstatically, as though I were married to her. On the 12th She slept in my arms all night as my wife!

> She gets engaged to W., and at night she flees to me. We live as newlyweds, we correspond, I send her flowers in the mornings. I am like a newlywed, eat little, have given up drinking, dress myself, for whom? Am living in bliss. I have begged her in my letters to let me go! I have begged God to save me from this, to give me a thorn in the flesh, to smite me! But he makes no move! I am happy when she seeks me, and feel no self-reproach. What is all this?

> Today on the morning of the 13th **[**illegible deletion**]** I saw a whole row of carts, which were removing the soil from the gardener's down by the tobacco sheds and garden frames. For 7 years now I have seen the garden and the frames being prepared. Now in the 8th year it's all over!

### Tuesday

14th

Cont. 13th In the evening contact with H–t all evening. At 10:30 I had violent palpitations, so violent that I had to put my hand to my heart and then it felt as if it were Harriet's heart; it calmed down and stopped; I thought she died; but then it started up again, but calmer; I fell asleep. At around 11:30 the anxiety began again (At the time I thought he was beating her! She wrote in her letter that "she had struggled, fought"). Around midnight she lay on my arm, calm, friendly. Three times during the night I was woken up and received her as my wife.


# 1908. **282.**

April 16th. Dreamt during the early hours of the night, that I was looking for my room in a large hotel; but it was so large, and with so many corridors, that I did not find it; I climbed down into holes, lost my way, was misdirected; finally I got into an elevator; it gave way under me, but I held on to a cross bar; it was frail, but held; I shouted for help from "Brother Oskar"; he did not come, but I climbed up effortlessly and was unharmed, while the elevator hurtled down with a crash. Then I continued, entered a room, got an iron band round my foot, but got loose, unscathed. Continued to look for my room; finally saw my bookshelves through a window and thought cheerfully: that is where I belong! – Woke up! Wondered if the Intimate Theater was the elevator I stepped into that crashed, or if the dream symbolized my reawakened love for Harriet, which has rejuvenated but also purified me, for I have not had a drink in 14 days, and moreover been watching my step. And that this period of love has now served its purpose and was to fail! Cont.

17th Wrote a letter to Harriet, in which I relinquished the child, after yesterday's bracelet incident; and said goodbye! Sent it at 10 a.m. It is now 10:30. Sensed H–t almost kindly, almost lovingly until 2 o'clock. Then a storm began, first with palpitations, then shooting pains in the stomach region and a sound like Grasshoppers in my ears (Duplicity and Sensuality according to Swedenborg). From this I concluded that she had only just opened the letter. Incense (= resin) then followed, which is presumably wickedness and hatred. [Now I recollect that I took Lillan home just prior to April 4th (their engagement); she lured me up to the top landing, but there a fearful racket broke out, which made me turn. It was surely a warning that I should not go any further, and get involved in their ménage] Greta paid a visit! Afterward I laid down for a nap! "Saw" my latest letters to Harriet folded and ready to be returned! What is all this? This last was certainly "love"; but she must have been playing with W, Good Friday *1st symptom of illness, which lasted into August.*

both because she hated him and in order to revenge herself on de. W. Or possibly revenge herself on me. In the latter case W's love appears to have been kindled by her old love for me. God help me out of this! All of us, and poor Harriet too!

It must surely have been love blossoming, what else, since it had such a good influence on me?

8:30 in the evening! Now a suspicion begins to arise: that the bracelet was only an insignificant toy\*, which the child did not want to part with, and the mother did not have the heart to take away from her! – Was the whole affair a demonic device so that I too should suffer on Good Friday? And so that I might say to her: "He struck you!" – It almost feels like it! And at this moment I sense Harriet kindly! – Yes, it was love that touched us! We love each other! And it was not spite! But we had to endure this evil! on Good Friday!

\* I did not look carefully at the bracelet!


**[283 v.]**


 Maybe she was reading A Blue Book yesterday evening?


I have! – It was time to reconcile with him as well! – The old man grunted, and that was presumably what occurred!

In the evening I looked out of the window – The sky was evenly overcast, but in the northwest terrible cloud of smoke rose from the chimney of the Sports Pavilion; yet above it appeared a reddish-yellow afterglow from the sunset; the smoke battled with the light, and the light triumphed; turned into a lengthy strip, extended northwards while the smoke died away and disappeared!

1908. **286 [a].** Harriet all day; loving, quiet, unhappy, she seeks me. Drank wine in the evening, fell heavily asleep; did not wake until 3 a.m., when she began to seek me – And at about 5 a.m. we met x x x . Note: I thought that she woke up when I was awakened; and she woke up with palpitations which I caught. [H–t has complained of waking up at night with palpitations and angst. Incubi which she herself has quickened to life and activity.] Elga was on for the last time this evening; it felt to me as though H–t had been released. Today's name is Tycho. Minor irritations all day, including Black food amongst other things; but a great joy: Prince Eugen has ordered tickets for this evening's "Easter" at the Intimate Theater. 29th Possessed Had Harriet powerfully, at times tempestuously all morning. After which she disappeared; toward evening. She sought me several times during the night, but I did not respond; finally at 5 a.m. x x x when she came humble and loving; and afterward she thanked me with a scent! Crash with the housekeeper, who left. Let us see what happens next. I have had to put up with this for 26 days! And for 2 months I suffered Mina Broström, who was the meanest person I have encountered; the nicer I was toward her, the meaner she became. [About Harriet. She sometimes appears to be asleep when seeking me. Then when I wake up and respond, she wakes up and withdraws. It seems as though she unconsciously (while sleeping) wants to possess me, but not consciously!] Harriet with me at work all morning. But she disappeared in the afternoon. Anxiety and unfaithfulness during the evening. The night cold. I sought her but she responded only with palpitations, as though she were in bed weeping. She did not seek me until toward morning, when I received her x x x . 1st Harriet loving all day, particularly in the afternoon; and at 6–7, she sought me out tempestuously. Telephone call from Castegren about Swanwhite at the Opera – H–t is probably studying the part. She sought me during the night, eagerly imperious, but I said no! – – – At which she angrily withdrew. 2nd H–t absent! I experience her love today as being nothing but pretence. He presumably deserted her yesterday, and in her forlornness she threw herself at me! The best thing would be for me to be out of all this, with the child rescued! She cannot change her own nature! I cannot save her, she who consists of nothing but lies, deceit, wickedness and lust! Lust and hatred! Toward evening she sought me with love. Castegren came and spoke of Swanwhite which was to be performed. He said that Bosse had asked for Kåge as the prince (thus not W.). This should indicate that it is all over with W! I was naturally happy. When Castegren had gone, I drank some wine and played the overture to Romeo. Sensed H–t tempestuously, and expected her that night. But I was overcome by great sleepiness at around 10; fell asleep at 10:30 woke at 11:30 to a jubilant embrace x x x x . Also woken at 5 and 6:30. This was the greatest rapprochement; it was nuptials! *[And on that day she published the banns between her and W.* **!!!** 3rd H–t loving all day until dinner time 3rd I wrote and mailed a letter about our intimate relationship. Then silence! It is now 5:45 p.m. In the morning! Portraits of W are now displayed, even at my stationery store in Strandvägen. H–t is placed beside him in the *window* at the Opera. The evening calm. H–t appears to be staying at home with Lillan. But when I went to bed at 10 p.m., she was lying there waiting for me x x x . Then at 5 a.m. April 28th. 29th I now owe Bonnier 1900 Cr; **Crowns 4500** Walpurgis: 30th May *She was presumably arranging her marriage banns then?* Sunday. Harriet's banns were published, but I did not know!

x x x Finally at 6:30, but then she was satisfied.

1908. **286 [b].** 4th H–t has not answered my letter. She sought me during the morning but angrily, with hostility. Tempestuously at 12:30! but not out of love, only desire. I sent off a letter at dinner time. Her answer in the evening! See supplement! Autocomedy! W. goes to Gothenburg this evening! She says they are getting married in June! It is a lie! He does not want her! She received my second letter at the theater; but must not have read it before 10:30. – I fell asleep; was sought by H–t at 3:30, but while asleep, so that she withdrew when I responded. But she sought me again, and at 6:30 we found each other, in love. After so sharp a letter as yesterday's! It was like a thrashing! She must love being thrashed! 5th Sent off a new letter, as sharp and ruthless, which she must have read by now at 10 a.m. She is raging so that I want to choke! but seeking me too, erotically. In the morning I awoke from a dream, which made me cry: a mother was standing on a beach with her child, bathing. She let go of the child; I rescued it at the last moment; the mother drowned, and I saw her stomach-up; head and legs lay under water! In the morning I received a letter in which every single word was untrue. Tore it up! At 4 p.m. she attacked with palpitations, so that I very nearly choked. Apparently she had not read my latest letter until then. I slept until 5 p.m. Then she sought me erotically. Extraordinary being! And the whole evening, while acting Elga, she is with me. Last night at 11 p.m. I felt she was seeking me, but did not reach me; I was in some way protected from contact. Slept until 4 a.m., when she came. x x x . and at half past six. But she came selfishly and left, when she was satisfied; did not bother to wait for me. [I thought she got her period toward morning. 6th I got back my last letter through the post unopened! So much the better, for it was cruel! [After that I burned the last 3 letters which were angry ones; they swelled up, turned into shapes, and finally 2 hearts! Now at 11 a.m. she is with me, erotically. as I work. Telegram from Ranft, that he will take Swanwhite. I sent a telegram to H–t with the news, reminding her that it is our wedding day today – – – After which I slept and dreamt of W. – – – Then Falck arrived and announced, that Harriet's banns were published last Sunday the 3rd. And I did not know!!! It boggles my mind! Is she literally two people? And do I possess one of them? The better one? It seems so, since when we meet or write, we hate each other. Is this possible?\* Axel here in the evening; gloomy. – During the evening I could not say where I stood with H-t. At 4 p.m. and at 6:30 she sought me x x x . She also sought me at 12 a.m., but did not reach me! \* She must be two independent persons, does not know about it; because when I speak or write about this unconscious life we lead, she remains silent; does not respond, is unaware of it; or does not want to know. 7th H–t lived with me in love and eros from morning until dinner time. Affected by this I wrote a letter to Falck asking him to find out whether she is pregnant – In that case I offered to accompany her to Switzerland until the child is born; and she would not have to get married. – Now at 5 p.m. she assailed me erotically; I was about to give in, but just then there was a loud noise above my head, startling, purposeful. Then furniture moving. H–t moderately amiable during the evening. I was awakened at 1 a.m. at night by an unusual feeling: "she was sad, submissive and kissed me; but would not receive me; A month has passed since the engagement. May. Ms. Esther came! I sent Huon de Bordeaux with a dedication this evening.

however at 5 a.m. she came after I had kissed her. x . After that she sought me, but without joy and ardor.

NB! all the soil is now being transported away from the Gardener's. And all the manure is being burnt in large heaps!


1908. **288.** May. 10th This telepathic state (marriage, which of course has also been a reality), started before our engagement, when Harriet sought me at night in a way I could not explain; I was awakened from sleep and had the illusion that she was lying beside me; I had her in my arms, and had possessed her before I proposed. But I never thought about it then (i.e. when I proposed). Since then it has come about naturally every time she has been away. And distance does not exist. She has sought me from Paris and Vienna and we have found each other as man and wife. This can never cease! Drank wine in the evening; it gave me courage, and I decided that this life was unworthy, decided to break away; felt I was on the way to becoming free. Fell asleep! Slept until 3:30 when she woke me up; but she would not receive me until around 5; but briefly and passionately; after that she did not want me. But earlier she had been playful and kissed me, submissively as on only one previous occasion, although not entirely. 11th H–t amiable, loving all morning, sometimes erotic, but briefly. I think she has her period! In the morning I walked round Rosendal, where I have not been in months. It seemed to me that Harriet lay preserved there, and now she arose, I recovered her, felt ecstatic, wept and called out to her! [For I *have* spent seven summers roaming here and thinking of her, caressing the image of her I have in my mind, written about her. That is why she is preserved here! NB! I got engaged to Harriet on March 5th 1901; but before that I had possessed her telepathically at night from January 13th, 9 times. Jan: 13, 26; Feb: 12, 18, 20, 21, 22, 25, 27. During this time she came on daytime visits, looking just as innocent, as if nothing had happened. It really is extraordinary. Does she not know about her nocturnal adventures and visits to me? H–t has been loving all day, and erotic toward evening. I believe her period ends today, from the 6th = I have written her a letter now proposing, but have not sent it! This evening she assailed me, as if her period was ending; and I anticipated a night in Eros. But I did not wake up until 4:30, when she sought me. When I responded with caresses she disappeared; so I let her have her way, whereupon she came to me burning with passion. I responded; and now three embraces in a row followed without a pause, so that she withdrew as if spent. 12th H–t kindly toward me and in eros the entire morning. In the morning I saw a torn mattress floating in the water along the Sirishov shore, with straw protruding from it (Paillarde, paillardise!) Went up to Hasselbacken to see our Bird cherry leafing out outside the room, where our wedding took place, and to break off <sup>a</sup> twig\*. <sup>A</sup> waiter was standing on the slope, as though expecting me. Followed me with his eyes, and walked down to the tree. Another was sitting on a bench facing the tree, as though he were guarding it; two more men appeared, and then a waitress: who said: "Which way is the wind blowing now?" – In a word the tree appeared to be under surveillance, and I was not allowed to break off a twig. But it was green all over, and had sent out a number of root suckers! What does it mean? [The autumn before last, when Harriet returned from Jämtland, and visited me, she suddenly said: but we are married! – She meant: after all we have been living (telepathically) as man and wife all summer and long before that! (Cont.) Telephoned to Ruth! *The blue bed repaired, because two legs had fallen*  Started on Hebrew with a Russian Jew, who has become a Christian. \*] *Cf. May 6th on several occasions in this Diary, when I have picked the first green twig from the Bird cherry.*

*off!*

[

H–t sad yet erotic all day. Drank wine at dinner, liqueur in the evening


received some beastly news or been provoked and tormented. At around 2 I was awakened, with palpitations. But I had to seek her myself in eros; she was sad and unwilling. She came of her own accord around 4 a.m. and I took her by storm until 5 a.m. x x x . Later at around 6 a.m. I woke with violent erethism; wanted to embrace her straight away, but was instantly disarmed. This indicates that she is inside my body while asleep; but withdraws when awake, for otherwise my swift reversal is inexplicable. It normally takes time, but this was instantaneous. That is how it was, during our marriage when she sought me, offering herself; but when I came, I was disarmed by her "Athanor" which seems to possess an independent individuality. At the beginning of our marriage, and at the supreme moment, I was ejected, just as if her uterus was forcing me back.\* Probably waiting for me to cleanse my body first, before fertilization was allowed to take place.

In the evening I wrote to Anne-Marie and offered "my services'. But I burnt the letter in the morning with the thought: H–t must say the first word this time. Dreamt of the Thiels all night. It is my belief that they and C L are behind the intrigue. Axel also appears to be in the know. And I am in fact expecting him today. [Cf. this Diary in the Summer of 1903, a dream about C L and Mrs. Thiel and Harriet.

13th There was a sunken waterlogged canoe in the Sirishov Bay; also a withered, choppedoff fir branch. Tried to enter Hasselbacken and go to our wedding tree, but two men were guarding it!!! again!

Toward dinner time I "heard" Harriet's heart thumping with angst; I thought she was dying! So I sent her a card with a few words of comfort and offered her my help. 2 hours later I received the attached Sphinx-like reply! What does the letter say? – Nothing! A few words! words! "Wish me happiness! For I believe in happiness. Our banns have been published twice!" – What is this? Nothing!

Fell asleep. She sought me ardently, but I was as it were protected from within; something, which put up resistance against my will; forced back her onslaught. This was repeated right until morning, when she prevailed and I took her in my arms. She literally drained me and disappeared in a swoon.

14th Wrote a letter card to H–t in the morning. No reply! Wrote in the afternoon and proposed! – No reply! But only naive eroticism!

In the evening a red shaft radiated upward from the sun and the growing castle was illuminated! – No reply to my letter apart from amorous approaches. But I felt lighthearted all evening, drank liqueur and played Faust. Felt as though I were engaged. Fell asleep! Woke up at 3:30 and sought H–t, but she was absent; impossible to reach. But at the stroke of 5 my body sensed that her matrix was slowly moving downward; and when it was down, I ignited, and she too, at the same instant and embraces followed in love and eros. Her matrix really seems to be an independent entity, possessed of periodic desire; at 2 a.m. and 5 a.m. in H–t's case. Her little athanor appears to love my counterpart, which is as childish as hers, but it is independent of H–t's will, and has its own time for desire! In short it loves me against its owner's wishes. At 5 o'clock

*She suffered from both of prolapsus uteri, and inversio vaginæ. Which I endured without complaint.* \*


I sensed her as loving and erotic! which still persists at 2:30

**Cont. V.**

1908. **291.** 17th Cont. Long, painful; scarcely ate anything for dinner! H–t sought me erotically all day; not until 5 p.m. did I respond with good grace to her kisses. But she did not leave me until 7 p.m.; hardly then either. I know that she has been in contact with me in company, on streetcars, in the street in broad daylight; for we have grown into one being; and yet we are prevented from living together. There is no room for W here! And yet the banns were published for the 3rd time today! What is this? Ever since the stroke of 5 this morning we have coexisted; the same heartbeats, the same suffering, the same fears! Now she is on her way to the theater to perform for the public, but she is with me! Speaks to me. We can never be separated! It is actually finer of H–t not to wish to correspond, for our relationship is so delicate that it cannot stand words, either spoken or written. And I have a heavy hand. [Ungeschickte Hand.] Drank quantities of wine in the evening; slept heavily; did not wake until around 3; H–t sought me in vain; fell asleep and woke at 6:45, when I got up saved! Slept over 5 a.m.; that is! TBTG. But at about 10 p.m. before I fell asleep; H–t raged, so that I thought she was dying! After that she approached me in Eros and love, but I was protected. 18th H–t has been seeking me all day in Eros, but I am not answering – Axel here in the evening; **[**illegible deletion**]** Beethoven, with no fervor. – The night which followed was dreadful. I woke at 1:30, with H–t distending my Epigastrium, so that I had to get up. I waited for the stroke of 2; when she attacked in eros but I resisted and fell asleep about 3 Was roused again at 5:30; and was assailed again but resisted! Got up saved. 19th. H–t finally sought me in the morning full of love, and innocently, like a rose. When that scent came, I responded at dinner time. . . . . Then after dinner I sought her and attacked when she wanted to retire. Then we embraced again! And it was as before in eros. x . – Throughout the evening, while she is performing down at the theater, she is with me; erotically, naively. This morning there was a man on Djurgården, selling an ornamental pin: an anchor with a red stone and a white pearl. [Anchor = Hope] White banners are fluttering on the common. The growing castle illuminated by the sun in the evening. Went to bed at 9:30. Roused at 1:30; but unwillingly; fell asleep roused at 5:30; nothing happened, H–t being cold and skeptical. Saved. May Sunday: **H! Π [**P**].**

20th H–t seeking me faintly. I read D.N. H–t's underwear interview and her information about their honeymoon and the item about Swanwhite! – I drank at dinner, drank until 5 p.m. and eradicated her by destroying a pile of portraits! She is raging at me. I burnt all the portraits in a tiled stove, the Green Room. Browall arrived when I was about to fall asleep! Andersson, the photographer, came at 7:30. left at 8:30. At 9 p.m. I was going to bed, but was assailed so dreadfully by – **[**illegible deletion**]** hatred = currents, that I did not dare to lie down – Tightness in my chest; it is like a shower above, and below me. I believe it will kill me. – – – Fell asleep. Did not wake until 4:45; and at the stroke of 5 H–t sought me! But I got up! out of bed! [Cont] *She presumably got a telephone call from W in* 

*Gbg.*


# 1908. **293.**

May 25th Monday.

He has threatened in a letter to shoot me!

outside my old apartment I found two objects, resembling cartridges, connected by an iron wire. I asked a man if it was dynamite; he looked at them; pulled out some pliers *(!)* and cut the wire. I asked a guardsman; he thought it was an electric battery for a bell installation. I took them home and joined up the wire. Wrote grew sleepy, slept. Had lunch with schnapps and beer H–t now summoned me! I went into our yellow room! She met me and we embraced 6 times! – – – although she is married to W. After dinner

she vanished; could not be found.

*May 24th.*

At 6 o'clock Falck telephoned to say that Harriet and W got married yesterday! So what is all this? – – – I have been in a good, almost cheerful mood all day! Can this be explained? Axel here in the evening! [[I went to bed at 10 p.m. in order to escape visitors! But then something occurred with H–t, who was tormented Prayed God from the depths of my soul that I might henceforth be spared from living in this state which is now adultery. Slept with the hymnbook on my chest; continued praying to God in my sleep that he might gather my soul. Was awoken at 2:30 with my heart feeling as heavy as a stone and experienced a tightness below my chest. Read the Bible and prayed. – – – The clock struck 2! Whereupon it came irresistibly and as a friendly urging; Harriet was in my arms and received me with joy. I felt no self-reproach, only happiness and joy. Later she twice sought me again, but we were not allowed to meet any more! – Then morning came with self-reproach and despair.

26th Self-reproach, despair. Beg God to be allowed to die rather rather than to live in sin; for She is married now! At 9:30 *a.m.* She seeks me in eros! despite being married The

although she is married to W!

Harriet pursued me erotically the entire morning – so that I finally had to embrace her so as not to burn up! – Afterward despair and shame! I call out to God to be allowed to die! and not to live in sin!

Axel described a dream a few days ago. He was conducting a small Choir; Harriet stood on the one, I on the other side of the Choir. Axel was conducting with a Silver tablespoon. What does it mean? That H–t and I are to be reunited? Silver tablespoon? (A christening gift?) Is it possible, that this will end up as for Job? With 3 daughters? Jemima (= Day;) Kesia (= Scent, Fragrance) Keren Happuch (= Inverted Power and Glory). Is it possible? No!

I pray God each day and moment to be allowed to die! But He has concealed himself from me! I do not believe any human being has suffered as I have!

H–t pursues me, but I evade action. Lay down in the parlor for my after-dinner nap. Mrs. Castegren came. Falck came and interrupted. – – – After that a telephone call from Falck that Mrs. C would go down to H–t. to talk to her. Mrs. C. returned. – Quite so! Women! Freemasonry! Camorra! What did not fit into "the system" was disbelieved! *That was so good and calming!*

What will happen now? A New Blue Book is appearing tomorrow!

This afternoon I wrote two farewell letters to one to H–t, one to Axel and intended to shoot myself before evening! [Drank quantities of wine. Slept saved!

# 1908. **294.**

May 27th

Saw Anne-Marie on the doors of the tiled stove in her little bed with a watchdog at her feet

> Aulin invited himself for tomorrow!

During the night I slept secure from H–t's assaults. TBTG. Toward morning it felt as though I was being released from H–t; as though numerous small bands are being undone within my torso; first in my dorsal nerves; then in my spleen, liver, lungs, heart, stomach, the small of my back. It felt like a blissful release from tensions. – – Got up and washed my whole body; put on clean linen went out. There were flags all along Strandvägen: saw a flag with a black cross, but it was blue. Saw dried paint spilt in the street: red and green! – As I was drinking my coffee two amorous pigeons landed on the windowsill and looked into the parlor at me. Back on the street I had the pigeons coquetting in front of my feet. – Now at 9 a.m. A New Blue Book is coming out! –

White flags are fluttering on the common! But saw a black figure on the sofa when I woke up. Cried for Lillan half the day (Children's Day) – H–t. is seeking me with Love and eros, but I respond only with love. Had no dinner. In the evening it brightened somewhat, and I played All night H-t sought me in eros; I struggled, came close to succumbing, but was saved.

28th Woke up with this idea: that H–t has only made a pact with W. "for the sake of company" (as she wrote to me in her first letter); he has rented a room from her in her new apartment. He gets engaged, and the following night she is with me; he gets married, goes off; and at night she celebrates her nuptials with me. Is their relationship platonic? A spiritual Ehe without intercourse? Pactum turpe? Eunuch-Ehe? – – – Possibly! That's the riddle! But I have also had it whispered in my ear, that she was not married (at Pastor Fries') but was "bound" by some form of betrothal, or that nothing at all happened there! I met Fries one morning recently, and he looked very roguish.

Wept the entire morning! Resisted H–t's attacks! But after dinner I embraced her, instead of burning up! – No reproaches, only joy, and release from melancholy and suicidal impulses. – Abstinence has given rise to suicidal urges before now, has always done so! (Aug–Sept. 1901)

Now I think that this is as it should be! We shall see! – – –

The evening dreadful, although H–t accompanied me in eros –

Slept protected all night! Got up saved.

29th Dreadful morning! – Wept so that my soul almost flew out of my body! But H–t accompanied me in eros, reserved and sorrowful. I was forced to embrace her, so as not to take my own life! – – – She responded, with roses in my mouth! Is this a sin? Why am I not being warned? I have begged God to kill me, if it is a sin. [H–t seeks me in Eros all day!

Axel here in the evening! I went to bed with fresh ideas. Woke up around 2 and sought H–t, but did not find her; at around 6 she sought me, but I was protected! Got up saved. 30th Wrote to Ms. Falkner! She came on a visit! – – – H–t pursued me in the morning so that I had to embrace her! – Took a nap: Dreamt that Sven Palme said to me: "I have come from Gothenburg. W is finished, wants to go to sea, as a sailor; is half crazed, wanted to f– cate with a τυλpαν **[**tulip**]**."

Felt light-hearted in the evening! Will the solution come now? – That something has happened in Gbg is certain! Drank liqueur. Played the piano!

30th (Cont). Slept peacefully; but after a vain, sorrowful search; got up saved! May

31st H–t seeks me with infinite love, sad, desperate; it must be all over with W! Axel and Aulin here with Bach in the evening: Beethoven until 3 a.m. when the sun rose – Our mood good but serious. At 5 a.m. I was awakened by H–t who appeared to want to kill me; or take me by force. I was saved, got up, went – out! Sunday. The cuckoo clock was heard the day before yesterday; the White figure on the balcony seen; everything augurs well! Wait and see!

June

1st H–t seeks me mournfully *the entire morning!*; when I have responded, she is so tempestuous that I have to embrace her several times; and she receives me without any reservation or hesitation, with great and infinite love. And today her husband W is coming!

At dinner time I was attacked by unbelievable palpitations and shooting pains in the gut. I think H–t got a telegram that he had decamped or something similar; and that she fell ill with hysteria. I was in pain the whole afternoon; but H–t who appears to be in bed accompanies me in eros, as though she were guarding me jealously. What has happened today? The theater closed yesterday in Gbg and Sthlm. He *W* ought to have set off today! or may have arrived!

Tomorrow my whole life will likely be decided. My revolver is loaded! I feared the night; prayed God for deliverance and placed the revolver by my bedside. Was sought by H–t in eros toward morning, but she disappeared. – Got up saved!

2nd They must have met at this moment. H–t is gone! But at about 11 *a.m.* she sought me, shyly, in eros. I responded! –Where is he *W* now? In Gbg? or here? Where is he? This is the critical day! –

H–t sought me, but mournfully as to ascertain if she still has me here! – When I responded seriously, she withdrew! I believe she is ill in bed here in Stockholm! – Tor Aulin here between 5:30–7:30. H–t sought me the whole time, now and then tempestuously! – – – Went to bed at 10 p.m.; H–t was waiting for me; and I embraced her several times with infinite love! – Then at 5 a.m. but without joy. What is this? Where is she? Is she married? How can there be room for me?

3rd H–t now seeks me constantly, in eros, at my desk! – All day! But at times I am in despair! Albert Wickman and Ms. Falkner paid calls. Scarcely ate a thing for dinner! – – – Evening terrible. – Thunderstorm! – Called out to God: My God, my God why hast thou forsaken me?! In the evening Blake's Book of Job came and comforted me! H–t sought me during the night at 2 and 5 a.m. with great love, and I responded!

4th Observed in Refuse Bay: Two dry, chopped-off fir branches, laid in a cross, with a broken cane on top. This broken cane has been swimming about in the bay for several days. Presumably means: we have been cut off at the root and the cane broken. Soon there will be enough thrashing! – Back home again at my desk a sleepy Wasp settled on my leg; I killed it! – Presumably means this or that!

H–t seeks me throughout the morning with infinite love and in eros, with roses in


Whitsuntide was infinitely dreary; but I did a lot of work on A Blue Book.

# 1908. **297.**



The cramping in my epigastrium start at 5:30, unbearable! After 60 years of torture! I pray God to be allowed to take leave of life! What little happiness there was, was illusory or false! My work was the only thing! but in part it was wasted; or useless, or harmful.

Wife, children, home, everything was false!


1908. **300.** [Cont.] At around 1 p.m. the shooting pains started again. I resisted for a while but then I noticed that H–t was seeking me. I replied that I was still with her; and now it calmed down. She felt friendly and loving (Simultaneously at about 2 p.m. a salute of guns); I had found her again; as roses in my mouth, palpitations and eros. What has happened now? Is she clenching me? But with such force? I seem to be doomed to love her or die! Ate a little something for dinner. Slept quietly. No distension at 6 p.m.; but around 8 it started. I sat down at the piano. H–t sought me. I sat down at my desk; H–t was there too. And as soon as I answer her, the distensions calm down. So the onslaughts are hers! Dreadful evening with suicidal urges! [Mrs. Carlén the caretaker came in and chatted\*] Afterward H–t came to my desk, friendly, loving. Went to bed at 10 p.m. When I then began to be attacked by H–t, I embraced her to find peace. – Found peace and fell asleep. But was woken up at midnight and had such a bursting pain until 5 a.m. that I thought I would die. It rose up from my stomach like two swords through my lungs. But I could not bring myself to abuse H–t; I then felt her fiendish hatred with a sickening smell as of madness; as though she were lying there murdering me through some black magic. The distension vanished on the stroke of 5, when otherwise I am usually summoned in her arms – Walked out to Djurgården. On the stroke of 9 out on Djurgården my epigastrium was distended upward into my chest! But it only lasted ½ an hour. Worked all day and was spared pain, probably because I maintained faint contact with H–t. It was peaceful until 6:30, when terrible cramping in my chest and stomach began. Drank a Whiskey, which had no taste. Sat down at my desk! H–t was there! and caused shooting pains. I went into the Yellow room and embraced her x x x . Which brought peace! – Is this what she wants of me? Then what is her "husband" to her? – She is after June 14th Is she with Lillan on Vettersö? **[**\***]** About Klemming! 15th

all my wife! So things are as they should be! The sun sets at 9:02 behind the turret of the house at 68 Nybrogatan. But I have made a note that it set at the same spot on June 20th June 20th June last year 1907. But to the left of the turret, further to the west. Night came. H–t clenched me; when I immediately stroked her with my hand it abated. Was woken up at 3 and 5 a.m., escaped the pains by caressing her; but she could not receive me (period, or prolapse, inversion?). NB!

# 1908. **301.**


[Cont.] Dreadful day! June 21st

> With dreadful night! Tormented for five hours! Dreamt of H–t, honorably, beautifully; as when she once tied a cravat for me and afterward kissed me on the mouth like her child. Also dreamt of a grouse hen that brushed against me to be stroked; she was afraid of me, I thought I was dangerous; so I stroked her; and then she flew up and settled on the perch or shelf of the hen house.


## Doctor summoned!

 Stayed on at Karlavägen 40 until the 11th

10 11 moved to Drottninggatan 85.IV July

 Wrote "The Last Knight" 17th–27th August.

## **[Back of inner cover]**


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Married 1st time 1877, divorced 1892. (Siri von Essen) Married 2nd time 1893, divorced 1897 (?) (Frida Uhl) 5th February


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**INDEXES**

# **Index of names**

This index follows the Swedish praxis of listing words starting with, or containing, the Swedish letters Å, å, Ä, ä, and Ö, ö at the end of the alphabet. Page numbers indicate page in the diary.

## **A**

Achard, Amédée 38 Adler, Viggo 36, 37, 38, 74, 75 Aeschylus ("Æschylus") 61, 127, 135 Ahlquist, Alf 219, 233, 240 Ahlquist, Inez 170, 219, 232, 233, 235 Alberoni, Giulio 22 v. Albertus Magnus 2, 115 Alençon, Sofia Charlotta Augustine 76 Alma (maid) 253 Almlöf, Knut 65 Almqvist, Carl Jonas Love 86, 87 Amanda (unidentified) 263 v. Amenhotep IV 223 "American engineer" (unidentified) 3 Andersen, Hans Christian 84 Anderson, Herman ("the photographer", "A–n", "H. A–n") 118, 242, 247, 257, 263 v., 264, 265, 291 Andersson ("Shoemaker") 95, 116 Andersson ("The Icelander") 48, 51

Andersson, Nils ("Nils A–n") 77, 84, 85, 88, 94, 105, 115, 116, 123, 205, 206, 231, 232, 258, 262, 275, 292, 299 Andrée, Salomon August 4, 7, 32–33, 35, 36, 37, 42, 72, 112 Angered-Strandberg, Hilma 120 Ansgar 73 Aretino, Pietro 245 Aristotle 47 Arlberg, Fritz 1 Arrhenius, Svante 227 Ask, Carl Jacob 36, 37 Ask, Frans Olof 37 Attel, Eugène d' 98 Atterbom, P.D.A. 17, 18, 247 Aubert, Ephrem 50 Augusta (maid) 248 Augustine 195 Aulin, Tor 200, 204, 237, 242, 245, 275, 276, 284, 292, 294, 295

## **B**

Baader, Franz Xaver von 62 Bach, Carl 245, 295 Bach, Johann Sebastian 199 Bagge, Julius 109 Ballisford (unidentified) 40, 41, 42 Balsamo, Giuseppe see Cagliostro, Alessandro Balzac, Honoré de 24, 128, 154 Banér, Johan 102 Bang, Herman 67, 88 Bartholomew 73 Beauharnais, Joséphine 53, 56, 70, 71 Beck-Friis, Corfitz 23 Beethoven, Ludvig van 28, 29, 66, 96, 125, 133, 137, 140, 141 a, 144, 145, 154, 162, 170, 200, 201, 203, 207, 218, 237, 245, 248, 256, 266, 271, 272, 274, 275, 291, 292, 295 Bendz, Hans 60, 203 v. Benedictsson, Victoria 88 Bengtsson, Sven 18, 20, 21, 23, 45, 59 Berend, Sedgvick 25 Bergen, Carl von 38 Berger, Anna Elisabeth 231 Berger, Henning 230, 231, 232, 234, 235, 236, 242 Bergh, Amy 239 Bergh, Gerda 225, 239, 263 v. Bergh, Richard 91, 105, 110, 114, 121, 122 b, 125, 133, 136, 137, 140, 141 a, 144, 145, 150, 170, 193, 198, 200, 203, 205, 206, 218, 224, 225, 228, 232, 235, 237, 238 v., 239, 248, 251, 263 v. Bergling, Clara ("Mrs. Gyllensköld") 145, 170, 263 v. Bergman, Anders Evald 111 Bergman, William 129, 204, 222 Bergström, David 21 Bergström, Richard 126

Bernadette of Lourdes, Saint ("the Madonna of Lourdes") 5 Bernadotte, Jean-Baptiste ("Charles XIV") 2, 230 Bernhardt, Sarah 10, 162 Bertha (maid) 159 Berthelot, Marcelin 5 Bertrand, Henri Gratien 70 Berzelius, Jöns Jakob 41, 57, 78, 115, 116, 124, 129, 201, 212, 239, 265 Besant, Annie 30 Bianchini, Artur 124 Biel (unidentified) 91 Billot, Jean-Baptiste 91 Birger, Hugo 91 Bismarck, Otto von 20, 27, 64 v., 67, 74, 234 Bjurman, Gunnar 265 Björck, Albert 263 Björkegren, Olga ("Olga B–n") 246 Björklund, Johan Abraham 10, 20, 225 Björlin, Gustaf 33 Björling, Manda 267, 268 Björnson, Björn 170 Björnson, Björnstjerne 37, 98, 165 Blake, William 295 Blanche, August 87, 111 Blavatsky, Helena Petrovna ("H.P.B.") 19, 45 Block, Paul 32 Bobrikov, Nikolaj 208, 273 Boisdeffre, Raoul de 76, 91 Boito, Arrigo 110 Bolin ("a woman", "this lady") 228

Bonaparte, Napoléon Joseph Charles Paul 53 Bonaparte, Victor 53 Bonde, Carl Carlsson 89 Bondeson, August 64, 244, 245 Bonnier, Albert 105, 119 Bonnier, Eva 91 Bonnier (publishing house) Outer cover Bonnier, Karl Otto Outer cover, 121, 122 b, 128, 210, 245, 266, 273, 276, 286 a, 287 Bonpart ("prison warder Bonapart") 22 v. Borglund (unidentified) 18 Boschkitscheff (unidentified) 1 Bosse, Alma see Fahlström, Alma Bosse, Dagmar see Möller, Dagmar Bosse, Ewald 170 Bosse, Harriet ("β", "H–t") 28, 94 v., 116, 117, 123 v., 124, 125, 126, 128–132, 133, 134–136, 137, 138–141 b, 142, 143–151, 153, 154–160, 162, 163–170, 172, 193–198, 199–201, 202, 203, 204–211, 213–216, 217–219, 221, 222, 223–225, 226, 228–234, 235–238, 239, 240, 241–246, 247–251, 252–254, 256–265, 267, 269, 271, 272, 275, 276, 278–302 Bosse, Heinrich ("Henrik") 209 Bosse, Johanne 147 v., 209 Bosse ("German swindler") 224 Bovallius, Carl Erik 277 Bracke, Ole 36, 38 Brahe, Tycho 92 Brahm, Otto 10

Brahms, Johannes 194 Brand, Gustaf ("Brandt") 27–29, 33, 37, 38, 52, 60, 70, 71 Brand, Hugo 32 Brandes, Edvard 42, 88 Brandes, Georg 16, 37, 38, 59, 69, 74, 88, 98, 112, 116, 235 Branting, Anna 105, 111, 172, 231 Branting, Hjalmar 105, 111, 139, 172, 199, 231 Brault, Paul Marie ("The Chief of the French General Staff") 101 Brigitta, St. Bridget of Sweden 130 Brodén, Nils 23, 28, 32, 36, 68 Brodén, Torsten 23, 28, 32, 36, 68, 232 Broström, Mina ("My present housekeeper") 278, 283, 285, 286 a Brovall, Gustav Ludvig 267, 291 Brutus, Lucius Junius 72 Brutus, Marcus Junius 72 Buddha 152, 205, 277, 278 Bulwer, Edward Lytton 120 Bungener, Louis Félix 33 Buonaparte, Nordille 22 v. Burén, Axel 111 Bülow, Bernhard von 85 v. Bülow, Christian 60, 65, 81 Bülow, Ester 35, 38, 66, 71, 79, 81, 83, 85, 105 Bülow, Waldemar ("W.B.") 17, 18, 20, 22, 23, 24, 28, 29, 32, 35, 36, 37, 38, 39, 44, 66, 79, 81, 82, 83, 85, 85 v., 88, 90, 100, 107, 245 Bäckström, Helge 14 Bölsche, Wilhelm ("Böltzsche") 88

## **C**

Caesar, Julius 1, 30, 41, 71, 72 Cagliostro, Alessandro 90 Calas, Jean 98 Calvin, Jean 219 Carl, Prince 22, 215, 230 Carlén ("Mrs.", "the caretaker") 300 Carlheim-Gyllensköld, Vilhelm 22, 34, 111, 117, 121, 128, 129, 133, 136, 137, 139, 140, 141 a, 145, 150, 157, 159, 160, 167, 168, 170, 194, 201, 202, 203, 205, 206, 209, 224, 228, 232, 239, 247, 260, 263 v. Carlsson, Anna ("Hairdresser") 200 Carlsson, Emil 20 Carpeaux, Jean-Baptiste 4 Carrière, Louis 98 Carsten, Asmus J. 69 Cassagnac, Paul de 97 Castegren, Hilda Carolina 293 Castegren, Victor ("C–n") 230, 251, 252, 255, 256, 280, 284, 286 a Castrén, Gunnar 244, 248, 280 Cato, Marcus Porcius (Cato The Younger) 146, 148, 149 Cavaignac, Godefroy 89 Cavallin, Paul 58, 59, 84, 96, 111, 113 Cederström, Bror 266 Cederström, Carl ("Baron C–m") 92 Cederström, Marika see Stiernstedt, Marika Chaillée ("Chailléte"; unidentified) 46 Chamuel, Lucien (pen name of Lucien Mauchel) 42 Charles VII 9

Charles IX 75 Charles XII 103, 104 Charles XIV Johan see Bernadotte, Jean-Baptiste Charlotte, Mme see Futterer Caron, Charlotte Chateaubriand, François René de 22 v., 23 v. Cherbuliez, Victor Title page verso, 107 Chopin, Frédéric 209 Christiernsson, Henrik 108, 121 Cicero, Marcus Tullius 47 Clavenad, C. 49 Clemenceau, Georges 86, 241 Cleve, Per Teodor 226, 227 Clovis 72 Cochery, Georges Charles 50 Cœur, Jacques 9 Coligny, Gaspard de Chatillon de 75 Collin, August 20, 28, 29, 38, 88 Conradin of Schwaben 22 v. Constant, Alphonse-Louis see Lévi, Éliphas Constantine the Great 22 v., 70, 71 Constantius Chlorus ("Constantine Chlorus") 70 Contard, Paul ("Contat") 46 Coppée, François 71, 72, 113 Corot, Camille 91 Corelli, Marie (pen name of Mary Mackay) 21 Crane, Walter 138 Crookes, William 44 Cuno, Johann Christian 297 Curie, Pierre 227, 238 Curie, Marie 227

## **D**

Dahlbom, Johan 39 Dahlbom, Wilhelm 39 Dalén, A. ("student") 203 v., 204 Dalitzsch, Max 48 Dalsjö, Magnus 201 v. Dalström, Gustav Mauritz ("Dahlström") 93, 95, 100, 106, 108, 113 Dalström, Kata ("Dahlström") 93, 95, 100, 106, 108, 113, 207 Daniel ("the Governor") 85 v., 86 Danielson, Anders Peter 77 Danielsson, Axel 67, 104, 106, 108, 113 "Danish minister" 65 Dante Alighieri 9, 22 v., 108, 139, 146, 249, 265 David, Greta 93 David, Marie 35, 37, 39, 93 David, Marie (unidentified) 37 De Geer, Louis 12 Dehmel, Richard 88 de Laval, Gustaf ("Delaval") 7, 12, 14, 20, 95 Deleen, Carl 254 Delhom, J.M. 54 Depert ("prison guard", "police sergeant") 85 v., 88 v., 89 Desprez, Louis 88 de Wahl, Anders ("de. W.", "δε W.") 103, 118, 122 b, 123, 124, 145, 151, 165, 246, 277, 282, 287 Dickens, Charles 44 Dickson, Oscar 29 Diderot, Denis 38 Dolcke, Magda von 170

Doloire, Émile de 1 Doré, Gustave 108 Drachmann, Holger 12, 67, 88, 111, 246, 247 Drachmann, Sophie Elisabeth 247 Dreyfus, Alfred 3, 8 v., 41, 53, 74, 76, 83, 85 v., 86, 87 v.–89, 91, 92 v., 93, 94 v., 97, 98–101, 102, 121, 122 b v., 141 b v., 162 v., 163, 194, 235, 240 v., 241, 244 Dreyfus, Lucie 76 Dubosc, André 34 "Duke of Anjou" 22 v. Dumas père, Alexandre 121 Dörum, August 20

## **E**

Ebba (maid) 103, 109 Ebbe, Axel 21, 32 Edelfelt, Albert 283 Edgren see Leffler, Anne Charlotte Egerton, Francis Henry (Bridgewater) 154 Eisen, Gustaf 201, 212–214, 242, 243 Ekbohrn, Ossian ("Ekborn") 13, 284 Ekegren, Johannes (Jöns) 84, 85 Ekstéen, Albert Fredrik 7 Ekström, Per 49 v., 91 Ekwall, Ernst Hugo 65 v. Eldh, Carl 232, 269 Eliason, Oscar ("Eliasson") 117, 155, 237, 265 Eliasson, Anders ("Elias") 3, 5–7, 13, 15, 18, 30, 37, 53, 54, 88, 106, 117, 121, 122 a, 169 Eligius, Saint ("S. Eloi") 76 Elin (nanny) 232, 233

Elisabeth, Empress of Austria 76, 76 v., 77, 79 v. Ellen (maid) 163, 168, 170, 172, 193, 214, 257, 259, 261, 267 Elmlund, Axel 13 Emerson, Ralph Waldo 207 Emeryk, Wladyslaw 142 v. Emma (maid) 116 Emmens, Stephen 12, 53, 54, 121 Encausse, Gérard see Papus Engelbrecht, August 231 Enghien, Louis Antoine Henri de Bourbon-Condé d' 23 v. Engström, Albert 92, 170, 236, 242 Engström & Engeström (lending library and secondhand bookstore) 115, 200 Ericsson ("the violinist"; unidentified) 202 Erik Magnusson 87 Erikson, Johan 34 Eriksson, Christian 113, 121, 170, 199, 205, 222, 263 Eriksson, Leif 3 Eriksson, Magnus 67, 87 Ernesti, Johann August 297 Eskilsson ("in Gasverksgatan") 18 Esmann, Gustav 211 Essen, Fredrik von 202, 236, 245 Essen, Siri von ("Siri Wrangel") 4, 6, 27–29, 86, 110, 127, 215, 238, 272, Back of inner cover Esterházy, Ferdinand Walsin 52, 76, 87 v., 88 v., 89, 94 v., 121, 241 Esther (maid) 286 b Eugen, Prince 279, 286 a Eugenie, Empress of France 53

Eurenius, Axel 84 Euripides 127, 131, 162

## **F**

Fahlbeck, Pontus 123 Fahlman, Louise 254 Fahlström, Alma 123 v., 209 Fahlström, Johan 123 v., 209 Falck, August ("Falk") 105, 119, 251, 256, 262, 265–276, 278, 279, 281, 283, 286 b, 287, 292, 293, 298, 301 Falck, Johan August 165 Falkner, Fanny 294, 295, 297, 298, 301 Fallstedt, Ingel ("Ingel Fallström") 91 Fallström, Daniel 103, 111, 118 Faure, Félix 50, 84 Favre, Jules 22 v. Feilitzen, Otto von 220, 229 Ferry, Jules 91 Fersen, Axel von 231 Festus, Porcius 118 Fielitz, Oscar von 220 Filiger, Charles 1 Fischier, Per 242 Fittica, Friedrich 226, 228, 247 Flammarion, Camille 42, 72, 113, 201 v. Flaubert, Gustave 39, 88 Flodin (unidentified) 209 Florian, Saint 9, 10 Florin, Maria 112 Flyborg, Gustaf Gottfrid 111 Flygare, Anna 281, 287

Fock ("Baroness"; unidentified) 241 Foerder, Marthe 5, 6 [Forger] (unidentified) 10 Forssberg ("the bookkeeper"; unidentified) 5 Forssberg, Edvard August 155 Forssell, Hans 10 Forsstrand, Johan Ulric 122 b Fouquet, Nicolas 22 v. Fourcroy, Antoine François de 265 Frænkel, Knut 42 Francé, Raoul 247, 248 Francis II ("Emperor Franz") II 22 v., 76 Francis Joseph ("Emperor Franz Josef") 77 Frederick III, the Wise 228, 268 Fredrikson, Gustaf 65, 109 Fries, Samuel A. 294 Fritze (bookstore) 115 Frumerie, Agnes de 1, 62 Frumerie, Gustaf de 6 Fröberg, Einar ("Fr., the actor") 221 Fröding, Gerda 95, 237, 251 Fröding, Gustaf 17, 30, 74, 88, 113, 224, 241 Fröding, Hugo 172, 211, 214, 217, 221, 229, 246, 247, 251, 252, 253, 264 Frölander, Henrik Theodor 278 Frölich, Gösta ("F") 235 Fu Xi ("Fo-Hi") 63 Futterer Caron, Charlotte ("Madame Charlotte") Title page verso, 2, 4, 5, 21, 132, 135, 172, 207 Fürstenberg, Otto L. 201, 214 Fåhraeus, Klas 32, 109, 111, 136

Fägerskiöld, Helga ("Fægersköld") 18, 89

## **G**

Galton, Francis Title page Gandolphe, Maurice 66 Garborg, Arne 108, 113 Gauguin, Paul ("Goguin") 135, 246 Gautier, Émile Title page verso Gautier, Théophile 108 Geber, Hugo 170 Geijer, Erik Gustaf 247 Geijerstam, Emanuel af 17, 20, 28, 232 Geijerstam, Eugenie (Nennie) af 106, 114, 129, 148, 153, 157 Geijerstam, Gustaf af ("G af G") 25, 26, 28, 57, 67, 79, 83 v., 84, 86, 87, 90, 92, 101, 102, 105, 106–111, 113–115, 117, l19, 120, 121, 122 b, 125, 130, 156, 160, 163, 195, 225, 237, 247, 248, 263 v., 271 Geijerstam, Karl af 83 v., 84, 90 Geijerstam, Maria Ulrika Clementina af 163 Geijerstam, Sven af 102 George II 22 Georgi, John 206 v. Gérard-Arlberg, Judith 55 Gernandt (publishing house) 57, 66, 67, 79, 87, 89, 165 Gernandt, Christian 119 Gernandt, Ernst 123, 132 Gillberg, Håkan ("Gbg") 77, 85, 88, 107 Ginsburg, P.J. ("a Russian Jew", "my Hebrew teacher") 288, 290

Giron, André 165 Gleerup ("Captain on the Motala") 110 "Mr. Gleerup" (unidentified) 110 Gluck, Christoph Willibald 203 Goethe, Johann Wolfgang von 225, 244 Goldschmidt, Meïr Aron 75 Goncourt, Edmond de 112 Goncourt, Jules de 112 Gorky, Maxim ("Gorki") 223 Gracchus, Gaius Sempronius 2 Gracchus, Tiberius Sempronius 2 Grandinson, Emil 103, 122 b Grétor, Willy 14, 15 Grieg, Edvard 252, 271 Grube (unidentified) 301 Grundal, Isabel 20 Gråberg, Otto 60 Guaïta, Stanislas de 48 Guangxu ("The Emperor of China") 77 Gullberg, Gustaf 39 Gustafsson ("the fool") 79 v. Gustav ("the Crown Prince") 111 Gustav Adolf ("Prince G. Adolf") 223 Gustav II Adolf 26, 102, 124, 197 Gustav III 49 v., 156 Gutenberg, Johann 53 Gyldén, J.A. Hugo 15 Gyllenhammar, Albertina 218, 219, 220 Gyllenhammar, Bengt 218, 219, 220, 224, 231 Gyllenhammar, Patrick 220 Gyllensköld see Carlheim-Gyllensköld

## **H**

Haase (unidentified) 28 Haeckel, Ernst 267 Hagberg, Emmy Amanda ("Mrs. Janson") 241 Hagborg, August 91 Halldén, Björn 198 Hallström, Gunnar 253, 254, 266 Hallström, Per 105 Hammer, Christian 91, 92 Hammerich, Karin 211 Hamsun, Knut 164 Hansson, August ("August H–n") 85 Hansson, Axel 142, 205 v., 231, 263 v. Hansson, Betty ("B.H.") 85 Hansson, Ola 88, 113 Hansson, Valborg ("Mrs. Hansson") 199 Hansson, Åke (also Åke Hansson's restaurant) ("Åke H–n's", "Åke H's", "Åke's") 17, 18, 19, 20, 22, 23, 27–29, 30, 31, 32, 33, 34, 38, 41, 65, 66–69, 71, 72, 75, 77, 79, 83, 84, 85, 88, 95 Hartleben, Otto Erich 88, 107 Hartman, Ellen 65, 109, 266 Hartman, Victor 65 Hartmann, Carl Christian Ernst 290 Hartmann, Eduard von 88, 147 Hartzell, Gustaf (Gusten) 93 Hartzell, Nora ("sister Nora") 93, 94, 104, 109, 114, 214, 246, 251, Back of inner cover Hartzell, Stina 246, 251 Hasselberg, Per 91, 138

Hauptmann, Gerhart 88, 163 Haydn, Joseph 281 Hazelius, Artur 23, 45, 66 Hector, David ("Hektor") 69, 102, 231 Hedberg, Frans 296 Hedenstierna, Alfred ("Sigurd") 246, 248 Hedin, Sven Adolf 65 Hedlund, Anna Gustafva Aimée ("Mrs. Hedlund") 227, 228 Hedlund, Erik 52, 212 Hedlund, Henrik 227 Hedlund, Sven Adolf 27, 122 a Hedlund, Torsten ("Th. H") Title page, 5, 10, 11, 14, 15 Heegård, Poul 201 v. Hegel, Friedrich 146, 277 Heiberg, Gunnar 55, 109, 111 Heidenstam, Olga Matilda see Wiberg, Olga Matilda Heidenstam, Oscar Gustaf von Title page verso Heidenstam, Verner von ("v. H–m.") 13, 25, 56, 115, 122 a, 235 Heine (unidentified) 80 Heine, Heinrich 76, 224, 234 Heinz (1692) 72 Heinz (1792) 72 Hentz (1693) 38 Hentz (1793) 38 Helena, Saint ("Sainte Hélène") 22 v., 70 Hellberg, Frithiof 249 Hellqvist, Axel Johan 25 Hellwald, F. von 221

Hennings, Betty Mathilde 121 Hennings, Henrik 121 Henry IV 4 Henry, Hubert-Joseph 74, 76, 86, 89, 98 Herman, Francis 122 b v. Herrlin, Axel Parchment cover, Title page, 17, 20, 23, 24, 26, 28, 31, 32, 33, 44, 47, 53, 58, 59, 66, 68, 77, 82, 83, 84, 85, 86, 89, 96, 105, 106 Herrmann, Paul 19, 21, 42, 43, 45–46, 47–48, 49, 53, 122 b v., 211 Hertz, John (penname of John Jönsson) ("Herz") 85, 108 Herz, Cornelius 241 Hesiod 216 Hesselgren ("Miss"; unidentified) 18 Hessler, S.A. 38 Heyman, Bertha 94 Heyman, Emma 94 Heyman, Daniel 94 Hierta-Retzius, Anna 227, 274 Hildebrand, Hans 107, 111 Hillberg, Emil 14, 117, 118, 158, 277 Hirsch, Hjalmar 3, 10, 17 Hirsch, Isaac 86 Hirsch, Julius 69, 70 Hoffmann, E.T.A. 82, 87 Holberg, Ludvig 123, 126 Holm, Gustaf 284 Holmberg, G. 66 Holmgren, Hjalmar 111 Holmgren, Lovisa 111 Holst, Nils O. 88, 96 Holten, Sophie 10 Holz, Arno ("Aron Holtz") 88

Horatius, Quintus Flaccus ("Horace") 258 Hultgren, Olof Johan ("District Judge Hgn") 128 Humbert, Gustave 195 Humbert, Thérèse 195 Humboldt, Alexander von 107 Hunderup, Hans 35, 156 Huysmans, Joris-Karl 44, 88, 112, 113 Händel, Georg Friedrich ("Hændel") 162 Hök, Ethel 237

## **I**

Ibsen, Henrik 59, 107, 112, 119, 210, 231, 239 In de Betou, Sofia ("C G W with Wife") 198

## **J**

Jæger, Hans 88 Jansdotter, Kristina ("August Lindberg's mother") 28 Janson, Gustaf ("Gustaf Janzon") 223, 230, 232, 234, 263, 277 Jaurès, Jean 54, 86 Jeanne d'Arc ("Joan of Arc") 9, 19, 21, 44, 55, 86 Jeffkin, J. 141 a, 206 Jesus Christ Title page, 5, 9, 22, 27, 48, 61, 62, 73, 82, 84, 86, 91, 92, 96, 100, 122 b, 131, 249, 256 Joan of Arc see Jeanne d'Arc Joël, Hannah (pen name of Helga Johansen) 132 Johansson ("the maid") 267, 269, 278

John George I 197 John of God, Saint ("Johannes di Dio", "Saint-Jean de Dieu") 24, 56 Jollivet-Castelot, François 49 Josephson, Ernst ("Ernst Josefson") 91 Josephson, Joseph ("Josef Josefson") 107 Josephson, J.A. ("Josefson") 122 b Juel Przybyszewska, Dagny ("Aspasia") 7, 14, 18, 52, 53, 55, 106, 142 v., 143, 153, 157 Jäderin, Axel 276 Jönsson, Magnus (Måns) 96 Jörgen see Lundström, Georg Filip Jørgensen, Johannes 113

## **K**

Karadja, Mary ("Karadsja") 236, 237, 244 Kardec, Allan (pen name of Hippolyte Léon Denizard Rivail) 42 Karlin, Georg J:son 25 Kellberg, Karl Bravo 273 Kellgren, Johan Erik 126 Key, Ellen ("Ms. Key") 164 Key, Gustaf Leonard 66 "Key's woman" (unidentified) 66 Kipling, Rudyard Outer cover, 84 Kjellgren, Alrik 298 Kjerrman, Fritz 13 Kléen, Emil 16, 18, 24, 29, 32, 38, 52, 53, 54, 65, 66, 69, 79, 80, 81, 88, 95, 104, 113, 122 a Klein, H.J. 264 Klemming, Gustaf Erik 56, 73, 116, 126, 231, 240, 248, 270, 273, 290, 300

Klemming, Henrik 116, 154, 239 Klinger, Max 257 Knorring, Carl Lennart von 92 Knorring, O. von (unidentified) 203 Knös, Vilhelm 251 Kôersner, Vilhelm 119 Kolmodin, Johan Adolf 267 Kolthoff, Gustaf 64 v. Kopp, Hermann 239 Kopparberg ("Ms."; maid) 252 Koppel, Henrik ("the Publisher") 245, 255 Kovalevskij, Sonja ("Kowalewski") 88 Kreüger ("Mrs.") 263 Kromnow (unidentified) 20, 30 Kromnow's girl friend (unidentified) 20 Krøyer, Peter Severin 88, 91, 111 Kumlin, L.F. 258 Kyhlberger, Emma ("Mrs.") 105 Kyhlberger (unidentified) 105 Kylberg, Carl 272 Kypers (unidentified) 203

## **L**

Kåge, Ivar 286 a

L., Thyra (unidentified) 103 Labori, Fernand 86, 98, 99, 195, 241 Lagerheim, Regina Sofia 208 Lamm, Axel 72, 162, 215 Lamm, Per 46, 163, 278 Lammfromm, Marie (unidentified) 23 Landberg, Carlo 35 Landin, John 90, 115, 227 Lange, Algot 20, 231 Langen, Albert 14

Larsen, Karl 109 Larsson, Augusta Title page verso Larsson, Carl ("C L", "C.L.") 91, 93, 110, 113, 115, 117, 122 b, 125, 139–141 a, 158, 159, 168, 169, 195, 204, 232, 246, 247, 268, 271, 289 Larsson, Gustaf Title page verso, 266 Larsson, Hans 17, 30, 32, 36 Larsson, Karin 113, 271 Las Cases, E.A.D. de 21 Laurens, Jean Paul 54 Lautenburg, Siegmund 32 Lauzun, Antoine Nompar de Caumont de 22 v. Lawrence, Saint 69 Lebrun-Renault, Charles 88 v., 89 Lecaisne, Mlle (also "Lecain"; unidentified) 4, 7, 135, 172, 206 v. Leffler, Anne Charlotte ("Mrs. Edgren") 88 Lehman, Johanne see Bosse, Johanne Lehman, Moïse 56 Leibniz, Gottfried Wilhelm von ("Leibnitz") 62, 63 Lenngren, Anna Maria 112 Lennstrand, Victor 5 Lermina, Jules 2, 5 Levart, Johan ("Lervart") 228 Levertin, Oscar (O. L–n) 86, 115, 243, 245, 248, 270 Lévi, Éliphas Parchment cover, 53 Levi, Max 272 Levy ("Attorney Levy in Berlin") 13 Lidforss, Bengt ("B.L.") 14, 17, 18, 20, 27, 29, 32, 33, 34, 35, 36, 66, 166, 267 Lidforss, Hedvig ("Hedwig L–s") 35

Lidforss ("The whole Lidforss Family") 17 Lie, Erik 3 Lie, Jonas 3, 7, 46, 142 Lie, Mons 3 Liebig, Justus von 40, 41 Lilljekvist, Fredrik ("Liljeqvist", "Liljekvist") 147 v., 263 v. Linck, Josef 107 Lindberg, August ("A L", "L–g") 28, 89, 103, 104, 119, 120, 129, 130, 166, 232, 250, 251, 266, 268, 275, 276, 278, 298 Lindberg, Augusta ("Mrs. L.") 104, 120 Lindberg, Per 298 Lindblad, Jane ("J.E.L.", "J L", "Jane L– – –d") 102, 105, 106, 114 Lindblom, J.H.F. (Hjalmar) 231, 278 Lindeberg, Lars 37 Lindeberg, Måns A. 85 Lindengreen, Lindengren see Lindgren, Richard Emanuel Linder, Nils 128 Lindgren, Hellen 118 Lindgren, Richard Emanuel 231, 232 Lindner (unidentified) 35 Lindroth, Erik 265, 266, 275 Lindroth, Knut 265, 266 Lindström, Willehad 272 Linnaeus, Carl (Carl von Linné) 234, 256, 258, 262, 267 Littmanson, Leopold ("Littmansson", "Lippmanson", "Lippmansson") 13, 20, 46, 48, 121, 214, 231, 278 Littmanson's mother-in-law 20

Ljunglund, Leonard (Leon) 37 Ljungström, Georg 277 Lomelli (Italian noble family) 22 v. Looström, Claës 10, 169 Lornier ("Henry's Secretary") 86 Loubet, Émile 84, 100 Louis II ("Ludwig of Bavaria") 76 Louis XIV 22 v., 38 Louis XV 33, 37 Louis XVI 23 v., 52, 87, 122 b Louis-Philippe 49 v. Lovisa (maid) 145, 153 Luccheni, Luigi 79 v. Lugné-Poe, Aurélien 66 Luise ("The Princess of Saxony") 165 Luise ("The Princess of Coburg") 211 Lundberg, Lennart 199, 236 Lundin, Jean 98 v. Lundqvist, Johan Albin 156 Lundström, A.F. ("Engineer") 90, 115 Lundström, Georg Filip ("Jörgen") 24 Luthardt ("the drug merchant"; unidentified) 7 Luther, Martin 194, 195, 196, 217 Låstbom ("Ms."; unidentified) 120 Löfström ("the publisher"; unidentified) 65

## **M**

Mac Carthey see McCarthy Maeterlinck, Maurice ("Mæterlinck") 132, 133, 136, 162, 199, 205

Maggie see Strindberg, Elise Margarethe Magnússon, Árni ("Arne Magnusson") 123 "the Maid from Banérgatan" (unidentified) 198 Mallarmé, Stéphane 77 Malmstedt, Magnus Brynolfsson 112 Malot, Hector 7, 37 Mamertus, Saint 25 Marcus, Carl David 247 Marholm, Laura (pen name of Laura Mohr) 80 Marie-Antoinette 39, 40, 87, 231 Marie-Louise 76 Marsan, Maurice de 1 Martin of Tours, Saint 76 Masque de Fer 22 v. Matter, Jacques 261, 297 Maupassant, Guy de 88 Maximilian, Emperor of Mexico 76 McCarthy, Justin Huntly ("Mac Carthey") Title page verso Medici (Italian noble family) 22 v. Melin, Hans Magnus 263 Méline, Jules 50 Mellin, Gustaf Henrik 124 Mendelssohn, Felix 38, 131, 301 Mendès, Catulle 88 Merimée, Prosper 75 Meyer, Joseph 154, 226 v., 227, 263, 277 Mia (maid) 109 Michelangelo Buonarroti ("Michel Angelo") 19

Michaelson, Knut ("Michelson", "Michælson", "M–n") 108, 267, 271, 272, 278 Michon, Jean Hippolyte 37 Millar, James ("the lawyer's") 201, 204, 211, 222 Mithridates VI 61 Mohammed 45 Mohrenheim, Artur Pavlovitj ("The Russian Ambassador") 52 Mohrenheim ("Mohrenheim's wife") 52 Molander, Harald 123, 124, 125, 159 Molard, Ida ("Mollard") 13, 55 Molard, Judith 55 Molitor, F.J. 62 Montaigne, Michel de 15 Montan, Wilhelm 118 Mortensen, Johan ("Mårtensson", "Mårtensen") 20, 27, 67, 68, 75, 82, 121 Mozart, Wolfgang Amadeus 23 "Mrs. H." (unidentified) 116 "Ms. Th." (unidentified) 221 Munch, Edvard 1, 4–7, 23, 32, 55 Muriel, bishop (unidentified) 272 Mårtensen; Mårtensson see Mortensen Möller ("the Accountant"; unidentified) 24 Möller, Augusta ("Luffa") 86 Möller, Carl 133, 141 a, 141 b, 148, 164, 202, 219, 224, 228, 277, 284 Möller, Dagmar 117, 133, 141 a, 141 b, 142, 148, 164, 202, 219, 222, 224, 258, 284

Möller, Kalle (unidentified) 49 v. Möller, Peter August ("Captain M.") 259, 260 Mörner, Birger ("B.M.") 5, 15, 235–237, 242, 244, 245

## **N**

Nancy (maid) 214 Nansen, Fridtjof 91, 215, 247 Napoleon I 2, 21–22 v., 39, 40, 49, 49 v., 50, 53, 54–56, 70, 71, 76, 77, 234 Napoleon II 76 Napoleon III 22 v., 49 Napoleon, Saint see Neapolysus, Saint Naser ad-Din ("Shah of Persia") 2 "Naval officer" (unidentified) 230 Neapolysus ("Saint Napoléon") 22 v. Neijber, Ludvig 245 Neuhof, Theodor Stephan von 22 v. Newton, Isaac 124 Nicholas II ("The Russian Czar") 74 Nietzsche, Friedrich 88 Nilsson, Ivar 278, 298 Nilsson, Lars 90 Nilsson, Lars Emanuel ("Secretary Nilsson") 103, 107, 118 Nobel, Alfred 33, 108 Nordenskiöld, Adolf Erik 13, 14, 26, 247, 274 Nordqvist, Johan Conrad 92 Nordström, Karl 91, 114, 115, 125, 198, 202, 203, 224, 232, 237 Norling, Johan Gustaf ("our maternal uncle") 206 v.

Norrie, Anna 45, 83 Norrie, William 75 "Norwegian minister" 65 Notini, Axel 277 Novalis 205 Noverraz 21 Nyblom, Carl Rupert 262 Nyblom, Helena 113 Nyman, Elof Hilding 208 Nyman, Josef 225 Nyström, Torvald 92, 262

## **O**

Odhner, Clas Theodor 108 Oehlenschläger, Adam 123 Ohlin, Axel ("Olin") 23, 29 Ohlsson, John ("John Olsson", "Johan Ohlsson") 13, 78 Oken, Lorenz 61 Olaus Petri ("Olavus Petri") 141 b, 202 Oldenburg ("at D.N.") 245 Old Man from Söderås, The 77 Old Woman on Djurgården, The (unidentified) 114, 143, 153, 154, 157, 159, 164, 165, 167, 194, 196, 204 Olin see Ohlin Olsson, Bror 92, 117 Olsson, Zacharias 26, 68 Orfila, Mathieu Joseph Bonaventure 44, 45 Origen of Alexandria 253 Orléans, Henri Eugène Philippe d' ("Aumale") 25 Orsini, Felice 22 v.

Orvar (unidentified) 60 Oscar II ("Oskar II", "the King") 12, 20, 42, 67, 91, 102, 123, 141 a, 199, 224, 230, 231, 241, 249, 265, 270, 275, 297 Ovid 1

## **P**

Paillard, Edmond 33 Pallin, Johan Rudolf 169 Palme, August ("[P]") 120, 122 b, 123, 125, 129, 132, 133, 134, 151, 169, 216, 243, 246, 248, 263 v., 279, 280 Palme, Hanna 18 Palme, Sven 18, 294 Palmstruch, J.W. 14 Pancras, Saint 25 Paoli, Pasquale 22 v. Papus ("Dr. Papus") (pen name of Gérard Encausse) 5, 40, 42, 43 Pasteur, Louis 13 Paul ("Saul") 16, 61, 94, 118 Paul, Adolf 18, 52, 55, 102, 106, 130, 225, 248 Pauli, Georg 91, 198, 232 Pauli, Hanna 91 Pauli, Knut 117 Paykull, Sigurd 107 Péladan, Joséphin ("Sar Peladan") 24, 27, 134–136, 209 Personne, John 78 Personne, Nils 103, 131, 138, 159, 164, 195, 196 Peter ("St. Peter") 108 Pettersson, Ruth (maid) 248, 251, 253, 267, 279, 281, 288

Pfarrer see Reif, Josef

Philp, Anna ("sister Anna") 4, 91, 93, 95, 96, 97, 103, 104, 106–110, 112, 114–116, 117, 119, 120, 123 v., 130, 135, 145, 172, 196, 200, 206 v., 207, 209–212, 214, 215, 217, 218, 221, 222, 224, 228, 235, 236, 245, 246, 247, 250, 251, 252, 253, 264, 272 Philp, Anna-Lisa 93, 107, 111, 112, 113, 196, 201, 217, 246 Philp, Berta Olivia 112 Philp, Henry 93, 106, 107, 116, 196, 250, 251, 265, 270 Philp, Hugo 4, 29, 60, 90, 91, 92, 95, 96, 100, 104, 106, 107, 109, 110, 112, 113–116, 117, 120, 130, 133, 200, 201, 209, 210, 212, 228, 233, 234, 234 v., 235, 236, 248, 251 Philp, Märta ("Märtha") 107, 112, 114, 172, 196, 201, 206 v., 210, 211, 214, 217, 221, 229, 246, 247, 251, 252, 253, 264 Picquart, Georges 98 Pieske ("Pieska") 7 Pikulell, Lars Gustaf Abraham 60, 82 Pius VII ("the Pope") 54 Plato 201 v., 221, 255 Plehve, Vyacheslav 209 Pliny the Elder 61 Plutarch ("Plutarque") 22 v. "Police Inspector" (unidentified) 1, 2 Portefin ("Notary") 4, 7 Prager, Mathilde 13, 20, 108 Printzsköld, Otto Hack Roland ("[Printz]") 245

Prout, William 154 Prozor, Maurice 25 Przybyszewska, Dagny see Juel Przybyszewska, Dagny Przybyszewski, Stanislaw ("Pbzy", "Pby", "Pbzsky") 5, 6, 14, 15, 18, 52, 53, 55, 68, 88, 107 Puvis de Chavanne, Pierre 91 Pythagoras 5

## **Q**

"Queen of Holland" 53 Quesnay de Beaurepaire, Jules 89 Quincke, Georg Hermann Title page

## **R**

Ramée, Pierre de la 74 Ramsay, William 201 Ranft, Albert 26, 27, 117, 137, 149, 159, 249, 256, 259, 272, 273, 286 b Raphael 228 Rappe, Axel 65 Reclus, Elisée 7 Reif, Josef ("the Pfarrer", "the Pfarrer in Klam") 15, 22 Reinach, Joseph ("Reynach") 86, 121 Reinhardt, Max 264 Reischl, Cornelius ("Grossvater", "Urgrossvater") 9, 10, 268 Reischl, Marie ("Grossmutter", "Urgrossmutter") 2, 14, 16, 74 Réja, Marcel (pen name of Paul Meunier) 46, 48, 52 Rembrandt, Harmenszoon van Rijn 7

Rémusat, Claire Élisabeth Jeanne de 18 Retzius, Anna see Hierta-Retzius, Anna Retzius, Gustaf 274 Retzius-Ekwall, Christoffer 92 Ribbing, Lännart 24 Ribbing, Seved 105 Rivail, Hippolyte Léon Denizard see Kardec, Allan Roget, Gaudérique 87 v. Rops, Félicien 74 Rosen, Clarence von 113, 266 Rosenberg, Carl Martin 239 Rosenberg, J.O. 7 Rosencrantz, Axel Albrekt Henrik 84 Rosengrén, Bengt Wilhelm Cornelius 273 Rosenius, Paul 21, 68 Rosenström, Mårten 270, 277 Rosenthal see Saint-Cère Rothschild (Jewish banking family) 55, 56 Rousseau, Jean-Jacques 22 v. Rousseau, Théodore 91 Rubenson, Semmy 65 Rudin, Waldemar 133, 251, 267 Rudolf, Archduke 76 Ruhe, Algot 232, 234, 240 Rundgren, Claes Herman 78 Rustan, Anna 244 Ruysbroeck, Jan van 205 Ryberg, Klas 225 Rydberg, Viktor 7, 16, 111, 116 v., 122 a, 283 Rydner, Lars 66, 85

**S** Sabelfelt, Gustaf 298 Saint-Martin, Louis Claude 36, 53 v. Saint-Cère, Anna ("Mme Saint-Cère") 3 Saint-Cère, Jacques 24 Saint Jean de Dieu see John of God, Saint Salin, Kasper ("the City Architect") 266, 267 Salis, Rodolphe 20 Salmson, Hugo 91 Samek, Melanie ("Tante M.", "Tante Melanie") 7, 9, 13, 15, 16, 18, 126 Samson, Otto 210 Sandberg, Ebba (maid) 222, 223, 224, 235, 236, 242, 244, 251, 252, 253, 263 Sanse (unidentified) 32 Sar Péladan see Péladan, Joséphin Schedin, Oskar 88 Scheele, Carl Wilhelm 12, 141 b Schering, Emil 17, 140, 205, 209, 210, 231, 248, 253, 257, 263 v., 265 Scheurer-Kestner, Auguste 101, 102 Schlaf, Johannes 88 Schlatter, Francis 1, 2, 122 b v. Schlenter, Paul 65, 242 Schlipitzka, Anton 16 Schmitz (unidentified) 47 Schneider, Johann Wilhelm 102 Schopenhauer, Arthur 113, 146 Schubert, Franz 279, 280 Schumann, Robert 2, 4, 32, 34 Schück, Henrik 110, 267 Sédir, Paul (pen name of Yvon Le Loup) 1 Segelcke, Severin ("Segelke") 1 Segerström, Sigurd 117 Seippel, Otto Wilhelm 206 v. Seippels (the family) 206 v., 243 Selander, Edvard 47 Servatius, Saint 25 Shah of Persia see Naser ad-Din Shakespeare, William 1, 86, 102 Shaw, George Bernard 279 Shelley, Percy Bysshe Title page Sickinger, Minna 101 Sigismund 26 Sigrid (nanny) 196, 199, 208 Sigurd (pseudonym) see Hedenstierna, Alfred Sjögren, Arthur ("Arthur S–n") 263 v. Sjögren, Emil 219 Sjöstedt, Erik 40, 41, 44, 47, 49, 232 Skram, Amalie ("Mrs. Schram") 88, 97, 113, 120 Skånberg, Carl 91 Slewinski, Wladyslaw ("Slevinsky", "Slewinsky") 4, 5 Smirnoff, Karin see Strindberg, Karin Smoluchowski, Marian ("Schmulochowsky", "Smoluchofska", "Schmulachoffsky") 3, 4, 5 Snoilsky, Carl (author) 108, 127 Snoilsky, Carl (lieutenant) 127 Sofi (maid) 253 Sohlman, Arvid 155

Sophia of Nassau ("the Queen") 230 Sophokles 22 v., 127, 128 Soury, Jules 33 Souvestre, Émile 163 Staaf, Hugo 107 Staaff, Karl 83 v., 170, 239 Staaff, Pehr 45, 47, 113, 163, 164, 169, 263 v. Starbäck, Carl Georg 87 Steijern, von see Vult von Steijern Stenbeck, Thor ("Stenbäck") 227 Sterky, Adolf Teodor ("S–y") 222 Stiernhielm, Georg ("Stjernhjelm") 160 Stiernstedt, Marika ("a young authoress", "Marika Cederström") 57, 217, 242, 245 Stille, Arthur 166 Stockenström, Albert von 1, 13, 39, 40, 49 v. Stoltz, Emil Mauritz 60 Strecker, Karl 24 Strindberg, Anne-Marie ("Lillan") 147 v., 154, 156, 158, 163, 165– 169, 172, 194–197, 199, 200, 203, 204, 206, 206 v., 208, 210, 216, 217, 218, 221, 222, 223, 224, 225, 232–234, 235, 236, 238, 239, 240, 241–246, 247–254, 257–259, 261, 262–263 v., 265, 267, 271–273, 275–279, 281–283, 285, 286 a, 287, 289, 290, 292, 294, 297–300, Back of inner cover

– Arnold Gotthard 143

– Axel ("brother Axel") 18, 92, 113–116, 118, 119, 122 a, 125, 133, 136, 137, 140, 141 a, 145, 150, 154, 157, 161, 162, 169, 172, 193, 194, 196, 199–201, 202, 203, 204, 206–207, 209–211, 213, 215, 217–219, 220, 221, 223, 224, 228, 229, 231–233, 237, 243, 248, 252, 256–259, 263, 263 v., 266, 267, 271–275, 278–281, 285, 286 b, 289, 291–295, 298


Parchment cover, 4, 42, 49, 60, 86, 106, 266, 284, Back of inner cover


Swedenborg, Emanuel Outer cover, 1, 8, 17, 18, 19, 20, 22, 23, 29, 33, 37, 40, 42, 47, 48, 79, 92, 110, 121, 127, 128, 132, 154, 167, 202, 205, 207, 216, 221, 232, 240, 259, 261, 270, 271, 274, 279, 282, 283, 297 Swedenborg ("The innkeeper here at Furusund") 229 Sylwan, Otto ("Sylvan") 68 Söderberg, Hjalmar ("H. S–g") 232, 242, 263 v. Söderberg, Märta 263 v. Söderlund, Ester see Bülow, Ester Söderwall, Einar ("Södervall") 80, 84

## **T**

Tammelin, Berta 92 Tammelin, Filip 92, 168 Tarquinius Superbus, Lucius 72 Taube, Betzy 18, 89 Taube, Evert 18, 89 Tavaststjerna, Gabriella 63 Tavaststjerna, Karl August ("T") 62, 63 Tegnér, Esaias 102 Tegnér, Esaias the Younger 6 Thalin, Carl 248 Thalin, Karl Gustaf 248 Thaulow, Alexandra 29 Thaulow, Frits 36 Thelander, Wilhelm ("Telander") 85 Themptander, Oscar Robert 24 Theodore I ("Théodore") see Neuhof, Theodor Stephan von Thiel ("Mrs.") 169, 289 Thiel, Ernest 23, 252, 289

Thiel, Josephine ("Tante Diehl", "Tante Tiehl") 11, 16, 113 Thiel, Signe 252 Thiel, W. ("Tiehl") II Thiels 289 Thisted, Valdemar 229 Thomas, apostle 165 Thomas Aquinas 115 Thomé, Otto Wilhelm 264 Thott, Ivar ("Tott") 85, 92, 109, 113 Thott, Ragnhild see Strindberg, Ragnhild Thulin, Knut 109, 115, 117 Thymo, Abbot 73 Thyselius, Erik 80, 122 b Thuya 223 Tiberius, Roman emperor 122 b Tibullus, Albius 33 Tiffereau, C. Théodore 25, 44, 60 Tingley, Katherine ("Mrs. Tingly") 100 Tissandier, Gaston 200 Tisserand, François-Félix 13 Tiye 223 Tjäder, Carl Richard 74 Torin, Karl 112 Tramcourt, Jeanne ("Christ. Ericssons") 170 Tullstorp, G.L. ("the Antiquarian bookseller's") 18, 62 Tuneld, E. 7 Tägtström, Ivan 194 Töppfer, Rodolphe ("Toepfer") 39 Törnqvist, Georg 107, 266

## U

Uddgren, Gustaf 5, 126 Uddman-Kjellberg, Agnes see Frumerie, Agnes de Uhl, Frida ("Frida Strindberg") 2, 3-7, 9, 10, 12, 13, 17, 20, 26-28, 30, 32, 39, 63, 66, 118, 119, 123 V., 130, 135, 165, 172, 206 V., 209, 215, 277, Back of inner cover Uhl, Friedrich ("father-in-law", "Vater Uhl", "Fritz Uhl") I, 5, II, 21, 119, 235 Uhl, Marie ("Grossmutter", "Motherin-law") 6, 30, 34, 49, 120 Ulrich (unidentified) 91 Umberto I 119 Unman ("Mrs.") 251

## V

Vallberg ("Ms."; unidentified) 131 Vauquelin, Nicolas Louis 265 Vegesack, Oscar von 2 Verlaine, Paul I Vetterlund, Fredrik 32, 88 Vial, Louis-Charles-Émile 2 Victor III (pope) 73 Victoria ("The Crown Princess") 246 Victoria, Queen 130 Villiers de L'Isle-Adam, Auguste 139 Vinberg's grandson (unidentified) 119 Vogt, Oskar 39 Voltaire, François Marie de 110, 125, 126 Vult von Steijern, Fredrik 90, 113, 117, 124, 245

## **W**

Wagner, Cosima 126 Wagner, Richard 26, 64, 126 Wahlberg, Alfred 91 Wahlström (unidentified) 168 Waldeck-Rousseau, Pierre 122 b v., 241 Wall, Rudolf 3 Wallander, Alf 275, 278 Walleen, Carl Alphonse 231 Wallengren, Axel ("Vallengren") 29, 35, 88 Wallenstein, Albrecht von 197 Wallin, Gotthard Samuel 37 Wallon, Jean Parchment cover Warburg (unidentified) 203 Warburg, Karl ("K. W–g") 110, 115, 132, 133 Warwick, Richard Neville 22 Wecksell, Josef Julius 270 Weininger, Leopold 196 Weininger, Otto 196 Wentola (unidentified) 273 Westdahl, Fredrika Amalia ("my landlady", "Mrs. Westdal") 102, 141 a, 238 Wester, Marcus 111 Westergren, Magnus ("Draftsman", "the Draughtsman") 3, 107 Westerström, Thure 84 Westrup, Gudrun 28 Westrup, Wilhelm ("Vestrup") 26, 28, 33, 79 Wetterbergh, Carl Anton ("Uncle Adam") 167 Wetterstrand, Agnes Cecilia 106

Wetterstrand, Otto Georg 106 Weyr, Caesar von 12 Weyr, Marie von ("Mizi") 12, 53, 170 Weyr, Rudolf von 12 Wiberg, Karin 229 Wiberg, Olga Matilda ("former Mrs. Heidenstam") 229 Wicander, August ("Wikander") 242 Wickman, Albert 295 Wicksell, Knut 88 Wieck, Clara 279 Wiertz, Antoine Joseph ("Wierz") Parchment cover, 70 Wieselgren, Harald 168, 169, 237, 243 Wikner, Pontus 133 Wikström, Arvid ("Vikström") 18, 107 Wikström, Zacharias 3 Wilhelm II ("Kaiser Wilhelm") 74 Wiman, Johan G. 84 Wingård, Gunnar ("W", "W.", "W–d") 271, 279–286 b, 290–301 Winterl, Jacob Joseph 226 Wirsén, Carl David af 103, 107, 108, 111, 114, 122 b, 202, 203, 248 Wistén, Leonard ("Vistén") 18, 20, 29, 43, 80, 85, 105, 263 Wolframs (unidentified) 209 Wrangel, Carl Gustaf ("C G W") 39, 103, 107, 198 Wrangel, Fredrik Ulrik ("F.U.W.") 12, 13, 229, 245 Wulff, Thorild 38, 60

## **Y**

"Yellow Miss" (unidentified) 198 Yuya 223

## **Z**

Zander, Gerda 251 Zander, Henrik 251 Zanini, Demetris 12 Zola, Émile 52, 53, 54, 66, 67, 76, 83, 86, 87 v., 88, 88 v., 97, 98, 99 v., 162

# **Å**

Åke Hans see Hansson, Åke

## **Ö**

Ödmann, Arvid 129 Öhrvall, Hjalmar 200 Ölander, Euphrosyne 212 Öman, Viktor Emanuel 210 [Östen] (unidentified) 69 Österlind, Allan 3 Östman, Ludvig 158

# **Index of works**

Index of works by August Strindberg, mentioned in *The Occult Diary*. Page numbers indicate page in the diary.

## **A**

Advent ("The Mausoleum") 81, 82, 96 After the Fire ("The World Weaver") 251 Antibarbarus ("my Sulfur analysis") 78, 226, 228, 238 Armageddon 265

## **B**

Black Banners ("Fugues and Preludes") 205, 217, 223, 225, 251, 256, 259, 262, 264, 265, 268, 271 Blue Book, A ("Herbarium humane",

"Breviary", "Diary", "A New Blue Book") 37, 43, 240–242, 248, 262, 269–271, 273, 276–279, 284, 285, 293, 294, 296, 298, 299 Bond, The 277

## **C**

Casper's Shrove Tuesday ("Casper") 138 Charles XII 104, 143, 149, 155, 237, 265

Christina 150, 159, 278, 279 Cloister, The 79 Collected Dramatic Works 142, 170, 218 Collected Novels and Stories ("Collected Writings") 87, 210 Collected Writings 210 Contemporary Gold-Making ("the Article on Gold for the Chemical Society", "my polemic with Landin about Gold synthesis") 14, 90 Creditors 129, 234 Crown Bride, The 119, 128, 132, 133, 157, 238, 271

## **D**

Dance of Death, The 123, 137, 201 Dream Play, A ("The Corridor Play", "Setting Up House", "The Growing Castle", "my Dream Play") 144, 152, 157, 253–259, 266

## **E**

```
Easter 122 b, 126, 132, 133, 135, 
  162, 218, 231, 279, 281, 283, 284, 
  286 a, 287
Engelbrekt ("Engelbrecht") 144, 145, 
  149, 153, 155, 237, 265
Erik XIV 93, 103, 105, 164, 
  196, 223
```
## **F**

Facing Death 123 v. Fair Haven and Foul Strand 157, 163 Father, The 21, 26, 117, 156 Flower Paintings and Animal Pieces 20 From Deserts to the Land of Inheritance 196

## **G**

Getting Married 65 v., 101, 207, 245 Ghost Sonata, The ("The Ghost Supper", "Gespenstersonate") 252, 253, 277 Gold-Synthese 13 Gothic Rooms 197, 199, 201, 202, 205, 262 Gustav Adolf ("G II Adolf", "Gustav II Adolf", "G II A", "G A") 26, 100, 102, 106, 108–111, 122 a, 122 b, 198, 272 Gustav Adolf (article) 198 Gustav III ("G III") 156, 159 Gustav Vasa 52, 89, 102, 105, 107, 123, 250

## **H**

He and She ("my correspondence with Siri Wrangel") 127 Hellas 196 Historical Miniatures ("Hist. Miniatures") 196, 223, 260

## **I**

In Rome 3, 69 Inferno ("Inferno I") 15, 24, 29, 30, 35, 37, 38, 44, 45, 49, 50, 52, 58, 65, 84, 97, 115, 120, 126, 203, 266

## **K**

Keys of Heaven, The 108

## **L**

La Synthèse de l'Or ("my Gold synthesis") 5 Lamb and the Wild Beast, The ("Messiah and Anti-Messiah") 196 Last Knight, The 302 Legends (Légendes, "Inferno III", "the IIIrd part of Inferno") 44, 45, 47, 51, 58, 59, 203, 207 Les Gîtes aurifères de la France 88 Let my people go! ("My article about the Union in Politiken") 223 Lucky Per's Journey 18, 214, 243, 252 A Madman's Defence ("Le Plaidoyer d'un fou", "Die Beichte eines Thoren") Title page verso, 110, 261

## **M**

Master Olof 26, 47, 65, 123 v., 166, 202, 214, 243, 271, 272, 275, 277, 278, 283 Midsummer ("my 'religious comedy'", "The Midsummer Journey", "In the Leaf Market") 111, 118, 119 Miss Julie 243, 249 Mysticism of World History, The 166, 169

## **N**

New Kingdom, The 98 v.

New Swedish Destinies 229, 245 Nightingale of Wittenberg, The ("The Luther drama", "the Luther play", "my Luther play", "Luther") 194–196, 271

## **P**

Pariah 278 Playing with Fire 277 Protest ("The protest against the Academy") 154

## **R**

Red Room, The 96, Back of inner cover Roofing Feast, The ("a story for Hvar 8e Dag") 236, 237

## **S**

Saga of the Folkungs, The ("The Story of the Folkungs") 67, 83, 86, 87, 89, 105, 130 Secret of the Guild, The 165 Sighing of the Stones, The ("Seufzen der Steinen") 162 Simoom 129, 138, 163, 228 Sir Bengt's Wife 26, 249, 278 Sleepwalking Nights on Wide-Awake Days ("Sleepwalker's Nights") 125

Son of a Servant I, The 95 Son of a Servant III, The 95 Stormy Weather ("Wetterleuchten") 251, 258, 264, 276 Swanwhite 139, 246, 279, 280, 284–286 b, 291 Swedish Academy, The ("My article about the Academy in Sv.D.") 195 Sylva Sylvarum 13, 39 Synthesis of Gold, The ("The Gold circular") 9

## **T**

There are Crimes and Crimes ("Intoxication", "Rauch") 28, 83, 85, 104, 105, 108, 109, 120, 162, 163, 236 To Damascus I ("Merlin", "Robert le Diable") 32, 52, 53, 55–57, 66, 74, 117, 123 v., 124, 135, 139, 162, 170, 213 To Damascus II 66, 67 To Damascus III 133, 134, 137–140, 147, 150, 209 Toten-Insel 255 Trinity Night, The 160 Types and Prototypes in Mineral Chemistry 64

**August Strindberg (1849–1912) kept a diary from February 1896 in Paris until the summer of 1908 in Stockholm. He referred to his diary from this period as his Occult Diary and used it to help him decipher the world as he experienced it. He read and reread his own notations, adding new interpretations, and deleting others. He also drew on the diary as material for creative expression, transforming isolated events and observations into groundbreaking works of literature.** 

 *e Occult Diary* **is published here in its entirety in English translation for the rst time, in a nal revision by Ann-Charlotte Gavel Adams and with an introduction by Per Stam.** *e Occult Diary* **is a key resource for international Strindberg scholars and theater professionals and more broadly for scholars focusing on drama, theater history, stage performance, and literary currents at the turn of the previous century. e diary initiates the reader into the writer's inner world during a crucial transitional period in his personal and literary life. It documents his readings and observations and gives important clues and information about an ongoing process of artistic reorientation. Strindberg was exploring new ways of looking at, interpreting, and writing about nature, science, art, the occult, and his fellow human beings.** 

**Editors: Per Stam, Ann-Charlotte Gavel Adams and Gunnel Engwall**

**Translation from the Swedish: Karin Petherick Revision: Ann-Charlotte Gavel Adams and Anders Hallengren**

**August Strindberg e Occult Diary** 

 **e Occult Diary** 

**August Strindberg**

**Paris 1896 – Stockholm 1908**

**Editors: Per Stam,** 

**Ann-Charlotte Gavel Adams** 

**and Gunnel Engwall**